Lack of proper sleep puts me all out of sorts, too. Hope you get a better sleep tonight (depending on your time zone). <3
Great news about your show!
It's always about squeezing what should be done in 3 months in 6 weeks and yet not lowering expectations or helping increase our ability to do the work well. All the blame, never the credit. Sigh...
Sounds familiar :D Are you a translator by any chance? I know this happens in many professions. Stay strong, you are the man who ran 1 ***ing hundred ***ing miles, oh my ***ing god, how the *** did you do that! Anyway, you rock.
Nope, I'm a trainer (we train the new people and develop all the training and support materials). And thank you, Alicia. (Technically I did 100k which is ~65 miles, but I'll take it! :) )
Have tomorrow off, but have so much to do tomorrow. Feeling sore and tired and fighting a cold.
You rock! As a new (again) runner, I admire your stamina, both physical and psychological. I'll never be able to do what you do. (I do NOT have the psychological component). You are amazing.
Sounds like maybe you need to rest tomorrow? That other stuff will still be there xx
Thank you, all. @Alicia - I struggle with the mental aspect more than the physical too. Takes just as much training!
I always have anxiety about races, but it's excitement too. I've done this one (called a stage race) the last few years, and it's always cold. So I'll survive. Important to embrace discomfort, I guess.
I'm still sore from last weekend's running, and did 5 miles Wed morning, 6 last night, then this weekend, then a few Monday evening with my group. Going to be very sore!
But we have Monday off work, so that will be nice! One day to get my weekend things done, makes the rest of the weekend a little easier!
Good plan with day off, Jeff!! Enjoy the training! Hope you don't get too sore!
You have the most dedication of anyone I know, Jeff. Well done!!
Hope you can manage to keep the stress in line over the busy work ahead. Be sure to take time for yourself.
Do you host a radio show?! Is that your job?? 😊
PS Hope your mood picks up soon Jeff!
@KTA - not my job, just a volunteer thing at a local community radio station (ultra low power). Fun way to play music and not worry about other stuff for two hours once a week!
Fair play, Jeff!!
I know what you mean Jeff, sometimes because this state is familiar it's like I almost crave it. The happy me is somehow alien and not natural. Big hugs.
So many stupid little things. Planned to run today, had like 8 people going to join, only one did. Grateful he did, but body didn't like it. Felt so out of it, chest tight, legs really sore. Back hurts, which is a new one.
Often go out for football, but no one told me about it this week or invited me or anything. I don't understand it.
Just so pathetic. When I get like this, I usually just go to bed. It's so dark now because of the time change. So early. I just want to sleep and sleep. Feel like crap.
I used to ask myself, when I was at my lowest so many years ago, at what point the potential for happiness was outweighed by the misery of daily life and you'd be better off - logically thinking - ending it.
I've come to realize that that point was a long time ago. But I've always been a coward.
oh Jeff, please don't be so hard of yourself! Can't you see how brave and strong you are for pushing theough in spite of all this?! Hell, everytime I see you post about running (eg recently you said: “only 5 miles”), it makes me reflect on how I am
always thinking about getting back into it/thinking about buying new gear but feel I shouldn't as likely I won't keep it up. Cringeworthy and cliché as it may sound your positivity (usually though perhaps right now), or perhaps more accurately your
balanced approach to dealing with negativity/challenges inspires me, truly! You give good, wise, advice in a supportive, warma and kind way. . . I have had experiences where people leave me out, or maybe it's that they just don't think to include me.
Maybe sometimes it's a result of the fact of timing - they are all in same place at same time/in contact with another and a spontaneous plan arises. It's too late notice or illogical to invite another person because they mightn't live nearby/may be
busy etc. . . It does suck to find out that friends have met up without you after the fact but it is not always intentional and not always due to the reasons we find ourselves thinking up (which are often negative thoughts about ourselves/assuming
others don't really like us etc.) . . . You have had a bit of a rough time. Some things didn't go to plan and you had some disappointments. But you are not worthless. Not to me and not to many other pandas here, I am sure. And you are most definitely
not alone. . . As regards running, maybe your body is just telling you that you need a bit of a break! Try to take it a bit easier in yourself mentally, emotionally and physically for a couple of days, coast this low phase out! You once told me
yourself about practicing self kindness, the wolves analogy. Try to hold that in mind now. Don't feed the angry wolf. Hope your mood picks up soon Jeff xxx
Focus on things that make your heart feel good.
Thank you, pandas...
I admire you for your endurance, Jeff Bear! This too shall pass and you'll remember how super awesome you are ❤️
Finished watching Sons of Anarchy this morning. Really liked that show. Ending affected me...
Sorry you're feeling low. It'll pass, right? That's what I keep telling myself and John keeps telling me :) I should check Sons of Anarchy, shouldn't I? :)
Hope you are feeling a bit better now Jeff x
Still not feeling great. Definitely fighting something. Blah. Dog got me up 2 hours after I went to sleep so he could go outside. Poor night's sleep, up too early, feeling really sluggish this morning.
Hopefully you can get some rest this weekend?
Hope you have a restful weekend
My stomach was really bothering me yesterday (even before the bar), and it seems better today, so that's good. It's another rainy, dreary, cool day...like every day lately. Sick of this crummy weather and running in it! :/
Good to read your stomach is hopefully settling down. I hope today will be a better one for you, despite the weather.
The race usually sells out in less than 5 minutes!
Floor guy is supposed to come finish his work this morning. We'll see if he actually does this time.
Supposed to go get dinner (so not home for halloween kids) tonight with my friend. Yet again, he has other plans. Actually acknowledged he's been a bad friend lately. He really has. If I had anyone else, it wouldn't bother me as much.
So tonight I will be at some bar by myself drinking too much and eating crap later than I want to be out. That sucks.
Woo-hoo!!! Hooray for some nice people! Glad you have found a new group. Hope it continues to work out. Well done on not giving up. It always pays off! 😊
So glad to hear this, dear Jeffbear!
Welldone Jeff! You are being proactive, exercising, socialising! You're taking all the right steps, welldone!
PS I'm glad the running group you started is working out! You must (or should be! 😉) proud that it is going well 😁🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽
Even the dog didn't want to get up this morning. I spilled my coffee all over my kitchen so had to clean that up and move things around. Great start...
Sorry to hear you're feeling that way Jeff. Is there something you could do to cheer you up a bit? I guess running outdoors might not be so appealing in the weather you have but is there something else you could do? Watch a movie/read a book/listen
to music/call a friend or better still invite them over or arrange to go out? Hope the weather picks up but in the meantime, try and lift your mood and not let dreary weather put your life/happiness on hold. If you are not in the mood right now, just
remember that things will change - the weather will change and so will your mood. Neither are permanent! 👊🏽
Gotta stop using Facebook. Just see all the things people I'm 'friends' with doing things to which I'm not invited. FOMO is real...Sad that people don't want me around or don't even think about me to invite me.
My friend who lost his wife has barely been around at all. I feel bad, like guilty for thinking anything negative as he's learning to cope and all. But you know, I need a friend too...
Knock on his door with a crate of beer.
So sorry to hear that... But maybe you have one or two real friends who invite you, who go to a pub with you etc.? It's sometimes better to have few friends like that.
@Anna I don't really have those friends. He was the one who might do that. I see people sometimes, when it's convenient for them.
John's idea sounds good. Sometimes we do have to take the initiative, and that may lead to them thinking of us more often and inviting us. I don't have any great answers, dear Jeff. Just wish I lived near you so I could be that friend. There is alway
Skype, though I know that's not the same as being there.
Will probably run on the treadmill, but it's not the same. Going to be a boring weekend, no one around, nothing planned.
Hope your weekend is okay xx
I wish I had a treadmill but I would struggle to use it because I can't even manage yoga! Hope you are surprised & have an enjoyable weekend, Jeff.
I know the feeling.. but a treadmill is at least some kind of exercise? That's how I think about that. I've been doing pilates for 2 weeks now because I'm not allowed to run. Hope your weekend will be okay in the end. Sometimes some me time can be qu
Ite nice. How's your dog doing by the way? 😊
My dog's doing good. We had a fun day playing yesterday!