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4 Jeff M
16h ·
Miserable run last night. Too hot, had a side cramp or stitch. Barely got 3 miles. No one in the group I knew to talk to. Made me feel sad. Couldn't sleep, up way too late, too early this AM. Ugh.
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4 Jeff M
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Up too late and dog had me up at 4 am due to howling at some animal outside or something. Tired. Didn't run last night (excuses in comments), so ate badly instead. Feeling really pretty low today.
Jeff M
2d ·

It is so humid here. Rained all day yesterday, but humidity is still here. I think that pressure gives me headaches and makes me feel off. AC helps, but that always makes me feel tired and bothers allergies. Ugh.

Jeff M
2d ·

Humidity, rain, and road construction (would've taken an extra 20-30 minutes to get to run) were my excuses last night. Still should have gone. Will run tonight.

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Sorry to see you're feeling low, Jeff. It's OK to not run though, you deserve a break. If not you, who does? :) Hugs

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5 Jeff M
3d ·
Too distracted this week, not getting work stuff done. Rainy weather today, and woke with a nasty headache. Going to be a long day.
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5 Jeff M
5d ·
Yesterday was fun. Long day (up at 3:30). 15k race was fun. 15,000+ people running plus thousands of cheerers. Big party at the end. But today I'm exhausted and stressed for work this week. Blah Mon.
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Blah Monday is my least favorite day. Hope the good memories sustain you through it!

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5 Jeff M
12 Jul 2019 ·
Another poor night's sleep. Maybe it's the AC? Feel an impending/imposing dread/anxiety. I hate that... Busy weekend, with a race on Sunday. Should be fun, I hope!
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12 Jul 2019 ·

It's good that you have something to look forward to Jeff!! Best of luck in the race! :D

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5 Jeff M
11 Jul 2019 ·
It's really hot and humid this week. Didn't sleep well last night, but had a cool movie-like dream (even starred an actor from Friends, oddly enough). Hot hill repeats last night and 3 mi this AM.
Jeff M
11 Jul 2019 ·

Trying to ramp up my miles a bit more, and heat training is really hard but really good for conditioning. Going to run with my old group from the bar tonight. Because I did a few this AM, don't have to do as much this PM.

Jeff M
11 Jul 2019 ·

Probably should be a 6, but I'm tired from not sleeping well, and I'm still hot and sticky at work, which is really uncomfortable!

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John T
11 Jul 2019 ·

Sounds intense! I'm going to try and run again tomorrow... Any pain at all and I'll stop... Tester run

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5 Jeff M
10 Jul 2019 ·
Enjoyed a delicious BBQ & beer dinner on the rooftop yesterday with some folks. Feeling rather gross this morning but not too bad. Anxiety is high today. Maybe the hot, heavy weather?
Jeff M
10 Jul 2019 ·

Or maybe just the feeling gross from overindulging last night. It is going to be a hot one today, and I'll struggle in the run this evening. Ah well, it's summer.

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10 Jul 2019 ·

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Alicia B
10 Jul 2019 ·

You'll run the overindulgence right off and then some I bet :)

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6 Jeff M
09 Jul 2019 ·
Last night's run was quite fun. Hot four miles, but fun hanging out on the roof drinking a few beers and planning my running group's 2-year anniversary. Very thankful for this group!
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09 Jul 2019 ·

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Alicia B
09 Jul 2019 ·

So glad you're having fun with the group! Can they all run crazy long distances like you do?

Jeff M
09 Jul 2019 ·

We usually just do 3 to 5 miles on a Monday, which is perfect. Though a few of my ultra-running companions come out and join us. A lot of us ultra people are also beer people. :)

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09 Jul 2019 ·

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09 Jul 2019 ·

Glad you got some good socialization, Jeff!

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10 Jul 2019 ·

'Ultra people' sounds so cool :)

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5 Jeff M
08 Jul 2019 ·
Lonely weekend. Didn't really feel right again until Sunday. Did a lot of yard/housework on Saturday, finally ran again Sunday. One more ok week at work before it gets crazy for 6-8 weeks. Ugh.
Jeff M
08 Jul 2019 ·

On the positive: ran 3 miles this morning, which always is a great way to start the day. Beautiful day today, so will be a nice run this evening and beers on the roof. I've been enjoying that a lot this summer!

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3 Jeff M
05 Jul 2019 ·
What a miserable day. So hung over, and nowdays hangovers hit me so horribly. Nearly 12 hours of headache and getting sick. And I didn't think I drank that much yesterday, plus plenty of water.
Jeff M
05 Jul 2019 ·

I guess I was stupid. What a waste of a day...

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05 Jul 2019 ·

Heeeey. It has to be done on occasion

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07 Jul 2019 ·

Happens to the best of us! Hope you've already forgotten all about it because you're feeling great :)

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5 Jeff M
04 Jul 2019 ·
Another holiday. Enjoyed helping organize the town race this AM. Now killing time before going to 4th party I don't really want to go to but don't want to be alone all day. I hate holidays.
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4 Jeff M
03 Jul 2019 ·
Anxiety is high today. Hard to focus on work with so many people off for tomorrow's holiday. I don't like holidays. Still hot and sweaty from this morning's run, feel gross. Blah.
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6 Jeff M
02 Jul 2019 ·
It's so much easier to mentally list all the things that are wrong. But that's just perspective spawning from depression. Actually, right now, I feel pretty good (physically) and improving (mentally).
Jeff M
02 Jul 2019 ·

I have to remember that...better to focus on the good things.

Jeff M
02 Jul 2019 ·

Last night's run was hot but fun! Then sitting on the rooftop, having a few beers with nice people. That's one of the best things in life...

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02 Jul 2019 ·

Jeff. There's a lot of positive there. Go you

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02 Jul 2019 ·

Yay! Well done being positive And running of course but that's just the norm for our Jeff :)

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03 Jul 2019 ·

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6 Jeff M
01 Jul 2019 ·
Pretty nice weekend. Ate and drank way too much (and feeling it today), despite planning to be better. Oh well. Hit a brewery with a friend yesterday, which was fun. 4-day week this week.
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Jeff M
01 Jul 2019 ·

I hate holidays, though. They're set up for people with families and friends, and I don't have that. So I feel so lonely on these holidays when everyone else is having such fun. I'm sure I'll feel worse as it gets closer. Blah.

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01 Jul 2019 ·

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7 Jeff M
28 Jun 2019 ·
Well, I won sunglasses yesterday and a tech shirt from stillirun (mental health running community) today. And now having beers at my favorite bar. Pretty good!
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28 Jun 2019 ·

Njoy!

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Manda P
29 Jun 2019 ·

Great to hear! Enjoy your weekend, Jeff!

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29 Jun 2019 ·

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K T
29 Jun 2019 ·

Sounds great Jeff!! Happy for you!

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Alicia B
29 Jun 2019 ·

Oh wow! Maybe time to go and play the lottery, eh? Jeff for the win!!

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6 Jeff M
28 Jun 2019 ·
Hot run last night. Felt great at start but ended up walking much of last mile. Ugh. But socializing after was fun, and won a pair of sunglasses! Going to run with old training partner tmrw.
Jeff M
28 Jun 2019 ·

Have a good weekend, pandas!

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28 Jun 2019 ·

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Alicia B
28 Jun 2019 ·

Thank you, you too, Jeff! Congratulations on your glasses :) How did you win them? Was it a running trophy?

Jeff M
28 Jun 2019 ·

Ha, thanks, Alicia! Yesterday was National Sunglasses Day (I guess?), so they did random giveaways of goodr sunglasses (and I so seldom have good luck and win things!). I chose the red, white and blue ones. Very patriotic! :)

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Albertine M
28 Jun 2019 ·

Red, white and blue sunglasses?? Great! Nice to see some green, have a good (green) weekend xx

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29 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
29 Jun 2019 ·

Grats on your win! From someone else that nevers wins, a pair of sunglasses is pretty dang cool!

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29 Jun 2019 ·

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29 Jun 2019 ·

I don't win anything either, and I'm glad it was you :)

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5 Jeff M
27 Jun 2019 ·
Still thinking about suffering. During an ultramarathon, I always end up in what I call a 'suffer cluster': a group of people around me in the race who suffer as much as I do...
Jeff M
27 Jun 2019 ·

We keep passing each other or maybe just seeing each other in the distance, running similar paces, suffering a similar amount for mile after mile. In the spirit of 'misery loves company', these people who I may not even talk to...

Jeff M
27 Jun 2019 ·

...become companions in suffering. We're all doing it voluntarily, pushing through the suffering, enduring it, challenging it, overcoming it (usually). We're nowhere near the front, never going to think about winning or usually not even...

Jeff M
27 Jun 2019 ·

...thinking about time (unless it's making cutoffs so we don't get pulled from the race). We're just moving and suffering together. Suffering together is better than suffering alone. Maybe that's a draw to this site?

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27 Jun 2019 ·

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John T
27 Jun 2019 ·

Do you have an example of common cut off times Jeff?

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27 Jun 2019 ·

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Alicia B
27 Jun 2019 ·

What a powerful image. A great metaphor for many things in life. Inspiring!

Jeff M
27 Jun 2019 ·

Thanks, pandas! @John - the 40-miler last weekend had a 14-hour cutoff. The crazy hard 100k I did last year had a 20-hour cutoff. Both are considered pretty generous. I was looking at 50-milers today that had 11 or 12 hours.

Jeff M
27 Jun 2019 ·

Oh, that's total time. There are usually cutoffs at aid stations. Have to be out by a certain time. Those are the ones we end up chasing.

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28 Jun 2019 ·

Thanks! Interesting

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28 Jun 2019 ·

Very thought-provoking post, Jeff, thanks for sharing

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5 Jeff M
26 Jun 2019 ·
Thinking a lot about suffering. As humans, we all suffer - physically, mentally, emotionally. We evolved by avoiding suffering. Our brains tell us to seek comfort, leisure, ease. (more)
Jeff M
26 Jun 2019 ·

So when we do something that makes us suffer or when we face suffering - pain, discomfort, anxiety - we avoid it. I do this all the time. Even when running - which involves suffering - my brain tells me to stop, to take it easy, to slow down...

Jeff M
26 Jun 2019 ·

...to let up. It tells me to find an excuse - I'm hurt, I'm sick, etc. Usually, I can ignore it. But then, the brain is clever. It seeks ways around avoidance to attain its desired state of comfort and ease, or at least less suffering...

Jeff M
26 Jun 2019 ·

But suffering is required, to some extent. We only grow stronger by breaking down muscles and rebuilding them. Similarly, psychology is based around tearing down walls and facing difficult memories and thoughts and emotions so we can...

Jeff M
26 Jun 2019 ·

...build ourselves back up stronger. Obviously, we can only suffer so much. Sometimes, we have suffered all we can, and avoidance is necessary for survival. But in the day-to-day grind of life, I think we need to suffer more, not less.

Jeff M
26 Jun 2019 ·

Years past, people worked 10-hour days at least six days a week in horrible conditions because it was normal and expected. Today, we have computers and robots and money and ease. We evolved into complacent, fat creatures...

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Jeff M
26 Jun 2019 ·

...of comfort. I suppose we need to suffer more, to embrace suffering, to face it and push through it and find ourselves stronger, to see if we are capable of suffering and enduring and suffering some more.

Jeff M
26 Jun 2019 ·

I feel weak, all the time...Perhaps to feel strong I just need to suffer more, not less. Perhaps peace isn't what I need. Perhaps I need to suffer. Maybe it's what I deserve and need.

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26 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
26 Jun 2019 ·

No, you definitely don't deserve to suffer. No one but evil people or something should. You deserve happiness & health. We need to leave negative thoughts behind.

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26 Jun 2019 ·

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Reba H
26 Jun 2019 ·

I'm not sure if I agree you 'need to suffer' - however I believe you deserve the sense of accomplishment that comes with knowing you made it through something difficult, whether that's physically or emotionally. Typically some suffering or discomfort

Reba H
26 Jun 2019 ·

*is involved in those situations. In that viewpoint, I agree with you. I am going to be 'making myself suffer' by going to the gym, but for good reasons.

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28 Jun 2019 ·

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Alicia B
28 Jun 2019 ·

I would agree in the sense that we need some more stoicism. People (me included) complain a lot and focus on the wrong things, like weather we can't change, or a cold that will pass and really is not that bad, or having to be in traffic which is

Alicia B
28 Jun 2019 ·

annoying but rarely a matter of life or death. Focusing on the negative makes everything harder. Like focusing on being tired makes running harder. I find for me the best way to be effective is to enjoy. In order to enjoy I need to stop whining about

Alicia B
28 Jun 2019 ·

things and start looking for the upside. As for deserving to suffer.... that sounds a little like depression talking, to be honest. There is no life without suffering. We'll all get our share. And we have been getting it. Being more stoic though is a

Alicia B
28 Jun 2019 ·

good idea.

Jeff M
28 Jun 2019 ·

I suppose I miswrote the 'deserving' portion or worded it incorrectly. I'm reading a book about how we can push past pain and discomfort to accomplish so much. I simply meant that I have to do this more/regularly.

Manda P
29 Jun 2019 ·

What's the book called?

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29 Jun 2019 ·

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K T
29 Jun 2019 ·

Some very good points here. I agree with Alicia and Robert. Wise words!

Jeff M
29 Jun 2019 ·

@Manda: Can't Hurt Me by David Goggins. It's really, really good and inspiring!

Manda P
29 Jun 2019 ·

Going to check that out on Amazon. Thanks!

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4 Jeff M
25 Jun 2019 ·
Stomach hurts. More rain. Tired and stressed.
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4 Jeff M
24 Jun 2019 ·
Tired and feeling empty.
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