I'm very jealous of the sleeping without meds. Hope the return to full-time working goes well.
I understand this fully Esther, I'm exactly the same :(
I don't think there's anything wrong with you, but I ask myself this question constantly, too.
I know the feeling. Usually the problem isn't you it's how you're being treated by them. And you respond accordingly. It's hard to stay open and loving when you get shunned in return
Thinking of you xx
that's a long wait. must be frustrating
it is love. feels like someone tore me open and I have to wait 8 months toll I can go into hospital
Wow, done already? I hope it's helped you!
That did go really quickly! Hope it was useful xx
I hope it was helpful overall, even if it sounded like it wasn't easy.... and good luck for the next steps.
That time just zipped right by! I hope it helped you. 💖
Yeah Jeff it was just a short period so I could get a diagnosis. Now I have to wait at least 6 months for specific treatment.
Don't give up.
Sorry, but unless there is a good explanation, that guy is a jerk! Sure, sometimes things don't work out, but it isn't okay to just disappear without an explanation.
And he acted so shy Tuxi. Normally you feel things like this.. never had a clue.
Men are poo.
Ugh. You've got it coming from every angle. Hope things improve soon, Esther. xx
That would be a nice option to have.
I've been having these thoughts but much quicker, fleeting thoughts. Contradictorily I can see a decent future but I don't know how to get there, so I'm taking it one day at a time. I suppose I'm treating thoughts as thoughts, rather than reality.
Anyway, I hope you're feeling better soon, Esther.
Wish there was something I could say that'd instantly make you feel better:(
Really hope you feel better soon. It sucks when you feel your life has no use. ❤️
I don't remember the last time I saw something positive in my future...but I guess I stopped worrying about it. I try hard to enjoy the little moments in the present. Running last night in the ice and cold, breathing hard, I kept thinking how...
...lucky I am to be able to run, how much better shape I am in now than I used to be. I guess those little moments of finding goodness in normalcy is what living is all about.
Wish i could even do that Jeff...
I can see that too Jeff. I work out and I'm in good shape but I'm not able to share my life with someone or ask help from friends so I'm just done
I wish I could help you, Esther. I feel for you, really. I completely understand and relate. Life can be so difficult and lonely and hard to deal with...
Esther, do you know about death cafés? I've never been, just read about them. If you google death cafe you can find out more. They believe in talking about death openly, partly to help us make more of the finite life we have, but
Really difficult and tough topic, but definitely one we should all engage more with. Never heard of death cafés before, but it sounds interesting.
When you say the pain psychiatric patients deal with is shocking, I'd be curious to read more about this. Would you care to elaborate? Im guessing you're referring to psychological pain as they approach death. Is this correct?
Although it's not physical pain... Psychosis is very painful. Lots of other symptoms and disorders are too.
I know Cindy! I've visited one of them recently.
Love; I think they suffer from life and they feel pain because they don't think they belong here or they have had so many kind of therapies and still feel like ****. The ppl i met there looked old although they were in their twenties.
And Love I will have to look that up I only know a Dutch website about that but it's just about patients telling how they suffer.
Als ik iets voor je kan doen Esther?
Ugh. Sounds like a rough transition.
I really hope you will feel much better very soon. <3
Hope you feel better soon Esther. Withdrawal is never a pleasant experience but worth it in the long run.
I hope so too Nick and Lydia. WOuld be really nice to be medication 'free' after 10 years. And to actually feel again. Scary but exciting as well. Thanks for the hugs :)
Proud of you!
Ugh. We don't need those kind of reminders. I guess recognizing your path that this made you take is helpful. Sorry that happened! :(
Big hugs dear Esther - sorry xx
Don't let exes drag you down. Plan something nice you'll enjoy. Take some good self care. I hope you get through the next few months better than you expect. Wishing you well.
thanks all. I'm still mad I guess. Especially at myself.Dont need him in my life. Reminds me of bad times.
I put a reply and it never saved. Grr. Good for you for telling him how you really feel, and not faking being okay. He hurt you, and he should know that!
Proud of you for standing up to him. He really shouldn't have contacted you though. What an ass.
Well he probably doesnt care how I feel. Or I dont know. Told me this was a negative way of communcation. Ah, REALLY?
She is John. Thanks for the hugs xx
She's beautiful and she knows it :)
YOU ARE ALL VERY WELCOME TO VISIT 😍😍
I might just do so 😀😀😀
I wanna come visit! :)
Beautiful & gorgeous... oh and the cat, too. :)
I'm sorry you can't see a way out. I hope you have someone else you can talk to.
Don't give up. AD withdrawal is really hard but don't forget it is temporary... Give your therapists a chance to help you, even if it takes some time to get better.
They can't help me anymore tuxi. After next week I'm supposed to wait 8 months before there's a place for me to go to a therapist. So don't know what the use of this is anymore.
I hope you feel better soon!
That sounds awful... I hope you'll be done with that, soon.
although there are no signals for that. it's just hard if you like someone and you haven't had the time to.meet. I know it's not his fault but still. can't seem to get this anxiety about rejection off my mind.
Try to fight those self-defeating thoughts. He isn't rejecting you. I do the same thing, and it's awfully easy to sabatoge a good thing.
I'm a master at sabotaging a good thing. Try not to get ahead of yourself & just take it one day at a time. Think of how great it'll be when you finally do see him! xx
I'm with manda and Jeff. I have literally just sabotaged because I felt like I was being rejected. Keep yourself busy and focus on you. It will be even better when you see him 😀 xx
cause ended up in hospital last time when I tried to quit Paroxetine. Part-time therapy is done in 2 weeks and then I have no psychiatrist anymore and I need to find another one? this mental health system is screwed.
I found Venlafaxine tough to quit. Went into hospital to do that. I hope you have some success, that you cope ok with the changes, and wish you well. Allow yourself the odd bad day, but remind yourself you'll still get good days too.
hi John thanks for sharing. I've quit Venlafwxine in one week. I've quit that one before
guess everyone has different experiences with quitting! makes it hard to manage.. And thanks for your sweet message x
No one is the same. Guess it can be different to everyone. Concentrate on yourself. I'm sure you'll be just fine. As long as you have someone who follows you up.
part-time therapy or clinical. it will cost me at least a year in any case cause it's a long road to recovery. gonna take this weekend and next 2 weeks to figure out what I want and how to deal with the consequences when needed (work/waitinglists)
Currently waiting for diagnosis having finally been referred after 20 years asking. Two consultant psychiatrists have now said they believe i may have a personality disorder. Just have to be patient and await an appointment now...
I'm glad you have your diagnosis. I hope it will lead to the treatment you need to help you be happier!
Glad you got a diagnosis. It's such a relief to have a name for everything that's going on. Wishing you the best in recovery, sweet Esther. 💖
Thanks Jeff and Manda. It's a relieve the diagnoses is the same as I suspecter. Waitinglists make me very anxious though. What to do in the period between...
And Nick I'm happy for you you finally got the time and care you need. Keep us updated.
Thanks Esther I will. I'm so pleased you got the diagnosis you expected.
Hi esther an update as promised. No personality disorder. Just some minor adjustment disorder and some dissociative disorder traits. But nothing treatable. But tomorrow I'll probably be getting sectioned
Thinking of you, esther!
Lots of love xx