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3 H F
3d ·
Hello Pandas, just wanted to say thank you to so many of you who reached out and found out if I was alright. From this, I have learnt that Pandas are not self-focused despite depression but make the
H F
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effort to find out how others are and that Pandas sincerely care. May you attract the same consideration you extended to me. Hugs <3

Lydia R
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Jeff M
3d ·

Aw, HF, glad you posted again! I miss you and your posts. MP is a weird place. People disappear without notice or warning, and we all worry. But I know it's a place that people use for themselves more than for others. And sometimes...

Jeff M
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...you have to go do other things. But I've been hoping you're doing ok! Sorry to see only a 3. We're here for you should you ever need us. And know even if we don't post or reach out, we care!!

Manda P
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Manda P
3d ·

Good to hear from you, H F even though I am sorry to see it's a 3. Hope things start to look up for you soon & that you'll stick around if you feel up to it. No pressure though. Pandas are always here! 💖

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4 H F
04 Aug 2017 ·
Been feeling physically unwell lately. Not sure but stomach is niggling and I feel yucky. Mentally, a and d has been constant and d has been overshadowing each day. I don't want to increase dose as I
H F
04 Aug 2017 ·

am concerned increase will make me even more tired and I am already an exhausted person. When I first went on ads, I could barely get out of bed and slept a lot. I still do so I feel I can't afford to be any more tired. Been under constant stress.

Jeff M
04 Aug 2017 ·

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Esther B
04 Aug 2017 ·

I'm sorry you're this low. It's a tough decision. Can't you switch to other ads that make you less tired?

Manda P
04 Aug 2017 ·

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Manda P
04 Aug 2017 ·

So sorry you're feeling this bad, H F. I have Esther's question. Have you tried switching to a different antidepressant? Sometimes you gotta go through a lot to find the right one for you. I'll be thinking of you. 💚

Binky B
04 Aug 2017 ·

H F, I am thinking of you my dear Panda friend x

Richard E
05 Aug 2017 ·

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05 Aug 2017 ·

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05 Aug 2017 ·

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Natalie C
05 Aug 2017 ·

Big Hugs HF <3

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05 Aug 2017 ·

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20 Aug 2017 ·

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29 Oct 2017 ·

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5 H F
08 Jul 2017 ·
So.... I'm playing a second song today (usually don't play music with company) and start singing along. P asks if I would mind stopping singing? Now I know my voice is not that bad as many people have
H F
08 Jul 2017 ·

actually complimented me on my singing. And it's not like I play music or sing along with it often in the presence of p at all. Was/am quite hurt (I actually felt it in my chest) and extremely disappointed. I have to listen to p's music constantly.

H F
08 Jul 2017 ·

It's these kinds of things that make warning bells go off.

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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Binky B
08 Jul 2017 ·

😞

Shelley H
09 Jul 2017 ·

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09 Jul 2017 ·

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H F
10 Jul 2017 ·

Hello and Thank You my Panda Friends. I was very hurt but managed to express my disappointment calmly and not too emotionally. P realised how awful what He said was and apologised genuinely and so I forgave given the sincerity of the apology.

H F
10 Jul 2017 ·

I can sense P is reflecting more and genuinely wanting to be better

A V
31 Jul 2017 ·

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Shelley H
31 Jul 2017 ·

😃

Binky B
03 Aug 2017 ·

I'm so glad to hear that P was genuinely apologetic 💕

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2 H F
29 May 2017 ·
Very depressed. Not sure about anything, not sure I want to be here. I am a failure at most of everything.
Koopie W
29 May 2017 ·

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Mike K
29 May 2017 ·

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Love 1
29 May 2017 ·

Sounds like the voice of depression. What's it expressing? There's uncertainty, a search for meaning perhaps? Behind the words of defeat, am I hearing a need to be affirmed, a call for love maybe?

Manda P
29 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
29 May 2017 ·

You're not a failure at everything, H F. You are amazing! It does sound like you are experiencing deep depression though. Are you on meds? Maybe need adjusted. If not, consider. ***al thoughts are not to be played around with. Thinking of you. xx

Rikke B
29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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Cindy M
29 May 2017 ·

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Cindy M
29 May 2017 ·

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, H F - you're definitely not a failure, no matter how things feel. Some wise thoughts from fellow Pandas. You're in my thoughts xx

Jeff M
29 May 2017 ·

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Jeff M
29 May 2017 ·

Sorry you're so low, HF. Sending you strength...

Richard E
29 May 2017 ·

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A V
30 May 2017 ·

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A V
30 May 2017 ·

HF sorry to hear you're not doing too good. In your last post you had written your first action would be to increase your ADs. Do you think that might be an option at this point in time. Hope you're feeling a little better soon. Thinking of you xxx

A V
28 Jun 2017 ·

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Manda P
29 Jun 2017 ·

Hope you are ok, H F. Anxiously awaiting you checking in here. Thinking of you! 💚

A V
03 Jul 2017 ·

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4 H F
14 May 2017 ·
I am scared as to the depths of sadness I may go to in the future... Will I be reachable?
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14 May 2017 · NEW

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14 May 2017 ·

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14 May 2017 ·

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14 May 2017 ·

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14 May 2017 ·

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14 May 2017 ·

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14 May 2017 ·

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14 May 2017 ·

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Binky B
15 May 2017 ·

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Stephen C
15 May 2017 ·

Please take care. Big Hugs

DesBear D
15 May 2017 ·

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15 May 2017 ·

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H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You my Lovely Friends, I appreciate You so much, I think if I ever get bad my first line of action would be to increase the AD

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You Stephen, I will try, Big Hugs

Binky B
16 May 2017 ·

You're welcome. I think you are right, increasing AD could be a crucial first step. Hugs x

Tonya R
17 May 2017 · NEW

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4 H F
06 May 2017 ·
Started out happy-ish and nice day then partner starts giving me trouble about what I haven't done. I know what I haven't been doing and need to do but stressing me about it just exhausts me further
Binky B
06 May 2017 ·

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Love 1
06 May 2017 ·

In between the lines, am I reading needs for rest & space, maybe understanding & consideration?

Love 1
07 May 2017 ·

Forgiveness I sweet!

H F
06 May 2017 ·

and then I don't want to do it. It's like I can never have a whole semi- happy day without someone wanting to take away what tiny bit of joy I may have

H F
06 May 2017 ·

Thank You Natalie <3

H F
06 May 2017 ·

Yes Love (always sounds funny, lol) that is correct. Fortunately my partner realised this and he apologised genuinely. Given His sincerity, I forgave.

H F
06 May 2017 ·

Thank You Tasha, Binky, Jeff and Rorschach. Hugs X 4

H F
06 May 2017 ·

Thank You Cindy <3

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You Reba, Hugs

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You Manda, Yes it was good and thank You for the compliment, Hugs <3

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You Richard, Hugs

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You Love, Yes it can be, I don't tend to forgive easily I must say

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You A V :), Hugs X 3!!!

Jeff M
06 May 2017 ·

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A V
07 May 2017 ·

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A V
11 May 2017 ·

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A V
15 May 2017 ·

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Richard E
06 May 2017 ·

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06 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
06 May 2017 ·

I'm glad he realized & forgave. My BF never does that. You're doing perfectly well, H F. Don't let him tell you differently. <3

Tasha S
06 May 2017 ·

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06 May 2017 ·

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06 May 2017 ·

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06 May 2017 ·

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Natalie C
06 May 2017 ·

Big hugs HF<3

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3 H F
03 May 2017 ·
Just plain fed up. My tolerance is low. I just don't seem to care about things I used to AT ALL. I don't do things with care and love like I used to because there is no reserve. Concerned about health
Ray E
03 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
03 May 2017 ·

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Anonmous A
03 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
03 May 2017 ·

So sorry, H F. You should be concerned about health first & foremost. Let the other worries drift away. <3

Anonmous A
03 May 2017 ·

<3

Jeff M
03 May 2017 ·

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Jeff M
03 May 2017 ·

Sometimes you just run out...you have to recharge. It's ok to coast on empty for a while. You'll fill up again! Hope you feel ok, HF!

Binky B
03 May 2017 ·

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03 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
03 May 2017 ·

Double hugs for you, H F. Hope you feel better soon. <3

Christina S
03 May 2017 ·

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03 May 2017 ·

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Cindy M
03 May 2017 ·

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Cindy M
03 May 2017 ·

Lots of love, H F xx

Richard E
03 May 2017 ·

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04 May 2017 ·

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DesBear D
04 May 2017 ·

<3 <3

Wendy A
04 May 2017 ·

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Wendy A
04 May 2017 ·

Love you HF hang in there!!!

A V
07 May 2017 ·

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5 H F
01 May 2017 ·
The inspection was over on Thursday - it went fine but I was exhausted. Have been too tired to post or to do much actually. I think my Hashimoto's has really been playing up this month. Haven't been
H F
01 May 2017 ·

doing much because of it. May have to visit Doc again to test thyroid function. Thinking of You all.

Max L
01 May 2017 ·

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Love 1
01 May 2017 ·

Relief it's over. The exhaustion is there. May you get relief from that too.

Patty D
01 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
01 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
01 May 2017 ·

So glad it's over. What a weight off your shoulders. xx

Jeff M
01 May 2017 ·

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Jeff M
01 May 2017 ·

That's good to hear, HF. Hope you feel better and get to relax and recoup!

DesBear D
01 May 2017 ·

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DesBear D
01 May 2017 ·

I have Hashimoto's, too! It is a pain! Feel better <3

Cindy M
01 May 2017 ·

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Cindy M
01 May 2017 ·

Have a good rest, dear H F xx

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01 May 2017 ·

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01 May 2017 ·

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02 May 2017 ·

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07 May 2017 ·

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4 H F
22 Apr 2017 ·
Feeling quite depressed today. Bad dreams, bad quality sleep and difficulty breathing which started up again two days ago after a long time of normal breathing.
H F
22 Apr 2017 ·

Rental inspection soon, yuck. No doubt the cleaning is going to make my breathing worse :(.

Reba C
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
22 Apr 2017 ·

So sorry to hear, H F. A rental inspection would cause me anxiety. I'd come help you clean if I could. Apparently I don't clean my house enough so surely I have extra time to help with yours! Really hope your breathing returns to normal too. That...

Manda P
22 Apr 2017 ·

...sounds scary. xx

Natalie C
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Esther B
22 Apr 2017 ·

Rental inspection sounds like crap. I'd wish you didn't have to do that every time. I'm sorry you're feeling very low. Is there any medical treatment for your trouble with breathing?

DesBear D
22 Apr 2017 ·

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DesBear D
22 Apr 2017 ·

<3

Richard E
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
23 Apr 2017 ·

I empathise with you about the rental inspections - and with your breathing problems that's extra nasty. Thanks for your support when you're feeling so down, lovely H F. Hope you feel a bit better soon xx

Binky B
23 Apr 2017 ·

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H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thank You my Panda Friends, Hugs X 9

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thank You Rorschach - no I hadn't read it, sorry. Thank You very much, I will make contact.

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thank You Manda, Yes I really don't feel up to all the tidying and cleaning. Ah thank You for the kind thoughts and lol, people sometimes don't realise how much work housework is unless they are doing it!

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Manda - Yes the breathlessness is distressing and uncomfortable and makes me quite tired! Which is not helping because I have a lot of tidying to do. <3 and Hugs

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Yes it is Esther, me too! It's a very intrusive process and they even take photos of each and every room which I really find quite a violation of privacy. I do understand they need to show the owner but it's OTT.

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thank You Esther, Yes as You know depression sucks :(. I had this problem with breathing last year but then it went. I did go to Dr but He wasn't sure. If it continues I will have to have xray and tests. I think it is allergies causing asthma

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Esther - I don't smoke... I think Our new oil heater might be giving off a kind of paint smell which might be causing it. I seem to be very sensitive since the fire, probably was exposed to irritants at the site, the smell was unbelievable

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thank You Desbear <3

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Ah Cindy thank You, We're in this together :D! Hope You are feeling okay too <3

Cindy M
23 Apr 2017 ·

My lot take photos too - only one room each visit, but like you it annoys me, tho I can hardly say that!

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Yes Cindy when You rent, it doesn't matter what We prefer, lol. But it is so intrusive! They are supposed to take a photo without getting the tenant's belongings in the photo if possible but they don't care!

Esther B
23 Apr 2017 ·

Hmm if only you could find a cause so you can deal with it.. my brother has it sometimes as well and then he needs to use an inhaler but guess everyone is different. Is there any news when it comes to the insurance? Baie liefde vriendin

Anonmous A
30 Apr 2017 ·

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Anonmous A
30 Apr 2017 ·

<3 <3

H F
01 May 2017 ·

Yes Dear Esther Wish I could pinpoint the cause... Weird and disconcerting. No news, all the onus is on Us to list everything and cost everything as the lists of items in the house provided were very general and vague. Baie liefde na Jou my vriendin!

H F
01 May 2017 ·

Anonmous! Thank You for the love and hugs, right back at You :D <3<3<3

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07 May 2017 ·

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4 H F
04 Apr 2017 ·
Not too good. Feeling very depressed lately. Overshadowed constantly. Don't feel understood. Don't feel acknowledged.
Doodles B
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
04 Apr 2017 ·

Oh H F, I'm so sorry. Have you been able to tell those concerned how you're feeling? I know that's not easy. Thinking of you xx

Manda P
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
04 Apr 2017 ·

Sorry, HF. I hope it's just a dip, a rut. I've been feeling that way too, and I'm trying hard not to let it get me down too much. Hope you find a way to pull out of it! *Big hugs*

Manda P
04 Apr 2017 ·

I'm so sorry, H F. Like Cindy, I hope you've been able to talk to someone. I'm glad you're back on here. Pandas are always here for you. Once the issue of what outside information is shared, I'll let you know & give you mine. I've got your back. <3

H F
04 Apr 2017 ·

Wow what an amazing and quick response from my Panda Friends!!! How lucky am I. I really count on Your support. Thank You SO much. Love and Hugs to each of You

paul M
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Natalie C
04 Apr 2017 ·

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sonny S
04 Apr 2017 ·

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sonny S
04 Apr 2017 ·

Hope u feel better

Natalie C
04 Apr 2017 ·

Big hugs HF <3 thinking of you x

Esther B
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Esther B
04 Apr 2017 ·

Sorry to read this. Wish I could do things to make you feel better but I guess that's not an option. Thinking of you and hoping you will find a bit of sunshine or light to cheer you up a bit :))

Christina S
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Richard E
04 Apr 2017 ·

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DesBear D
05 Apr 2017 ·

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DesBear D
05 Apr 2017 ·

<3

Binky B
05 Apr 2017 ·

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Binky B
05 Apr 2017 ·

Sounds like you feel let down by those in your life :-( hope you can find someone to understand xx

Love 1
07 Apr 2017 ·

That's tough. When our basic needs for acceptance and acknowledgment are not met ,it hurts. I'm trying to reconcile the fact that some people I love cannot and look elsewhere, sometimes within, for fulfillment

Anonmous A
14 Apr 2017 ·

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Anonmous A
14 Apr 2017 ·

Thinking of you HF. Your always in my thoughts. Im sorry your feeling this way. Try and go for a walk n distract yourself from these thoughts. Huge hugs xx

A V
15 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
16 Apr 2017 ·

Yeah, H F. I know you wanted to know how people got in touch outside of MP. Rorschach is kind enough to post his email. If you email him, he'll give you my email address & you can feel free to write anytime.

Anonmous A
17 Apr 2017 ·

Mwah xx

A V
07 May 2017 ·

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A V
07 May 2017 ·

Wowies the Panda community is so beautiful sharing their love outside of MoodPanda. HF if you want someone else to be in contact with I am here for you. We've been keeping up with each other's lives for 5 years!! :)

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