Hope it is going well and you have fun, lovely Manda Panda.
Hope you're having fun.xx
Hope you're having a great weekend, Manda!
Thank you, Pandas! I ended up mowing the yard & weed eated along the road & driveway. Got nice & sweaty & then took a cold shower & washed my hair in the shower which I never do so the color in my hair lasts longer. It felt great!
Good job in therapy! It sounds like you had a breakthrough. That is rare and takes time. You are obviously committed to doing the work.
Thanks, Matt! This is the first time I feel like I can really make progress in therapy. My next appointment is in two weeks. I can't wait to go back. I'll do my own research until then. Thanks for the hugs, Robert & John. 💚
Wow! Would be interested to hear results of your research if you want to share when done xx
Radical acceptance is a great thing, from what I know about it… Well done, Manda!!!
I had been looking into DBT recently too Manda! That's great it's going well! You go, girl! Are you still in school then? I am a bit anxious as a teacher as the school term comes to a finish and I know I will not have a steady routine once it does.
Thank you, Pandas!! 💖💖💖 Everything I read makes so much sense. I told my Mom that it was time to reshape my life & she said, 'that's a plan!' Ooook. KTA- I'm not in school. My BF is a teacher.
I'm going to order a DBT workbook on June 3rd when I get my next check. Really looking forward to it.
What does DBT stand for?
dialectical behavior therapy
It usually lasts for 2 years rather than 2 months like CBT. From what I know it can be a treatment for borderline personality disorder and other things. Focuses a lot on identifying emotions rather than changing how you think.
An old friend of mine who was BPD started it and was really motivated for a while. Sadly drug problems and close family bereavement came at a bad time for her.
'was BPD' that's sloppy, she had received that diagnosis
I got BF to order the workbook for me. I looked at the first couple of pages but really haven't started it yet. Fingers crossed.
Best of luck Manda panda! 😁
...looking forward to getting to know her better. Sis had said she barely talks to my brother & his family. Why didn't she make plans with me? I was there for her all this time & I thought she was excited to see me as I was her. It doesn't matter.
BF's mom is taking us out to dinner as a late birthday celebration so I said we couldn't go even though BF had said we could always cancel with his mom if my Sister tried to make plans. I'm HURT & pissed. I don't even want to talk to my Sister now.
I don't know, manda. That would bother me too. Perhaps there's an explanation, such as she got that request and felt she had to go. I hope she can see you soon and you can smooth this over. We are most at risk of being hurt by those we most care abt.
Thanks, Jeff. I didn't want to text my Mom because I was afraid she'd try to intervene, but I was going crazy thinking about it. Mom said to just remember that's the way Sis is. She also said maybe she didn't straight up make the plans, it just...
...came up in conversation. I feel a little better. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
So sorry Manda, that you feel let down😔. Jeff makes a valid point maybe it was SIL plans rather than your sister. Maybe ask your sis to catch up with just her & your daughter even just over a coffee see what happens. Hope things work out for you xx
Thanks for the advice, Natalie. I've purposely been avoiding her but maybe that's not the right move. I will message her today. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
Hard to fight those negative thoughts, even when your brain tells you it's probably not true. Hope you did ok and was able to get back to baseline when you got home.
Thanks, Jeff. I ate a piece of cake when we got home & then I went straight to bed. Still fighting the thoughts today.
You're doing so well, realizing those thoughts and not acting on them. That takes strength and intelligence. I'm so proud of you!
Maybe don't think of it as fighting those thoughts. Maybe think of it as not feeding those thoughts and letting them grow and build and get stronger. It's ok if you have those thoughts - let them come and let them go. Don't give them strength!
Thanks so much, Jeff & Alicia. It consumed me & I had to say something the following day. He couldn't believe I went to sleep with that & carried it throughout the whole next day. What a waste of brain power! Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
Wish you a happy birthday for tomorrow. 🎂
Thank you, sweet nixi! 💙 Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. We are sitting here waiting for this damn movie to start. I vaped before we left & am already starving. BF got the times mixed up. 5 more minutes until the lights are dimmed. Sleeepy.
Curious about the Avengers. Have fun!!
Happy birthday, mandabear! I want to go to that movie but have no one to go with and hate seeing movies alone. But no spoilers!
Things went well till the end. BF says he knew something was wrong as we left. Went to dinner after the movie. Didn't eat all of my meal. Grumpier on the way home. Straight to bed & cry, cry, cry. I think it was just too much. Being out of the house.
Aww. Take it easy today. Xx
Happy birthday dear Manda! Take it easy xxx
Thank you, my sweet Panda friends! 💖
Happy Birthday Manda Panda! Trust me, you are still quite young.
Happy Birthday again, my wonderful friend! I'm so happy to have met you :)
Thanks, Brandt & Alicia!
Manda. We love you. Baby steps. Xx
I need to work on mindful eating too. You are not alone
Thank you, nixi & Cora. I've finally said NO MORE CHEESE & CANDY. Can't eat it if there is none there. Fingers crossed I can quickly see a difference. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
Thank you, my sweet friends. 💖
It's a good thing to stop I guess. Just be careful with the dropping pounds thing. Take care of yourself. *love ya*
Thanks, Alicia. Love you too. Thanks for the hug, John. I said I was quitting but it'll be slower than going cold turkey. I'm not strong enough to do that.
However you do it. We are with you. X
Thank you, nixi, my love. I am happy to know you guys have my back. 💙
14 years. That's impressive. I'm sure he will appreciate the letter
You look really well in that photo of the two of you. I hope this good mood continues and you can remind yourself of it incase it doesn't.
Congratulations! I'm happy for you.
Congratulations that such an achievement! xx
Aw! Thanks, Pandas! 🤗🤗🤗 You guys are sweet. John specifically, thanks for the comment on my appearance. Of course all I see in that picture is me with a chubby face. At least I'm happy though, right?
Doesn't look chubby to me, but healthy!
I love you, Lydia! ❤️xx❤️
What movies were they? Were they good?
One was called 6 Balloons with a fro
...with a girl from Broad City. It wasn't that good. The other was Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist. I think that's it. It was cute. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
I loved Nick and Nora's! I really want to see Where's Fluffy?! (I have my own imaginary band called A Mighty Humble Bumble. I always wanted to make t-shirts and concert posters for them and pretend they are real...)
Sounds like a sweet band. I'll rock their shirt!
Well done you for supporting your daughter - and doing it Manda style! Wish I could have seen it!
Yes, so nice of you to be there for her for something so important to her. I'm sure that means so much to her, and I can tell you're proud even if it doesn't mean the same thing to you. :) Great job, manda!
Aw, thanks, Cindy & Jeff. I guess I did do it Manda style. She said that the night was so weird: Mom at church & BF's long ago divorced parents talking to each other. All for her! Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💖
Sounds fantastic! It's great that she had this moment, I'm sure it's a memory she'll treasure all her life.
Sounds wonderful. So happy you could support her!!
Thanks, Alicia & Esther. I'm happy I could be there for it. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
Maybe it's just getting used to it, or maybe taking it with some food will help? I hope that doesn't last long!
Half of the pill doesn't make me feel sick. Going to go a full week on half to make sure I'm used to it. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
Hopefully the decision makes a positive difference xx
Thanks, Natalie! I don't think it could do anymore harm than what my meds are already doing to me so I figure I've got nothing to lose!
Hope it works for you xx
Thanks, Albertine. Thanks for the hug, Lydia. 💞
Glad to see you feeling positive... Hope it helps!
Thanks, Jeff! xx
That's great Manda! Be aware of any mania type feelings as is sometimes the risk with some people on SSRIs. Remember you've got a fantastic support network and everyone is rooting for you.
Aw, Thanks, John! That is really sweet. 💚 Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💞
I am so addicted to Game of Thrones ❤❤❤
How did you like the new episode, BB? And thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
Loved it! 😊😊
I hope they're able to make some recommendations to help!
Thanks, Jeff. I sure do hope so too. Thanks for the hug, BB. 💖
Keep us posted, lil Manda. Are those the effects of medication?
Sorry for the late reply. I got a call first thing the next morning that everything came back in range. I see my psychiatrist in the morning & will see if he wants to decrease further to reduce side effects. Thanks for the hugs & support, Pandas. 💚
Just throw on a dressing gown and you're all done :)
Sometimes the first few steps are the hard ones. Maybe tackling the trash will help you get going a bit. I hope so!
Ugh that being tired thing sucks so much.hope it goes away soon. If it doesn't, I hope there are still things to enjoy for you, my dear.
Thanks so much, Pandas. 💚💚💚 It did get a little better. I snuck in two hours of sleep this morning before my appointment & then got a coffee afterwards so I haven't felt tired yet today. Well, I just now got an overwhelming urge to take a nap. 😴
Hope so too Manda. X
Yes, I hope so too...even if just make things easier...
That sounds promising! Hormones are a ***. But once they're in order, it can change one's life.
Yep, I know someone who had Thyaroxine deficiency, once they got treated it changed their life.
Thanks for the support, Pandas. My appointment is tomorrow morning. Hopefully I don't have to wait ages for results.