actually complimented me on my singing. And it's not like I play music or sing along with it often in the presence of p at all. Was/am quite hurt (I actually felt it in my chest) and extremely disappointed. I have to listen to p's music constantly.
It's these kinds of things that make warning bells go off.
Hello and Thank You my Panda Friends. I was very hurt but managed to express my disappointment calmly and not too emotionally. P realised how awful what He said was and apologised genuinely and so I forgave given the sincerity of the apology.
I can sense P is reflecting more and genuinely wanting to be better
Sounds like the voice of depression. What's it expressing? There's uncertainty, a search for meaning perhaps? Behind the words of defeat, am I hearing a need to be affirmed, a call for love maybe?
You're not a failure at everything, H F. You are amazing! It does sound like you are experiencing deep depression though. Are you on meds? Maybe need adjusted. If not, consider. ***al thoughts are not to be played around with. Thinking of you. xx
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, H F - you're definitely not a failure, no matter how things feel. Some wise thoughts from fellow Pandas. You're in my thoughts xx
Sorry you're so low, HF. Sending you strength...
HF sorry to hear you're not doing too good. In your last post you had written your first action would be to increase your ADs. Do you think that might be an option at this point in time. Hope you're feeling a little better soon. Thinking of you xxx
Hope you are ok, H F. Anxiously awaiting you checking in here. Thinking of you! 💚
Please take care. Big Hugs
Thank You my Lovely Friends, I appreciate You so much, I think if I ever get bad my first line of action would be to increase the AD
Thank You Stephen, I will try, Big Hugs
You're welcome. I think you are right, increasing AD could be a crucial first step. Hugs x
In between the lines, am I reading needs for rest & space, maybe understanding & consideration?
Forgiveness I sweet!
and then I don't want to do it. It's like I can never have a whole semi- happy day without someone wanting to take away what tiny bit of joy I may have
Thank You Natalie <3
Yes Love (always sounds funny, lol) that is correct. Fortunately my partner realised this and he apologised genuinely. Given His sincerity, I forgave.
Thank You Tasha, Binky, Jeff and Rorschach. Hugs X 4
Thank You Cindy <3
Thank You Reba, Hugs
Thank You Manda, Yes it was good and thank You for the compliment, Hugs <3
Thank You Richard, Hugs
Thank You Love, Yes it can be, I don't tend to forgive easily I must say
Thank You A V :), Hugs X 3!!!
I'm glad he realized & forgave. My BF never does that. You're doing perfectly well, H F. Don't let him tell you differently. <3
Big hugs HF<3
So sorry, H F. You should be concerned about health first & foremost. Let the other worries drift away. <3
Sometimes you just run out...you have to recharge. It's ok to coast on empty for a while. You'll fill up again! Hope you feel ok, HF!
Double hugs for you, H F. Hope you feel better soon. <3
Lots of love, H F xx
Love you HF hang in there!!!
doing much because of it. May have to visit Doc again to test thyroid function. Thinking of You all.
Relief it's over. The exhaustion is there. May you get relief from that too.
So glad it's over. What a weight off your shoulders. xx
That's good to hear, HF. Hope you feel better and get to relax and recoup!
I have Hashimoto's, too! It is a pain! Feel better <3
Have a good rest, dear H F xx
Rental inspection soon, yuck. No doubt the cleaning is going to make my breathing worse :(.
So sorry to hear, H F. A rental inspection would cause me anxiety. I'd come help you clean if I could. Apparently I don't clean my house enough so surely I have extra time to help with yours! Really hope your breathing returns to normal too. That...
...sounds scary. xx
Rental inspection sounds like crap. I'd wish you didn't have to do that every time. I'm sorry you're feeling very low. Is there any medical treatment for your trouble with breathing?
I empathise with you about the rental inspections - and with your breathing problems that's extra nasty. Thanks for your support when you're feeling so down, lovely H F. Hope you feel a bit better soon xx
Thank You my Panda Friends, Hugs X 9
Thank You Rorschach - no I hadn't read it, sorry. Thank You very much, I will make contact.
Thank You Manda, Yes I really don't feel up to all the tidying and cleaning. Ah thank You for the kind thoughts and lol, people sometimes don't realise how much work housework is unless they are doing it!
Manda - Yes the breathlessness is distressing and uncomfortable and makes me quite tired! Which is not helping because I have a lot of tidying to do. <3 and Hugs
Yes it is Esther, me too! It's a very intrusive process and they even take photos of each and every room which I really find quite a violation of privacy. I do understand they need to show the owner but it's OTT.
Thank You Esther, Yes as You know depression sucks :(. I had this problem with breathing last year but then it went. I did go to Dr but He wasn't sure. If it continues I will have to have xray and tests. I think it is allergies causing asthma
Esther - I don't smoke... I think Our new oil heater might be giving off a kind of paint smell which might be causing it. I seem to be very sensitive since the fire, probably was exposed to irritants at the site, the smell was unbelievable
Thank You Desbear <3
Ah Cindy thank You, We're in this together :D! Hope You are feeling okay too <3
My lot take photos too - only one room each visit, but like you it annoys me, tho I can hardly say that!
Yes Cindy when You rent, it doesn't matter what We prefer, lol. But it is so intrusive! They are supposed to take a photo without getting the tenant's belongings in the photo if possible but they don't care!
Hmm if only you could find a cause so you can deal with it.. my brother has it sometimes as well and then he needs to use an inhaler but guess everyone is different. Is there any news when it comes to the insurance? Baie liefde vriendin
Yes Dear Esther Wish I could pinpoint the cause... Weird and disconcerting. No news, all the onus is on Us to list everything and cost everything as the lists of items in the house provided were very general and vague. Baie liefde na Jou my vriendin!
Anonmous! Thank You for the love and hugs, right back at You :D <3<3<3
Oh H F, I'm so sorry. Have you been able to tell those concerned how you're feeling? I know that's not easy. Thinking of you xx
Sorry, HF. I hope it's just a dip, a rut. I've been feeling that way too, and I'm trying hard not to let it get me down too much. Hope you find a way to pull out of it! *Big hugs*
I'm so sorry, H F. Like Cindy, I hope you've been able to talk to someone. I'm glad you're back on here. Pandas are always here for you. Once the issue of what outside information is shared, I'll let you know & give you mine. I've got your back. <3
Wow what an amazing and quick response from my Panda Friends!!! How lucky am I. I really count on Your support. Thank You SO much. Love and Hugs to each of You
Hope u feel better
Big hugs HF <3 thinking of you x
Sorry to read this. Wish I could do things to make you feel better but I guess that's not an option. Thinking of you and hoping you will find a bit of sunshine or light to cheer you up a bit :))
Sounds like you feel let down by those in your life :-( hope you can find someone to understand xx
That's tough. When our basic needs for acceptance and acknowledgment are not met ,it hurts. I'm trying to reconcile the fact that some people I love cannot and look elsewhere, sometimes within, for fulfillment
Thinking of you HF. Your always in my thoughts. Im sorry your feeling this way. Try and go for a walk n distract yourself from these thoughts. Huge hugs xx
Yeah, H F. I know you wanted to know how people got in touch outside of MP. Rorschach is kind enough to post his email. If you email him, he'll give you my email address & you can feel free to write anytime.
Wowies the Panda community is so beautiful sharing their love outside of MoodPanda. HF if you want someone else to be in contact with I am here for you. We've been keeping up with each other's lives for 5 years!! :)
last post. It takes effort and thoughtfulness to hug and especially comment, so a BIG thank You as I really appreciate it. I apologise for not responding as I was in a bad space and exhausted.
So glad you're feeling ok and not in as bad a space, HF. Always happy to see a post or hug from you. Keep helping yourself! That's the hardest but most important thing to do! *Big hugs*
Hey H F, great to hear from you. Keep on being awesome :-)
Never apologize for not responding, H F. Us Pandas sometimes go through really hard times & responding to each post can be overwhelming. We will love you no matter what. Look after yourself. I'll be thinking of you! xx
Don't apologise. We help each other when needed. It's normal and okay to be off for a bit. Just happy to see you around. Any progress on the insurance thing? If you don't wanna talk about it I understand. Xx
for being able to cope. Very little belief that that there is any hope for a true happiness for me. Always ready for the worst and little faith (now) in divine help because of experiences. A deep sadness and fear that remains hidden but lies so clos
close underneath and permeates everything.
Dear H F, your words are poetic. This is real... I hear you.
I'm so sorry that you feel this way. I wish I had something wise to say to make you feel better but I don't know what. I'm thinking of you though. Stay strong xx
Thinking of you, dear H F. xx
Lots of love
H F, love you lots. I know how you feel I think maybe you relate to lots of people on here. I certainly feel like that. I wonder if it's being on the AD'S? Since my dose has been doubled im depressed when I started. Hold on in there. Big hugs xx
My dear H F, hope you are feeling better by now. I know how these feelings can carry you away. You are strong though. Hold on tight & wait for it to pass.
HF I go to that place and I once lived in that place. There will be light for you