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5 Manda P
10h ·
Brother said he'd come over today & then ditched. Says he'll come Thursday. He better or I'll have a very disappointed daughter. Therapy tomorrow. Not really much to talk about. Argued w/BF earlier.
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8h ·

I hate it when they do that, my sister does this to me all the time. Hope he comes tomorrow

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I hope he does come - and that your session is helpful x

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8 Manda P
3d ·
Well, I did my 6 double shots in an hour & an half & feel good. Insisted on skipping lunch so I could enjoy the full effect. Logistics problem, but BF caved. I guess this will be alright. Here, here!
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2 Manda P
3d ·
F*cking pissed! BF realized he'd been doing alcohol calculations wrong & now I only get a 'handle' of Fireball every THREE months with 6 shots a week. This is so f*cking stupid. I hate his control.
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Esther B
3d ·

I'm sorry to read this. I think you can make your own decisions but I don't want to sound rude or offend your bf.

Manda P
3d ·

Yeah, he's probably right because I do tend to go overboard with the alcohol, but this seems ridiculous. Thanks for your input. <3

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5 Manda P
4d ·
EXHAUSTED! Have been cleaning since 7:30AM minus a shower & loads of laundry. Finally calling it quits @1PM. Going to watch TV. Getting Fireball tonight. BF says I can't drink it when their not home.
stephen B
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stephen B
4d ·

Yours is a very hippy panda are you hippy in real life ?? x

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Manda P
4d ·

No, not really unless you factor in that I like marijuana! =P I guess I'm all for peace too. I just want everyone to be happy.

stephen B
4d ·

I feel the same less hate more love ...

stephen B
4d ·

Did you see my last post Manda ?

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Jeff M
4d ·

Ooo fireball night! :)

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Binky B
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Wow you have been busy, well done :-) x

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Manda P
10h ·

Which post, Stephen? I'm not sure if I did. Thanks for all the hugs, Pandas. You are all so very kind. <3

stephen B
9h ·

it was just if you fancied chatting more on fb i put the details of how to find me on one of my posts Mandy

Manda P
9h ·

I will look you up, Stephen.

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7 Manda P
6d ·
Feeling much better now that BF's job is secure. Doing nothing today except watch TV. Haven't been going back to bed in the mornings & staying up later in the evenings. Trileptal dose change working.
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2 Manda P
7d ·
Very upset & worried. Conference w/daughter's teacher went well EXCEPT FOR THE PART WHEN THE PRINCIPAL SAID SHE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ABOUT BF ASKING FOR GRADE CHANGE & DAUGHTER BEING IN HIS CLASS
Jeff M
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Jeff M
7d ·

Yes, that's awkward. But I suppose you can understand their point, and I hope your bf is able to convince them that it's completely separate from his role there! I'm sure things will work out ok, even if the grade isn't adjusted.

Manda P
7d ·

NEXT YEAR. BF & I were a mess when we got home. He even cried & the only time I've seen him cry is when daughter was born. Ever since he started that position, he has looked forward to teaching daughter more than anything. He is having a meeting...

Manda P
7d ·

...with the principal today or tomorrow to find out what will happen. All signs are pointing towards everything being fine, but there is still that chance. I cried quite a bit when we got home. I know how much he loves teaching those classes & all...

Manda P
7d ·

...the work he's putting in to giving the students their best possible experience with him. He always goes over the maximum number of points on his evaluations because he does such a good job & shows the highest growth of the student's test scores...

Manda P
7d ·

...at the end of the year. He will be devastated if they move him to a different position. Please send good vibes or pray or whatever you do that this will work out for him. We are so worried.

Manda P
7d ·

Jeff, we accepted the grade wouldn't be adjusted & were fine with it. The principal didn't even know the gifted kids were working on graded assignments with regular ed & we got the feeling there will be a stop to it. We've never questioned...

Manda P
7d ·

...daughter's bad grades. It was just this one that we felt was unfair having gifted students grades with regular ed. Anyway, what's done is done. Now we wait. There are other teachers that have had their children as students & it had never been a...

Manda P
7d ·

...problem. And BF says he sometimes changes grades if a student or parent requests that it be reassessed.

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Manda P
7d ·

Thank you for your kind words though. You're a good Panda.

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Esther B
7d ·

I'm sorry to read this Manda. Hopefully the talk between your bf and principal will have a positive outcome. Thinking of you x

Manda P
7d ·

Thank you, Esther. You are a sweetie. xx And thank you, Yondie, for the hug!

Natalie C
7d ·

Fingers crossed for the best posdible outcome for this meeting. Keep us updated xx

Jeff M
7d ·

Ah, I hope this doesn't impact his ability to have your daughter in his class! So sweet to hear that's so important to him and that he cares so much!

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Mandy O
6d ·

My fingers are crossed for you all Manda! X

Binky B
6d ·

Good luck Manda, sounds like your bf does a great job at the school x

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6d ·

Thanks Manda P

Manda P
6d ·

Thanks for all the hugs & well wishes, Pandas. It worked because he gets to keep his position & daughter isn't being removed from the gifted class. What a relief it was to find out!

Jeff M
6d ·

That's great news!!

Rorschach T
6d ·

Good to hear

Mandy O
6d ·

Great news :D

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6 Manda P
17 Mar 2017 ·
'Sex' dream involving multiple people & handcuffs, but with clothes on. Wtf? Wasn't even BF, just some random guy I went to school with & people I didn't know. So weird. Bro never called yesterday.
Ali H
17 Mar 2017 ·

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Ali H
17 Mar 2017 ·

It's amazing the dreams we can have it makes you wonder what makes us dream of things like that

Rorschach T
17 Mar 2017 ·

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Rorschach T
17 Mar 2017 ·

Dreams are always interesting metaphors. So symbolic. I love interpreting them for people, but I need to ask questions for it to work (so I can't do yours unfortunately). Everything has a symbolic meaning for you though

Alena S
17 Mar 2017 ·

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paul M
17 Mar 2017 ·

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paul M
17 Mar 2017 ·

I'm not picky, I take any sex dream :)

Cindy M
18 Mar 2017 ·

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Manda P
18 Mar 2017 ·

Ha, paul! Last night was a sex dream too except I was raped by a cult leader. Not good. Not sure why I've dreamt about sex two nights in a row. I hardly ever do. And the same amount of sex is happening in real life so that's not it.

stephen B
4d ·

You do make me smile Manda P .. I love the sex / romantic dreams that make you wake up feeling all warm and comforted :)

Rorschach T
3d ·

Ummm, you may want to read Manda's last comment again Stephen :/ Sorry to hear you had such a terrible dream like that Manda :( Are you feeling overpowered by someone in your life at the moment?

stephen B
3d ·

I do apologise I don't know how i Missed that :(

Rorschach T
3d ·

(An honest mistake, it happens)

Manda P
3d ·

I always feel overpowered by my BF. He has complete control of my life. No worries, Stephen. .=)

Rorschach T
2d ·

Sorry to hear Manda. That's what I think your dream is about though. :(

Manda P
10h ·

Thanks, Rorschach. I guess I can say it's gotten better over the years. He still tries to control everything, but every once & awhile I'm able to stick to my guns on something.

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5 Manda P
16 Mar 2017 ·
Brother taking me to lunch today. Emailed daughter's teach bcuz she got bad grade on group project. Others didn't do their part. Bringing Science grade to B+. One tenth of point would be A-. Pissed.
Manda P
16 Mar 2017 ·

Well, already heard back from teacher & she has decided not to change the grade even after admitting it was that project that did it. Daughter is in a gifted class & they merged with a regular ed class for it. I find this unfair. We have many other..

Manda P
16 Mar 2017 ·

...other complaints & she had agreed to to a conference with a f*cking administrator present. BF works at the same school as her & they have clashed many times so this will be fun *insert sarcasm*. I will have to list all the concerns we've had all..

Manda P
16 Mar 2017 ·

...year. I have severe social anxiety & am extremely quiet around people outside of immediate family. NOT looking forward to this!

Jeff M
16 Mar 2017 ·

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Jeff M
16 Mar 2017 ·

Maybe your BF can lead this meeting and you can support him in it? In the grand scheme of things, a B+/A- probably won't make much of a difference. But your daughter is lucky to have you going to bat for her! Good luck, Mandabear!

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16 Mar 2017 ·

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16 Mar 2017 ·

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Rorschach T
16 Mar 2017 ·

Hope you get through this ok Manda. Anxiety is debilitating

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16 Mar 2017 ·

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Love 1
17 Mar 2017 ·

I think that's helpful advice, Jeff.

Manda P
17 Mar 2017 ·

Yeah, he said to just back him up & follow his lead. The grade isn't a big deal, it's just the principal of the thing. We have a long list of complaints going in. It should be somewhat interesting at least! Thanks for the support & hugs, Pandas. xx

Cindy M
18 Mar 2017 ·

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18 Mar 2017 ·

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Natalie C
18 Mar 2017 ·

Good luck with the conference, your daughters lucky to have you fight her corner x

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3 Manda P
15 Mar 2017 ·
Spiraled into hole of negative thoughts about things from past. Used to obsess over them, but hadn't thought them in a long time. Took 8mg of Klonopin & cleaned. Don't know what happened. TV now.
stephen B
15 Mar 2017 ·

HI Manda , i had a relapse in my illness and I have negative thoughts about the past that have resurfaced , the things is they are irrelevant and not nasty like some people have but once they creep in I become obsessive even paranoid about them

stephen B
15 Mar 2017 ·

and know a large part of them my brain has made up x x x

Noel L
15 Mar 2017 ·

Hi Mandarin sorry to hear about your negative thoughts. They hurt me a lot and I hope you can get relief from them soon.

Noel L
15 Mar 2017 ·

Meant Mandarin sorry about that. Auto correct rules my phone.

paul M
15 Mar 2017 ·

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Manda P
15 Mar 2017 ·

Thank you, Pandas. I was in a Bipolar episode at this exact time last year so maybe one is starting. I will have to be on top of it. Negative thoughts can ruin me.

stephen B
15 Mar 2017 ·

I think the negative thoughts make episodes worse and seem to last far longer than the low ,, in my experience , thats why i try my best at mindfullness / cbt etc to stop the thoughts and my mood lifts quicker x x

Jeff M
15 Mar 2017 ·

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Jeff M
15 Mar 2017 ·

Those thoughts surface, and we feed them and make them BIG and IMPORTANT. Have to just notice them and let them go. Mindfulness, as stephen mentioned. I get it, but can't really practice it myself. But they're just thoughts.

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16 Mar 2017 ·

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Luna G
16 Mar 2017 ·

I so understand the spiral, I know it really sucks, I'm sorry.

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16 Mar 2017 ·

<3

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16 Mar 2017 ·

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Natalie C
16 Mar 2017 ·

Big hugs <3

Manda P
16 Mar 2017 ·

Thanks again, Pandas. You are all so supportive & caring. I distracted myself with TV & they went away. I try to tell myself to stop & there are no reasons to be doing it, but it doesn't work. Really need to get into that mindfulness & meditation.

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16 Mar 2017 ·

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6 Manda P
11 Mar 2017 ·
Didn't go to town yesterday, so went today. Made 4 stops & managed to keep spending in check. Weather is cold, but sunny. Going to relax the rest of the weekend. Which basically means read in bed!
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11 Mar 2017 ·

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11 Mar 2017 ·

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Esther B
11 Mar 2017 ·

Way to go!!

Binky B
11 Mar 2017 ·

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Binky B
11 Mar 2017 ·

Sounds like bliss.

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