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2 Manda P
5d ·
I AM THE WORST MOTHER IN THE WORLD. I gave daughter a dose of acetaminophen for her fever & then gave her a dose of cold medicine that also has acetaminophen in it. We had to have her induce vomiting.
Manda P
5d ·

Not fun & now I hate myself. Her temp is over 102 so I had to go out & buy some Motrin for her to take. Ugh. I ALWAYS f*ck up.

Bipolar Bear .
5d ·

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Shelley H
5d ·

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Bipolar Bear .
5d ·

I'm so sorry Manda! You are NOT a terrible mother! It was an accident! It will be okay ❀ big hugs to you!

Manda P
5d ·

Thanks so much, Shelley & BB. We got some Motrin in her & now she's tucked into bed. Thank goodness my sister is a nurse. She helped me remain calm as she told me what to do. I even sent her a pic of puke floating in the toilet. What a night.

Robin R
5d ·

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Bipolar Bear .
5d ·

Oh I'm so glad to hear that! 😊 I hope you and your daughter can get some rest tonight ❀

Shelley H
5d ·

That's my Mandy panda...remaining calm. Glad everything worked out.. Rest well ❀

Lydia R
4d ·

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Albertine M
4d ·

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Albertine M
4d ·

Definitely not a terrible mother! Hope you guys are getting some rest xx

Esther B
4d ·

It was an accident you didn't do it on purpose. Take care dear Manda. X

Manda P
3d ·

Aw! Thank you so much, Pandas. I don't know what I'd do without you guys. BF acted super pissed like, duh, how could this happen? I was so thankful once she woke up the next morning. Thanks again, my lovely Panda friends! πŸ’–

Margot L
2d ·

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Alicia B
20h ·

My mom's once made a mistake and poured some acid (don't remember what kind, it was a weak solution but still) into my eye. She had mistaken it for eye drops. She was very sleepy at the time. My eye is OK and I was only upset for 5 minutes.

Alicia B
20h ·

*** happens! It's OK now, that's all that matters.

Alicia B
20h ·

I know I'm late with my story. Been super busy these days.

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5 Manda P
5d ·
Daughter home sick from school. We were supposed to go to dinner with Big Bro & fam tonight. Going to try to set up a time when Lil Bro can join us. Need to wash my hair (bathroom sink, cold water).
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Manda P
5d ·

Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’–

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5 Manda P
6d ·
Therapist said to pick a container to put all the bad thoughts, memories in & we'll pull them out one at a time to talk about & let go of them. Told Sis & she said her psych said to do the same thing!
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6d ·

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Pseudo Bear !
6d ·

Tupperware is good for many things.

Ian D
6d ·

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Albertine M
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Shelley H
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Shelley H
5d ·

I'm going to talk to my therapist about doing the same thing. Great advice πŸ˜ƒ

Manda P
5d ·

Tupperware! That's genius. No escaping guaranteed. Still not big enough though. I'm going for one of those trunks you find in older people's attics. Not sure if there is a better name.

Manda P
5d ·

Shelley- I'm glad you are going to use it. I was flooded with all the worries that just get caught in the hamster wheel yesterday that I want to talk about. I wrote some down & emailed myself some lists but still went to bed with a non-stop flow.

Alicia B
5d ·

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Alicia B
5d ·

Sounds like a good idea. Wish I could get me a therapist soon.

Manda P
5d ·

I hope you get one soon, Alicia. xx

Shelley H
5d ·

πŸ˜ƒ

Kaya L
5d ·

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Kaya L
5d ·

really good idea, thank you for sharing, Manda! X

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5 Manda P
7d ·
My sister has decided to terminate. She saw a car wreck & realized she wouldn't want to leave her child with it's father if something were to happen to her. Therapy today. She's really trying to...
Manda P
7d ·

...to figure out a way to get me to NOT feel worthless & not good enough. We chit chat & it always manages to come back to that. I don't know if I'll ever be able to feel good about myself.

Lydia R
7d ·

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Jeff M
7d ·

I'm sorry you struggle with that, Manda. I hope she's able to help you over time! And I'm sorry for your sister - a difficult decision to be sure, but she has to do what's right for her.

Ian D
7d ·

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Ian D
7d ·

Its a horrible situation, hopefully you can support each other.

John T
7d ·

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Albertine M
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Keeping Track A
7d ·

It's tough when the person you rely on for support is going through a lot themselves. You want to support them but sometimes they won't let you because they feel like you have enough on . . .which increases your guilt because you feel it has become

Keeping Track A
7d ·

all about you. And sometimes if they press on and on about the same things that THEY feel you need to change, it can get a bit tiring. Especially if they are repeating the things you tell yourself everyday and beat yourself up over! Sometimes, you

Keeping Track A
7d ·

Sometimes it's the way something is said or put that makes it easier to take on board rather than the general message or advice. . . Anyways, I'm trying to say that I can relate to how you're feeling. Maybe for now it's OK to feel like you'll never

Keeping Track A
7d ·

feel good about yourself. Maybe for now it's just about not feeling absolutely *horrible* about yourself . . .even just sometimes during the day. And acknowledging those moments .. . I think Jeff put it very well. It's sad that your sister feels that

Keeping Track A
7d ·

way in her relationship. But at least she has worked out what she wants. It won't be easy but maybe for her it's the right decision.

Manda P
7d ·

Thanks, Pandas. I'm nervous about my Sis going through with this by herself. When I went through it I became crazy ***al. Really don't want that for her. KTA- I think you're right that I can still see a day that's not completely awful.

Margot L
6d ·

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6d ·

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Alicia B
6d ·

You are wonderful and exceptional to me, Manda :) Just so you know.

Manda P
6d ·

Aw, thanks, Alicia. Much love! πŸ’ž

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3 Manda P
10 Mar 2019 ·
My sister can't decide if she wants to terminate her pregnancy or not. She says the father is a terrible person & she doesn't want to bring a child into the world with him as a father. She wants...
Manda P
10 Mar 2019 ·

...to come home. BF gave really good advice that I passed on. She's gotta separate the baby from him. She's 34 & I think everyone was thinking this kind of thing wouldn't ever happen. She's want to be a mother so badly though.

Lydia R
10 Mar 2019 ·

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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Robin R
10 Mar 2019 ·

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John T
10 Mar 2019 ·

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John T
10 Mar 2019 ·

Support her whatever her choice. There's still plenty of time. Women are having kids older and older these days.

Alicia B
10 Mar 2019 ·

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Manda P
10 Mar 2019 ·

That's true, John, but my sister tears through relationships like it's no thang. Ever since her divorce (10-11 years ago) she's never come close to being with someone long enough to have a baby. She has a *ahem* health condition where it's hard to...

Manda P
10 Mar 2019 ·

...advance a relationship with or find someone with the same problem if you get what I mean. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š

Margot L
11 Mar 2019 ·

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Jeff M
11 Mar 2019 ·

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8 Manda P
07 Mar 2019 ·
Dyed my hair again. Now it's GREEN! I love it. She curled it which makes me feel pretty. Glad to be done with the week. Going to see Captain Marvel this weekend. Disability paperwork for me & BF.
Jake G
07 Mar 2019 · CHIEFPANDA

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Ian D
07 Mar 2019 ·

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Lydia R
07 Mar 2019 ·

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Jeff M
07 Mar 2019 ·

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Jeff M
07 Mar 2019 ·

Ooo green sounds cool! Sounds like lots of positive stuff. I so want to see Captain Marvel but don't like going to the movies by myself (unless it's a super slow time like mid-afternoon, which I can't really do).

Albertine M
07 Mar 2019 ·

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Albertine M
07 Mar 2019 ·

I'm so happy you've got something you really like - and you're always pretty:)

Alicia B
07 Mar 2019 ·

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Alicia B
07 Mar 2019 ·

I agree with Albertine. Your hair looks amazing!!!

Natalie C
07 Mar 2019 ·

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Manda P
07 Mar 2019 ·

Aw! Thanks, guys! You are so sweet. I'm glad the situation was fixed. I only tipped her $10 for it but both mine & BF's mom's said that's what I should do. I felt like I should've given her more but am supposed to remember it was her fault we had...

Manda P
07 Mar 2019 ·

...to redo it. Hope the color lasts as long as last ti

Manda P
07 Mar 2019 ·

...last time.

tEnT S
08 Mar 2019 ·

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Jeff M
08 Mar 2019 ·

I think it looks awesome!

John T
08 Mar 2019 ·

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John T
08 Mar 2019 ·

Is tipping an American thing? I don't think I've ever tipped anyone, except for saying 'keep the change' at the takeaway, or 'put the change in the charity tin', but that's more because I don't like having pockets full of low denomination coins.

Jeff M
08 Mar 2019 ·

Tipping is an American thing. Sometimes it's expected (like at restaurants/bars), and sometimes/not always just for really good service (like at hotels, hair places, etc.). It's confusing even to us!

Manda P
08 Mar 2019 ·

Thanks, Jeff! I know so little about tipping that I had to ask BF's mom what to do. I would also be clueless if it was up to me to tip at a restaurant.

Manda P
08 Mar 2019 ·

Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š

nixiblu .
08 Mar 2019 ·

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nixiblu .
08 Mar 2019 ·

I think it's British too. I tip at restaurants and I always give my hairdresser Β£10.

nixiblu .
08 Mar 2019 ·

Manda. Happy to see your score is the same colour as your Hair. Xx

John T
08 Mar 2019 ·

Really Nix?? Maybe I'm just really mean! πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜‚πŸ˜πŸ˜‚πŸ˜πŸ˜‚πŸ˜πŸ˜‚πŸ˜πŸ˜‚πŸ˜πŸ˜‚πŸ˜πŸ˜

John T
08 Mar 2019 ·

Also Manda you are looking really well. πŸ‘

Manda P
08 Mar 2019 ·

Thanks, nixi & John! I should keep a baseline score of 6. It's like having green eyes so you can't get pinched on St. Patrick's Day.

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10 Manda P
02 Mar 2019 ·
Because I'm only 1 of 3 people that knows, I can't say anything yet except here, but MY SISTER IS PREGNANT!!! My only full blooded sibling. Soon to turn 34 so this was not expected. I can't wait...
Manda P
02 Mar 2019 ·

...to be a real aunt from the beginning. I may not live close to them but I will always be there. It's my Sister! πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Angel M
02 Mar 2019 ·

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Angel M
02 Mar 2019 ·

Congratulations πŸ’– πŸ˜‡

Desiree D
02 Mar 2019 · NEW

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Penelope P
02 Mar 2019 ·

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02 Mar 2019 · NEW

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Manda P
02 Mar 2019 ·

Thank you for being so sweet, Pandas! πŸ’–

Lydia R
02 Mar 2019 ·

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Lydia R
02 Mar 2019 ·

Congrats! πŸ’–πŸ˜Š

Manda P
02 Mar 2019 ·

Thanks, Lydia! xx❀️xx I am still floating on air since she told me. I've texted to see how she is feeling this morning. I hope she is sleeping!

Jen B
02 Mar 2019 ·

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Alicia B
02 Mar 2019 ·

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Alicia B
02 Mar 2019 ·

Amazing! I've got 2 nephews from my sister, I love them to bits. It's wonderful to have some and I am so happy for you!

Manda P
02 Mar 2019 ·

Thanks, Alicia! xx

nixiblu .
03 Mar 2019 ·

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nixiblu .
03 Mar 2019 ·

Congratulations. X

Manda P
04 Mar 2019 ·

Thanks, nixi! πŸ’™ I'm still floating around in happiness. Trying to wait until she's off work to check in her.

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5 Manda P
01 Mar 2019 ·
Cleaned the shower & then took a (much needed) shower & even shaved my legs. Going out to dinner with R.'s mom & stepdad for his bday. I will probably eat a lot & I'm positive she'll say something.
Home J
01 Mar 2019 · NEW

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01 Mar 2019 ·

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01 Mar 2019 ·

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Alicia B
01 Mar 2019 ·

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Alicia B
01 Mar 2019 ·

Hope she only sais nice things and you had fun!

Manda P
02 Mar 2019 ·

She didn't say anything mean or nice which I guess is a win. It was a great time & the food was yummy! Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š

Ian D
02 Mar 2019 ·

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4 Manda P
25 Feb 2019 ·
Slept through the night which never happens. Can't eat if you're sleeping! I've felt tired all day though. Dusted & vacuumed the office. Laundry because BF ran out of dress socks. Want to eat & sleep.
Angel M
25 Feb 2019 ·

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Maria K
25 Feb 2019 ·

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Ade W
25 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
25 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
25 Feb 2019 ·

Sleep is great! You don't eat, you rest, you see dreams, I love sleeping. Well done! Hope it's a new tendency for you :)

Lydia R
26 Feb 2019 ·

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26 Feb 2019 ·

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26 Feb 2019 ·

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Margot L
27 Feb 2019 ·

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Manda P
01 Mar 2019 ·

Thanks, Alicia. I put together that it was because I took some Melatonin. I took some last night & still woke up though. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š

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5 Manda P
22 Feb 2019 ·
Daughter staying with MIL tonight. Lil Bro might come over tomorrow. It would make me so happy. BF spending a lot of money. Bought an iPad Pro & now tons of new clothes. He could've let me be open...
Manda P
22 Feb 2019 ·

...to spending more on my hair & maybe she would've tried harder to get it to turn out right. Who knows. So hungry. Indian for dinnner!

Lydia R
22 Feb 2019 ·

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22 Feb 2019 ·

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22 Feb 2019 ·

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Albertine M
22 Feb 2019 ·

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Albertine M
22 Feb 2019 ·

Oooohhhh Indian food - fantastic!

Ian D
23 Feb 2019 ·

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Jeff M
23 Feb 2019 ·

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Manda P
25 Feb 2019 ·

It was delicious, Albertine! πŸ˜‹ Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š

Alicia B
25 Feb 2019 ·

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6 Manda P
20 Feb 2019 ·
School cancelled. Bloodwork & groceries. I bought a book. Bought one Monday too. Won't get if cheaper on Amazon though so there's that. Texted Mom at noon & she never replied. Not like her. Worried.
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20 Feb 2019 · NEW

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21 Feb 2019 ·

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21 Feb 2019 ·

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21 Feb 2019 ·

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Albertine M
21 Feb 2019 ·

Hope you hear from your mother soon

Manda P
22 Feb 2019 ·

Thanks, Albertine. She posted activity on Instagram last night & I texted with her today. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’–

Alicia B
25 Feb 2019 ·

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5 Manda P
19 Feb 2019 ·
Slept in. Washed my hair with cold water in the bathroom sink. Wasn't so bad. Only a little light pink came out. Want to take a nap. Blood work tomorrow. I cannot buy a book. Eating too much. 142 lbs.
Jos R
19 Feb 2019 ·

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19 Feb 2019 ·

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20 Feb 2019 ·

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20 Feb 2019 ·

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20 Feb 2019 ·

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25 Feb 2019 ·

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5 Manda P
18 Feb 2019 ·
Saw psychiatrist today. Talked a lot about med options for all the obsessive thinking. Doesn't want to try while I'm on so many meds. Hopeful. I also asked about a 1 pill benzo script for my panic...
Manda P
18 Feb 2019 ·

...attack. He asked about benzos i've taken in the past.

Manda P
18 Feb 2019 ·

If I have a panic attack before I see him in a month, I will bring it up again.

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18 Feb 2019 ·

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18 Feb 2019 ·

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18 Feb 2019 ·

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18 Feb 2019 ·

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18 Feb 2019 ·

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5 Manda P
17 Feb 2019 ·
They've found a new church that is perfect for them. I actually heard BF's alarm this morning. I stayed up so I can vape & do yoga. Read 300+ pages of a good book yesterday. Will finish it today.
Ky M
17 Feb 2019 · NEW

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17 Feb 2019 ·

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Natalie C
17 Feb 2019 ·

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John T
17 Feb 2019 ·

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Tasha S
17 Feb 2019 ·

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Jeff M
17 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
17 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
17 Feb 2019 ·

Wow, you're a fast reader!!! Nice to see you feeling goodish.

Margot L
18 Feb 2019 ·

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Manda P
18 Feb 2019 ·

I don't normally read that fast, Alicia. It was just a really good book. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š

nixiblu .
18 Feb 2019 ·

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nixiblu .
18 Feb 2019 ·

What are you reading?

Manda P
19 Feb 2019 ·

It was called Dark Matter by Blake Crouch, I think? Super duper good! Now I'm reading the Eleanor Oliphant book.

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5 Manda P
15 Feb 2019 ·
Unloaded dishwasher, swept kitchen floor, cleaned both bathrooms, & ate too much. Glad it's the weekend & I won't binge during the day. Sleeping in, taking naps, thinking about taking naps..tired.
Bipolar Bear .
15 Feb 2019 ·

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15 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
15 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
15 Feb 2019 ·

You're being productive, that's good! As for binging it seems inevitable when one undereats for a while… It's all very complicated, I know. I hope you feel good tomorrow.

Albertine M
15 Feb 2019 ·

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15 Feb 2019 ·

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nixiblu .
16 Feb 2019 ·

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16 Feb 2019 ·

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16 Feb 2019 ·

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Tasha S
16 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
16 Feb 2019 ·

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Manda P
17 Feb 2019 ·

Thanks, Alicia. I wish I remembered how easy it is to binge after a period of restriction. I might as well try to only eat a meal ti

Manda P
17 Feb 2019 ·

...times & not more than one thing for lunch. There is no need. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š

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18 Feb 2019 ·

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5 Manda P
13 Feb 2019 ·
Therapy, lots covered, Bloodwork, groceries, bought another book. 4 people commented on my hair. I told them how it didn't really turn out how I wanted but they said it still looks good. Not so bad.
Gabrielle H
13 Feb 2019 ·

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13 Feb 2019 ·

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Jeff M
13 Feb 2019 ·

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13 Feb 2019 ·

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13 Feb 2019 ·

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13 Feb 2019 ·

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Albertine M
13 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
14 Feb 2019 ·

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14 Feb 2019 ·

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nixiblu .
14 Feb 2019 ·

How is the hair?

Manda P
14 Feb 2019 ·

Same. 😒 The stylist is supposed to be looking into it. If I don't hear from her by Monday, I'm going to text her again. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š

John T
15 Feb 2019 ·

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2 Manda P
12 Feb 2019 ·
I HATE my hair. Doesn't even look close to what I wanted. You can't tell a difference in the blonde, green, blue color that it was before we started. I've texted her & hopefully we'll get it fixed.
Manda P
12 Feb 2019 ·

I'm so upset & BF is too because he knows I've been looking forward to this for a looong time & doesn't want me to feel disappointed. Ugh.

Gabrielle H
12 Feb 2019 ·

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12 Feb 2019 ·

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Jenny D
13 Feb 2019 ·

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Lydia R
13 Feb 2019 ·

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Lydia R
13 Feb 2019 ·

Oh no, I'm so sorry. πŸ˜” I really hope she can fix it!

John T
13 Feb 2019 ·

https://youtu.be/QDOAdDBkc9s I hope you can sort your hair out. Use elvene, like on the video. (Seriously though, you can get your hair fixed! Don't worry!)

Jeff M
13 Feb 2019 ·

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John T
13 Feb 2019 ·

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Jeff M
13 Feb 2019 ·

I think your hair looks good!

Manda P
13 Feb 2019 ·

Thanks, Pandas. πŸ’š The lady that took my blood liked it. I guess it's not as awful as I think it is. We might change the end color to more of a teal. The pink didn't even come out as pink but I can live with that. Still so disappointing.

Albertine M
13 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
14 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
14 Feb 2019 ·

Your hair looks cool on the picture in insta. Can't see all the detail, but still.

Manda P
14 Feb 2019 ·

Trust me, guys, it sucks. I still had people comment it though. BF knows it can look so much better too. My older MP friends can probably remember when I dyed it the first time. It was ***ing fabulous!

nixiblu .
15 Feb 2019 ·

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2 Manda P
09 Feb 2019 ·
BF pushes & pushes. He doesn't understand that I can't control this. I'm asking for help! I locked the bedroom door & called ex-stepdad. Walked out of there. BF screaming over me. Daughter called...
Manda P
09 Feb 2019 ·

...him out on it. I apologized to daughter as I walked out & she told me I didn't need to apologize. BF texted me before I even got out of the driveway telling me to go back & get them. I was going to hit him. I had to get away.

Andrew H
09 Feb 2019 ·

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Jeff M
09 Feb 2019 ·

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Jeff M
09 Feb 2019 ·

Aw Manda. Hope you're OK. Glad you have someone to reach out to! Rooting for you!

Ian D
09 Feb 2019 ·

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Manda P
09 Feb 2019 ·

Thanks so much, Jeff. I just now came home & only because I was hungry & BF, weirdly, said not to eat without them. I feel a lot better but I don't want to even be in the same room as BF. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. πŸ’š

Albertine M
09 Feb 2019 ·

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Albertine M
09 Feb 2019 ·

Thinking of you xx

Manda P
10 Feb 2019 ·

Thank you, A. xx

Lydia R
10 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
10 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
10 Feb 2019 ·

Sorry you had to experience all that… sounds terrible. But you didn't hit him, so that's good. You were strong.

Tasha S
10 Feb 2019 ·

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Natalie C
10 Feb 2019 ·

Thinking of you, I really hope your ok! Sounds so stressful, it's good you walked away to get yourself out the situation even just for a while. It will do him good to miss you. Here if you want to talk anytime xx

John T
11 Feb 2019 ·

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Manda P
11 Feb 2019 ·

Thanks, Alicia & Natalie. I didn't even think to celebrate the small victory of not hitting him. I would've if I didn't have locked the door. Thanks for the hug, John. πŸ’š

Margot L
11 Feb 2019 ·

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15 Feb 2019 ·

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3 Manda P
09 Feb 2019 ·
Slept in. Irritable, sad, crying. Supposed to go see the Lego movie today but I don't want to go. Fighting tears now. Clozapine upped by 25mg. Start new dose tonight. I thought I made progress. Right.
Jeff M
09 Feb 2019 ·

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Jeff M
09 Feb 2019 ·

Sorry, Manda... It's ok to have bad days

Jeff M
09 Feb 2019 ·

Doesn't mean you're not improving!

Lydia R
09 Feb 2019 ·

*Hugs*

Tim S
09 Feb 2019 ·

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Melody L
09 Feb 2019 ·

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Jen B
09 Feb 2019 ·

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Manda P
09 Feb 2019 ·

Thanks, Jeff. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. xx

Albertine M
09 Feb 2019 ·

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Alicia B
10 Feb 2019 ·

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Natalie C
10 Feb 2019 ·

*Hugs*

John T
11 Feb 2019 ·

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nixiblu .
15 Feb 2019 ·

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6 Manda P
08 Feb 2019 ·
Friday. Daughter's public performance of the play is tonight. BF's parents will be there (separately, but with us). I'm so fat. I ate so much today. Hate hate hate. Dyeing my hair on Tuesday. Ready?
Lydia R
08 Feb 2019 ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
08 Feb 2019 ·

Mint & magenta!

Lydia R
08 Feb 2019 ·

Good combination! Looking forward to pics! And you're not fat, you're lovely.

Elaina B
08 Feb 2019 · NEW

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Zoe D
08 Feb 2019 ·

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Manda P
08 Feb 2019 ·

Thanks, Lydia. I wish I could believe that. I need to stop vaping because I have zero appetite without it. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. πŸ’š

Alicia B
08 Feb 2019 ·

*Hugs*

Alicia B
08 Feb 2019 ·

We are so ready for DA HAIR! YAAAS!

Natalie C
08 Feb 2019 ·

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Natalie C
08 Feb 2019 ·

No Manda, you're not fat! You are beautiful the way you are. I'm glad you have an appetite. πŸ™‚ Looking forward to seeing the new hair style! X

Manda P
09 Feb 2019 ·

πŸ˜‚ Alicia- I'm ready too! Natalie- thank you, love. I hope I can agree with you one day. I'm going to be so upset if the dye job doesn't boost my self confidence.

Albertine M
09 Feb 2019 ·

*Hugs*

Albertine M
09 Feb 2019 ·

Fingers crossed for everything

Jeff M
09 Feb 2019 ·

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John T
09 Feb 2019 ·

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Manda P
09 Feb 2019 ·

Thanks, Albertine. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. πŸ’–

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