helped a fair bit in the evening, feeling like crying most of the day was good. Feeling weak and like a phoney. Even had some offhand ***al thoughts. Personal development and getting out of my comfort zone makes me realise just how big a mountain
Feeling like crying was not good, it was a signal, it scared me, though I know that's part of the pathway. Iam climbing. It's like I've opened a can of worms... can I go back under my rock? Feel like crying again now.
Now I know now what my auntie meant when she said she sometimes had a deathwish when driving her car... Self-loathing
Anyway my battery is nearly dead, I don't have a charger, I'm in a hotel. I got up at 5 am to drive here. Driving back tomorrow. It's a long way...
Big hugs, Binky!
Guessing theres a part thats scared and could use some encouragement and reassurance, the courage to face the uncertainties ahead. maybe theres a need to feel safe. Theres another part thats excited and hopeful.
Hope you feel better!!
Oh, Sweet Binky. I'm sorry your in such a turbulence of emotions. It'll calm down soon. Hang in there! 💖
Oh Binky. Sending much love and brightness on your way during this difficult time. ✨💖⭐️ You may struggle but you are strong and powerful and you will get through this. I believe in you.
Hugs, binky!! Seems like we were both in Birmingham yesterday, if I only knew! I hope you feel better today ❤️
wow that sounds like a very emotional day indeed. hope you're home safe
Up at midnight feeling the same.
What are you worried about? I hope you feel better soon. I'm worried about starting my new job.
A new job, that's stressful! But only temporarily, right? Once you get used to it you'll be OK. Higsies to you, dear Binky!!
hugsies I mean... is that a word?
I was up at 5AM with a desperate need of water. Not as bad as having to prepare yourself for a new job. You'll do great though, Binky. You're a SUPERSTAR, remember? 🌟
Bunks B, I need to give a 45 min presentation on Monday. My anxiety keeps me up days before any public speaking! But I'm sure you'll do great at you new job. I also hope you get some sleep :-)
Yey! When do they decide?
I KNEW it! I JUST commented on your last post. BINKY IS A SUPERSTAR!!!! 🌟
That's fantastic! They're lucky to have you!
I hope so.
Lily, Manda, Anna, Jessica, Lex, Jeff, Liz, Kat, Love and Tasha thank you! The boss will call me tomorrow, but it's almost a given. They were very keen and have faith in me. I hope and pray that I can thrive in this role.
Thank you so very much, Manda! I am a superstar. I'm doing my best to look, feel and act like one. I want to be authentically awesome... Xx
You are awesome!
Yay! Congratulations!!! You rock!
What kind of interview will it be?
Hi Éva, thank you for asking :) It's for 8 weeks unpaid work experience doing admin at an estate agency, with a view to becoming paid when covering for a staff member who is going on maternity leave.
You will do great! Good luck. 👊
Wooo, good luck Binky!
Good luck with the interview!
Good luck, Binky! Maybe it's already happened & they hired you on the spot because of what a superstar you are! 😊
Good luck! 🍀
Finding time to see mum, grow this mini-business thingy, personal development, job applications, interviews and preparations (35h p/w), clean my friend's dusty allergenic house, do minor DIY (she'll pay me for these). Also there's a need to maintain/grow
friendships (IRL and online), to keep active and live a balanced lifestyle, to get advice on how to deal with my grandma's estate to ensure compliance with law, to maintain my skincare routine which hasn't been so good since moving home.
Also to keep a journal of my therapy, to do my vision board, scrapbooking, sending those Australia pictures to Amy which she's been asking for for months... Having a clear out of my physical and digital clutter, 'cleansing' my Facebook page...
But most of all I want to cultivate a positive attitude to help me live my life and do such tasks with love (for others AND self) and with enthusiasm, lightheartedness and joy <3
Thank you, Lily
sounds like you have a plan & direction, short term + long term goals from the practical to the spiritual... but pressure maybe?
Wow Binky big stuff. Be positive and happy and I am sure everything else will fall into line
Sound plan, you are so strong and smart. Sending you strength to do it all, and hugs and beams of love :)
You sound so focused and motivated! Lots of things...but do them individually, as small goals, to stick with them! I am proud of your focus on self-improvement! :)
Wow, Binky! You're really going for it all! Great plans, but like Jeff said, one at a time. Checklist & mark them off. Hoping you accomplish all your goals! 💖
I don't know what to wear today, I can't think straight, uneasy feeling of fear and nerves, I'm procrastinating and skin-picking... Signs of anxiety.
Good luck, Binky! I'm sure you'll wow them!
That sounds great! I hope you'll get the job (if you want it). Fingers crossed. :)
Great news, binks:) good luck, you'll find the job that's right for you! Xx
I hope she's able to help you find a good job! Sometimes you need that junky food to perk you up...
I've heard a description of that movie, I would have never guessed it was a comedy, sounded horrible and gore :) I guess it was a bad description!
Yeah, don't think the description was accurate in that case. It does sound grim but the way it's done is actually really funny. Daniel Radcliffe is brilliant x