Oops. At one point I went to my room for something, and quickly checked my phone. I had a message from 'A' just saying 'Hey'. It was hard not to respond... I think if I hadn't been busy I might have replied.
I honestly didn't think he would message me, I mean, I'm leaving the country soon! Funny thing is I was clearing out my phone the day before and came across pics of him. Admittedly, I kept most of them.
I'm not sure if I should respond.
That's wonderful, Binky that is really nice. Big Pandy Cuddles
I would never have the guts to go to a dance class, but wish I did!
Thats awesome. I let my young students dance in class if they care to. Some simply cannot resist the invitation to dance when the music begins. Glad you're enjoying yourself.
Don't let those moods and thoughts run you. We can choose which moods and which thoughts to embrace and grow and discard the others. Or, sometimes, you just have to distract yourself when those nagging moods take over! Good luck, Binkybear!
Wow. That's so
Wow. That's such an eye opener to me. Thank you. We don't have to be. We can just focus on the positive thoughts
I just found some old paperwork from therapy years ago that was all about focusing on positive thoughts. I have a hard time doing that.
I came across something today about being a slave to our self-cherishing nature. Not quite the same wording, but this is the root, I think, of the afflictive emotions that bring me woe. Can't speak for others, but this resonated with me.
Oh and I decided to try the fried chicken down the road, it was tasty! I noticed that I do feel bogged down after eating fatty food, though.
Apart from that I'm just trying to arrange my final days. I have six days left in Australia now...
Oh wow! Where are you moving to? (if you don't mind my asking; you don't have to answer) Hope all goes smoothly and you stay in touch on MP. We love you here!
You've been there for how long & are just now trying food 'down the road.' Silly Binky.
Come to America- it's great again!
Thank you so much Asya :-) I'm moving back 2 England, where I am from originally. I am not sure if I'll stay long in my home town, go to LDN instead, or head off travelling again. Options! I'll definitely stay on MP, because I love this community.
Lol Manda! I left it to the last minute didn't I, hmm that sounds familiar. If I can leave food to the last minute, no wonder my coursework suffered a similar fate at uni a few years ago xD
Haha, Love. Trump's rhetoric really resonated with plenty of Americans, didn't it? I'm going back to Britain, where *cough* 'politicians' like Trump want to 'put the Great back in Great Britain!'. God help us.
Oh wow, not long anymore! Enjoy beautiful Australia when you still can and good luck for the UK!
God will help make Great Britain great again. God plays favorites, just say the magic words and obey those who know best or you will be smited.
Weird dreams. Maths lecturer walking on thin ledge to get to lecture 'stand'. Theatre is more like someone's front room, but with half the walls missing. Turns out he's using a CD player, headphones or something, could be he's repeating what he hears
Then I am chilling next to him on couch, using his jumper as a blanket. There's a couple other people with us. He forces a wet kiss which tastes intensely of metal onto me, the others are shocked. I push him off. Then he goes outside behind the house
and climbs a tree, which he shares with a huge green snake. He keeps throwing empty wine glasses at the Windows, I'm worried that they'll break, other man in house says the windows won't break, but I am not so sure.
He also was quite short, slightly tanned, definitely old, he had grey flecks of hair evenly spaced out in his brown hair, with small brown eyes and very mousy looking face.
Wow, so many metaphors in there
Do tell Rorschach, I'm interested in dream metaphors but they're usually lost on me!
I believe metaphors are unique to certain people. For example, the significance of using someones jumper as a blanket would mean something different to you than it would to me. I can point them all out but I don't know how your mind interprets them
1. Thin ledge on lecture stand 2. Half a wall missing in a room 3. CD player with headphones 4. Repeating what he hears (like a broken record perhaps). 5. Sitting next to a teacher/lecurer on a couch (is this forbidden in your mind normally?). 6.
wearing someones jumper as a blanket (perhaps being comforted by a person of authority) 7. Forced wet kiss 8. Taste of metal (blood tastes like metal) 8. People watching are shocked by this behaviour (did you like it until they seemingly
disapproved ?) 9. Going behind a house 10. Climbing a tree (like some sort of obstacle) 11. The tree is shared with a huge green snake (Sounds like a biblical reference to the interpretation of the serpent aka devil in the tree tempting Adam to eat
the apple to me). 12. Empty wine glasses been thrown at windows 13. Being 'told' that the windows 'won't break' (defies logic, maybe someone has made you believe something you knew logically wasn't true recently). 14. The description you gave of the
short old man. (Does he remind you of someone?)
Very interesting indeed. I find these dreams don't make much sense, but I do get the sweater thing, for sure..perhaps I'm craving being comforted, perhaps a lecturer represents someone who can show me the way? Perhaps it's a lesson that I don't feel
prepared to 'go my own way', I'm still counting on dubious sources of guidance. I realise thinking about the metaphors actually makes me feel uncomfortable, probably because there's truth inside...
As for 8 i was enjoying it, in a way, but, yes, I felt shocked and bewildered by bad taste... Then judged by myself and others. I like your interpretation of 13!
Hmm, he didn't remind me of anyone that I can think of, I think his hair might be described in Game of Thrones, maybe that's where the hair came from...But I don't recognise the man.
Yes, very interesting indeed (hope my words aren't causing any of this discomfort, sorry if they are). Try to think more broadly about the guy and the description you gave rather than the memory of the actual guy (if that makes sense). It may be
anything from a real life person or a character in a movie or book etc. I'm always wary that dreams are our subconscious mind expressing itself. Interpretation is sometimes a view to a part of our mind that's not so easily accessible.
Oh btw, I'm only sharing my thoughts to help in your interpretation. Please don't feel obliged to explain any of this to me :) (I'm only offering 'help' not prying into your inner space).
No worries R, I appreciate the insights. I think most people wouldn't give two hoots about someone else's dreams, lol. Definitely think I tend to focus too much on the detail, that's why I tend to miss the bigger picture in these dreams.
I've been thinking of keeping a dream journal for a long time...
You should keep a dream journal! That is a very detailed dream. I used to have dreams like that, but now I just knock myself out with meds to sleep. Tasha likes dream interpretations too.
I also made healthy food choices today, fruit, veggies, tasty salads, vegetarian curry (no bread). My only treat was a hot chocolate, which I really enjoyed. But the salads were amazing, too.
It's always nice to treat oneself to quality time. Take care. Big Hugs. Enjoy Binky
Sounds like a lovely day!
Veggie curry is one of my favs!
Good for you! I always make bad food choices when I'm out shopping and exploring and taking time off. I need routine to eat well. Glad you had a good day!
Thanks Stephen, Manda, Claire and Jeff!
ironic, but funny. laser tag is fun. Was at a l.t. party yesterday, too.
It really was fun, it was my first time. I really enjoyed losing my laser tag virginity xD it was mine and my colleague's leaving do, bowling actually made me a bit nervous, I think because I don't like having eyes on me. I used to play league
bowling when I was a kid, I was at least as nervous then, probably more. Were you playing LT with your kids, Love? Sending you intergalactic later tag vibes :-)
Laser* too* ;)
My sons were playing with their bros. So that's what that jolt was. I felt a vibration in my heart. Got tagged.
I didn't get much sleep last night but I'm feeling good, glad to be out and about in the city. There is sad news about bomb attack at the Arianna Grande concert in Manchester. My uncle called me this morning to tell me the sad news.
Boss pulled me up on something small (triggered) then made a joke about firing me (hurt, taking self too seriously). I know she didn't mean it, but I'm glad I didn't react much to it. I definitely see how reacting would've just made it so much worse.
Part of me (stupid conditioned monkey brain) still believes that I'm weak by not reacting to things, as if I should react and 'stand up for myself'. Maybe that would've worked if I was still in school, but this is the workplace.
I felt attacked, unjustly, because that was the only mistake I'd made that day, and it was so small. My teenage brain kicked in, I'm thinking, 'for God's sake, give me a break!!' Later others made the exact same mistake, boss asking, 'who did this?'.
Anyway, by that point I'd let go of it a bit and was able to make a joke of it. Anyway I hope I can improve my responses. I wish 'hindsight goggles' were a thing. Then I'd be able to cheat, and access the hindsight wisdom ahead of time ;-)
Alas, I suppose practise makes perfect.
Oh yea, I totally understand this feeling. You did very well there Binky. As they say, between the stimulus and our reaction is a gap. You exploited that gap beautifully. Nicely done mate. :)
Response vs. Reaction. Nicely done :)
Thanks so much Rorschach and Asya. Hugs x
Take good care Binky
Thanks Stephen :-) thank you all x