really must get that servant :)
Look after yourself today Cindy and get better. X
Hope your feeling better soon Cindy xx
I hope you feel much better real soon Cindy XXX
Get well soon!
Got a cold too! Ugh... Hope you feel better soon!
Jeeves: You rang, miss?
Haha! I can relate to that.
... or train your cat to make tea. If they don't pay rent, they could at least help with the household. ;)
And you want them to think you're really good at your job? Yeah, that. I can't believe I'm 50 and still long for reassurance and approval
I think I will long for approval as long as I live?! I guess it's something we need.
I can relate to this so much... Working with smart colleagues is awesome but sooo intimidating. :(
I'm with Esther. It won't be an age thing, it'll be lifetime. I know you are fantastic at everything you do though & I'm sure all those around you know it, too. 💖
I suppose averaging out to a 5 isn't too bad. I hate those exhausting days...
Not just at this job, but at all I've ever had. Have to keep remembering this is month 8, so there is still stuff to learn and a working culture to adapt to. I think things went okay in the end, but at the moment I would usually not work tomorrow, as
I'm only doing 4 days/week, but I have to work tomorrow morning. Would give anything to have a lie-in but just not going to happen!
Yeah, you're probably right, Jeff - it's just so unsatisfying!
That sugar thing is a constant struggle. Don't let work stuff get you down too much. Important to remember that a job is just a job, not your life.
with hot water bottle and chocolate. And cat, who likes to sit on top of the duvet with the hot water bottle underneath her. IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE FOR ME :)
Sounds good, Cindy!
What's your Goodreads name Cindy, I will friend you. Mine is scrittigirl - Penelope Pemberton :)
Mine is Albertine67 - Cindy Stubbs. :)
John, it will be good! I admire the energy you must have, to have a kitten - my cat was 4 years old when I adopted her and is now, like me, an old lady (ahem). Early nights, hot drinks- I was born to be old :)
Thanks Lydia - big hugs x
Sounds like the perfect evening to me! Sometimes I think I was also born as an old soul. :)
I'm not working, not even voluntary work at the moment, so I've got a lot of time. I'm wondering what type of cat he'll turn into, I hope he stays as affectionate as he is now.
Sounds perfect..Book cat and chocolate. As I'm typing this I'm in bed as well with my cat purring on top of me. How s the weather there Cindy? it's-6 out here
-6 here, too, with snow and some cold wind. I miss my cat 😁 she is at home while I'm visiting my sister
Woohoo! Enjoy your day off!
Yeah the weather is quite something!
anyway as public transport is shutting down, roads closed,etc interesting to see what tomorrow will bring!
Stay warm Cindy, it is actually quite a beast!
So envious, but also very happy for you! Enjoy it while it lasts. 😀❄️💕
Excellent, just be careful when going outside. The snow is amazing!!!
Sounds lovely. Glad you were able to enjoy it. xx
I've got three snowdrops out flowering next to my front door.
Some very good things happed today! ❤️ enjoy it
Well done Cindy❤
Tired from work Cindy? I'm happy to read you're in a good place cause you deserve every bit of happiness!
Youre good at finding beauty and noticing details.
Cat purring, Bach's explorations in counterpoint, wisps of steam rising and whirling, the Mad Hatter quipping, 'You used to be much more muchier. Youve lost your muchness.'
That sounds like a lovely way to spend a weekend... :)
Sounds great :) wonderful idea for a Sunday
Yay Cindy. Glad you're having a good evening to yourself xx
Lovely to see green, Cindy! 😊
What a lovely status update Cindy. So pleased for you
That is wonderful. Xx
happy for you . you deserve this!!@
Well done :)
I'm glad you're feeling better! I'm so happy for you xx
working 4 days a week, as fatigue/pain make it very hard to do full time. But sometimes even 4 days is hard. Will still be a few weeks before I see consultant again regarding result (don't have a date yet). Some days I cope with the uncertainty bette
than others. Just want to have 'normal' life - it's 7 months into my dream job, after being off work 2 years. They're being supportive but can't go on like this forever.
Oh, Cindy. How stressful! Sorry you're going through all this. Will send you happy and healthy thoughts and prayers that things turn out OK and you get the help you need to feel better!
It's been hard to think about updating on here, but I am really grateful for all the Panda magic of hugs and support. Right now supporting others seems easier than posting about myself. Much love to you all xx
Hope everything is ok Cindy
Thank you, dear Jeff - you are such a wonderful Panda. xx
Thanks Penelope - big hugs back xx
We miss you but are always thankful when you comment. Thinking of you, Cindybear!
Your reluctance to share is understandable. Im grateful for your post. Many of us care about you and have journeyed with you. Hoping for a positive outcome and resolution to whatever is causing you pain & fatigue.
I hope I hope I hope it's good news, big hugs xx
Thinking of you, dear Cindy. You've been on quite the journey. Hoping for good results. xx
So sorry to hear what you're going through just now Cindy. It must be very stressful. My hopes and thoughts are with you.
I have been waiting to hear how you are, knowing you would post when ready. I understand the struggle of physical chronic illness very well and hope for a positive outcome for you.
I hope everything will turn out okay and you will get good news as quickly as possible. Thinking of you.
I'm so sorry, Cindy. I hope the results come out okay. I'm glad you updated though because it's always lovely to hear from you. You're the kind mother panda who keeps us all sane. I hope the job is helping somewhat, even if it's tiring. Sending tons
*tons of love and prayers. Xx
Good to hear from you Cindy. Certainly wishing yourtest results are good. You can count on us cheering you on.
Thinking of you, fingers crossed for good news 😘 xx
Maybe she's anxious in her sleep as well. I hope your anxiety passes quickly, Cindy. It sounds like, at least, you have it in perspective! (Doesn't make it easier, I know...)
Love it when my cat does this, too. I just hope it's not a bad dream. Big hugs for you!
Big hugs Cindy❤ xx
would be hard for any of us not to feel a bit anxious. hope it goes well.
Hope you're feeling better soon dear Cindy. Anxiety is a shi**y feeling. Lots of love
Cindy, feeling worried about your medical status. If you feel like updating I'm sure others are thinking about you as well.
Yes, hope you're feeling better by now!
Just to say we are thinking of you and sending lots of love and strength with the tests and results ❤hope you are ok x
Merry Christmas to you. May our minds remain clear and souls be at peace. May our hearts be filled with love. Thats as good a gift as anything I might get.
Merry Christmas Cindy x
Merry Christmas, dear Cindy! xx
Will have some in early Jan. It was quite scary to have my sensible, down to earth GP look like she was going to cry when she told me how high the likelihood was. She's supposed to be the calm one!
Right now just need to focus on the fact that these tests do not mean I have cancer - just that it is on the table, part of what's being investigated. M knew I've not been feeling well, and that I was having tests, but went home on Wed to spend the
break with his family, so haven't said anything to him yet. What's most upsetting at moment is effect on work. They're being great and supportive, but I'm still learning the role and just finished month 5. Work is closed from today til 3rd so at
Least I needn't worry about that for a little while.
So sorry that you have such news at this time of year Cindy. I hope you can still enjoy Xmas despite what is going on for you.
I'm sorry you are going through this. It sounds like a difficult situation. Pandas are here if you need us!
Wishing strength, luck, and good health to you Cindy. Do not blame yourself if you find this Xmas extra stressful. Take care
Aw, Cindy, I'm sorry to hear that. Must be very difficult to be dealing with right now. But you're right, there's nothing you can do until you get tests and results. Try to do your best to not let the anxiety be overwhelming. Sending you strength!
Wow Cindy that must be a week full of emotions. I'm praying that your results will come out just fine. 💕
This must be very hard for you...let's hope, there's not much else to do.
Oh Cindy :( I really hope you don't :( my thoughts are with you, I hope you can still have an enjoyable Christmas despite all of this 😞
Big hugs Cindy. Sending you all of my love xx
Cindy, I'm sending you all the positive vibrations I can. Please keep us updated when you know more. You will be on my mind.
I'm so sorry you are having to go thru this. I cant even imagine the anxiety you must feel. I hope everything will be ok. Prayers and best wishes from TX to you. Stay strong
This is difficult news for all of us. I care about you, as so many pandas and others who love you do & am wanting to protect you & see you safe. You are in my thoughts & prayers. Warmest hugs.
Oh Cindy :( fingers crossed for good news. Sorry to hear you are have not been well, please take care of yourself & give yourself a nice Christmas rest xx
I hope you receive good news soon. Sending love and lots of hugs xx
Praying for you that's it's not Cindy x
So sorry Cindy . Sending Big hugs and positivity
Ah dear Pandas, thanks so much for all your hugs and comments. Feeling kinda low right now and re-reading them reminds me how many caring people there are out there.
My thoughts are with you Cindy ❤️
Cindy, how are you? Hope your tests have given good results
like to do, and I think I'd be good at it. How often do I say that?!
I hope you get a lot out of it. Sounds like it could be potentially very rewarding work.
Good luck Cindy! Your right, Im sure you will be brilliant & sounds rewarding too! X
That's great, Cindy! You'd be awesome volunteering. How rewarding!
That really is amazing, Cindy. To use your experiences and your obvious compassion and empathy to help other people (besides just helping us!) is so wonderful. You are ready, even if you aren't sure.
What are the Samaritans? Is that related to the Bible story? I'm sure you're good in that!!
They're mostly a massive charity based phone line for people who need help. They probably do other stuff but I don't know that.
Youre a superstar. Good luck
I can say my Dad did it for several years. It seemed demanding but clearly very worthwhile to him
If youre not ready, theyll probably train you, and, as in all things we do often enough, we develop over time.
work in hand to have a couple of days off.
Happy Thanksgiving Cindy my friend. Special hugs are sent your way for the kindness you bestowed upon me. No one ever gave me a gift from another country before. You are a blessing.
Happy Thanksgiving Cindy
Thanks Lex, Noel, Kristin and Alice - big hugs x
You are a wonderful Panda, Shelley. Nuff said. :) xx
Lots of love and thanks for your kindness
Thank you, Cindy, for all the kindness you bring to MP. Have fun celebrating on tomorrow!
Lots to celebrate. Mant blessings for which to be grateful.
next time, Dean kind about it. Feeling quite drained but okay.
BIG HUG my friend XXX
I am so proud of your progress Cindy! You inspire me. 💖
Good for you! I still get so stressed over these big meetings/events. But feels so good when they're done! I'm sure you rocked it!
of course, overthinking. Important lesson, though: it is up to me to manage my feelings, and there are going to be days when I revert to my old habits. Just because job is going well doesn't mean 'Doubting Cindy' is gone.Still question myself, and
days it's quite persuasive, and undermining. Have to balance constructive thoughts with positives, not spiral into negativity. Right now, though, I think, good luck with that! Ugh.
Tough to compete against yourself with your thoughts...to always be fighting those doubts and self-destructive feelings. I know how that is. But just knowing it, I think, is good! I hope you manage and are doing better today!