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3 Sad S
14 Mar 2017 ·
Still not feeling it -- to work. And still not waking up when I want to. Why isn't this rut going away. Feel so empty.
Jeff M
14 Mar 2017 ·

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14 Mar 2017 ·

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2 Sad S
21 Feb 2016 ·
Every time I check my phone. I know there won't be any notifications for me. And even if there's a reply..a quick text from a friend isn't going to fix the incurable angst :p. Need to do something :/
Kerri M
22 Feb 2016 ·

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22 Feb 2016 ·

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22 Feb 2016 ·

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7 Sad S
20 Feb 2016 ·
#flow! Too bad library was closing. Or maybe that was my impetus to get going. Regardless. Finally felt a work high. Felt good!
Kerri M
22 Feb 2016 ·

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22 Feb 2016 ·

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5 Sad S
08 Feb 2016 ·
Good to put higher moods here too. Usually higher moods during the day time [for a bit]. Just got to the coworking spot. 1st time before noon. Feels good and motivating to be around productive people!
Rebekah B
08 Feb 2016 ·

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08 Feb 2016 ·

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08 Feb 2016 ·

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4 Sad S
07 Feb 2016 ·
Sucks - the impossible to explain lonely-ish feelings creeped back again. Even tho I've been out of the house at coworking for the day. Here's to hoping it is cuz of slight disappointment w/ work amt
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07 Feb 2016 ·

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07 Feb 2016 ·

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07 Feb 2016 ·

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3 Sad S
28 Jan 2016 ·
!dual mood - 2nd. | So w/o @R, semi on my own for working and deciding how to proceed, mainly on my own. Trying #hope a few gambles can work. Main issue - loneliness from holding me back & screwing me
Lucy M
28 Jan 2016 ·

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28 Jan 2016 ·

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28 Jan 2016 ·

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2 Sad S
28 Jan 2016 ·
!dual mood - 1st. | Talked to @R. Selfishly. Huge let down. He is doing alright. And in his own zone. Plus once he has a job he'all move anyway...so on my own? Just #cried. Failed so long..have hope??
Lucy M
28 Jan 2016 ·

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28 Jan 2016 ·

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4 Sad S
28 Jan 2016 ·
K messaged @R again & again. See where he is at mindset wise. No reply yet. Texted @bro summarizing introspection. some ideas to try. To get grind going, avoid lonely thots, get [hypo mania] going! :p
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28 Jan 2016 ·

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28 Jan 2016 ·

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3 Sad S
28 Jan 2016 ·
Lots of introspection. Realizations etc. yesterday talk with another avpd disorder person got me thinking after another low. Trying to see if can do stuff about some of the root feelings of prev post!
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28 Jan 2016 ·

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28 Jan 2016 ·

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28 Jan 2016 ·

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1 Sad S
28 Jan 2016 ·
Again. Didn't get work done. Normally alone all day. Good friend today. But w/ no work and him gone for nite - feelings of #sadness #failure #worthless #hopeless. exasperated by avpd issues..heh..
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28 Jan 2016 ·

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28 Jan 2016 ·

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1 Sad S
20 Jan 2016 ·
Heh. Again. Ah man. This sucks. Another day of nothing. I know what work I have to do...sure it won't fix these annoying contradictory moods of loneliness biterness and self-negative ***. Will help..
Taryn H
20 Jan 2016 ·

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20 Jan 2016 ·

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20 Jan 2016 ·

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1 Sad S
19 Jan 2016 ·
God damn it..why don't I just do the work I need to do...each day just goes by. Let temptation get to me.
Taryn H
20 Jan 2016 ·

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20 Jan 2016 ·

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1 Sad S
15 Sep 2015 ·
Another day gone. Even after bottoming out. Did nothing. Damn...
Jenna J
15 Sep 2015 ·

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15 Sep 2015 ·

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15 Sep 2015 ·

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15 Sep 2015 ·

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Nay S
15 Sep 2015 ·

Don't beat yourself up about it

Allison K
15 Sep 2015 ·

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15 Sep 2015 ·

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1 Sad S
15 Sep 2015 ·
Walking outside before. Damn. This is def the lowest I've felt in ages. I'm guessing since 2012? But going through iOS Reminders. man. I had nothing or thought of myself that way before. Ugh. This rut
Reba H
15 Sep 2015 ·

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15 Sep 2015 ·

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15 Sep 2015 ·

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15 Sep 2015 ·

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15 Sep 2015 ·

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1 Sad S
15 Sep 2015 ·
Man. Work not getting done. Just keep letting myself be distracted with this or that. It would be one thing if errands and important stuff like getting dr apt refills and new groceries were being done
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15 Sep 2015 ·

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Dietrich G
15 Sep 2015 ·

I know that situation, and it sucks. Congrats on catching yourself, however momentarily.

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15 Sep 2015 ·

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3 Sad S
06 Sep 2015 ·
Just did 3 moods for today. Going to try to be positive. Like @LZ said yrs ago b4 ending things. Y do i let ppl parents etc bring me down to point of me not reaching my goals. Grit, self-control - plz
Jenna J
06 Sep 2015 ·

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06 Sep 2015 ·

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06 Sep 2015 ·

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06 Sep 2015 ·

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3 Sad S
05 Sep 2015 ·
Felt alright at this time. Even a bit upbeat w/ getting work done since @RA was leaving so early. Maybe end rut I thought. Sun still out. This is right before mom stuff..how quickly downward. Fight!
Jenna J
06 Sep 2015 ·

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1 Sad S
06 Sep 2015 ·
Damn. 5 hours just passed by. Today passed by faster than any day. Chased Fitbit steps goal..not needed at this time. Only other thing was quick meal of random stuff and looking for desk for @RA et al
Jenna J
06 Sep 2015 ·

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1 Sad S
06 Sep 2015 ·
Wow. So weird. Just felt completely hopeless and didn't feel like fighting the self-pity I should fight. I'm safe in a US burb. Life isn't that bad. But I gave up mentally. Laid down for a while.
Jenna J
06 Sep 2015 ·

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1 Sad S
05 Sep 2015 ·
Angry AF. No work since being back. Not rut all over? And then mom bothered @RA. Who's doing me a favor while I have no car in burbs. Coming over to work alongside me. Worried he won't again.
Jenna J
06 Sep 2015 ·

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