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6 Jeff M
4h ·
Back home and back to work and back to routine. Feeling some post-vacation blues. Had been working up to that race and time off for 5 months. Ah well...
Cindy M
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Cindy M
4h ·

Glad there's still a bit of green there, though. x

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6 Jeff M
2d ·
Today was nice. Hiked up a mountain this morning (boy my legs hurt!), then did the tourist thing. Ate a lot of food, drank a lot of beer. Tmrw I go home and get back to normal. Oh well.
Jeff M
2d ·

Was hard being alone these past few days. I think I like the boring routine because it helps me forget I'm all alone. But I should be used to it.

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2d ·

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Cindy M
2d ·

Big hugs, Jeff - safe journey back xx

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18h ·

Hope you made it home ok & aren't feeling too down. What you did was amazing!

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5 Jeff M
3d ·
Wandering around Burlington alone. Lonely among all these people. Weekends are especially hard days to b traveling alone.
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Love 1
2d ·

That you can walk after a 31m run is impressive.

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8 Jeff M
3d ·
I did it, pandas! Ran the 50k (31 miles) yesterday. Hardest race I ever ran. Hills were significant, and there was so much mud it sapped all my strength just pulling my legs out and moving forward.
Jeff M
3d ·

Was on such a high yesterday after finishing just for the accomplishment. So lucky and blessed to be able to do this. Didn't always enjoy it during the run, but what a great feeling after!

Jeff M
3d ·

As I expected, my friends all deserted me. At least one came back with a beer to hang out for a bit at the finish. Then he left too, and I stayed for a while anyway. Hard to leave, honestly!

Jeff M
3d ·

Today, my legs are really sore! Going to be hard to walk for a while!

Ly R
3d ·

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Ly R
3d ·

Wow, that's amazing! Congrats for pulling through! :D

Asya O
3d ·

So very impressive! WTG, Jeff!

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Love 1
3d ·

That's very inspiring.

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3d ·

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Cindy M
3d ·

Wow - that is absolutely amazing, Jeff! I'm sorry about your 'friends' but glad you have been able to enjoy and be proud of your accomplishments! Hope you're off work for a few days!

Esther B
3d ·

Oh my. What an accomplishment!! You pushed yourself and you finished. Man I'm so proud of you!!!

Jeff M
3d ·

Thank you, pandas! Glad I have you!

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3d ·

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Binky B
3d ·

Huge congratulations dearest Jeff bear xx

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3d ·

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Manda P
3d ·

Wow, Jeff! A huge Congratulations!! That's amazing! Sorry your friends did that, but so glad you were able to enjoy the feelings of your accomplishment! Well done!

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2d ·

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Christina E
2d ·

Well done 😃

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6 Jeff M
5d ·
Sitting in a bar in Vermont, drinking a beer. Feeling lonely. Wish it wasn't raining. Anxious about my race tomorrow.
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Love 1
5d ·

30 plus miles. Wow! While you're in VT, you should get bad tattooed on one butt cheek and @$$ on the other, b/c you, sir, are a bad @$$!

Liz K
5d ·

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Esther B
5d ·

You're a winner!! Don't forget.

Cindy M
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Cindy M
5d ·

Hope the race goes well - I'm sure it will, as Esther says you're a winner! x

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Jeff M
3d ·

Thank you, all! I do want to get a tattoo, but not sure if that one is my style. Besides, I don't think I have a bad a$$ at all! :D

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6 Jeff M
6d ·
Meetings all day today, but then I'm off for 5 days. Heading to VT to run a crazy race and sight see and drink good beers and eat all the foods! Looking forward to it, even if I'm on my own mostly.
Jeff M
6d ·

Anxious about the race...it's a long way! But I've learned that nerves are good. Adrenalin really helps in these crazy races. The beer at the end will keep me going!

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5 Jeff M
7d ·
Stressful day today. Presentation to deliver to management. Tired. A little sad. Anxious about my race and the weekend (but excited too...just want it to get here).
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Sara P
7d ·

Try some grounding techniques and keep in mind everything is going to be ok and everything can be changed or fixed... Stay safe, hope for the best and remember, pandas are always here to listen.

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7d ·

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Manda P
7d ·

Hope everything goes well with your presentation. I could never do that. I don't fully understand how adults can function in this world!

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Love 1
7d ·

The girls & I are excited, too. Growing double D's just for you AND getting my beard trimmed. See you in VT! lol

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Cindy M
7d ·

Hope it went well - bet you did great. Weekend is nearly here xx

Jeff M
6d ·

Thanks, pandas! See ya soon, Love! :D

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4 Jeff M
20 Jun 2017 ·
I've long since accepted I'm going to always be alone. I've stopped asking why no one cares or wants to be with me. I just wish I could stop wanting or needing people. Makes me feel so weak.
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20 Jun 2017 · NEW

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Love 1
20 Jun 2017 ·

My brother, snap out of it! *Slaps Jeff in the face. Youre healthy, strong, kind, empathetic, funny, witty... + you love dogs. WTF is not to like? As for needing or wanting people, we're interdependent. No getting around that. Sending women your way

Ly R
20 Jun 2017 ·

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Ly R
20 Jun 2017 ·

I'm sorry you feel like that and I'm sure there's someone suitable out there for you, too, but I feel just the same so I understand you.

Christina E
20 Jun 2017 ·

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Jeff M
20 Jun 2017 ·

Wow, Tough Love really does hurt! *rubs cheek*

Cindy M
20 Jun 2017 ·

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Cindy M
20 Jun 2017 ·

:) I wish I lived near you, Jeff - I would love to hang out with you. Agree with everything Love said. Hope you can find your people. xx

Asya O
20 Jun 2017 ·

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Love 1
20 Jun 2017 ·

Hope you feel better, J.

Claire M
20 Jun 2017 ·

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Claire M
20 Jun 2017 ·

All I can do is to agree with Love. By everything I know about you, I don't see a reason why there couldn't be that special lady waiting for you. You are so funny, so kind, sporty and like dogs! What else could a woman ask for? :P

Jeff M
20 Jun 2017 ·

Beats me, Claire. But I have long since given up that hope. I would just like to be happier as I am. It's the desire to be with other people that causes me the most unhappiness, since I can't find people who want me around. :(

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20 Jun 2017 ·

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20 Jun 2017 ·

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Love 1
21 Jun 2017 ·

I wonder what would happen if you applied to dating the same singleness of purpose, determination, and discipline you apply to running. What if you approached dating w/ your game face on. I can't imagine you'd lose.

Manda P
21 Jun 2017 ·

I like Love's idea. Approach dating like you do running. You'll have the ladies falling all over you!

Binky B
21 Jun 2017 ·

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7d ·

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Sara P
7d ·

I know it is hard, but keep trying to love yourself.. When we love ourselves that is when we are truly belonging.

Jeff M
7d ·

Thank you, pandas. You're all very kind. I wish it was as easy as 'try harder.' I acknowledge that I will be alone. As Sara says, I try to love myself and be ok alone. That's so hard...I don't think I'll ever truly get there.

Sara P
7d ·

<3 I believe in you!

Manda P
7d ·

Jeff, you're smart, funny, have good taste, sweet, & must be in great shape. What's not to like? You're match is out there. I know it is. I think it'll all be worth the wait. xx

Love 1
7d ·

F*k that! I'm going to grow some t!tt!es just b/c I like you. I'll see you in Vermont this weekend. I'm bringing some girls in case you don't like bearded men with big t!ts. Blondes, brunettes, redheads, what's your preference?

Manda P
7d ·

Or your match even. You're match doesn't quite make sense. Sounds like you might have already found one with Love though!

Jeff M
7d ·

Hmm...Love, I guess I could do worse. Ha! See ya in Vermont (it is a very liberal state, after all)

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4 Jeff M
19 Jun 2017 ·
Been so excited about this weekend in VT and 50k race that I and my running partners worked toward for 6 months. Now 1 not going, everyone else dropped to the half. I know how this is going to go.
Jeff M
19 Jun 2017 ·

I will be running by myself. Everyone else will finish ahead of me and go to their campground. (I'm not camping with them.) I will be left out of everything, I know it.

Jeff M
19 Jun 2017 ·

So easy to feel left out. I just want to be included, to have people excited to do something with me instead of always feeling like I'm hanging on with other people and they're putting up with me. Never feel included...

Jeff M
19 Jun 2017 ·

Screw them, though. I'm running the 50k because I trained for it and I'm a badass! I will have beer to drink by myself, and if they're gone, I'll go back to my B&B and eat good food and enjoy the rest of the weekend myself.

Jeff M
19 Jun 2017 ·

All I've ever had my entire life is myself. No one ever wants me around. So screw them...I'm going to enjoy this anyway, and I will laugh at them for wimping out, knowing I am better than all of them.

Jeff M
19 Jun 2017 ·

Sigh.

Liz K
19 Jun 2017 ·

Hey Jeff. I often feel exactly the same - like people put up with me and don't really want me around. So much of it comes from myself but I interpret everything as rejection. But it's not always the case, it's just in my head, it's not true.

Liz K
19 Jun 2017 ·

It sounds like you're signed up to do am incredible thing. Get out there and do it and in the process you're bound to meet others to talk to and hang out with. Good luck!

Binky B
19 Jun 2017 ·

Aw, Jeff - feeling left out is horrible. But hey, you're right... You're gonna smash this race, you're working harder than any of them! Good on you for sticking to your commitments, even if they can't. That shows real dedication.

Ali H
19 Jun 2017 ·

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19 Jun 2017 ·

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Esther B
19 Jun 2017 ·

Youre a badass and youre gonna rock this

Jeff M
19 Jun 2017 ·

Thanks, pandas...

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20 Jun 2017 ·

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21 Jun 2017 ·

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Manda P
21 Jun 2017 ·

Go kick ass, Jeff, & screw the rest! Show off all your hard work & reap the benefits!

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6 Jeff M
19 Jun 2017 ·
Sunday was quiet and dull. Cleaned and cooked for the week. Monday again, but vacation and race coming up this weekend! Excited and nervous!
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19 Jun 2017 ·

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20 Jun 2017 ·

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21 Jun 2017 ·

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