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4 Esther B
28m ·
Talked with nurse about my mood. she says well, in the phase you're going through your mood is gonna be low. But you're on the waiting list for therapy so things will get better soon.
Esther B
26m ·

Nothing about how I'm going to manage these 3 months. I've been waiting for 6 months already. What a lousy consult. Want this feeling to be GONE.

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5 Esther B
42m ·
Tired. Mood is very low. Feels like this dark cloud is always around me whatever I do.
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Jeff M
28m ·

Sorry, Esther! I'll try to blow it away from you! Stupid cloud, go rain on someone else!

Esther B
26m ·

Ha thanks Jeff!!

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4 Esther B
3d ·
It feels like I can't enjoy things. Even my favourite hobby; seeing Ajax play was a disaster last night. All I wanted to do was sleep. My mood is going downhill fast.
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4 Esther B
6d ·
Sad. Feels like I can't connect with people and friends. Lonely. Wish this life is over soon
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Esther B
6d ·

Thanks all. And I appreciate your comments Jeff. It's all you can do 😘

Jeff M
6d ·

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Jeff M
6d ·

Hate to see you struggling. Wish I could do more than just send you my thoughts of getting through this...

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Cindy M
6d ·

Feel the same as Jeff - so sorry you're feeling this way, lovely Esther. Big hugs and thinking of you xx

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6d ·

We're here for you πŸ€—

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6d ·

you are safe and secure

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6d ·

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4 Esther B
06 Aug 2018 ·
Had a tough day. Maybe AD s are kicking in?
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06 Aug 2018 ·

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07 Aug 2018 ·

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Jeff M
07 Aug 2018 ·

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Jeff M
07 Aug 2018 ·

Hope today is better!

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07 Aug 2018 ·

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5 Esther B
05 Aug 2018 ·
Had 2 bars of chocolate and 6 ice creams this weekend. I'm such a pig.
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05 Aug 2018 ·

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05 Aug 2018 ·

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05 Aug 2018 ·

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06 Aug 2018 ·

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06 Aug 2018 ·

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Manda P
06 Aug 2018 ·

I don't even want to list what I've had. πŸ˜”

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06 Aug 2018 ·

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5 Esther B
04 Aug 2018 ·
On Clomipramine (Anafranil) for 6 weeks now. Think I'm feeling more balanced but I'm constantly hungry. Hate that.
John T
04 Aug 2018 ·

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John T
04 Aug 2018 ·

I was on imipramine once, I had extra hunger on that but nowhere near the hunger (and metabolic syndrome) of an antipsychotic. Try to exercise more, eat more fruit and veg, and still give yourself treat foods. It's doable! And you can do it!

Cindy M
04 Aug 2018 ·

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Love 1
05 Aug 2018 ·

Sounds like an undesirable side effect.

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05 Aug 2018 ·

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Manda P
05 Aug 2018 ·

Ugh. Hate that side effect. Hope it's just a getting used to the med thing. Glad you are feeling better though, Esther! xx

Esther B
05 Aug 2018 ·

Thanks John. I exercise 3 times a week so I didn't gain any weight yet but this constantly craving is making me feel grumpy. I try to eat fruit or nuts when I'm hungry but sometimes I just buy chocolat3 and stuff.

Esther B
05 Aug 2018 ·

It is Love. And I wish that too Manda but it's not temporarily. Your metabolism changes too. I just need to pay attention to my food more.

Esther B
05 Aug 2018 ·

I have had anti psychotic too but those meds just made me feel sleepy and I didn't eat at all. This Clomipramine is the first out of 8 that makes me hungry. Ah well. I will survive 😊

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06 Aug 2018 ·

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Manda P
06 Aug 2018 ·

I've had antipsychotics make me sleepy or not sleepy & hungry or not hungry. It all just depends on which one it is & how it effects each person individually. So crazy!

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5 Esther B
03 Aug 2018 ·
No plans for this weekend cause my friends are all occupied. Bit worried I'm going to feel lonely and down.
Jeff M
03 Aug 2018 ·

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Jeff M
03 Aug 2018 ·

I know how that is. Don't be afraid to do something yourself. Get out so you're not focused on things. I hope you have a nice weekend!

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03 Aug 2018 ·

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5 Esther B
30 Jul 2018 ·
Work. Nap. Gym. I don't know if it's the depression taking over but I'm just really, really tired. Need to get back in workrhythm too.
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30 Jul 2018 ·

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30 Jul 2018 ·

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30 Jul 2018 ·

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30 Jul 2018 ·

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30 Jul 2018 ·

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nixiblu .
30 Jul 2018 ·

Gym helps. Keep up the good work

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31 Jul 2018 ·

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31 Jul 2018 ·

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31 Jul 2018 ·

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6 Esther B
29 Jul 2018 ·
I think I'm alright. Had 2 gymsessions this weekend. Had coffee with friend and walked with dog. Quite content.
John T
29 Jul 2018 ·

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John T
29 Jul 2018 ·

This will please many pandas, Esther! A toast to contentment! 🍻πŸ₯‚

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29 Jul 2018 ·

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29 Jul 2018 ·

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Lydia R
29 Jul 2018 ·

Good to see you, Esther! And even better to see green. πŸ’š

Reba H
29 Jul 2018 ·

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Jeff M
29 Jul 2018 ·

Happy to see green. Contentment is something we should all aspire to.

Jeff M
29 Jul 2018 ·

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29 Jul 2018 ·

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29 Jul 2018 ·

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Love 1
30 Jul 2018 ·

Gym, friendship, a walk with your dog... being mindful of those things that bring contentment can encourage us to be more intentional.

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30 Jul 2018 ·

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30 Jul 2018 ·

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Esther B
30 Jul 2018 ·

Thanks all. I try to enjoy these things more. Especially being outside and in someone's company.

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31 Jul 2018 ·

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Manda P
31 Jul 2018 ·

Sounds lovely, Esther. I hope you have many more days like this! xx

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5 Esther B
26 Jul 2018 ·
Today was my last day at psychmatrix day care. Tomorrow work again. I'm okay. Think my new AD helps me a bit.
Manda P
27 Jul 2018 ·

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Manda P
27 Jul 2018 ·

That's great to hear, Esther! I hope it continues to build up & help out even more. I've missed you! xx

Love 1
27 Jul 2018 ·

Glad you're in a safe place and doing better.

Tuxi A
27 Jul 2018 ·

So happy to hear that you are doing better! :)

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27 Jul 2018 ·

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Jeff M
27 Jul 2018 ·

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Jeff M
27 Jul 2018 ·

That is so good to hear...So happy they're finding things that are helping and you're getting the care and attention you need! Good luck with work...just take things easy and be good to yourself!

Cindy M
27 Jul 2018 ·

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Cindy M
27 Jul 2018 ·

So good to see a post from you - been thinking of you. Hope work went well. Everything crossed xx

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28 Jul 2018 ·

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4 Esther B
17 Jul 2018 ·
Started another AD. Fourth this year. Hope this will help. I'm holding on - nothing more. Lots of love to you guys
Love 1
17 Jul 2018 ·

Lovely to hear from you and to know you're ok. Sorry you're struggling

Love 1
17 Jul 2018 ·

but I'm hopeful you'll emerge from this stronger and wiser.

Jeff M
17 Jul 2018 ·

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Jeff M
17 Jul 2018 ·

Very happy to see you post, Esther! I've wondered how you're doing. I hope this particular medication is the one that helps. Sometimes it's ok to just be holding on. Sending you lots of strength to keep holding on! *Big hugs*

Manda P
17 Jul 2018 ·

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Manda P
17 Jul 2018 ·

Fingers crossed this is the one, Esther. Keep hanging on! Cute doggo, btw. xx

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18 Jul 2018 ·

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18 Jul 2018 ·

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18 Jul 2018 ·

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Cindy M
18 Jul 2018 ·

Wish you were feeling better but just glad you're around. We'll help you hold on. You're in my thoughts every day, dear Esther. Lots of love xx

Silke V
17 Jul 2018 ·

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Silke V
17 Jul 2018 ·

Glad your back!

Margot L
19 Jul 2018 ·

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19 Jul 2018 ·

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19 Jul 2018 ·

πŸ’•

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17 Jul 2018 ·

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18 Jul 2018 ·

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4 Esther B
31 May 2018 ·
Sorry I haven't been around much. I hope you've been doing well! I have been working on daily routines. Starting 2 week crisismanagement next week. Will be sleeping there as well.
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31 May 2018 ·

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31 May 2018 ·

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Lydia R
31 May 2018 ·

Good to see you updating! Hope next week will be helpful. :)

Jeff M
31 May 2018 ·

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Jeff M
31 May 2018 ·

I've missed you and been wondering about you! Been hoping you got in to get the help you need. I'm glad you have this option to help you... Rooting for you so strongly and sending you all the strength I can! *Big hugs*

John T
31 May 2018 ·

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Cindy M
31 May 2018 ·

Good to see a post - everything crossed for your recovery xx

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31 May 2018 ·

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31 May 2018 ·

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Penelope P
01 Jun 2018 ·

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Tuxi A
01 Jun 2018 ·

Good to hear from you! I hope the crisis management will help.

Tuxi A
01 Jun 2018 ·

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Reba H
05 Jun 2018 ·

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Silke V
21 Jun 2018 ·

How are you doing Esther?

Cindy M
22 Jun 2018 ·

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Cindy M
22 Jun 2018 ·

I've been thinking of you too - wishing you all the best xx

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12 Jul 2018 ·

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3 Esther B
11 May 2018 ·
Tired headache and mind that's racing
Lieteke G
11 May 2018 ·

Not a good combination, Esther. Have you been out today? Maybe fresh air will do you some good?

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11 May 2018 ·

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11 May 2018 ·

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11 May 2018 ·

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11 May 2018 ·

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11 May 2018 ·

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11 May 2018 ·

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11 May 2018 ·

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Esther B
11 May 2018 ·

Yes Lieteke, 1.5 hour walk with the dog

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11 May 2018 ·

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Lieteke G
11 May 2018 ·

That really is a walk! Pretty proud of you you made the courage to go! Shame it didn't help to get rid of the headache.. hope you will get some sleep tonight

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11 May 2018 ·

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12 May 2018 ·

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14 May 2018 ·

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4 Esther B
10 May 2018 ·
Stayed at friends place. Brunch with 5 friends. Travel by train. Art exhibition. Now tired at parents. Missing my cat.
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10 May 2018 ·

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10 May 2018 ·

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10 May 2018 ·

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10 May 2018 ·

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10 May 2018 ·

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Jeff M
10 May 2018 ·

Sounds like a pretty good day! Glad your friends are there for you!

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5 Esther B
09 May 2018 ·
First morning on my own since crisis. An hour walk with my parents dog. Lovely weather.
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09 May 2018 ·

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09 May 2018 ·

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09 May 2018 ·

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Jeff M
09 May 2018 ·

Good for you! Gotta keep focusing on those good things, like the beautiful weather and the loving dog. Keep yourself occupied. We're all rooting for you so much!!

Lydia R
09 May 2018 ·

Animals are awsome, they always put a smile on my face. :) Glad you're feeling better, even if it's only for a short while. Enjoy this moment!

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09 May 2018 ·

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Shelley H
09 May 2018 ·

Enjoy the beautiful weather Esther

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09 May 2018 ·

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09 May 2018 ·

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John T
09 May 2018 ·

It's a positive thing that you feel well enough to go out with the dog, let the good weather do it's thing, and don't be hard on yourself if you don't manage to do everything you want. Small steps!

Esther B
09 May 2018 ·

Thanks Jeff Shelley Lydia silke John and Jen. I've already survived most of the day so I'm happy :-)

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09 May 2018 ·

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3 Esther B
08 May 2018 ·
Still on waitinglist for acute/immediate therapy. Intake next week. Need to hold on. Talking about meds tomorrow. Anxious / restless feeling stays.
Lydia R
08 May 2018 ·

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Lydia R
08 May 2018 ·

Next week is still better than a few months, but I hope the time passes quickly for you. At this point any kind of waiting turns into torture.

Esther B
08 May 2018 ·

That's what I thought Lydia! 2 weeks is better then 3 weeks

Esther B
08 May 2018 ·

And if there's a crisis I can always call someone.. :)

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08 May 2018 ·

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08 May 2018 ·

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08 May 2018 ·

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08 May 2018 ·

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08 May 2018 ·

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08 May 2018 ·

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Penelope P
08 May 2018 ·

Lovely to have you here sweet Esther, many hugs from PP x

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08 May 2018 ·

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08 May 2018 ·

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Jeff M
08 May 2018 ·

I'm sorry you have to wait for the care you need, but I love your perspective here. You are getting the help you need, and you are so amazingly and inspiringly strong!

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09 May 2018 ·

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09 May 2018 ·

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Lieteke G
09 May 2018 ·

So sorry for your wait, but at least you have some optimism on that point. Good to see your paretns and friends are there to support you. Hope you get the help you need. Keep us posted how you feel. We all want to be there for you. πŸ’œ

Esther B
09 May 2018 ·

You are all so kind. Thank you so much for your support xoxo

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1 Esther B
08 May 2018 ·
Thanks for all your support and kind words. Im not in a good place but my friends and parents take good care of me. Blessed with them. Big hugs to you all
Lydia R
08 May 2018 ·

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Lydia R
08 May 2018 ·

Always happy to see you posting, Esther! Take care of yourself, too, and all the best for you. Thinking of you! <3

Lydia R
08 May 2018 ·

Of course I'm not happy about you feeling low, but that you're posting at all. :)

Cindy M
08 May 2018 ·

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Cindy M
08 May 2018 ·

It's good to see you, been worried. Glad you've got support and care. Lots of love, keeping you on my thoughts xx

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08 May 2018 ·

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08 May 2018 ·

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08 May 2018 ·

So sorry to see you're struggling so much. Very happy you have your family and friends to be there for you. We are here for you as much as we can be. Sending you all my strength, Esther! *Big hugs*

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08 May 2018 ·

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Silke V
08 May 2018 ·

Hope you'll feel better soon. Good to know there are people taking care of you!

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08 May 2018 ·

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08 May 2018 ·

thinking of you lots <3

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08 May 2018 ·

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2 Esther B
06 May 2018 ·
Ended in crisisward after taking 100+ pills but I'm still here.
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06 May 2018 ·

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06 May 2018 ·

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Lydia R
06 May 2018 ·

Oh dear, I'm so sorry thos happened, but so glad you didn't succeed. Big hugs Esther, I hope you're getting all the help you need right now!

Lieteke G
06 May 2018 ·

Oh, Esther, so sorry to hear that! Very happy you are still here. Hope you get the help you need and whenever you want to cry, scream, talk about anything, we are here for you!πŸ’œ

Robert H
06 May 2018 ·

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06 May 2018 ·

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06 May 2018 ·

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Cindy M
06 May 2018 ·

I'm so sorry you were feeling so bad, but like everyone very glad you're still here. Hope they can help you, sweet Esther. Thinking of you xxx

Penelope P
06 May 2018 ·

Esther I am so glad you are still here. If you weren't I would be very, very sad. Always here for you xxx

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06 May 2018 ·

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06 May 2018 ·

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06 May 2018 ·

Big hugs

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06 May 2018 ·

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06 May 2018 ·

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Manda P
06 May 2018 ·

So glad you are still here, dear Esther. Hope you are getting the care you need. I'll be thinking of you. xx

Esther B
06 May 2018 ·

Thanks all. Was sent home with my parents. They call me tomorrow about what to do.

Lieteke G
06 May 2018 ·

We are all here for you whenever you feel you want to β€œtalk”! πŸ’œ

DesBear D
06 May 2018 ·

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DesBear D
06 May 2018 ·

Love you and thinking of you ❀️

Margot L
06 May 2018 ·

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Margot L
06 May 2018 ·

Blij dat je er nog bent. Gelukkig ben je niet alleen. Veel moed en dikke knuffel.

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07 May 2018 ·

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07 May 2018 ·

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Lieteke G
07 May 2018 ·

Esther, how are you this morning?

Esther B
08 May 2018 ·

β™₯β™₯ thanks all

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3 Esther B
02 May 2018 ·
My psychiatrist is such an **** this is the 5th time he promised me to inform me about the waitinglist for therapy BUT he handed me this postit with someone's name on it and i should call myself. ITS
Esther B
02 May 2018 ·

YOUR JOB. I NEED HELP YOU ****

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02 May 2018 ·

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02 May 2018 ·

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02 May 2018 ·

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02 May 2018 ·

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02 May 2018 ·

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03 May 2018 ·

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03 May 2018 ·

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03 May 2018 ·

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03 May 2018 ·

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Lydia R
03 May 2018 ·

Ugh, that sucks, I'm sorry. I usually also only get telephone numbers and have to call myself and I hate calling people. Habe you asked him why he won't call them?

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03 May 2018 ·

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04 May 2018 ·

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