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5 Binky B
5d ·
Drove 2conference@ Birmingham. What a mixed Day of emotions. So much potential, yet so much self-doubt, worry, feeling like I don't belong. Feeling like the bullies are still here. Screaming in my car
Binky B
5d ·

helped a fair bit in the evening, feeling like crying most of the day was good. Feeling weak and like a phoney. Even had some offhand ***al thoughts. Personal development and getting out of my comfort zone makes me realise just how big a mountain

Binky B
5d ·

Feeling like crying was not good, it was a signal, it scared me, though I know that's part of the pathway. Iam climbing. It's like I've opened a can of worms... can I go back under my rock? Feel like crying again now.

Binky B
5d ·

Now I know now what my auntie meant when she said she sometimes had a deathwish when driving her car... Self-loathing

Binky B
5d ·

Anyway my battery is nearly dead, I don't have a charger, I'm in a hotel. I got up at 5 am to drive here. Driving back tomorrow. It's a long way...

Éva H
5d ·

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Éva H
5d ·

Big hugs, Binky!

DesBear D
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Margot L
5d ·

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Love 1
5d ·

Guessing theres a part thats scared and could use some encouragement and reassurance, the courage to face the uncertainties ahead. maybe theres a need to feel safe. Theres another part thats excited and hopeful.

Savanna S
5d ·

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Savanna S
5d ·

Hope you feel better!!

Manda P
4d ·

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Manda P
4d ·

Oh, Sweet Binky. I'm sorry your in such a turbulence of emotions. It'll calm down soon. Hang in there! 💖

Kaya L
4d ·

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Claire M
4d ·

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Claire M
4d ·

Oh Binky. Sending much love and brightness on your way during this difficult time. ✨💖⭐️ You may struggle but you are strong and powerful and you will get through this. I believe in you.

Kaya L
4d ·

Hugs, binky!! Seems like we were both in Birmingham yesterday, if I only knew! I hope you feel better today ❤️

Esther B
4d ·

wow that sounds like a very emotional day indeed. hope you're home safe

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5 Binky B
6d ·
Up at 5 am with a head full of doubt.
Keira C
6d ·

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Keira C
6d ·

Up at midnight feeling the same.

Binky B
6d ·

What are you worried about? I hope you feel better soon. I'm worried about starting my new job.

Claire M
6d ·

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Margot L
5d ·

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Tasha S
5d ·

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Alicia B
5d ·

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Alicia B
5d ·

A new job, that's stressful! But only temporarily, right? Once you get used to it you'll be OK. Higsies to you, dear Binky!!

Alicia B
5d ·

hugsies I mean... is that a word?

Manda P
5d ·

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Manda P
5d ·

I was up at 5AM with a desperate need of water. Not as bad as having to prepare yourself for a new job. You'll do great though, Binky. You're a SUPERSTAR, remember? 🌟

Éva H
5d ·

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DesBear D
5d ·

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Keira C
5d ·

Bunks B, I need to give a 45 min presentation on Monday. My anxiety keeps me up days before any public speaking! But I'm sure you'll do great at you new job. I also hope you get some sleep :-)

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7 Binky B
6d ·
95% sure I got the job?! Omg.
Lily K
6d ·

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Lily K
6d ·

Yey! When do they decide?

Manda P
6d ·

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Manda P
6d ·

I KNEW it! I JUST commented on your last post. BINKY IS A SUPERSTAR!!!! 🌟

Anna 2
6d ·

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Jessica M
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Lex M
6d ·

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Jeff M
6d ·

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Jeff M
6d ·

That's fantastic! They're lucky to have you!

Liz K
6d ·

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Liz K
6d ·

Congratulations!

Kat B
6d ·

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Love 1
6d ·

I hope so.

Tasha S
6d ·

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Tasha S
6d ·

Congrats!

Binky B
6d ·

Lily, Manda, Anna, Jessica, Lex, Jeff, Liz, Kat, Love and Tasha thank you! The boss will call me tomorrow, but it's almost a given. They were very keen and have faith in me. I hope and pray that I can thrive in this role.

Binky B
6d ·

Thank you so very much, Manda! I am a superstar. I'm doing my best to look, feel and act like one. I want to be authentically awesome... Xx

DesBear D
6d ·

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Kaya L
6d ·

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Love 1
6d ·

You are awesome!

Alicia B
5d ·

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Alicia B
5d ·

Yay! Congratulations!!! You rock!

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5 Binky B
7d ·
Has a nice lot of sleep, loads of REM. Feeling scared about interview.
Chris L
7d · NEW

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Éva H
7d ·

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Éva H
7d ·

What kind of interview will it be?

Lily K
7d ·

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Binky B
7d ·

Hi Éva, thank you for asking :) It's for 8 weeks unpaid work experience doing admin at an estate agency, with a view to becoming paid when covering for a staff member who is going on maternity leave.

Lily K
6d ·

You will do great! Good luck. 👊

Tasha S
6d ·

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* Chloë *
6d ·

Wooo, good luck Binky!

Jeff M
6d ·

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Jeff M
6d ·

Good luck with the interview!

Manda P
6d ·

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Manda P
6d ·

Good luck, Binky! Maybe it's already happened & they hired you on the spot because of what a superstar you are! 😊

DesBear D
6d ·

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Éva H
5d ·

Good luck! 🍀

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5 Binky B
14 Sep 2017 ·
Got so much to do, I feel like I'm just treading water with it. Wrapped up in my duvet this morning, autumn is really here. Need to have a bath and grab a coffee. My new globe arrived yesterday.
Binky B
14 Sep 2017 ·

Finding time to see mum, grow this mini-business thingy, personal development, job applications, interviews and preparations (35h p/w), clean my friend's dusty allergenic house, do minor DIY (she'll pay me for these). Also there's a need to maintain/grow

Lily K
14 Sep 2017 ·

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Binky B
14 Sep 2017 ·

friendships (IRL and online), to keep active and live a balanced lifestyle, to get advice on how to deal with my grandma's estate to ensure compliance with law, to maintain my skincare routine which hasn't been so good since moving home.

Binky B
14 Sep 2017 ·

Also to keep a journal of my therapy, to do my vision board, scrapbooking, sending those Australia pictures to Amy which she's been asking for for months... Having a clear out of my physical and digital clutter, 'cleansing' my Facebook page...

Binky B
14 Sep 2017 ·

But most of all I want to cultivate a positive attitude to help me live my life and do such tasks with love (for others AND self) and with enthusiasm, lightheartedness and joy <3

Binky B
14 Sep 2017 ·

Thank you, Lily

Love 1
7d ·

sounds like you have a plan & direction, short term + long term goals from the practical to the spiritual... but pressure maybe?

Noel L
7d ·

Wow Binky big stuff. Be positive and happy and I am sure everything else will fall into line

Margot L
7d ·

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Alicia B
7d ·

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Alicia B
7d ·

Sound plan, you are so strong and smart. Sending you strength to do it all, and hugs and beams of love :)

Jeff M
7d ·

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Jeff M
7d ·

You sound so focused and motivated! Lots of things...but do them individually, as small goals, to stick with them! I am proud of your focus on self-improvement! :)

Claire M
7d ·

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Manda P
7d ·

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Manda P
7d ·

Wow, Binky! You're really going for it all! Great plans, but like Jeff said, one at a time. Checklist & mark them off. Hoping you accomplish all your goals! 💖

DesBear D
7d ·

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Reba C
6d ·

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6 Binky B
13 Sep 2017 ·
Finally got the account opened for the 'estate' and paid in the cheque. Got mum's watch adjusted. Had lunch with D. Filled my car with boxes of my stuff from hers, drove it home, started unpacking.
Lily K
14 Sep 2017 ·

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Alicia B
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Jeff M
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7d ·

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DesBear D
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5 Binky B
12 Sep 2017 ·
Just got an interview for an admin job at an estate agency on Friday. I'm so #nervous already. Got counseling soon then going to my home town to meet E.
Lily K
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Binky B
12 Sep 2017 ·

I don't know what to wear today, I can't think straight, uneasy feeling of fear and nerves, I'm procrastinating and skin-picking... Signs of anxiety.

Jeff M
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Jeff M
12 Sep 2017 ·

Good luck, Binky! I'm sure you'll wow them!

Lydia R
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Lydia R
12 Sep 2017 ·

That sounds great! I hope you'll get the job (if you want it). Fingers crossed. :)

Claire M
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Kaya L
13 Sep 2017 ·

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Kaya L
13 Sep 2017 ·

Great news, binks:) good luck, you'll find the job that's right for you! Xx

DesBear D
13 Sep 2017 ·

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5 Binky B
12 Sep 2017 ·
Forgot to set alarm, overslept, but did need to catch up on sleep from last couple of days, I have a sleep deficit. Phone call woke me. Feeling groggy and asthmatic this morning. Time for coffee!
Tasha S
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Margot L
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Lex M
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Jeff M
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Jessica M
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Claire M
12 Sep 2017 ·

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DesBear D
13 Sep 2017 ·

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6 Binky B
11 Sep 2017 ·
Long day, job centre, meetings, seeing mum, felt tired. Ate junk today because I was tired. Lady in job centre was really nice indeed, I was surprised. She has faith in me. Mum quiet.
Tasha S
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Lex M
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Jeff M
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Jeff M
12 Sep 2017 ·

I hope she's able to help you find a good job! Sometimes you need that junky food to perk you up...

Jessica M
12 Sep 2017 ·

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Claire M
12 Sep 2017 ·

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DesBear D
13 Sep 2017 ·

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7 Binky B
10 Sep 2017 ·
Watched Swiss Army Man, it was so silly but sweet at the same time. Had 1-2-1 with mentor. Ate healthily, even had veggies for breakfast and soup for lunch. #vegetables #healthy #feelinggood #exercise
Jessica M
11 Sep 2017 ·

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Michelle F
11 Sep 2017 ·

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Lily K
11 Sep 2017 ·

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Claire M
11 Sep 2017 ·

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Jeff M
11 Sep 2017 ·

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Alicia B
11 Sep 2017 ·

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Alicia B
11 Sep 2017 ·

I've heard a description of that movie, I would have never guessed it was a comedy, sounded horrible and gore :) I guess it was a bad description!

Binky B
11 Sep 2017 ·

Yeah, don't think the description was accurate in that case. It does sound grim but the way it's done is actually really funny. Daniel Radcliffe is brilliant x

DesBear D
12 Sep 2017 ·

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