I've got three snowdrops out flowering next to my front door.
Some very good things happed today! ❤️ enjoy it
Well done Cindy❤
Tired from work Cindy? I'm happy to read you're in a good place cause you deserve every bit of happiness!
Cat purring, Bach's explorations in counterpoint, wisps of steam rising and whirling, the Mad Hatter quipping, 'You used to be much more muchier. Youve lost your muchness.'
That sounds like a lovely way to spend a weekend... :)
Sounds great :) wonderful idea for a Sunday
Yay Cindy. Glad you're having a good evening to yourself xx
Lovely to see green, Cindy! 😊
What a lovely status update Cindy. So pleased for you
That is wonderful. Xx
happy for you . you deserve this!!@
Well done :)
I'm glad you're feeling better! I'm so happy for you xx
working 4 days a week, as fatigue/pain make it very hard to do full time. But sometimes even 4 days is hard. Will still be a few weeks before I see consultant again regarding result (don't have a date yet). Some days I cope with the uncertainty bette
than others. Just want to have 'normal' life - it's 7 months into my dream job, after being off work 2 years. They're being supportive but can't go on like this forever.
Oh, Cindy. How stressful! Sorry you're going through all this. Will send you happy and healthy thoughts and prayers that things turn out OK and you get the help you need to feel better!
It's been hard to think about updating on here, but I am really grateful for all the Panda magic of hugs and support. Right now supporting others seems easier than posting about myself. Much love to you all xx
Hope everything is ok Cindy
Thank you, dear Jeff - you are such a wonderful Panda. xx
Thanks Penelope - big hugs back xx
We miss you but are always thankful when you comment. Thinking of you, Cindybear!
Your reluctance to share is understandable. Im grateful for your post. Many of us care about you and have journeyed with you. Hoping for a positive outcome and resolution to whatever is causing you pain & fatigue.
I hope I hope I hope it's good news, big hugs xx
Thinking of you, dear Cindy. You've been on quite the journey. Hoping for good results. xx
So sorry to hear what you're going through just now Cindy. It must be very stressful. My hopes and thoughts are with you.
I have been waiting to hear how you are, knowing you would post when ready. I understand the struggle of physical chronic illness very well and hope for a positive outcome for you.
I hope everything will turn out okay and you will get good news as quickly as possible. Thinking of you.
I'm so sorry, Cindy. I hope the results come out okay. I'm glad you updated though because it's always lovely to hear from you. You're the kind mother panda who keeps us all sane. I hope the job is helping somewhat, even if it's tiring. Sending tons
*tons of love and prayers. Xx
Good to hear from you Cindy. Certainly wishing yourtest results are good. You can count on us cheering you on.
Thinking of you, fingers crossed for good news 😘 xx
Maybe she's anxious in her sleep as well. I hope your anxiety passes quickly, Cindy. It sounds like, at least, you have it in perspective! (Doesn't make it easier, I know...)
Love it when my cat does this, too. I just hope it's not a bad dream. Big hugs for you!
Big hugs Cindy❤ xx
would be hard for any of us not to feel a bit anxious. hope it goes well.
Hope you're feeling better soon dear Cindy. Anxiety is a shi**y feeling. Lots of love
Cindy, feeling worried about your medical status. If you feel like updating I'm sure others are thinking about you as well.
Yes, hope you're feeling better by now!
Just to say we are thinking of you and sending lots of love and strength with the tests and results ❤hope you are ok x
Merry Christmas to you. May our minds remain clear and souls be at peace. May our hearts be filled with love. Thats as good a gift as anything I might get.
Merry Christmas Cindy x
Merry Christmas, dear Cindy! xx
Will have some in early Jan. It was quite scary to have my sensible, down to earth GP look like she was going to cry when she told me how high the likelihood was. She's supposed to be the calm one!
Right now just need to focus on the fact that these tests do not mean I have cancer - just that it is on the table, part of what's being investigated. M knew I've not been feeling well, and that I was having tests, but went home on Wed to spend the
break with his family, so haven't said anything to him yet. What's most upsetting at moment is effect on work. They're being great and supportive, but I'm still learning the role and just finished month 5. Work is closed from today til 3rd so at
Least I needn't worry about that for a little while.
So sorry that you have such news at this time of year Cindy. I hope you can still enjoy Xmas despite what is going on for you.
I'm sorry you are going through this. It sounds like a difficult situation. Pandas are here if you need us!
Wishing strength, luck, and good health to you Cindy. Do not blame yourself if you find this Xmas extra stressful. Take care
Aw, Cindy, I'm sorry to hear that. Must be very difficult to be dealing with right now. But you're right, there's nothing you can do until you get tests and results. Try to do your best to not let the anxiety be overwhelming. Sending you strength!
Wow Cindy that must be a week full of emotions. I'm praying that your results will come out just fine. 💕
This must be very hard for you...let's hope, there's not much else to do.
Oh Cindy :( I really hope you don't :( my thoughts are with you, I hope you can still have an enjoyable Christmas despite all of this 😞
Big hugs Cindy. Sending you all of my love xx
Cindy, I'm sending you all the positive vibrations I can. Please keep us updated when you know more. You will be on my mind.
I'm so sorry you are having to go thru this. I cant even imagine the anxiety you must feel. I hope everything will be ok. Prayers and best wishes from TX to you. Stay strong
This is difficult news for all of us. I care about you, as so many pandas and others who love you do & am wanting to protect you & see you safe. You are in my thoughts & prayers. Warmest hugs.
Oh Cindy :( fingers crossed for good news. Sorry to hear you are have not been well, please take care of yourself & give yourself a nice Christmas rest xx
I hope you receive good news soon. Sending love and lots of hugs xx
Praying for you that's it's not Cindy x
So sorry Cindy . Sending Big hugs and positivity
Ah dear Pandas, thanks so much for all your hugs and comments. Feeling kinda low right now and re-reading them reminds me how many caring people there are out there.
My thoughts are with you Cindy ❤️
Cindy, how are you? Hope your tests have given good results
like to do, and I think I'd be good at it. How often do I say that?!
I hope you get a lot out of it. Sounds like it could be potentially very rewarding work.
Good luck Cindy! Your right, Im sure you will be brilliant & sounds rewarding too! X
That's great, Cindy! You'd be awesome volunteering. How rewarding!
That really is amazing, Cindy. To use your experiences and your obvious compassion and empathy to help other people (besides just helping us!) is so wonderful. You are ready, even if you aren't sure.
What are the Samaritans? Is that related to the Bible story? I'm sure you're good in that!!
They're mostly a massive charity based phone line for people who need help. They probably do other stuff but I don't know that.
Youre a superstar. Good luck
I can say my Dad did it for several years. It seemed demanding but clearly very worthwhile to him
If youre not ready, theyll probably train you, and, as in all things we do often enough, we develop over time.
work in hand to have a couple of days off.
Happy Thanksgiving Cindy my friend. Special hugs are sent your way for the kindness you bestowed upon me. No one ever gave me a gift from another country before. You are a blessing.
Happy Thanksgiving Cindy
Thanks Lex, Noel, Kristin and Alice - big hugs x
You are a wonderful Panda, Shelley. Nuff said. :) xx
Lots of love and thanks for your kindness
Thank you, Cindy, for all the kindness you bring to MP. Have fun celebrating on tomorrow!
Lots to celebrate. Mant blessings for which to be grateful.
next time, Dean kind about it. Feeling quite drained but okay.
BIG HUG my friend XXX
I am so proud of your progress Cindy! You inspire me. 💖
Good for you! I still get so stressed over these big meetings/events. But feels so good when they're done! I'm sure you rocked it!
of course, overthinking. Important lesson, though: it is up to me to manage my feelings, and there are going to be days when I revert to my old habits. Just because job is going well doesn't mean 'Doubting Cindy' is gone.Still question myself, and
days it's quite persuasive, and undermining. Have to balance constructive thoughts with positives, not spiral into negativity. Right now, though, I think, good luck with that! Ugh.
Tough to compete against yourself with your thoughts...to always be fighting those doubts and self-destructive feelings. I know how that is. But just knowing it, I think, is good! I hope you manage and are doing better today!
Didn't say that, though, and he didn't offer to leave, obviously wanted to stay and talk, which made me feel worse. He left around 10.30, which was quite late for me as next day was working day and I need to be up quite early (he does know that).
Annoyed with myself for being irritated by it all, because I should have just said - I did give him some time, and we are meeting up at an event later this week.
changed since last year.
💕💕💕 happy birthday to you! :)
I wish you a very happy birthday, Cindy! All the best and love for you, as well as health, joy and lots of friendly people in your life. Hope M will be in contact soon! <3
Happy 50th Cindy. Have a great day
Happy birthday, Cindy.
Happy birthday my dear friend! Fifty and FABULOUS! (I stole that from SATC but you DO look good!)
Happy Birthday, I hope you have a wonderful day. Lots of love & big panda hugs xx 🎂 🐼
Happy Happy Birthday, Cindy!!! You have lots to celebrate for & I hope you enjoy every second of it. Enjoy your day! 💖🎉
Hope you had an amazing bday!
Thanks so much, dear Pandas - your messages and hugs are wonderfully supportive! xx
great, and necessary, but the idea that I can recognize that I have done something well says so much to me about my recovery. This is the healthiest I've been in many years.
So pleased to hear that Cindy and see such a good score. You deserve it 😃
Cindy, that is amazingly wonderful. I am so happy for you & proud of you. You've been on a long journey, but it looks like you've definitely found your way. Well done! 💖
im happy for you. Thanks for posting this. Adds something to my joy... maybe its hope.
Well done Cindy ! Hope your job is still going well 🙂xx
I loved days like that. hope you've enjoyed this one and for everything done
because I know he's pretty down right now and was looking forward to it. But asked him if we could meet later this week and offered him a couple of nights. Just need to remember that in a few days I'll feel okay again.
Yep, this will pass. I bet your friend understands. Everyone knows you have a big heart! 💖
Sending lots of love and hugs Cindy 💜 xx