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2 Shelby S
28 Mar 2015 ·
I've been MIA for so long! I'm sorry pandas :( I was doing good for quite some time & I usually distance myself from social media as I'm 'living in the present' but something's have really...
Shelby S
28 Mar 2015 ·

Negatively affected me and currently I just need some support right now.

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28 Mar 2015 ·

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28 Mar 2015 ·

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28 Mar 2015 ·

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28 Mar 2015 ·

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Orchid C
28 Mar 2015 ·

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Orchid C
28 Mar 2015 ·

Sorry you're going through a really toygh time right now Shelby, reallt hope things improve again for you :)

Melody T
28 Mar 2015 ·

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Melody T
28 Mar 2015 ·

We're here for you!

Shelby S
28 Mar 2015 ·

Thank you so much everyone! I truly mean it from the bottom of my heart. I wish I could just have one giant group hug with all of you.

Jodie A
28 Mar 2015 ·

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Shelby S
28 Mar 2015 ·

Thanks Jodie! *hugs*

Reba C
28 Mar 2015 ·

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Shelby S
28 Mar 2015 ·

Thanks Becca! *hugs*

Cindy M
28 Mar 2015 ·

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Cindy M
28 Mar 2015 ·

nice to see a post from you, Shelby - wondered how you were. big hugs - the Panda family is here for you!

Shelby S
28 Mar 2015 ·

Awww, thanks Cindy! I okay, wish things were better, but I'll take an okay day over a crappy one.

Esther B
28 Mar 2015 ·

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Esther B
28 Mar 2015 ·

hope you feel better soon. sending positive vibes

Shelby S
28 Mar 2015 ·

Thank you so much Esther!

Anna .
28 Mar 2015 ·

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Shelby S
28 Mar 2015 ·

Thanks Anna!

Manda P
28 Mar 2015 ·

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Manda P
28 Mar 2015 ·

Thinking of you, Shelby!

Tasha S
28 Mar 2015 ·

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Shelby S
28 Mar 2015 ·

Thanks Amanda & Tasha! *hugs*

Sarah M
28 Mar 2015 ·

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Sarah M
28 Mar 2015 ·

glad that you came back, knowing that you need support and we'll be here for you x

Shelby S
28 Mar 2015 ·

Thanks Sarah, it feels good to know I will has have this Moodpanda family supporting me. *hugs*

Darren G
29 Mar 2015 ·

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Shelby S
29 Mar 2015 ·

Thanks Darren! *hugs*

Tuxi A
29 Mar 2015 ·

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Shelby S
29 Mar 2015 ·

Thank you, Tuxi! *hugs*

Trisha H
30 Mar 2015 ·

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Shelby S
30 Mar 2015 ·

Thank you, Trisha! *hugs*

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2 Shelby S
11 Feb 2015 ·
Today, I mindlessly thought I felt ready to sign forms to pick up the paper work dealing with my trauma history. I did it w/out thinking. Now my mind is a swirling vortex of terror.
Shelby S
11 Feb 2015 ·

All I can do is go between crying & hurting so badly to telling myself to suck it up. I wish I could numb it all out forever. Hopefully this Xanax & trazodone will calm me & put me to sleep.

Catasha M
11 Feb 2015 · NEW

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Catasha M
11 Feb 2015 · NEW

Remember Self care. hugs!

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11 Feb 2015 ·

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11 Feb 2015 ·

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Shelby S
11 Feb 2015 ·

Thanks Pandas! I'm really trying think of all the eventual positives doing this may bring. Even if now it seems hard. @Catasha- today so far I've put my self-care as a top priority.

John S
11 Feb 2015 ·

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Shelby S
11 Feb 2015 ·

Thank you, John S.

Sarah M
11 Feb 2015 ·

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Manda P
13 Feb 2015 ·

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27 Feb 2015 ·

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Paige B
10 Aug 2015 · NEW

i feel this way a lot :(

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3 Shelby S
18 Jan 2015 ·
Forgot to take all my meds today or maybe I just don't give a crap anymore. My sister told me that no one listens to me and the only reason my therapist does is because I pay him. So much for family..
Shelby S
18 Jan 2015 ·

Also I can't sleep... But then again I didn't take any meds.

Katie L
18 Jan 2015 ·

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18 Jan 2015 ·

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18 Jan 2015 ·

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mik W
18 Jan 2015 ·

Ouch! What a thing to say to your own sibling ...

Rach .
18 Jan 2015 ·

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Rach .
18 Jan 2015 ·

Wow - that is a very spiteful thing to say. We listen to you. You are important and valid and extremely worthwhile. Don't listen to those who are saying things in anger or are mean-spirited. You have support,

Rawr M
18 Jan 2015 ·

Ugh. Your sister sounds like a real jerk. So what if you pay your therapist? Your therapist is there to help you.

Rawr M
18 Jan 2015 ·

And being a therapist is an emotionally stressful job, so those who go into it do it because they want to make a difference in others' lives! Take it from someone who wanted to be a therapist but broke under the pressure.

Sarah M
18 Jan 2015 ·

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Tasha S
18 Jan 2015 ·

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18 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
18 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you everyone for listening and commenting. I wish I could hug you all in person! *big hugs*

Shelby S
18 Jan 2015 ·

Rach- thanks for the pep talk. It's nice sometimes to be reassured I'm not as crappy as people make me feel sometimes.

Shelby S
18 Jan 2015 ·

Rawr- thank you for the support. I'm sorry you broke under pressure. You sound like you would of made a good therapist. *hugs*

Tuxi A
18 Jan 2015 ·

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Tuxi A
18 Jan 2015 ·

Sisters can be mean, sometimes... Maybe she was just angry and didn't really mean it... Sometimes people say stupid things...

Manda P
18 Jan 2015 ·

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Manda P
18 Jan 2015 ·

I agree with Tuxi. Sisters can be awfully mean to each other. We can say just the right thing to get at each other. Try not to let it affect you. You do pay your therapist, but they wouldn't have gone into the profession if they didn't care.

Shelby S
18 Jan 2015 ·

Tuxi & Amanda- yeah sisters know exactly how to push just the right buttons. It just hurts because she knows how hard starting therapy was for me. Ughh low blows suck.

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2 Shelby S
14 Jan 2015 ·
Incredibly anxious; on the outside nobody in my house suspects a thing. On the inside I feel like I'm going to implode. Keeping it hidden is exhausting.
Sarah M
14 Jan 2015 ·

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Sarah M
14 Jan 2015 ·

yes, keeping it hidden is very tiring. Hope you can release a bit on here where you can say things as they are x

Mel
14 Jan 2015 ·

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Jodie A
14 Jan 2015 ·

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Jodie A
14 Jan 2015 ·

Keeping it hidden is so hard, I can really relate Shelby. As Sarah M says we are all here to listen on MP. Take care of yourself

Cindy M
15 Jan 2015 ·

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Cindy M
15 Jan 2015 ·

I can relate too, Shelby - keeping the 'happy' or even 'I'm okay' face on is unbelievably wearing.

Shelby S
15 Jan 2015 ·

It's good to know I'm not alone. I just having a hard time being this anxious. I become almost dysfunctional and then depressed.

Shelby S
15 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you, Sarah, Mel, Jodie and Cindy.

Kat E
15 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
15 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you, Kat.

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Tuxi A
15 Jan 2015 ·

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Manda P
15 Jan 2015 ·

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Manda P
15 Jan 2015 ·

I understand crippling anxiety & how it is magnified when you can't express it. Hope you feel better soon. *extra hugs*

Shelby S
15 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you, Tuxi & Anna!

Shelby S
15 Jan 2015 ·

Amanda- I've had my therapy session today and my therapist helped me work through most of it. Also thank you so much *hugs*

Tasha S
17 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
17 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you, Tasha.

Paige B
10 Aug 2015 · NEW

i have horrible anxiety I hope you feel better :(

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2 Shelby S
09 Jan 2015 ·
Ptsd trigger happened tonight... Really ***ty way to end such a good string of days. Feeling defeated.
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09 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
10 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you everyone! Sorry, I didn't thank each of you individually, but I needed a day to just take care of myself. *hugs*

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7 Shelby S
09 Jan 2015 ·
Class wasn't canceled, froze my butt off, but today was really good, so far I understand orgo. Had a session with my therapist & gave him his late Christmas gift & he was really excited. 2015 = great!
Erin S
09 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
09 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you, Erin! *hugs*

Cindy M
09 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
09 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you, Cindy!

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6 Shelby S
08 Jan 2015 ·
Really praying that classes are canceled because I'm not looking forward to leaving my warm bed for the -25 degree wind chill.
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08 Jan 2015 ·

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08 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
08 Jan 2015 ·

Thanks Everyone! Currently watching the news this morning to see! Fingers crossed!

Lauren I
08 Jan 2015 ·

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Tuxi A
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Shelby S
09 Jan 2015 ·

Thanks everyone! Class wasn't canceled but I bundled up like an Eskimo!

Steven C
09 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
09 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you Steven!

Steven C
09 Jan 2015 ·

You're Welcome Shelby :)

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7 Shelby S
07 Jan 2015 ·
Kinda upset I slept in till 1:00 pm, but am glad that I woke up refreshed and happy.
Holly S
07 Jan 2015 ·

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08 Jan 2015 ·

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7 Shelby S
06 Jan 2015 ·
School went really, really well today! It's such a relief to have the first day over. Organic Chem went really well, fixed enrollment issue, and challenged my anxiety/fears. YAY ME!!!
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06 Jan 2015 ·

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Janet I
06 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
06 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you, Janet & Anna! :)

Anna .
06 Jan 2015 ·

:)

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06 Jan 2015 ·

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06 Jan 2015 ·

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06 Jan 2015 ·

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Debi C
07 Jan 2015 ·

Yippee!! HAZAAH! Congrats! :->. Hugs!

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07 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
07 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you guys!!!

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3 Shelby S
06 Jan 2015 ·
I just read my syllabus for each of my classes & I'm soooo anxious. Probably won't sleep well tonight. Plus I have to go to school early to fix an enrollment issue for orgo = contact with people :(
Pseudo Bear !
06 Jan 2015 ·

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Pseudo Bear !
06 Jan 2015 ·

You'll be fine. Used to be a college instructor. Get to know yours early so they out a face to a name and it will pay off later.

Anna .
06 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
06 Jan 2015 ·

Thank you, Pseudo for the kind words. I do usually get to know my professors. That's how I got to be a pathology TA.

Shelby S
06 Jan 2015 ·

Also thank you, Anna!

Kat E
06 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
06 Jan 2015 ·

Thanks Kat!

Cindy M
06 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
06 Jan 2015 ·

Thanks Cindy!

Reba C
06 Jan 2015 ·

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Shelby S
06 Jan 2015 ·

Thanks Becca.

Tasha S
06 Jan 2015 ·

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06 Jan 2015 ·

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