Glad everything turned out ok & that you are resting. Take good care of yourself!
thx, Manda. Im a take good carr of yourself pro. :)
You certainly are. I'm learning how to become a pro too. It all started with Insight Timer! Seriously!
it helps. listened to guided meditation on pain management. Percocet helps, too.
I hope you get the good meds, Love! And recover quick!
thx, J. Me, too. Im trying to stay off them, but pain is intense. Punking out.
Use 'em while you need them!
Trying to use sparingly. They gave me Percocet. I hear its highly addictive. I dont like it. Causes drowsiness, but does help abate pain.
which is to say my recovery may foreshadow challenges to come. The body is corruptible, but meditation is one thing i can get better @ w/age & sharpen w/ razor of suffering
Now, if I can remain as equanimous, clear, level headed and positive w emotional pain as i am w physical pain, Ill be boss of my mind. #Aspiration #Resolution
Divorce was like having heart ripped out of chest without anaesthesia. I came through it w/some wounds, but theres my opportunity for transcendence and liberation. #perspective
Great perspective, Love. You always know how to figure it out.
Perfect time for it! As I said on other post, thinking of you!
Need to drill, install, stain 3 doors before surgery tomorrow as I will be out of commission.
Hope surgery goes well!
thx, Manda. Ready to go.
Thinking of you then. Let us know how it went. 💚
I always wake up from those kinds of dreams just as they're really getting good! Stupid reality! :)
I posted a 7 this morning, a 3 now. Balance. On another note, Im feeling a simmering hatred for X, as in I hope the b!tch gets a terminal disease & dies a painful death hatred. F#cked up, I know... Whatever. Wheres my voodoo doll?
Anyway, Im ranting. Im going to give my Anger a cute name like Snowball or Whiskers. Whiskers is a beast with sharp fangs and bloody claws. Im going to get it a sweater- winters coming and Whiskers is a cold blooded dragon.
Whiskers just swallowed up all my compassion and loving kindness. No! Bad, Whiskers! Bad! Spit them out, NOW!
Whiskers sh!ts on my roses of positive thoughts. No! Bad, Whiskers! No! Grabs Whiskers by neck and shoves snout in dung. No! No sh!tting on my roses of positivity.
Lots of hugs to you and whiskers
Now give Whiskers love and compassion. Embrace all that he is, accept him for his true nature. He has the right to be here as much as any emotion.
*giant hugs for x
**Giant hugs for the both of you*
Messed up the first one😅
Thanks for the hugs and giant hugs for Whiskers.
Thx, Kristin. Underneath the armor-like scales and frightful countenance is a tender, sweet dragon.
Love, you just need to sit down & have a serious one on one with Whiskers. He doesn't deserve his nose shoved in sh*t. No one does. Hope you find balance soon, my friend. 💚
If I can get good at this, wont be as dependent on conditions being a certain way to feel good. Cultivating equanimity & detachment
I'm with you, Love. I've come to appreciate my bipolarity, it has taught me so much, and it's not over yet :)
I'm trying hard too. I found a great teacher on Insight Timer that is really helping me to accept change, let go, & love myself. It makes me cry, but I take that as a good sign.
Hi, Alicia & Manda! Im hearing celebration, determination, hope & resolve in your reply. I know it waxes and wanes, but theres usually a silver lining.
As for me, Im choosing to suffer. I threw all this out the window. Ill return to it in the morning and try again when im feeling calmer.
Hope the calm finds you soon. Or I guess you find the calm? You always seem in charge of which way the wind blows.
i sometimes let myself suffer and throw everything out of the window, too. It's sort of therapeutic, when it happens once in a while. Hope you feel better soon, big hugs.