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2 Penelope P
2h ·
Got mittelschmerz, sore throat, tired. Not watching tv tonight & trying to ignore M. Had brief chat at lunchtime with a friend who understands. Going to have a bath, straight to bed with maltesers.
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1 Penelope P
24h ·
Landlady called. I ignored her. M trying to help but really I've just got to sort my accommodation on my own in my own time. I've always coped alone and this time is no different.
Penelope P
24h ·

I don't want to hurt his feelings but I just feel like screaming “leave me alone”!!!

Jeff M
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Penelope P
24h ·

Turning everything off and going to sleep.

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1 Penelope P
1d ·
Not eaten much today. Called M but really only for someone to talk to. Not that I want to talk to anyone. He irritated me a little as he hasn't really got any worries so he can't empathise.
Penelope P
1d ·

Work fairly crap, had to correct my colleague's mistake. Going to bed soon even though it's only half 7. At least when I'm asleep the world doesn't exist. If only it lasted forever.

Penelope P
1d ·

And I know, I should look at what I've got and be grateful. Everything is relative, please don't be hard on me.

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me M
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2 Penelope P
2d ·
I'm still not very good. Put on a brave face for M but felt so alone when he left. And it's like that every time even though I should be used to it by now.
Tim S
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2 Penelope P
2d ·
I didn't expect M to want to live with me but it still hurts a little to know that he's probably not going to be interested ever. He is the master of giving off wrong signals it would seem. Oh well.
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Ian D
2d ·

Wish I could say something productive but hugs is about my limit. Hope you can still find happiness in the situation.

Penelope P
2d ·

Thanks Ian.

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2 Penelope P
2d ·
Sometimes it's hard to keep going isn't it my dear Panda pals? Just know you're not alone. Keep battling on.
Ann J
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Albertine M
2d ·

IT is - big hugs and lots of love xx

me M
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4 Penelope P
3d ·
Didn't want to see M but I could tell he was gently nudging me so I let him come round. I feel a bit better. He is so good for me like my special medicine. I shouldn't push him away, learning not to.
Lydia R
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3 Penelope P
3d ·
Nurse has been to take my samples. Just got Amazon man to arrive and then I can hide away again. Will do a bit of creative/bible stuff. Still too upset to house hunt, can't face it yet.
Lydia R
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2 Penelope P
5d ·
Well it's not going to be any better is it just because I woke up.
Tim S
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2 Penelope P
5d ·
Got home from a job I hate to find my notice to vacate. My life really does tend to have more sht in it than good. Cancelled walking with M tomorrow. I really don't want to speak to anyone.
Lydia R
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Albertine M
5d ·

I'm so sorry, Pen - having had two of those in less than a year, I know what it's like.

Melody L
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John T
5d ·

I'm sorry Pen. Easier said than done but self care if you can.

Ian D
5d ·

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Penelope P
5d ·

Thank you everypanda.

Jeff M
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7 Penelope P
6d ·
Early night but intend to listen to the radio for a couple of hours in bed. M texted, as I knew he would, so very happy again. Love him so much (don't tell him that).
Lydia R
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4 Penelope P
6d ·
Even after only 20 hours of no contact I miss him like mad.
Robert H
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5 Penelope P
7d ·
Colleague back, mixed feelings about it. Met my friend after work, good to see her. M in touch as usual, feel ever closer to him because he opened up a tiny bit. Mother sent more money, not happy.
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7 Penelope P
11 Mar 2019 ·
It is nice when someone opens up their heart even just a little bit so you get to see a glimpse of the inside. We should try it more often with those we can trust. I like to think I can be trusted.
Albertine M
11 Mar 2019 ·

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Ian D
12 Mar 2019 ·

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12 Mar 2019 ·

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6 Penelope P
11 Mar 2019 ·
Panic attacks back last night, not good waking up at 4am thinking you're about to die. Never mind, just got to accept them it seems. Work not too bad, everyone quite nice and normal today.
Lydia R
11 Mar 2019 ·

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Penelope P
11 Mar 2019 ·

Texts with M. He always manages to make me smile even when he drives me nuts. I must love him I think. Not that there's any point in that.

John T
11 Mar 2019 ·

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12 Mar 2019 ·

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12 Mar 2019 ·

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9 Penelope P
11 Mar 2019 ·
Lovely evening with M as usual. With the usual ending. He said time goes so fast when he's with me. Can't work out whether that's a compliment or not 😂
Lydia R
11 Mar 2019 ·

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7 Penelope P
10 Mar 2019 ·
M coming round later, his usual Sunday routine. Until then I want to do some creative stuff. Not sure I'll get much done. I'll be happy to see him but it's already kind of getting old married couple.
Penelope P
10 Mar 2019 ·

*though remember, we are NOT in a relationship 🤣

Lydia R
10 Mar 2019 ·

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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Alicia B
10 Mar 2019 ·

I wonder what you ended up doing :)

Penelope P
11 Mar 2019 ·

A nice girl never tells Alicia 😉

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8 Penelope P
10 Mar 2019 ·
Slow start. Going to put on music and do the ironing. Neighbour was sobbing again last night, it's not nice to hear others as distressed as I used to be. Glad I'm through that in the main.
Penelope P
10 Mar 2019 ·

I still cry occasionally but it's usually frustration and hormones. Anywa, need to get my ass into gear now, not waste the day away.

Lydia R
10 Mar 2019 ·

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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7 Penelope P
09 Mar 2019 ·
Texted M to get him off my back about some stupid tv show he likes. Managed to have a soak, face & hair treatments, nice tea, read a lot. Just some arty stuff to do then I'll be content with today.
Penelope P
09 Mar 2019 ·

I've pretty much been left alone, thank goodness. Managed to get most chores out of way so now I can unwind.

Lydia R
09 Mar 2019 ·

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Jen B
09 Mar 2019 ·

Sounds like a nice day ❤️

tEnT S
09 Mar 2019 ·

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6 Penelope P
09 Mar 2019 ·
Parcel arrived later than wanted. Slowly ticking off chores on my list but when do I get to the pampering? Batted off further messages from M. Just want to be left alone; I'm not like normal people.
Shelley H
09 Mar 2019 ·

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