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5 Jodie A
11 Jan 2016 ·
Thought a friend was mad at me a few days ago, turns out she isn't. So I was feeling sui****l for nothing at all, caused by my own overthinking.
R. S
11 Jan 2016 · NEW

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Jay T
11 Jan 2016 ·

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Jay T
11 Jan 2016 ·

Our minds can play the worst tricks on making us see the worst in a situtation,. When reality shows things are fine all along hold onto that though, let it drown out the urge to blame yourself further for having had doubts in the first place. :-) x

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11 Jan 2016 ·

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2 Jodie A
23 May 2015 ·
Not seen psychiatrist in 2 months, stopped medication. I don't know why. They haven't got in touch with me about this, shows that they never have cared all along. Keep having flashback dreams too
Ilkay K
23 May 2015 ·

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23 May 2015 ·

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23 May 2015 ·

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23 May 2015 ·

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2 Jodie A
19 May 2015 ·
Steroids are giving me serious mood swings. I'm a very horrible person at the minute & I hate how I treat people, I don't deserve to be with other people.
Amy C
19 May 2015 ·

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19 May 2015 ·

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19 May 2015 ·

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19 May 2015 ·

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19 May 2015 ·

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Natalie C
19 May 2015 ·

:( sorry to hear this, I found myself really irritable whilst on them. I hope these side effects improve

Cindy M
19 May 2015 ·

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Cindy M
19 May 2015 ·

hope it gets better, Jodie - thinking of you xx

Tasha S
19 May 2015 ·

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3 Jodie A
18 May 2015 ·
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18 May 2015 ·

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4 Jodie A
17 May 2015 ·
Just wanted to say thank you to all you lovely pandas out there. You are all very special.
Maxine W
17 May 2015 ·

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17 May 2015 ·

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Tasha S
17 May 2015 ·

as are you :)

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17 May 2015 ·

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17 May 2015 ·

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17 May 2015 ·

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17 May 2015 ·

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17 May 2015 ·

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Cindy M
17 May 2015 ·

you are too - glad you're here x

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17 May 2015 ·

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18 May 2015 ·

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5 Jodie A
15 May 2015 ·
Not good, not bad, just here. Energetic but apathetic. Maybe this is what 'normal' feels like? My brain confuses me.
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15 May 2015 ·

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15 May 2015 ·

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15 May 2015 ·

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15 May 2015 ·

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15 May 2015 ·

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15 May 2015 ·

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5 Jodie A
15 May 2015 ·
2nd update in less than an hour (sorry) but I am feeling very weird- like my brain is going to burst out of my head but feeling good otherwise but still thinking of SH. Confused is not the word
Amy C
15 May 2015 ·

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Amy C
15 May 2015 ·

I've found the violence in GoT to be a weirdly good distraction from SH urges... ooh, what about painting your nails? it at least postpones the urge & keeps your hands busy

Jodie A
15 May 2015 ·

I really enjoy GoT (although I'm a book fan too & am a bit confused by what they're doing to the tv show I still like it). My nail polish needs removing and repainting. Good idea

Jodie A
15 May 2015 ·

My grammar is horrific! Aah I apologise.

Amy C
15 May 2015 ·

Oh! me too! I think they're deliberately deviating from the books now so as to ensure that they can surprise those who have read up to the end of ADWD. It's not horrific at all!

Kiki N
15 May 2015 ·

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Pseudo Bear !
15 May 2015 ·

I hope your brain doesn't burst out of your head. that sounds... unpleasant. you know, maybe your body is trying to tell you slmething, I dunno.

Christina S
15 May 2015 ·

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16 May 2015 ·

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7 Jodie A
15 May 2015 ·
Gained 5 pounds in a week, steroids are a hoot... but I am full of energy, which is great!! Dreading the inevitable crash but I'll take this good mood for now & run with it
Nicola H
15 May 2015 ·

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Jodie A
15 May 2015 ·

Can't even sleep, my mind is going a hundred miles a minute! Beats fatigue though

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15 May 2015 ·

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5 Jodie A
09 May 2015 ·
Feeling ok today, had a day with a really close friend yesterday- nice to focus on something other than my health & it helps being with someone non judgmental who I can talk to without fear.
Amy C
09 May 2015 ·

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09 May 2015 ·

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09 May 2015 ·

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10 May 2015 ·

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Cindy M
10 May 2015 ·

glad you have a friend like that - and nice to see a 5

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4 Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·
Saw GI dr - he says I definitely have Crohns. Started on steroids, new meds & scheduled MRI. I should be more upset but I'm just relieved that it's not all in my head.
Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·

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Amy C
07 May 2015 ·

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Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·

I keep hugging myself instead of leaving a comment! :/ also had 8 vials of bloods taken, surprised I have any left!!

Amy C
07 May 2015 ·

Gosh, are you sure they're not vampires? do you feel a bit of relief though, knowing what it is you've got? I had an ex with crohns -he lived a normal life (did get a magical key for disabled loos)

Claire H
07 May 2015 ·

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Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·

Haha the lady taking my bloods did have a tourniquet with vampires on it. I feel relieved that my GI dr & nurse took me seriously & squeezed me in at the last minute. Totally different ball game to my experience with MH services.

Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·

I also want a magic loo key!!

Jeff M
07 May 2015 ·

'Magic Loo Key' sounds funny! But it's good to get a diagnosis! Crohns is a rough condition, but it's totally treatable, and with treatment you can eat better and be healthier. Always better to know! *Hugs*

Amy C
07 May 2015 ·

I'm glad they listened and you're on your way to getting the help you need. I do really hate how physical illnesses are given more respect than mental ones though

Audrey N
07 May 2015 ·

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Audrey N
07 May 2015 ·

So glad you know what's going on! It is a relief. Amy, that is wrong. If I had a broken leg, you wouldn't send me home and tell me to try to relax and get over it.

Tasha S
07 May 2015 ·

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07 May 2015 ·

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07 May 2015 ·

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Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·

Totally agree, it feels like in MH services once they've slapped a label on you, everything you do is related to that 'diagnosis'. You can't just... be. I also feel psych Drs to be incredibly sceptical in my experience.

Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·

I also think 'magic loo key' sounds like a kids book!

Nicola H
07 May 2015 ·

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Amy C
07 May 2015 ·

Do you know of the Biff, Chip & Kipper books? I think they might ' ve had a magic key

Cindy M
07 May 2015 ·

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Cindy M
07 May 2015 ·

my sister has Crohns - once it finally got diagnosed they were able to help her manage it, as Jeff says. such a difficult time for you; big hugs and rest! xx

DesBear D
07 May 2015 ·

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Jodie A
08 May 2015 ·

I remember those Amy! I wonder if it worked on disabled loos.

Jodie A
08 May 2015 ·

Thank you for your lovely comment as usual Cindy, big hugs to you too. :)

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1 Jodie A
06 May 2015 ·
Such a disappointment to my mum. I just know that everyones life would be easier without me. I also can't spend another day with this f***ing abdominal pain.
Amy C
06 May 2015 ·

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06 May 2015 ·

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06 May 2015 ·

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06 May 2015 ·

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Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·

Thank you to Eva, Amy, Luca, James, Clara, Tasha, Ilkay, Audrey, Cindy, Nicola & Christina. You are all lovely pandas, so big hugs for you all :)

Christina S
07 May 2015 ·

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07 May 2015 ·

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Audrey N
06 May 2015 ·

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06 May 2015 ·

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4 Jodie A
06 May 2015 ·
You know you're fatigued when you have to rest after a shower :(
Audrey N
06 May 2015 ·

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Amy C
06 May 2015 ·

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Amy C
06 May 2015 ·

I've been there! found myself having a nap in a towel before!

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06 May 2015 ·

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Elona Fox X
06 May 2015 ·

I do that too! I'll get out of the shower, get some comfy clothes on, then lay down to rest and fall asleep. I just love the feeling of the heat lifting off me, it's so relaxing.

Tasha S
06 May 2015 ·

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Cindy M
06 May 2015 ·

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Audrey N
06 May 2015 ·

I've fallen asleep in the shower.

Nicola H
07 May 2015 ·

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07 May 2015 ·

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Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·

Thank toy all for your hugs & comments. It's nice to know I'm not alone with this tiredness. I always thought I was just lazy! Maybe not.

Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·

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Jodie A
07 May 2015 ·

Big squishy hugs back to you all

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2 Jodie A
05 May 2015 ·
Still suffering with pain & illness. So fed up, I just want to eat something now. Got to have more bloods done this week, I am officially a pin cushion. Sending love & squishy hugs to all pandas today
Maxine W
05 May 2015 ·

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05 May 2015 ·

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05 May 2015 ·

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Amy C
05 May 2015 ·

wish I could help look after you, that doesn't sound fun at all - it must be very tiring.

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05 May 2015 ·

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05 May 2015 ·

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Jodie A
05 May 2015 ·

Thank you Maxine, Sarah, Palomas, Amy & Nicola for the hugs. :) they are much needed & highly thought of right now.

Jodie A
05 May 2015 ·

Thank you Amy, you are such a sweet person. Between the depression & this IBD I feel like the most tired person right now! It's rough but hopefully it will lift.

Jodie A
05 May 2015 ·

Thank you too Jeff & Sarah!

Amy C
05 May 2015 ·

I'm hoping that your stint as a human pin cushion is worth it. Really hoping you get the care you need :)

Cindy M
05 May 2015 ·

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Cindy M
05 May 2015 ·

Jodie, that sounds awful - agree with Amy, hope it's worth it and they can help you x

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4 Jodie A
03 May 2015 ·
Ended up in A&E last night with my abdo pain. They reassured me that this IBD flare up isn't too serious & sent me home with dihydrocodeine - makes me feel like I'm on another planet (in a good way).
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03 May 2015 ·

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3 Jodie A
01 May 2015 ·
Went to see Nick Cave last night, it was amazing & I'm surprised I managed to go. Still in so much pain, going to walk in centre & see if anything can be done.
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01 May 2015 ·

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Nicola H
01 May 2015 ·

glad you enjoyed it :)

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01 May 2015 ·

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2 Jodie A
29 Apr 2015 ·
Curse this abdominal pain. On the upside I bought myself a lavender wheaty bag to help. It's lovely.
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29 Apr 2015 ·

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29 Apr 2015 ·

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29 Apr 2015 ·

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Audrey N
29 Apr 2015 ·

Sounds nice. Sorry you're still hurting. Abdominal pain is the worst. ;(

Claire H
29 Apr 2015 ·

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29 Apr 2015 ·

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Amy C
29 Apr 2015 ·

Those are lovely- they smell nice & they help. hope it eases the pain

Jim C
29 Apr 2015 ·

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30 Apr 2015 ·

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Jodie A
01 May 2015 ·

Thank you cfmind, Isabella, Audrey, Claire, HF, Amy, Jim, Cindy, Tasha, Desdmonia, Christina & Anna!

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2 Jodie A
28 Apr 2015 ·
Still feeling like complete *** but singing along to Radiohead helps.
Audrey N
28 Apr 2015 ·

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28 Apr 2015 ·

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28 Apr 2015 ·

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28 Apr 2015 ·

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Cindy M
28 Apr 2015 ·

Big hugs Jodie - thinking of you x

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28 Apr 2015 ·

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28 Apr 2015 ·

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Rob Z
28 Apr 2015 ·

Everything in its right place :) one of my favourite tunes

DesBear D
29 Apr 2015 ·

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Jodie A
29 Apr 2015 ·

Thank you pandas. Love to you all!

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1 Jodie A
27 Apr 2015 ·
Waking up in pain (physical & emotional) is the worst. Nightmares again last night. I just can't catch a minute, I can't keep up with all this. My life has eroded away to nothing.
Darren G
27 Apr 2015 ·

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27 Apr 2015 ·

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27 Apr 2015 ·

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27 Apr 2015 ·

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27 Apr 2015 ·

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0 Jodie A
27 Apr 2015 ·
Immense pressure from mum to finish uni & start new job- I don't feel well enough yet. I can't look after others & be responsible while having multiple thoughts of ****ide & SH everyday.
Jodie A
27 Apr 2015 ·

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Jodie A
27 Apr 2015 ·

Ergh hugged myself again like an idiot! I also am under financial pressure as I

Jodie A
27 Apr 2015 ·

...I am no longer receiving any funding from uni. I really feel like ***ide is the only option I have now. I've dug myself into a hole that I can't escape from. I can't get well, I don't have that luxury.

Jodie A
27 Apr 2015 ·

I am also sick of living with the chronic pain that my IBD gives me. (Sorry for such long posting but I had to offload, so fed up today).

Jenny H
27 Apr 2015 ·

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Jenny H
27 Apr 2015 ·

what is ibd. i hope u feel beteer soon.

Jodie A
27 Apr 2015 ·

IBD is inflammatory bowel disease, it's split into crohns & colitis, but for 15% of sufferers (like me) they're not sure which one of those it is. It's a pain to live with.

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27 Apr 2015 · NEW

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Audrey N
27 Apr 2015 ·

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Audrey N
27 Apr 2015 ·

You're not an idiot, you just needed to hug yourself. I understand what it is like to be pressured into doing something you don't have the strength for. Many times I have prayed for death to help me escape whatever crazy situation I have gotten

Audrey N
27 Apr 2015 ·

myself into. I'm sorry you can't see the light right now, that feels horrible. In the end, your health and well being is more important than anyone else's expectations. Please be kind to yourself. I hope you can find a way to take the time you need.

Audrey N
27 Apr 2015 ·

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Jodie A
27 Apr 2015 ·

Thank you Audrey. I don't feel that I will get the time I want to sort myself out. It's been building to this anyway, in all my experience with depression I have always found something to cling to. I can't go on disappointing everyone around me...

Bunny X
27 Apr 2015 ·

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27 Apr 2015 ·

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27 Apr 2015 ·

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Tasha S
27 Apr 2015 ·

Please speak to your mum about it and tell her it's something you need to do, you aren't a disappointment you just need some time to get better, just like anyone who isn't well x

Christina S
27 Apr 2015 ·

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Christina S
27 Apr 2015 ·

I had the same pressure when I finished uni, but from my dad. It just makes the depression worse. I hope talking to your mum will help and she will understand you need time as your not well.

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27 Apr 2015 ·

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Audrey N
27 Apr 2015 ·

I have thought for years that I was a disappointment to my parents, esp my dad. I have recently realized through therapy, that I'm just projecting my feelings onto others. I am the one that thinks I am a disappointment. I am the one who thinks that

Audrey N
27 Apr 2015 ·

I am a failure. This is because I am ill. And that illness requires that I take time to heal, often. When I don't, my body will do it for me. No matter what anyone says, only you know what is best for you. Try not to be afraid to insist upon it. xxoo

Jodie A
28 Apr 2015 ·

Thank you Tasha, Christina & Audrey for your words of support. It means a lot to me as always. Thank you too to Jenny, Rene, Bunny, James, Kate & Anna for hugs.

Jodie A
28 Apr 2015 ·

I just don't know how to stop being a disappointment. I've been like this since I was small. I don't think it will change now.

Audrey N
28 Apr 2015 ·

Then perhaps your should strive for acceptance and learn to love the you you are now. Easier said than done, I know. I'm trying to do the same, and am struggling to come to grips with the fact that there are some things that will not be able to do.

Audrey N
28 Apr 2015 ·

big hugs and much love

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28 Apr 2015 ·

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3 Jodie A
24 Apr 2015 ·
I have been playing Sims all day. It's nearly 6pm & I haven't achieved anything. I'm rubbish at being an adult.
Tasha S
24 Apr 2015 ·

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Tasha S
24 Apr 2015 ·

haha it's ok I've done similar before

Audrey N
24 Apr 2015 ·

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Audrey N
24 Apr 2015 ·

I want a shirt that says 'Please don't make me adult today! I can't adult!'

Nicola H
24 Apr 2015 ·

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25 Apr 2015 ·

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25 Apr 2015 ·

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