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4 Jeff M
16h ·
New week. Have to put last week behind me. I know work will be stressful for another month. Have to get through. Feeling very tired and mentally and emotionally weak today. Maybe its just Monday.
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Hope you survived your Monday. Here's to a better week!

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2 Jeff M
2d ·
This has been a really bad week for me. I feel like all the positives of getting out of this depressive period have been reversed, and it's all the worse for falling further. Emotionally hungover.
Jeff M
2d ·

I've been trying to figure out ways to be better, to improve, for literally decades. Why am I still trying? Why do some of us have to suffer like this day in and day out for years? Is this what life is supposed to be about?

Jeff M
2d ·

I used to ask at what point balancing the potential for future happiness against ending the ongoing suffering would sway in one way or another. I honestly feel like way back then, I should have opted for ending the suffering.

Jeff M
2d ·

But here it is again, another day of feeling miserable and wondering why I bother. Just another day like every other day.

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I hope that you find good times amongst the fog

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Manda P
5h ·

Hope things start to look up for you soon, Jeff. We gotta get you feeling better before winter!

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4 Jeff M
2d ·
Volunteering at the big race I ran last year. Feeling so alone. Waiting on the buy who paced me last year to finish, but why? I'm so tired and have 1.5 hour drive home. And no one cares I'm here.
Jeff M
2d ·

The woman who helped me so much last year crewed him this year. And did so much more. Was in tears about the experience. She wasn't with me...

Jeff M
2d ·

It's so clear I mean nothing to most people and very little to others. I just wish someone cared about me and wanted to help me. I wish I wasn't alone always.

Jeff M
2d ·

Tempted to just leave and say I felt sick. No one will care.

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2d ·

Sorry you're feeling like this right now dear Jeff panda.

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2d ·

Jeff. We care. I'm sure they are grateful that you are helping out

Manda P
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5h ·

Yep, you've definitely got lots of Pandas who care. Someone will see your worth & will be so thankful to have found you:

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5 Jeff M
4d ·
Going to volunteer tomorrow at the 100k race I did last year. Will be nice to help out, and eager to see some friends running it. Really tired today. Last night's run hurt my knee. Sick of work...
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Alicia B
3d ·

Our own amazing Jeff :) Take care of that knee, it's no laughing matter (she says after a surgery and being unable to run for almost 3 months). Be careful. Hugs!

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3d ·

Enjoy jeff

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4 Jeff M
5d ·
Beautiful day yesterday. Planned to go run trails after work. But got home and was so tired and stressed from work, I went and drank beer instead. Now guilt, of course. This week has sucked.
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4d ·

I hope you have a good weekend ahead of you, Jeff.

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4 Jeff M
6d ·
Stomach not feeling well. Work stress is high. Not having a good week.
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Alicia B
5d ·

Aw, I'm sorry to hear that, my friend. Hope it gets better somehow soon.

Shelley H
5d ·

What's up Jeff? Feel better my friend xxx

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2 Jeff M
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3 Jeff M
7d ·
I just want to talk sometimes. I have things to say, and other people talk. But it's important for the universe to remind me than not a single person cares about me or anything I have to say.
Jeff M
7d ·

Don't accuse me of interrupting because I try to participate in a conversation while you're changing the subject before I get two words out. Your ADHD doesn't mean I have to let you make everything about you.

Jeff M
7d ·

Also, important to remember when I start feeling positive again, that things only get better so it feels that much worse when they get bad again.

Jeff M
7d ·

You'd think I'd know these things by now. I never learn. I wish I didn't need people.

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Manda P
4d ·

We're here for ya, Jeff. I know it's not exactly the same as IRL, but Pandas have lots of love to give. 💚

Shelley H
4d ·

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4 Jeff M
12 Aug 2019 ·
Poor night's sleep. Too much bad food and beer this past weekend. Another long week ahead. Feeling anxiety building on top of typical Monday morning blahs. Feeling a little lost.
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6 Jeff M
09 Aug 2019 ·
Nice run along the canal yesterday and a few good beers and good talk with people. Felt the perfect content balance of beer buzz and socializing rest of night. Honestly felt pretty good!
Jeff M
09 Aug 2019 ·

Probably talked too much. I tend to do that and feel stupid about it after (even though I don't think i said anything stupid). I always want to try to observe more and save people from having to listen to me.

Jeff M
09 Aug 2019 ·

Was kind of fun running in the simultaneous rain and sunshine. Weird weather yesterday! Much cooler today. Nice break, I guess.

Jeff M
09 Aug 2019 ·

One more day of training, then the weekend. More socializing tomorrow evening (and alcohol). Should be fun, I hope!

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09 Aug 2019 · CHIEFPANDA

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09 Aug 2019 ·

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09 Aug 2019 ·

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Alicia B
09 Aug 2019 ·

I know what you mean, about talking a lot and feeling stupid later. I wonder how we can fight that feeling. Happy for you!

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10 Aug 2019 ·

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11 Aug 2019 ·

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Manda P
11 Aug 2019 ·

Yay green! Glad you had such a good time. I love sunshine rains!

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5 Jeff M
08 Aug 2019 ·
Ran trails with a group last night and beers along the canal after. Beautiful young runner woman asked about my Still I Run shirt. Leg feeling much better this week! Work quite stressful.
Jeff M
08 Aug 2019 ·

For runners, look up Still I Run on FB. Running for mental health. Turns out, this woman is a resident, planning to practice clinical psychology. Interesting!

Jeff M
08 Aug 2019 ·

Also, I made a joke that she said was a dad joke, and suddenly I felt very, very old. How did I get so old? What happened to my youth? Sigh...better not to think about it...

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08 Aug 2019 ·

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4 Jeff M
07 Aug 2019 ·
Tossed and turned for hours last night. Dozens of bug bites from Sat itched/hurt so bad I could barely stand it. Tough week again this week. Rain again. Feeling low and anxious.
Jeff M
07 Aug 2019 ·

I kept putting stuff on bug bites. Didn't help. Tried not to scratch, but when it hurt so bad I would scratch just for a second, and it would stop hurting for a minute. The feeling of scratching was better than anything!!!

John T
07 Aug 2019 ·

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John T
07 Aug 2019 ·

I just did my first run in a month. A horror show but I'm glad I got out and got my lungs working

John T
07 Aug 2019 ·

I've got a 10k race in 6 weeks

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07 Aug 2019 ·

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07 Aug 2019 ·

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Jeff M
08 Aug 2019 ·

That's great, @John! Glad you're getting back at it. You'll do great at the 10k. Just pace yourself!

John T
08 Aug 2019 ·

Hip flexor sore again after 12 mile walk today. Run tomorrow morning might be a bit of a short one.

Jeff M
09 Aug 2019 ·

My calf is still really sore. Running is just one pain after another. Do you have an exercise band to use for hip exercises? I guess it's supposed to help!

John T
09 Aug 2019 ·

Yeah I've got the green one for doing clamshells to help my glutes compensate. My legs are naturally strong but my glutes are virtually non existent. Just done some exercises instead of a run today. Hip and hamstring stretches lots of core stuff. Etc

Jeff M
09 Aug 2019 ·

As crappy as it is, you should run hills. Hills are great for the glutes. After my Saturday trail run last week, I was really sore, which tells me I haven't been doing enough hill training! It's also good for heartrate control!

John T
09 Aug 2019 ·

Not shortage of hills here!

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6 Jeff M
05 Aug 2019 ·
Fun weekend. Camping/relay run (3 runs about 5 hours apart on trails) meant no sleep but lots of talk and silliness. Slept hard last night, still tired, but feeling ok. Long week ahead at work.
me M
05 Aug 2019 ·

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Manda P
05 Aug 2019 ·

Happy to see some green, Jeff! Hope your work week goes well.

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05 Aug 2019 ·

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Alicia B
05 Aug 2019 ·

Yay! Seeing my panda friends in the green is great :) Makes me very happy.

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06 Aug 2019 ·

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5 Jeff M
02 Aug 2019 ·
Leg still hurts. Haven't run all week. Stomach feels off. Supposed to do relay event this weekend (noon tomorrow through like 4am Sunday). Which means no good sleep, tho should be fun. I'm tired.
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02 Aug 2019 ·

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02 Aug 2019 · NEW

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Alicia B
02 Aug 2019 ·

I had a dream about you last night, you were having a great time in it, I hope that's gonna be reality on Saturday :)

Jeff M
02 Aug 2019 ·

Aww! I can't wait! Thank you for including me in your dreams. :)

Ian D
02 Aug 2019 ·

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John T
02 Aug 2019 ·

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-49212792 jeff you should attempt this

nixiblu .
03 Aug 2019 ·

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03 Aug 2019 ·

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Manda P
03 Aug 2019 ·

Hope your weekend is going nice, Jeff!

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5 Jeff M
01 Aug 2019 ·
Finally got a better night's sleep last night. Leg still hurts, which has me worried. More training...talking for 6 hours is hard...
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01 Aug 2019 ·

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01 Aug 2019 ·

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Manda P
01 Aug 2019 ·

Hope your leg feels better soon. Glad you got a good night's sleep. That makes such a huge impact on how your day goes.

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01 Aug 2019 ·

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01 Aug 2019 ·

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Alicia B
01 Aug 2019 ·

Why did you have to talk for 6 hours? Did you give a TED talk? That would have been interesting :)

K T
02 Aug 2019 ·

I agree with Manda! Sleep has a real impact on mood and also hope your leg feels better soon! Also, I'm curious too, did you amhave to deliver a six hour training or did you just have to interact and engage for the training for 6 hours?! 🙂

K T
02 Aug 2019 ·

PS just saw one of your previous posts about MP being quiet lately. I have been super busy so haven't been on as much! Glad things have picked up a little bit for you, Jeff! Xxx

Jeff M
02 Aug 2019 ·

Ah, I deliver training. It's via webinar to remote staff. 6 hours a day pretty much straight for 4 days, then do it again next week. And the next week. It's tiring!

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02 Aug 2019 ·

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Manda P
03 Aug 2019 ·

Ugh, that does sound exhausting, Jeff!

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5 Jeff M
31 Jul 2019 ·
Met some friends I haven't seen since Xmas for dinner last night and a bourbon after at their place. So glad I went. I wouldn't have in the last few months of depression. Was nice, though...
Jeff M
31 Jul 2019 ·

Although my stomach is off this morning (from the food, I think, probably not the drink). And another long day ahead. I'm really tired this morning...

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31 Jul 2019 ·

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31 Jul 2019 ·

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01 Aug 2019 ·

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Manda P
01 Aug 2019 ·

Glad you got out & enjoyed yourself, Jeff!

K T
02 Aug 2019 ·

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K T
02 Aug 2019 ·

That sounds lovely Jeff! Well-done and happy for you! 😁

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03 Aug 2019 ·

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5 Jeff M
30 Jul 2019 ·
2-year anniversary of my Monday running group. Had at least 35 people turn out, which was so great! A fun evening. Now super stressful rest of week...Leg still hurts too. Ugh.
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30 Jul 2019 ·

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30 Jul 2019 ·

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30 Jul 2019 ·

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Alicia B
30 Jul 2019 ·

Congratulations! Hope your leg feels better soon. Let it rest!

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31 Jul 2019 ·

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01 Aug 2019 ·

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Manda P
01 Aug 2019 ·

That's a long time! Hope you've made good memories with everyone.

K T
02 Aug 2019 ·

Ah lovely! Congrats!

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5 Jeff M
29 Jul 2019 ·
Strained a muscle running on Saturday, and it really hurts. Two-year anniversary for the running group I started is tonight; hope we get a good crowd. Going to be a very stressful work week...
Jeff M
29 Jul 2019 ·

MP has seemed very quiet lately. Perhaps everyone I've been following has been busy. I'm sure I have as well. I hope everyone is doing well!

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29 Jul 2019 ·

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29 Jul 2019 ·

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Manda P
29 Jul 2019 ·

Hope your muscle feels better soon & that you have a good time tonight. I haven't been on MP much lately because I've been trying to get on my phone less. I'm sure I'll be a regular after they start school.

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29 Jul 2019 ·

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5 Jeff M
26 Jul 2019 ·
Nice hot run last night. Got told I looked no older than 30, which made me feel good. Lazy summer weekend ahead. Hoping to leave work early for the bar. Really tired this morning...
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26 Jul 2019 ·

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26 Jul 2019 ·

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Alicia B
26 Jul 2019 ·

You do look 30! Why, are you older? It must be all the running.

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27 Jul 2019 ·

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4 Jeff M
25 Jul 2019 ·
Dog had me up at 2am and then at 4. Starting the day so tired and bleary. So much work I should be doing but am not...it's untangible stuff...not sure how to tackle it, so avoiding.
Jeff M
25 Jul 2019 ·

Feeling guilt over the work thing, but ultimately, I will probably move forward and start the project without doing any of it. Which means it won't be as good. Sigh... I need so much coffee...

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27 Jul 2019 ·

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