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5 Nicola M
21 Feb 2012 ·
Steve j's birthday today! Steve j's birthday today! Steve j's birthday today! Steve j's birthday today!
Steve J
21 Feb 2012 ·

Flamin eck dont make so much a fuss about it lol cheers fo :Dx

Yellow F
21 Feb 2012 ·

HAHAHA Happy Birthday Steve!!

Valerie B
21 Feb 2012 ·

Happy birthday :-)

Tankgirlbex B
21 Feb 2012 ·

happy birthday xx

Steve J
21 Feb 2012 ·

Thanks :) its very very kind of you all :D x

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5 Nicola M
21 Feb 2012 ·
Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you! happy birthday dear Steve J , happy birthday to you? Wishing Steve J a wonderful day!
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1 Nicola M
20 Feb 2012 ·
is back after 5weeks in mental unit! was dumped by the love of my life whilst I was in there! first week home and feel so unhappy! missed Tracy and pops! x
Jake G
20 Feb 2012 · CHIEFPANDA

Welcome back! :)

Steve J
20 Feb 2012 ·

Wow!!youve been released!that must be a good thing right :D

Yellow F
20 Feb 2012 ·

Awww Nicole, how has it been?

Jay J
20 Feb 2012 ·

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Rachel
21 Feb 2012 ·

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Rux H
21 Feb 2012 ·

Yes, welcome back! Sorry to hear about the rest.

Rux H
21 Feb 2012 ·

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Nicola M
21 Feb 2012 ·

Ahhhh thanks guys! Feeling pretty good today! U lot get me through!

Yellow F
21 Feb 2012 ·

that's great!!! glad we can be here to help Nicola :)

ann marie S
21 Feb 2012 ·

hi nic welcome back hun how r u

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0 Nicola M
16 Jan 2012 ·
so they have finally stuck me in a mental home! mental people walking into your room looking through your stuff wen ur sleeping! :(
Nicola M
16 Jan 2012 ·

I'm not like these noisy people with no grip on reality! It's so scary! Steve, mark, TW , anyone please help me! :'( x100000

Rux H
16 Jan 2012 ·

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Rux H
16 Jan 2012 ·

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Rux H
16 Jan 2012 ·

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Rux H
16 Jan 2012 ·

Yes, I meant all 3.

Rux H
16 Jan 2012 ·

Hang in there Nicola... Life may take a long time but it'll get better eventually.

Nicola M
16 Jan 2012 ·

Thank you rux! Wish ur hugs were real!xx

Mark D
16 Jan 2012 ·

Aww babe, hang on in there. I know its hard but we are gere for you. You have my number..... Anytime day or nite xxxxxxxxx

Rux H
16 Jan 2012 ·

You're more than welcome. Find one of the REALLY crazy people and call them Rux then ask for hugs! Hang in there.

christelle c
16 Jan 2012 ·

*hugs*

Yellow F
16 Jan 2012 ·

they are all there to help and make you feel better, hang in there. It sounds like you have the support you need at the moment, we're all here for you as well xx

ann marie S
16 Jan 2012 ·

so sorry to hear that babe hang in there xxxxxxxxxxxxx

ann marie S
16 Jan 2012 ·

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ann marie S
16 Jan 2012 ·

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ann marie S
16 Jan 2012 ·

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Em T D
16 Jan 2012 ·

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Steve J
16 Jan 2012 ·

Wtf!!thats gona be an interesting little holiday! You might get lucky and meet brad pitt from 12monkeys film :D that was his best ever acting lol princess your just gonna have to hang in there and

Steve J
16 Jan 2012 ·

Do what the docs tell you etc like im sure theyl be properly concerned with helping you as apose to all those movies we watch an the docs n staff are always drugging you up n just leaving you lying around sedated etc n

Steve J
16 Jan 2012 ·

Theres a night Porter guy that always abuses all the girl patients etc etc im totally convinced that none of that happens nowadays :) xxx

Steve J
16 Jan 2012 ·

Nic dont stop coming on here i/we want atleast one daily update so we can still chat n stuff xxx and dont worry you wont be forgotten about :) if they try to lock you away send us the details and wel totally setup a little Ateam squad and break you out :D

Steve J
16 Jan 2012 ·

I can do that tom cruise bit and come down the airvents suspended on a rope to the mission impossible music in headphones :) xxx meantime i suggest really relaxing and trying to heal :) xxx

TWPouchou
17 Jan 2012 ·

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TWPouchou
17 Jan 2012 ·

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TWPouchou
18 Jan 2012 ·

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TWPouchou
21 Jan 2012 ·

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Conor M
25 Jan 2012 ·

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Valerie B
30 Jan 2012 ·

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0 Nicola M
15 Jan 2012 ·
I'm I'll! this isn't me! Iv just broke and shown my crisis team my hidden noose and drugs! I no its a step to getting better but I feel awful and angry! :'(
Pil D
15 Jan 2012 ·

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Em T D
15 Jan 2012 ·

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ann marie S
15 Jan 2012 ·

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Nicole S
15 Jan 2012 ·

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Mark D
15 Jan 2012 ·

A step in the right Direction Nic, im so proud of you please dont be angry with yourself. It shows there is a part of you that is ready to accept help X-D xxx

Steve J
15 Jan 2012 ·

The ole hidden noose!!always a winner when you bring a new date home after the movies for coffee and they find it under the sofa :D

Steve J
15 Jan 2012 ·

Im kidding :) welldone nic im proud of you :D you gotta let it all out i reckon before you can start to repair properly :) x

Steve J
15 Jan 2012 ·

Your a beautiful amazing woman i know these things already an weve only been friends a couple weeks :) you know maybe we fall over in life so we can become great at picking ourselves back up so we can go forth and become brilliant in the future xxx

Steve J
15 Jan 2012 ·

N your gonna have a brilliant future princess :) trust tracy :p x

Mark D
15 Jan 2012 ·

Well said Trace ;-)

Steve J
15 Jan 2012 ·

Cheers pops :D lol

ann marie S
15 Jan 2012 ·

big hugs to u sweetie xxxxx

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1 Nicola M
15 Jan 2012 ·
confused and I'll never under stand!
Steve J
15 Jan 2012 ·

Hey nic :) x jee i totally say too much on here i think sometimes lol i just lost my inbox if you had spoke to me in one btw

Nat M
15 Jan 2012 ·

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Nicola M
15 Jan 2012 ·

Tut and there me thinking you hate me!. How are you! Done any good?x

TWPouchou
15 Jan 2012 ·

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ann marie S
15 Jan 2012 ·

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TWPouchou
17 Jan 2012 ·

Erf :S... can take this like a new adventure it could be great! Just relax and t

TWPouchou
17 Jan 2012 ·

and take time for yourself ;) ... Hold on honney!!! Hold on!!!

TWPouchou
17 Jan 2012 ·

I always be here for you.. like other Pandas!!!! XXXX

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1 Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·
is missin TW, Steve J and mark D!x
Mark D
14 Jan 2012 ·

Im here

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

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Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

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Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

Where's TW?

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

Not sure perhaps she is tired n just sleeping all day or something :)

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

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Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

Nicola nicola sweet sweet nicola :p have you ever used a taser ive always wanted to be tasered to see how much i can resist it :p haha (u have to read that imagining i was singing it to you in an opera stylee)lol it was very vic reeves lol

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

hi nic how u feeling today?

Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

Steve ur Tracy! Unless u have serious mental health issues then the is no way u be able to resist' lol! Steve my job was meant to be our secret! Lol! I'm now imaging u look like vic reeves!x what u been up to today?x

Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

Am I'm ok thank you. Very nervous about tonight as tonight Iv got to have a meting with my social work, nurse and counsellor . They said I have to tell my parents everything about how I feel! If I don't then they take me...

Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

To hospital! If I do tell them tho then they said the doctor might make me go Hosp on Monday anyway! No nice . I'm too ashamed of myself! X

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

Ah sorry i just cant resist the thought of you as a female superhero protecting the city haa :D i dont look like vic reeves lol im too young looking for my age :)

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

oh nic i am so sorry chin up though if u wanna chat am here xxxxxxx

Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

Oh Steve, your not Tracy! Well only at the weekends maybe! It was meant to say... Steve ur crazy!xxx

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

I have spend the afternoon very lazily and relaxingly alone shaving and then lying in the bath following the football scores to see how my yahoo fantasy football team is doing :p im still in the bath actually hahaaa :p and u?

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

*Hugs*

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

lol steve

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

Theyre thinking about putting you in the hospital to stay a while!? You do t have to be ashamed :) although i know its hard not to think like that x you gotta write down everything youve ever felt if you cant say it and then give it to the doc xxx

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

I knew u meant crazy lol lol x

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

steve u r good at giving advice and nic m we r all behind u u shouldnt feel ashamed

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

Thanks anne marie lol ive just over excited you abit with that bath chat aint :p

Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

Ahh thnk you Ann! Your so kind! What you done today Ann? Steve, that is one long bath by sounds of it! I can't have my phone in the bath coz I'm wayyy to clumsy! I haven't even checked my fantasy football! We do a fiends and family....

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

lol steve ur crazy but sound like a very nice bloke

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

yr welcome nic ive done buggar all cause i cant go out, what have u been doing did u get my email addy

Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

One! There's just over 40 of us so 1st prize can be up to 500 quid sometimes! I got the mounted wooden spoon again last year! Anyone up for a big hug?!

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

BIGHUGGGGGG :p

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

Yea im in a wee league with some friends and assosiates of my brother lol its my first ever one. Its great fun. Did you get a wooden spoon cause girls belong in the kitchen !!hehee :p yea i once decided to have a bath one morning when i

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

Came home drunk and i was chatting to someone and i fell asleep and drowned my phone lol im fine fo cause im amphibious :p

Mark D
14 Jan 2012 ·

Hugs to Nicola M, and any one else wot wants em, even u Tracy ;-)

Steve J
14 Jan 2012 ·

My thankyou kind sir il have to flash you my suspenders sometime :p

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

lol steve ur sooooooo funny

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

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Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

Thanks! Ha ha to mark! Bet Tracy loves it! Isn't it sweet we have a nick name so early on in our panda relationships!x now what can we call Mr D and the lovely Ann ? ;)

Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

I smashed my iPhone4s on the very first day of getting! But that makes a change coz they normally end up down the toilet, even wen I'm soba! Falls out my work trousers pocket! And i still haven't learnt my lesson!

Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·

Ann I hope you don't mind me asking, but do you have help, like psychologist/ counsilor?x

ann marie S
14 Jan 2012 ·

i have a mental health nurse nic but they tried to push me onto reablement i said no so they r getting bk to me mon

Mark D
14 Jan 2012 ·

Call me Daddy lol, makes me feel all nuturing like and Steve, if you want any womens clothes I know a couple of guys who could hook u up ;-)

TWPouchou
15 Jan 2012 ·

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Nicola M
15 Jan 2012 ·

Ann what is reablement? Iv not heard of that on! Sounds like ur nurse isn't doing enough for you!x

Nicola M
15 Jan 2012 ·

Ha ha! Can I call u pops insteads then coz that's Moore homely! X

ann marie S
15 Jan 2012 ·

reablement is where they put u in classes like cooking etc nic i agree they arnt doing enough for me

Mark D
15 Jan 2012 ·

I can luve with pops lol ;-)

Nicola M
15 Jan 2012 ·

Errr to classes wen u can't step outside the front door! Pffft! Nhs and that allll over! Idiots! You need someone to come to ur house at first surely! That's what my lil sis had wen she was young! Ann what ur email address again!

Nicola M
15 Jan 2012 ·

and how do they expect you to go

Nicola M
15 Jan 2012 ·

Err don't no how that sentence dropped out that post! Sorry! On and Ann, sorry to hear about mummy and hub! Not what you need right now is it!x

Nicola M
15 Jan 2012 ·

Ohhhhh and that's pops! X lol! Wonder where Tracy is!x

Nicola M
15 Jan 2012 ·

Thanks*

Mark D
15 Jan 2012 ·

And wot about u Nicimoo? Lol

ann marie S
15 Jan 2012 ·

my email addy is runfatboyrun@supanet.com, thanks nic i am sick of them fighting all the time u see i live with parents so i am unsure if i want sum 1 to come out to my house

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1 Nicola M
14 Jan 2012 ·
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14 Jan 2012 ·

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1 Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·
so my councillor called my crisis team as I am not opening up to them with my true feelings about living! Now they are going to visit me twice a day instead of once! son sob!
Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·

Feel a waste of peeps time and so ashamed!xxx

Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·

Sob sob**

Don D
13 Jan 2012 ·

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Don D
13 Jan 2012 ·

Itll be okay

Steve J
13 Jan 2012 ·

Hey gorgeous :) your a great gal just give it your best shot an youl be back on your feet eventually an we can laugh about this stuff in the future :D now lets watch graham norton :) x

ann marie S
13 Jan 2012 ·

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ann marie S
13 Jan 2012 ·

hi nic m did u get my email addy?

TWPouchou
13 Jan 2012 ·

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TWPouchou
13 Jan 2012 ·

I must agree... These people are there to help you, but they can't if you don't let them approach you, if you don't give them a chance to try... and the better way is to be honest with them...

ann marie S
13 Jan 2012 ·

i wanna help nic m sum 1 to chat too

TWPouchou
13 Jan 2012 ·

I know it's really not easy to do... It's stressful... but it's for the best...

TWPouchou
13 Jan 2012 ·

They are not there to judge you just to help ;) ... Like us ;) XXX

Elizabeth C
13 Jan 2012 ·

I have a councilor and I'm 13 and struggle with the option of living but trust me if you tell them then they WILL help you . So open up coz if u do things will get better :)

Britt C
13 Jan 2012 ·

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13 Jan 2012 ·

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13 Jan 2012 ·

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0 Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·
wish I could sleep and stop planning my death!!! :'(
KimyK
13 Jan 2012 ·

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Alesha H
13 Jan 2012 ·

Nicola I know life's hard cause the world just gets worse everyday and I can't sleep either but u know u have to keep floating even though u realy want to sink

John N
13 Jan 2012 ·

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kat m
13 Jan 2012 ·

stay strong because u are even if u don't realize it just yet..

Patrick B
13 Jan 2012 ·

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Shakti R
13 Jan 2012 ·

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Shakti R
13 Jan 2012 ·

Just hang on there ... Let the feeling pass

Rux H
13 Jan 2012 ·

Hang in there Nicola. Tomorrow a new day.

Rux H
13 Jan 2012 ·

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Chelsea A
13 Jan 2012 ·

Hang in there! I know life sucks and we think we know how it is, but I don't know but I'll support you every step of the way! ^_^ cause we all deserve a fighting chance!

Chelsea A
13 Jan 2012 ·

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Heather
13 Jan 2012 ·

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Elisha K
13 Jan 2012 ·

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Elisha K
13 Jan 2012 ·

Times are tough especially when it comes to this point. Look how many people care about you that don't even know you, think about how much the people who actually do know you must care

Elisha K
13 Jan 2012 ·

You are loved. It's hard to believe that it's enough but life is worth fighting for. Hope you feel better and got some sleep *hugs*

TWPouchou
13 Jan 2012 ·

*Hugs*

TWPouchou
13 Jan 2012 ·

When I want to die, when I'm ***al, there is one thing taht really help me... I just stop to consider death as an option of my problems...

TWPouchou
13 Jan 2012 ·

I erase this thought of my mind and I do something else, I try to be concentrate on something else, anything...

TWPouchou
13 Jan 2012 ·

It's not easy, but it help... Maybe that could help you too ;)

TWPouchou
13 Jan 2012 ·

Hold on Nicola!!! Don't forget we are here ;) XXX

Steve J
13 Jan 2012 ·

If you dare do anything silly again im gonna come down there n smack your ass girly :D x

Alesha H
13 Jan 2012 ·

Yah Nicola don't u dare give up

ann marie S
13 Jan 2012 ·

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13 Jan 2012 ·

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Mark D
13 Jan 2012 ·

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13 Jan 2012 ·

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13 Jan 2012 ·

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2 Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·
reading everyones post, realising I'm not alone, and no matter how low we get ourselves we are all still looking out for each other!!...
Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·

Where else in the world would would this happen other than mood panda!xxxx

Britt C
13 Jan 2012 ·

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KimyK
13 Jan 2012 ·

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KimyK
13 Jan 2012 ·

I've felt the same exact thing! Even though I don't know anyone on here, hugs and comments are uplifting, supportive, and I don't feel so alone.

Alesha H
13 Jan 2012 ·

I'm with u guys it's like the only thing that gets me through my tough times

ann marie S
13 Jan 2012 ·

i agree with kim k

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2 Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·
felt a bit better earlier. Now feeling huffff, and damn right low again! x
Mark D
12 Jan 2012 ·

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Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·

Hugs to you to marky d! How are you today? X

Steve J
12 Jan 2012 ·

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Gummy G
12 Jan 2012 ·

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Danielle R
12 Jan 2012 ·

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Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·

Thank you lovely caring panda peeps!!! Xxx

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3 Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·
so, I'm feeling positive after my counselling session today! gana have a nice sleep then off for deep tissue ............
Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·

assage for medical reason. not lookin forward to it!  pure agony:(  hope you pandas are we'll!! x

ann marie S
12 Jan 2012 ·

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Shakti R
12 Jan 2012 ·

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Steve J
12 Jan 2012 ·

Hope massage goes well x try to enjoyeeee :)

Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·

Hey pandas. Thank you! Just got back from massage! Hopefully will sort my head for a feel ours too! Always feel my mind is more peaceful after!.......

TWPouchou
12 Jan 2012 ·

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Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·

So Ann , Shakti, Stevie j and TW! How have your days been? How are your moods? Hope the are good!x

ann marie S
12 Jan 2012 ·

my days are so terrible i want hubby out i have a phobia of going out. how r u nicola m

Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·

Ahhh! That's such a shame! My little sister was agriphobic from when she was 13 to 23! She is 25 now!at first she couldn't even leave her bedroom! Are you getting help? What happens if you try to go out? U don't have to talk if u don't want to!x

Steve J
12 Jan 2012 ·

Hmm my days been oryt i guess thanx for asking xxx i feel like i have suffered a kind of agoraphobia over the years from being down like i couldnt go out the door without sheer panic building inside n i just wont go out

Steve J
12 Jan 2012 ·

If i stepped out back accross the door line it felt like just overcome with a complete irrational fear of everything cant explain it really.longest inside i spent 6-8months x

Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·

Oh no! I posted string but now it's gone! I'll start again!....

Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·

Steve, really missed ya mate!xx! Agoraphobia is awful. I didn't go out for about 6mnths wen I was young! Don't know if it was agoraphobia! I had this overwhelming fear, just she panic! I was petrified that if my parents went out them something would.....,

Nicola M
12 Jan 2012 ·

Happen to them and they would die. And if I was home alone then ii would die and no one would be there! I still get the feeling something bad is gana hopping now! If u don't mind we asking. What's going through ur head wen u think of going out! C

Steve J
13 Jan 2012 ·

I think the main thing was fear of seeing other people and them seeing me when all i wanted to do was lock myself away from view. Completely irrational like and i knew it but couldnt stop it.

Steve J
13 Jan 2012 ·

Btw missed you too nic :D now get to sleep cause its soo late :) xxx

Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·

Steve I tried the sleeping. Tried my relaxation cd but keep wakin after its finished! My crisis team have lost my sleeping pills!lol. So im up with my pandas tonight!x

Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·

When I wouldn't go out it also had a lot do with people seeing how ugly am! Am I was beaten up by girl in school a lot and convinced she would kill me. Or even worse laugh at me at call me names!every time ....

Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·

I heard someone laugh I thought it was at me! But now look at me! I got strong and tough and don't take no *** from anyone and I became a ****** ( Steve, not a prison warden)

Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·

in the most violent borough in the uk ! Until I had my recent break down after my illness! Whichs makes me so embarrassed to have such bad depression. For yeasts now Iv been the funny bubbly tough out going girl! Now I'm just a mess and the only thing

Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·

Thaat maks me smile are my pandas! Especially a few special ones! One of them being steve!

Nicola M
13 Jan 2012 ·

Would love to hear from Ann again too. But I bet she got bored of reading our/my usual dribble and run a mile! :)! X

Steve J
13 Jan 2012 ·

I knew it lol wpc nicola haha actually a big turn on a tall action hero police gal :D ive fancied being one myself over the years.haha Always fot i was mel gibson in lethal weapon or bruce willis in die hard lol :p

Steve J
13 Jan 2012 ·

Yea theres no reason to be embarressed nic x i think thats a big one with depression n mental style issues the shame n embarressment you feel about it like if it was a broken leg youd no be fussed but with this you feel so

Steve J
13 Jan 2012 ·

Vunerable and inadequate less Of a person you cant tell anyone etc. but thats all the negative issues of the brain its not true your still anazing you :) always x

Steve J
13 Jan 2012 ·

Like ive never been bullied just opposite been happy popular attractively thought of an confident n strong n highly athletic n very alpha male but i guess i had little insecurities bubbling away within me my whole life that i burried and they

ann marie S
13 Jan 2012 ·

NIC M thats where ur wrong i wanna keep in touch too heres my email addy runfatboyrun@supanet.com

Steve J
13 Jan 2012 ·

Eventually start to crack and need to come out and be dealt with before i/we all can move onwards n upwards fru our lifes journey n develop n grow :)

ann marie S
13 Jan 2012 ·

wil u email me nic m then we can chat

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2 Nicola M
11 Jan 2012 ·
sooo tired today! spent all day just sitting on bedroom floor looking up at the sky and tops of the trees! very peaceful! I hope that...
Nicola M
11 Jan 2012 ·

TWP, Steve J and Mark D have all had a feeling good day! Xxxxxx

Lucy B
11 Jan 2012 ·

*Hugs*

Nicola M
11 Jan 2012 ·

Hugs to u too lucy! I love a hug urs is extra big and amazing!c

Nicola M
11 Jan 2012 ·

(((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))

Lucy B
11 Jan 2012 ·

^___^ Thank you! :D

Erin K
11 Jan 2012 ·

Do you have no roof?

Steve J
11 Jan 2012 ·

Waaaaaassaaaapppp :p been worried about you not a peep from you lol was close to calling mi5 to move in on your location and see you was oryt :D

Nicola M
11 Jan 2012 ·

Ha ha, that would be nice for sunny days wouldn't it! I have very big windows that open right up!x

Nicola M
11 Jan 2012 ·

Lol, I'm so under cover Steve even MI5 wouldn't find me! How's ur day been? Peeps must get fed up with us writi si

Nicola M
11 Jan 2012 ·

Witing all over everything. X

Steve J
11 Jan 2012 ·

Lol yea i was worried about that too the other day lol sick of seeing our names pop up in inboxes lol like earlier i think i just hugged everyone on the whole page lol haaa

Steve J
11 Jan 2012 ·

You ok? Sounds like a peaceful day u was having :) was that a medication assisted sedation day :p

Steve J
11 Jan 2012 ·

Like im pic'n you sit there alll day solid just not moving tongue dripping out the side of your mouth like a well exercised dog ha staring up fascinated by the sparkling pink tree leaves n rainbows in the sky :D x

Steve J
11 Jan 2012 ·

I was less active n productive today than i wanted to be but a starts a start right :) clocked up 674calories in a jog which ive since added back with those choc brownies i made the other day :P

Steve J
11 Jan 2012 ·

I was up earlier fo, so im hoping tonight il get a good sleep n be up early-ish n get a gd day in.

Steve J
11 Jan 2012 ·

But less me more you :) hows you doing?x

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4 Nicola M
10 Jan 2012 ·
was dragged to a Zumba class as they they wouldn't take no for an answer and it was getting awkward. I really enjoyed the happy music, but, feel so embarrassed and a fool as was sooo rubbish at it!...
Nicola M
10 Jan 2012 ·

The girls next to me were having a good ol laugh at my expense! So self conscious! And the worst thing, sisters and friends who dragged me there reckon they are making me go again next week. Feel relieved it's over but already worrying about next week! :(

Alesha H
10 Jan 2012 ·

Ahhh if it means anything I have 0clue about dancing I look lik a chicken with its head cut off

Tammie P
10 Jan 2012 ·

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Naomi C
10 Jan 2012 ·

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Naomi C
10 Jan 2012 ·

I do Zumba at school, most of the time people are laughing at how ridiculous they think they look. I can't dance to save my life but try to enjoy Zumba, it's relatively fun for excercise c

Gummy G
10 Jan 2012 ·

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Steve J
10 Jan 2012 ·

Haaaaa sounds ace i bet youl love it after a few shots :D u have to definately go next time x mainly cause your almost certainly gonna feel btr afterwards once your home :)

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2 Nicola M
10 Jan 2012 ·
How ironic that they call Mood Panda a "Happiness diary "
ann marie S
10 Jan 2012 ·

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2 Nicola M
10 Jan 2012 ·
been awake for hours! had No sleep! spent wayyyyy to much on iTunes! scared about crisis team again today as they forgot me yesterday!x
Kelly D
10 Jan 2012 ·

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Steve J
10 Jan 2012 ·

How goes it lovely one? :) u had the docs n that come see you today? How u feeling :D

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1 Nicola M
10 Jan 2012 ·
needs a cuddles and what's to know how to get these bad thoughts out of my head! would also like to know.....,.,,.
Nicola M
10 Jan 2012 ·

If there are others out there who are ***al, but can play totally different character when surrounded by others! Including counsellor!

Steve J
10 Jan 2012 ·

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Steve J
10 Jan 2012 ·

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Steve J
10 Jan 2012 ·

Two cuddles :)

Steve J
10 Jan 2012 ·

Ive only ever visited my doctor and the initial psychiatrist referral when ive been in a gd state. At my lowest points you wont hear from me or see me il just become a hermit and ride it out till im btr again.

Nicola M
10 Jan 2012 ·

I was like that! But I'm learning talking helps! I didn't leave home for 6 months! Maybe you should talk to ur ...

Nicola M
10 Jan 2012 ·

Doc re halving meds! I got so so I'll wen I done that! Just worried u will get I'll too! You should be being monitored surely! What is physiatrist doing for you?

Steve J
10 Jan 2012 ·

Yea i have been the same in the past, like i think the longest i never went outside was like the same 6ish months or more.couldnt even stand out the back i opened the door and it was like my senses were overcome with everything.

Steve J
10 Jan 2012 ·

Now that ive seen my new doctor fo an she suggested the diary and ive been in btr form last year i think il perhaps try going to see a proper psychologist or something this year regularly

Steve J
10 Jan 2012 ·

To chat n tap there brain for knowledge :p im pretty sure thatl be really good and helpful to get another perspective on everything someone who deals with this stuff with others etc

Skylar S
10 Jan 2012 ·

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Tankgirlbex B
11 Jan 2012 ·

i don't tell anyone if i'm ***al at all, not even moodpanda

Steve J
11 Jan 2012 ·

Yea if i have a really bad down the chances are il stop coming on here til im btr again. But i like to think that i would still come on for a hug or something maybe get some strength or so from the feelings of total aloneness

Steve J
11 Jan 2012 ·

Becs if you are ever really bad you can post on like an old post of mine that doesnt have anyone on it and then u dont have to share it with the universe :) and il give u a hug n itl maybe help :D x

Steve J
11 Jan 2012 ·

Its not so bad chatting bout stuff afterwards when your fine but dont feel like you need to be a stranger and alone when your at your worst :)

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0 Nicola M
09 Jan 2012 ·
crisis team and doc was meant to visit me between 3 and 5 this afternoon! they were meant to be changing my meds! called again and again but no answer! what shall I do? wait or go walking?
Steve J
09 Jan 2012 ·

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Steve J
09 Jan 2012 ·

Stay calm x your in control and safe right! X

Nicola M
09 Jan 2012 ·

I am but a little angry! They won't answer the phone! It's meant to be a 24/7 number and an emergency number! Huff!x

Steve J
09 Jan 2012 ·

True thats alil irresponsible perhaps something has happened like the phone lines were cut off or something, youve got all us and you can try seeing someone tomorrow x lets all huff together in in unity on the count of three...HUFFF! :) x

Danielle D
09 Jan 2012 ·

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Cait S
09 Jan 2012 ·

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Nicola M
09 Jan 2012 ·

I called them at about 8 and they were going home! They said they forgot about me coz the doc got called away! Wow that just drenchs me in hope! X

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4 Nicola M
09 Jan 2012 ·
my best went to clear her desk out at work as she had to quick to my godson having cancer and coming to the end of his treatment! she left her new puppy with me!
Steve J
09 Jan 2012 ·

Me thinks someone is gonna want her own puppy by this evening :D

Steve J
09 Jan 2012 ·

Belmarsh london warden?lol :) how was the puppy day care centre this avo? :)

Nicola M
09 Jan 2012 ·

My mum said I can get a puppy after my sisters wedding in April! We have always had dogs anyway! But my last dog died months back!! The dog was naughty....

Nicola M
09 Jan 2012 ·

In seconds she had emptied a bin bag over the whole house!:)

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