Hope your head is feeling better & that you may have gotten a nap in.
That sounds like a good day! Glad you were able to do something fun to elevate your mood!
That sounds like a great day! Glad your mood improved. xx
It's ok to be in bed and take it easy...hope you feel better soon!
Aw, happy pandaversary, Estherbear! We are so happy to have you here!
Getting that exercise in helps...as hard as it is, at least you can feel good knowing you did it!
Good luck getting off it. I got addicted to Klonopin & it was hard to quit. Lots of rebound anxiety. I hope yours goes much more smoothly. Just remember you'll make it out alive & will feel better not relying on it. 💖
That must be hard Amanda! I've been having a lot of rebound anxiety as well. Not that much fun. I only had 0.5 mg though ^^
That's awesome! I would love to do that, I love working with animals :)
That sounds really great! Something about animals make you feel comfortable. Glad you had that opportunity! ❤️
That's so good to see! Honestly, most days I feel like a 5 or decent ranking is the best I can hope for. It helps to remember that some days can be decent to good, too, when you're having a tough one!
Thanks all for the hugs. And decent is the best I can get for now so I'm quite content.
That 'i want to disappear' feeling is familiar...
Thinking of you, Esther. I hope the new AD helps you. Just hold on for a little longer to give it time to work. xx
Hope you can hang on, certainly when I started it took at least that long to have an effect. You're in my thoughts xx
Thanks all. I've added my mail address in the Google doc! :)
It is...the less you eat and do, the worse you feel. But it's so hard to do those things. I understand how hard it is to get out of that circle. I wish I had a way to help you, other than empathizing.
Really rooting for you, Esther. Any time you want someone to talk to, please reach out!
Email is in that pandadocs thing: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1yzampFBAKcZ1MC-96LRfqts4DgEWGxnA-MjcPEiorLk/edit?usp=drivesdk
All of us want to help, dear Esther - reach out if you want. Lots of love xx
Sending you lots of strength, Esther. I'm always thinking of you and rooting for you!
Please don't give up, hugs
Lots of love, Esther - please hang in there. You're in my thoughts xx
Thanks all xoxo
Thinking of you, Esther. Don't give up. I know you will make it through this. You've got Pandas by your side. xx
I'm sure you have people to message if you need to talk. I know you are in touch with Silke and you can find me at https://instagram.com/jwtownshend I'll listen to you when you need to talk 😊
I understand that feeling. You want comfort and protection and that childlike comfort of not having to worry about anything and being able to just live. I wish there was more of that in later life...
As John said, we're here if you need to chat. I put my contact info on his google docs thing too.
https://goo.gl/Ufb286 panda pals (don't use your main email address in case of spam etc.)
Mine is on there too Esther xx
Same, Esther. We are here for you! ❤️
People suffer but they it's also possible to feel better with some support and help. Keep going Esther. Keep going.
I will try! Not ready to give up yet.
Well done. Also, I'm sorry, it's very difficult when people are taken away like that.
Sorry to hear this, Esther - that's sad news and I get how it affects you too. So glad to hear you want to keep trying! Lots of love and strength xx
That's so sad...I'm sorry. From our perspective, we see you as so strong getting through this and keeping on. I think you're amazing, Esther, and I know you can do this. Is there someone you can talk to about how this news impacts you?
You don't have to do all the things, Esther. One step at a time. We're all here for you. 🙂
Wise John is right. I'm sorry things are so hard. Biggest hugs and much love xx
Yes, don't feel angry at yourself. Remember that illness is impactful, regardless of whether it's mental or physical. You wouldn't be angry if you had the flu and couldn't go. Take pride in the strength and strides you've made so far!
If you knew about some of things I've done, you wouldn't be calling me 'Wise John' Albertine! :D Daft John is more accurate!
Thanks all xoxo you're so supportive.
I dearly hope so!
I hope so too...I'm glad you have okay moments. I hope they're enough to help you get through the really tough moments too. I'm rooting for you so hard, esther!
Thanks lovely friends 🐼🐼
Everything crossed for you,dear Esther - keeping you in my thoughts xx
My dear friend, Esther, You are so strong to have made it this far & I know you can keep going. Better days are always ahead. Lots of love! 💗
Thanks Amanda. Appreciate your message ❤
All the best for you, dear Esther. ❤️ I hope you are reunited with your cat.
I am sure you need to give yourself time to adjust and allow yourself to do it in a way that is comfortable for you. Big hugs.
You can do it, Esther! Also Ajax... Wow!
I'm glad you're home and can get back to normalcy. That has to be a difficult transition. Be patient with yourself if you can...it will take a while, I'm sure. I really am rooting for you so hard, Esther! *Big hugs*
Esther! So nice to see you. Take it slow & be kind to yourself. It'll take a lot of adjusting but I know you can do it. We're hear for you & cheering you on! xx❤️xx
Thanks all. My cat is back home and I'm really happy with that! She has to adjust a bit as well. And John Ajax was amazing!!!
Thinking of you so much - hope things get easier xx
I'm very sure you're not. Try to enjoy the company as much as possible. ❤️
You're never a burden. Just try to relax & enjoy the company like Lydia said. *big hugs*
Lots of love, Esther xx
Ah Esther, sorry to hear you are going through this rough time. Take care of yourself and try to practice self love and self care. You are hurting inside, be as kind to yourself as you would to someone else going through the same thing xxx