Hope you survived your Monday. Here's to a better week!
I've been trying to figure out ways to be better, to improve, for literally decades. Why am I still trying? Why do some of us have to suffer like this day in and day out for years? Is this what life is supposed to be about?
I used to ask at what point balancing the potential for future happiness against ending the ongoing suffering would sway in one way or another. I honestly feel like way back then, I should have opted for ending the suffering.
But here it is again, another day of feeling miserable and wondering why I bother. Just another day like every other day.
I hope that you find good times amongst the fog
Hope things start to look up for you soon, Jeff. We gotta get you feeling better before winter!
The woman who helped me so much last year crewed him this year. And did so much more. Was in tears about the experience. She wasn't with me...
It's so clear I mean nothing to most people and very little to others. I just wish someone cared about me and wanted to help me. I wish I wasn't alone always.
Tempted to just leave and say I felt sick. No one will care.
Sorry you're feeling like this right now dear Jeff panda.
Jeff. We care. I'm sure they are grateful that you are helping out
Yep, you've definitely got lots of Pandas who care. Someone will see your worth & will be so thankful to have found you:
Our own amazing Jeff :) Take care of that knee, it's no laughing matter (she says after a surgery and being unable to run for almost 3 months). Be careful. Hugs!
I hope you have a good weekend ahead of you, Jeff.
Aw, I'm sorry to hear that, my friend. Hope it gets better somehow soon.
What's up Jeff? Feel better my friend xxx
Don't accuse me of interrupting because I try to participate in a conversation while you're changing the subject before I get two words out. Your ADHD doesn't mean I have to let you make everything about you.
Also, important to remember when I start feeling positive again, that things only get better so it feels that much worse when they get bad again.
You'd think I'd know these things by now. I never learn. I wish I didn't need people.
We're here for ya, Jeff. I know it's not exactly the same as IRL, but Pandas have lots of love to give. 💚
Probably talked too much. I tend to do that and feel stupid about it after (even though I don't think i said anything stupid). I always want to try to observe more and save people from having to listen to me.
Was kind of fun running in the simultaneous rain and sunshine. Weird weather yesterday! Much cooler today. Nice break, I guess.
One more day of training, then the weekend. More socializing tomorrow evening (and alcohol). Should be fun, I hope!
I know what you mean, about talking a lot and feeling stupid later. I wonder how we can fight that feeling. Happy for you!
Yay green! Glad you had such a good time. I love sunshine rains!
For runners, look up Still I Run on FB. Running for mental health. Turns out, this woman is a resident, planning to practice clinical psychology. Interesting!
Also, I made a joke that she said was a dad joke, and suddenly I felt very, very old. How did I get so old? What happened to my youth? Sigh...better not to think about it...
I kept putting stuff on bug bites. Didn't help. Tried not to scratch, but when it hurt so bad I would scratch just for a second, and it would stop hurting for a minute. The feeling of scratching was better than anything!!!
I just did my first run in a month. A horror show but I'm glad I got out and got my lungs working
I've got a 10k race in 6 weeks
That's great, @John! Glad you're getting back at it. You'll do great at the 10k. Just pace yourself!
Hip flexor sore again after 12 mile walk today. Run tomorrow morning might be a bit of a short one.
My calf is still really sore. Running is just one pain after another. Do you have an exercise band to use for hip exercises? I guess it's supposed to help!
Yeah I've got the green one for doing clamshells to help my glutes compensate. My legs are naturally strong but my glutes are virtually non existent. Just done some exercises instead of a run today. Hip and hamstring stretches lots of core stuff. Etc
As crappy as it is, you should run hills. Hills are great for the glutes. After my Saturday trail run last week, I was really sore, which tells me I haven't been doing enough hill training! It's also good for heartrate control!
Not shortage of hills here!
Happy to see some green, Jeff! Hope your work week goes well.
Yay! Seeing my panda friends in the green is great :) Makes me very happy.
I had a dream about you last night, you were having a great time in it, I hope that's gonna be reality on Saturday :)
Aww! I can't wait! Thank you for including me in your dreams. :)
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-49212792 jeff you should attempt this
Hope your weekend is going nice, Jeff!
Hope your leg feels better soon. Glad you got a good night's sleep. That makes such a huge impact on how your day goes.
Why did you have to talk for 6 hours? Did you give a TED talk? That would have been interesting :)
I agree with Manda! Sleep has a real impact on mood and also hope your leg feels better soon! Also, I'm curious too, did you amhave to deliver a six hour training or did you just have to interact and engage for the training for 6 hours?! 🙂
PS just saw one of your previous posts about MP being quiet lately. I have been super busy so haven't been on as much! Glad things have picked up a little bit for you, Jeff! Xxx
Ah, I deliver training. It's via webinar to remote staff. 6 hours a day pretty much straight for 4 days, then do it again next week. And the next week. It's tiring!
Ugh, that does sound exhausting, Jeff!
Although my stomach is off this morning (from the food, I think, probably not the drink). And another long day ahead. I'm really tired this morning...
Glad you got out & enjoyed yourself, Jeff!
That sounds lovely Jeff! Well-done and happy for you! 😁
Congratulations! Hope your leg feels better soon. Let it rest!
That's a long time! Hope you've made good memories with everyone.
Ah lovely! Congrats!
MP has seemed very quiet lately. Perhaps everyone I've been following has been busy. I'm sure I have as well. I hope everyone is doing well!
Hope your muscle feels better soon & that you have a good time tonight. I haven't been on MP much lately because I've been trying to get on my phone less. I'm sure I'll be a regular after they start school.
You do look 30! Why, are you older? It must be all the running.
Feeling guilt over the work thing, but ultimately, I will probably move forward and start the project without doing any of it. Which means it won't be as good. Sigh... I need so much coffee...