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5 Occamy S
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I finally wanna make some music.. get something done... But somehow I always procrastinate... And now I'm drunk by accident because I thought that this alcohol was juice and chugged it down rly fast.
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5 Occamy S
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Don't know how to feel. So many things happening. Some are good, some are bad and all I can do is question the good things and focus too much on the bad.
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John T
2d ·

At least you aware of what's happening. If you can change how you think you can how you feel and behave. That's the key, but it's hard to grasp the moment and argue against the bad thoughts. Possible though!

Occamy S
1d ·

I'll do my best to see the positive side of things :)

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3 Occamy S
4d ·
For once I wish people would just take me and my problems seriously. I always feel like people forget because I put on my happy face.... But if I don't put it on I push them away.
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4 Occamy S
4d ·
First this was a great work day and now Alex has managed to make it horrible. I don't know why he loves tormenting me so much. I really don't wanna work with him anymore.
paul M
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6 Occamy S
4d ·
My friend made me some low cal food yesterday and it was the first real meal I had in over two weeks. Was scared at first but my scale was 0.4kg lower than yesterday this morning so it's not too bad.
John T
4d ·

Try talking to your GP or a mental health professional about this, they'll be help you well. I think you're doing great anyway discussing this here, but consider your GP!

John T
4d ·

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Occamy S
4d ·

Hi John. I'm still looking for a therapist. It's really hard to find one with open spots around here but I'll definitely talk to them about it as soon as I find one. :)

paul M
4d ·

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John T
4d ·

A dr could help too. Unless there's some translation issues, most therapists would be less qualified. I think you are brave and you are probably helping others who feel the same just by writing about it. Stay well.

Occamy S
4d ·

Thanks John. You're so kind :)

Occamy S
4d ·

My doctor doesn't really help.. she just tells me to get a therapist, but I haven't told her about the eating disorder yet. Just about the depression. I might tell her. Maybe she can help. :)

Lydia R
4d ·

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Lydia R
4d ·

When I talked to my doctor about the depression she handed me a number to call. I'm sure your doctor can also recommend some therapists.

Occamy S
4d ·

I'll ask her if she can next time I see her. Last time she just told me to look for one, but maybe if I ask her directly, she will.

John T
3d ·

I'd definitely recommend telling her about the eating disorder too! You'll get better with a bit of help. Just stay as well as you can day to day.

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4 Occamy S
6d ·
Called 3 therapists today and none of them have room for one more patient.
paul M
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John T
6d ·

Keep trying!

Lydia R
6d ·

Try this site: therapie. de There you can choose a filter option called 'free spots available'. Hopefully this will show some free therapists in your area!

Lydia R
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Occamy S
5d ·

@Lydia omg thank you so much!!! That's really helpful. I'll check it out

Lydia R
5d ·

Really hope this actually works the way it seems to! Would be great if you could find someone. Keep us posted!

Occamy S
4d ·

I checked out the site but sadly the therapists from the site in my area only take people who pay themselves or are privately insured. I live in a pretty small City so there isn't that much to choose from. Thanks anyways for the tip. :)

Occamy S
4d ·

I'll definitely keep the site in mind for when I move back to Hamburg one day :)

John T
4d ·

See if your GP can put you on a waiting list... Better than nothing.

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5 Occamy S
14 Sep 2018 ·
Happy because I'm making friends, but overall not feeling so great. Lack of food makes my head ache, but the guilt is worse. I hope the therapists here don't have long waiting lists.
Jeff M
14 Sep 2018 ·

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14 Sep 2018 ·

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14 Sep 2018 ·

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15 Sep 2018 ·

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4 Occamy S
13 Sep 2018 ·
Eating close to nothing every day leaves me feeling weak and sad, but the guilt of being full is worse. All I think about is food and if I eat more than an apple a day I hate myself.
Occamy S
13 Sep 2018 ·

I feel so alone with this but I don't want to talk to anyone about it because they'd just make me eat and I don't want that

John T
13 Sep 2018 ·

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John T
13 Sep 2018 ·

Can you access professional help for this? Or maybe talk to someone who knows how to make it better? Look after yourself. A lot of people have these feelings, you are not alone, but you are loved by your friends and family, so try to carry on.

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13 Sep 2018 · NEW

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13 Sep 2018 ·

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Jeff M
13 Sep 2018 ·

Yes, I agree with John. A professional can help you change that thought process and learn how to be healthy. It really is unhealthy to not eat, and we can see you know that. You have to change how you feel about food and yourself...

Jeff M
13 Sep 2018 ·

Friends and family care, but they often don't say the right thing. A professional can help you!

Occamy S
13 Sep 2018 ·

Thanks everyone. I still have to get a therapist but I always forget to call one. I already have a list of some in my area that I can call and I should probably do that soon but I somehow always forget. Maybe it's because a part of me doesn't (1/2)

Occamy S
13 Sep 2018 ·

...want help, but I know I really really need it. (2/2)

Lydia R
13 Sep 2018 ·

Can you ask someone to make that call for you? Or do they have email addresses? Maybe writing is easier for you than talking.

Lydia R
13 Sep 2018 ·

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Occamy S
13 Sep 2018 ·

I asked a friend to remind me every day but she hasn't done that. Email is a good idea. I'll try to reach them now so that I don't forget. :)

me M
13 Sep 2018 ·

You do not have to be extreme, the secret is in balance. An apple is healthy, you may eat more healthy things every day. Food is good and is fun. Hugs. Do it for yourself, search what make you feel good and healty, care for yourself

Lydia R
13 Sep 2018 ·

I can remind you, too. I can be quite relentless. 😉

John T
13 Sep 2018 ·

I recommend Lydia as someone to chat to off MoodPanda, she is very helpful, kind, and lovely. 👍🏻🕵🏻‍♂️👨🏻‍⚕️

Lydia R
13 Sep 2018 ·

lol thanks. That looks like I asked you to write this. 😂 (and they don't wear moustaches and one of them is blond)

John T
13 Sep 2018 ·

Lydia, people are allowed to be nice, ok! 😋

Lydia R
13 Sep 2018 ·

Sounds wrong to me.. 🤔

John T
13 Sep 2018 ·

If you could see yourself from someone else's point of view you would be so pleasantly surprised! 🙄 Here's an umbrella I found ☂️.

Occamy S
14 Sep 2018 ·

Thank you guys so much ^^ @Lydia that would be really great. Thank you so much. I called the place I wanna go to yesterday. Sadly they don't have email and they said their calling times on Monday are at 12.30-i think 14 I'm clock (German time)

Occamy S
14 Sep 2018 ·

I'd be really grateful if you'd remind me then :)

Lydia R
14 Sep 2018 ·

Well, almost time for the call. Get ready! Less than an hour. Drink something, go to the loo, do your voice practice and relax. 😉

Occamy S
14 Sep 2018 ·

Thanks for the reminder. ^^ sadly this therapist can't be called in Fridays but a colleague of mine brought me to this place where there's a lot of therapists in training and they told me how to sign up so I'm gonna do that tonight. ^^

Occamy S
14 Sep 2018 ·

I'm still gonna call the other therapist on Monday though

Lydia R
14 Sep 2018 ·

Good idea. If you're a student you could also check if your uni offers therapy. That's where I've found my new therapist. Trying to think of reminding you on Monday again!

Occamy S
15 Sep 2018 ·

Thank you Lydia. Sadly I don't go to Uni, but thanks anyways for the tip :)

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5 Occamy S
12 Sep 2018 ·
My abusive ex just followed me to my smoking break even though he doesn't smoke. I mainly take my smoking breaks to get away from him, but now apparently I can't even do that anymore.
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12 Sep 2018 ·

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12 Sep 2018 ·

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6 Occamy S
11 Sep 2018 ·
Not so lonely anymore. Finally there's more and more people coming up to me, asking to hang out. Putting myself out there was worth it :)
Jen B
11 Sep 2018 ·

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11 Sep 2018 ·

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Jeff M
11 Sep 2018 ·

Yay! That's great!

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11 Sep 2018 ·

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paul M
11 Sep 2018 ·

Excellent! :)

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11 Sep 2018 ·

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11 Sep 2018 ·

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5 Occamy S
10 Sep 2018 ·
Feeling much much better. Still barely eating but not feeling as ***al anymore and haven't self harmed in quite a while. Making good progress :)
Lydia R
10 Sep 2018 ·

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Lydia R
10 Sep 2018 ·

Glad to read!

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10 Sep 2018 ·

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10 Sep 2018 ·

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3 Occamy S
05 Sep 2018 ·
Lonely
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05 Sep 2018 ·

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05 Sep 2018 ·

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Noel L
05 Sep 2018 ·

Sorry to hear that Occamy. Do you have friends nearby?

Occamy S
07 Sep 2018 ·

Sadly only in another city. :( I moved a year ago and haven't made any new friends here yet

Noel L
08 Sep 2018 ·

Sorry to hear that Occamy. I was the same a few year back and I used an app called MeetUp which introduced me to people and interests similar to my own (and I learnt to rock climb). It may be helpful to you too?

Occamy S
10 Sep 2018 ·

Thanks for the Tipp! I'll check it out. Hopefully it works in Germany too :)

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4 Occamy S
05 Sep 2018 ·
I don't wanna be like them, but I don't wanna be different either.
John T
05 Sep 2018 ·

If we share 50% of our DNA with a banana, you are probably more like them than you think, and it's what's different that make you, you! So enjoy being whoever you are, you are loved whatever by those close to you, and nothing else matters.

John T
05 Sep 2018 ·

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05 Sep 2018 ·

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4 Occamy S
03 Sep 2018 ·
My depression feels different than I've come to know it. Started throwing up after meals because I can't handle the guilt of eating. I'm on a cycle of starving myself, then binging then purging.
Robert H
03 Sep 2018 ·

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Maite P
03 Sep 2018 ·

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Lydia R
04 Sep 2018 ·

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Brendan N
04 Sep 2018 ·

Please seek help as this will escalate. Please get treatment this now and consider it urgent.

Occamy S
05 Sep 2018 ·

I will. I already told my friend to remind me every day to look for a therapist since I always forget. Thanks everyone!

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4 Occamy S
02 Sep 2018 ·
It helped for a second but it wasn't enough.
Love 1
02 Sep 2018 ·

:(

Lydia R
02 Sep 2018 ·

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02 Sep 2018 ·

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03 Sep 2018 ·

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5 Occamy S
01 Sep 2018 ·
Feeling much better now that I am in Hamburg. Am so grateful to have such an amazing friend and such a caring mom.
Lydia R
01 Sep 2018 ·

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Lydia R
01 Sep 2018 ·

Fellow German Panda?

Maite P
01 Sep 2018 ·

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Occamy S
02 Sep 2018 ·

Yes! :)

Lydia R
02 Sep 2018 ·

Keine Ahnung, ob wir das schon mal festgestellt hatten (Hirn wie ein Sieb), aber welcome welcome! :D

John T
02 Sep 2018 ·

Lydia, Occamy hast ein alt Name alfang mit „A“.

Occamy S
03 Sep 2018 ·

Genau. Ich hieß vorher Antonia :D

John T
04 Sep 2018 ·

Ich habe eine Katze.

Occamy S
05 Sep 2018 ·

Ich auch :D

John T
05 Sep 2018 ·

Mein lieblingsfarbe ist rot.

Occamy S
07 Sep 2018 ·

Meine ist grün :D

Lydia R
07 Sep 2018 ·

Dein alter Name war mir noch im Gedächtnis, aber zur Zeit bin ich ein zerstreuter Professor. Katze habe ich auch (bzw. meine Eltern) und Rot mag ich verhältnismäßig auch am Meisten. Wobei ich regelmäßig neue Lieblingsfarben/-kombinationen habe.

John T
07 Sep 2018 ·

...ja...

Lydia R
08 Sep 2018 ·

lol

Occamy S
10 Sep 2018 ·

Das mit dem zerstreut sein kenn ich :D bei mir bleibt es immer grün. Deswegen hab ich momentan auch grüne Haare :D

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5 Occamy S
31 Aug 2018 ·
My friend convinced me to travel to Hamburg today to visit her because she was worried. I'm not a spontaneous person so I wasn't into the idea at first but I'm glad she convinced me.
Mary ADHD M
31 Aug 2018 ·

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Love 1
31 Aug 2018 ·

What a blessing you are to have as a friend.

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31 Aug 2018 ·

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31 Aug 2018 ·

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2 Occamy S
31 Aug 2018 ·
Not eating. The last real meal I ate was the day before yesterday and I threw that up. I'm tired and cold and I have no one here to talk to.
Maite P
31 Aug 2018 ·

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Maite P
31 Aug 2018 ·

When you're like this, I wouldn't recommend meals. At your regular meal times, eat a very small version of what you normally would (e.g. instead of a salad, go for a few pieces of carrot or cucumber).

Maite P
31 Aug 2018 ·

But then between meals, make sure to have some kind of snack/light food near you to eat from every once in a while. I'd recommend things like crackers, dry cereal, and maybe some sort of nut if you're not allergic.

Maite P
31 Aug 2018 ·

As for drinks, smoothies are your friends. If you feel down/withour energy, a cup of smoothie (or juice) may make you feel a little more energetic. Also, you may find that liquids are easier for you to handle - a little bit of soup may be possible.

Maite P
31 Aug 2018 ·

Though I do hope you'll be feeling better soon! Please go easy on your body but do try to keep it fed if you can.

Love 1
31 Aug 2018 ·

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Jeff M
31 Aug 2018 ·

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Jeff M
31 Aug 2018 ·

Also, there are good meal substitutes out there for when you can't get yourself to eat. Pedialyte is an excellent one. You need strength to feel better! And you need to eat something to get strength.

Occamy S
31 Aug 2018 ·

Thank you so much for the Tipps :) I'll keep them in mind

Mary ADHD M
31 Aug 2018 ·

Do you the flue?

Kelly G
31 Aug 2018 ·

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0 Occamy S
30 Aug 2018 ·
Haven't felt this horrible in a long time. I just want someone to love me, because I'm not capable of loving myself. I hate myself.
Aina R
30 Aug 2018 · NEW

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30 Aug 2018 ·

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30 Aug 2018 · NEW

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30 Aug 2018 · NEW

I know you may be feeling that way, it's hard to start loving yourself. Many people don't, It take a lot of work. You're not alone, I give all my loving thoughts to you. I hope you will get better with time

Jeff M
30 Aug 2018 ·

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Mary ADHD M
30 Aug 2018 ·

That is true I don't like myself eather. Because I have ADHD.

Mary ADHD M
30 Aug 2018 ·

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30 Aug 2018 ·

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Occamy S
31 Aug 2018 ·

Thanks everyone!

Mary ADHD M
31 Aug 2018 ·

You welcome!

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0 Occamy S
30 Aug 2018 ·
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Kelly G
30 Aug 2018 ·

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30 Aug 2018 ·

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