I'll have him draft a proposal, meet with her (in business attire), and come up with the architecture and wireframes based on her specs. Cool.
But the reason my mood dropped is that I found info online about X wife's bf. She claimed I was spreading slander about him. Now I have proof. Disgusted that she would lie to defend him and, in so doing, compromise the children's well-being
But, I've been vindicated and have proof that she lied! Maybe now people will question her alternate facts.
Ugh that sucks hard that she's not putting the kids first. I hope they are OK.
I wish she wasn't making this so hard for you.
Thanks for your support.
its healthier & more economical than eating out long-term. Food can be medicinal. Better to be proactive & eat balanced, plant based meals than to pay for decades of toxic ingestion when we are too old & frail to assume the cost of our indulgences.
It's engaging. I create order out of chaos. I'm usu managing 3 or 4 different processes at a time. Demands high executive functioning: organization, prioritizing, planning, etc
All of which is to say, cooking can be enjoyable.
BF is an amazing cook & I'm so thankful for it. He was supposed to teach me how this summer but it hasn't happened yet. I don't have much confidence in myself! What is your favorite thing to make?
Just decide what you want to eat and check online. You'll find many recipes.
Happy birthday, little Love!
Happy Happy Birthday, Love Jr! Hope you guys have a blast!
Thanks, Manda. He had a lot of fun and was sharing his experience with others. Thanks for the hugs, pandas.
drifted into rumination, I would cycle attention over and over back to the breath or body. Attention not on the content or emotional charge of thoughts, but to the process of observation and letting go.
Such that the experience of wandering, noticing, letting go, reorienting and returning to the object of focus was primary- the thoughts were not, the wandering was not, the effort was not central to the exercise.
Prepared a pasta meal
plus yoga to stretch muscles.
When walking, walk; when sitting, sit; when eating, eat. Cutting off mental elaboration- from coarse to subtle- again and again and again.
Once again, the perfect words. My new focus is living in the moment. No more past or future!
I strive for that too...it's so much more difficult than it sounds!
it's very difficult such that I do not set it as a goal, which would invite disappointment, self-criticism & self-doubt for failing to keep the mind on the present... even that statement is a future prediction.
Well there ya go. I need to relay that message to BF because he is trying to drill 'now' in my head. 😕
I'm hopeful for that for you guys as well!
Thanks. It's a step in the right direction for both of us.
While I sat, insects crawled on me. My mind was restless and the body fidgety. I thought of Bomjon. A Discovery film crew recorded days of uninterrupted footage showing the boy deep in meditation, motionless underneath the tree.
My body began to cramp. I adjusted my position. How was this young man able to maintain his meditation posture day after day and night after night for days, weeks, months, in cold, in rain, in heat? Remarkable & inspiring.
Maybe he is crazy in a way that makes such meditation possible 😀 kidding, but I do believe people get good at things that give them pleasure. Athletes probably enjoy a bit of pain. Artists like the feel of putting paint on canvas, the smell etc
Kidding aside, he could have been insane in that way. Many devotees think he is a reincarnation of a Buddha. Whatever the case, his feat was prodigious! When I was 15, I was obsessed with girls. He was intent on enlightenment. Remarkable.
...or maybe he is the clear-eyed one and we are the insane ones, disturbed by our own undisciplined and restless minds, alienated from Truth and from one another.
We're definitely insane, I mean, we're all on mood panda :)
MP is for tracking moods. Monitoring how we feel & analyzing the data to find patterns to enhance our sense of well-being seems rational & sane to my limited way of thinking.
Woke up relieved. Meditated and feel asleep. Prepared delicious meals: energy bites (coconut, peanut butter, honey, oats, chia seeds, vanilla extract, chocolate chips, almonds), Indian eggplant for dinner. Going to chill today: read, music, write..
Those energy bites sound good! Are they cooked?
No. Easy to make. Just throw ingredients in a bowl. I take handfuls and squish into balls. Then I refrigerate. Excellent snack.
Pimping my kayak - love it:) those designs are so beautiful
Thoughts arise & pass away. I don't engage... and when I find the mind has grasped at a thought, I let go & reorient my attention, opening to the moment-to-moment fluctuations. The content of mind becomes less important, less salient, less compelling
than the movement of thought after thought- monitoring the beginning, middle & end points.
The body reacts aversely to the discipline of abstinence I've imposed upon it. But, the good master must be strict. I transform sexual energy into spiritual strength.
To paraphrase a line from Luke Cage that I liked 'We are all made of two wolves, one of hate and anger and one of love and compassion. Which one is the strongest? The one you feed...'
Its a parable on neuroplasticity and rewiring the brain. We can cultivate desirable qualities or undesirable ones. Either way, we form new neural pathways and strengthen them with conditioning.