Our minds can play the worst tricks on making us see the worst in a situtation,. When reality shows things are fine all along hold onto that though, let it drown out the urge to blame yourself further for having had doubts in the first place. :-) x
:( sorry to hear this, I found myself really irritable whilst on them. I hope these side effects improve
hope it gets better, Jodie - thinking of you xx
as are you :)
you are too - glad you're here x
I've found the violence in GoT to be a weirdly good distraction from SH urges... ooh, what about painting your nails? it at least postpones the urge & keeps your hands busy
I really enjoy GoT (although I'm a book fan too & am a bit confused by what they're doing to the tv show I still like it). My nail polish needs removing and repainting. Good idea
My grammar is horrific! Aah I apologise.
Oh! me too! I think they're deliberately deviating from the books now so as to ensure that they can surprise those who have read up to the end of ADWD. It's not horrific at all!
I hope your brain doesn't burst out of your head. that sounds... unpleasant. you know, maybe your body is trying to tell you slmething, I dunno.
Can't even sleep, my mind is going a hundred miles a minute! Beats fatigue though
glad you have a friend like that - and nice to see a 5
I keep hugging myself instead of leaving a comment! :/ also had 8 vials of bloods taken, surprised I have any left!!
Gosh, are you sure they're not vampires? do you feel a bit of relief though, knowing what it is you've got? I had an ex with crohns -he lived a normal life (did get a magical key for disabled loos)
Haha the lady taking my bloods did have a tourniquet with vampires on it. I feel relieved that my GI dr & nurse took me seriously & squeezed me in at the last minute. Totally different ball game to my experience with MH services.
I also want a magic loo key!!
'Magic Loo Key' sounds funny! But it's good to get a diagnosis! Crohns is a rough condition, but it's totally treatable, and with treatment you can eat better and be healthier. Always better to know! *Hugs*
I'm glad they listened and you're on your way to getting the help you need. I do really hate how physical illnesses are given more respect than mental ones though
So glad you know what's going on! It is a relief. Amy, that is wrong. If I had a broken leg, you wouldn't send me home and tell me to try to relax and get over it.
Totally agree, it feels like in MH services once they've slapped a label on you, everything you do is related to that 'diagnosis'. You can't just... be. I also feel psych Drs to be incredibly sceptical in my experience.
I also think 'magic loo key' sounds like a kids book!
Do you know of the Biff, Chip & Kipper books? I think they might ' ve had a magic key
my sister has Crohns - once it finally got diagnosed they were able to help her manage it, as Jeff says. such a difficult time for you; big hugs and rest! xx
I remember those Amy! I wonder if it worked on disabled loos.
Thank you for your lovely comment as usual Cindy, big hugs to you too. :)
Thank you to Eva, Amy, Luca, James, Clara, Tasha, Ilkay, Audrey, Cindy, Nicola & Christina. You are all lovely pandas, so big hugs for you all :)
I've been there! found myself having a nap in a towel before!
I do that too! I'll get out of the shower, get some comfy clothes on, then lay down to rest and fall asleep. I just love the feeling of the heat lifting off me, it's so relaxing.
I've fallen asleep in the shower.
Thank toy all for your hugs & comments. It's nice to know I'm not alone with this tiredness. I always thought I was just lazy! Maybe not.
Big squishy hugs back to you all
wish I could help look after you, that doesn't sound fun at all - it must be very tiring.
Thank you Maxine, Sarah, Palomas, Amy & Nicola for the hugs. :) they are much needed & highly thought of right now.
Thank you Amy, you are such a sweet person. Between the depression & this IBD I feel like the most tired person right now! It's rough but hopefully it will lift.
Thank you too Jeff & Sarah!
I'm hoping that your stint as a human pin cushion is worth it. Really hoping you get the care you need :)
Jodie, that sounds awful - agree with Amy, hope it's worth it and they can help you x
glad you enjoyed it :)
Sounds nice. Sorry you're still hurting. Abdominal pain is the worst. ;(
Those are lovely- they smell nice & they help. hope it eases the pain
Thank you cfmind, Isabella, Audrey, Claire, HF, Amy, Jim, Cindy, Tasha, Desdmonia, Christina & Anna!
Big hugs Jodie - thinking of you x
Everything in its right place :) one of my favourite tunes
Thank you pandas. Love to you all!
Ergh hugged myself again like an idiot! I also am under financial pressure as I
...I am no longer receiving any funding from uni. I really feel like ***ide is the only option I have now. I've dug myself into a hole that I can't escape from. I can't get well, I don't have that luxury.
I am also sick of living with the chronic pain that my IBD gives me. (Sorry for such long posting but I had to offload, so fed up today).
what is ibd. i hope u feel beteer soon.
IBD is inflammatory bowel disease, it's split into crohns & colitis, but for 15% of sufferers (like me) they're not sure which one of those it is. It's a pain to live with.
You're not an idiot, you just needed to hug yourself. I understand what it is like to be pressured into doing something you don't have the strength for. Many times I have prayed for death to help me escape whatever crazy situation I have gotten
myself into. I'm sorry you can't see the light right now, that feels horrible. In the end, your health and well being is more important than anyone else's expectations. Please be kind to yourself. I hope you can find a way to take the time you need.
Thank you Audrey. I don't feel that I will get the time I want to sort myself out. It's been building to this anyway, in all my experience with depression I have always found something to cling to. I can't go on disappointing everyone around me...
Please speak to your mum about it and tell her it's something you need to do, you aren't a disappointment you just need some time to get better, just like anyone who isn't well x
I had the same pressure when I finished uni, but from my dad. It just makes the depression worse. I hope talking to your mum will help and she will understand you need time as your not well.
I have thought for years that I was a disappointment to my parents, esp my dad. I have recently realized through therapy, that I'm just projecting my feelings onto others. I am the one that thinks I am a disappointment. I am the one who thinks that
I am a failure. This is because I am ill. And that illness requires that I take time to heal, often. When I don't, my body will do it for me. No matter what anyone says, only you know what is best for you. Try not to be afraid to insist upon it. xxoo
Thank you Tasha, Christina & Audrey for your words of support. It means a lot to me as always. Thank you too to Jenny, Rene, Bunny, James, Kate & Anna for hugs.
I just don't know how to stop being a disappointment. I've been like this since I was small. I don't think it will change now.
Then perhaps your should strive for acceptance and learn to love the you you are now. Easier said than done, I know. I'm trying to do the same, and am struggling to come to grips with the fact that there are some things that will not be able to do.
big hugs and much love
haha it's ok I've done similar before
I want a shirt that says 'Please don't make me adult today! I can't adult!'