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4 Christina S
15 May 2018 ·
Bf in operation it could take up to 11 hours. Very anxious but also so relieved he's having it
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5 Christina S
14 May 2018 ·
Bf having operation tomorrow, very nervous but also pleased to be starting the road forwards. Without it he is paralysed but there are lots of risks. They are doing a biopsy at the same time.
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Natalie C
15 May 2018 ·

Thinking of you and hoping everything goes well tomorrow for you both. Big hugs xx

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5 Christina S
14 May 2018 ·
Bf having operation tomorrow, very nervous but also pleased to be starting the road forwards. Without it he is paralysed but there are lots of risks. They are doing a biopsy at the same time.
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15 May 2018 ·

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4 Christina S
11 May 2018 ·
Struggling to sort things out and do worried about bf. So nervous about the operations and his mobility is getting worse. He is bedbound and the minute and his right hand is barely usesable.
Christina S
11 May 2018 ·

Going down to London to see him tomorrow. I miss him and I'm scared for the future

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11 May 2018 ·

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12 May 2018 ·

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12 May 2018 ·

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Christina S
14 May 2018 ·

Thanks pandas xx

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5 Christina S
11 May 2018 ·
Bf just been transferred to London to have surgery to stabilise his spine. Good news as it means he is well enough to have the op and they think he will live long enough to make it worth it. Without
Christina S
11 May 2018 ·

It he would have ended paralysed from the neck down.

Love 1
11 May 2018 ·

hope op is successful.

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11 May 2018 ·

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11 May 2018 ·

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Heheheheheheheh R
11 May 2018 ·

I also hope the op will be successful 😁

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11 May 2018 ·

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Maria K
11 May 2018 ·

Big hugs, you must have went through so much

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11 May 2018 ·

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Esther B
11 May 2018 ·

Dont know if good luck is a good thing to say but wishing you all the best xoxo

Tasha S
11 May 2018 ·

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Cindy M
11 May 2018 ·

Fingers crossed - so sorry to hear what's going on xx

Christina S
11 May 2018 ·

Thanks pandas xx the operation got delayed as it is bigger than we thought. Its a 2 day op, Monday a 7 hour op through the neck and voice box to his spine and Tuesday a 4 hour op through the back of his neck. The vertabre have yo he removed and

Christina S
11 May 2018 ·

Replaced with a metal structure. They need a 10 man team to do the op. Very scary and lots of risks such as paralysis and blindness and also death. Trying to be optimistic

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15 May 2018 ·

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1 Christina S
10 May 2018 ·
Crying, today we should find out how far bfs cancer has spread and how long his life expectancy is. I pray we are able to have a year or 2 together. I bear the thought of him being gone in months
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10 May 2018 ·

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Miyuki H
10 May 2018 ·

I'm sending energy to you and him.

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10 May 2018 ·

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Jeff M
10 May 2018 ·

Such a difficult thing to go through... I'm glad you have support. Think of how wonderful it is to have you there to care for him and support him through this time! Every day is a gift now. You can get through this together...

Tasha S
10 May 2018 ·

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Esther B
10 May 2018 ·

All my thoughts are with you.

Christina S
11 May 2018 ·

Thank you Jeff, we can do it together. It puts life into perspective hearing news like this. Thank you Esther and miyuki and all you pandas for your hugs.

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15 May 2018 ·

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2 Christina S
09 May 2018 ·
Bf has terminal cancer, lung cancer has spread to spine and bones. They are seeing how far it has spread. They are not sure what his life expectancy us yet. Absolutely gutted I thought me where going
Christina S
09 May 2018 ·

To fulfill do many dreams together. Bf focusing on fighting it to have as much time together making memories. He doesn't feel ill in himself and hadn't lost weight. Hopefully good signs.

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09 May 2018 ·

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09 May 2018 ·

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09 May 2018 ·

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Zoe P
09 May 2018 ·

That sounds so scary, I'm so sorry you have to deal with that.

Christina S
10 May 2018 ·

Thank you zoe xx

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0 Christina S
09 May 2018 ·
So scared just found out that bf has a broken neck with fragments pressing on his spinal cord. His legs and arms are weak and they have found a lump which caused the break. Find out today if it's
Christina S
09 May 2018 ·

Cancer and if its spread. He's being transferred to London for emergency spinal operation that will hopefully stop him getting worse

Christina S
09 May 2018 ·

I don't know how to cope 😟

Tasha S
09 May 2018 ·

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Tasha S
09 May 2018 ·

Omg that's horrible :(

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09 May 2018 ·

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Lieteke G
09 May 2018 ·

Oh, so sorry to hear that. Try to be there for him. It is ok to show emotions and to cry together. These things are not only tough for the patient, but also for the people surrounding them. πŸ’œ

Jeff M
09 May 2018 ·

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Jeff M
09 May 2018 ·

Oh wow, I'm so sorry! I don't have good advice for coping, but you can be there for him...support for him and someone to cry with him as Lieteke says. When you're not with him, lean on family and friends who want to be there for you!

Christina S
09 May 2018 ·

Thank you I've had so much support. I've learnt I need to let people in so they can help me and I'm not afraid anymore to let people see me cry. I'm also getting a phycotherapist from macmillion to support me

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3 Christina S
03 Jan 2018 ·
Gad bad bfs dad messing with my head on purpose. Trying not to let it get to me, but struggling to cope.
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03 Jan 2018 ·

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Noel L
03 Jan 2018 ·

That is a mean thing to do. I hope you are OK Christina

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03 Jan 2018 ·

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Natalie C
03 Jan 2018 ·

Hope you are Ok xx

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04 Jan 2018 ·

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7 Christina S
27 Dec 2017 ·
Feeling positive. Bf back at work so I've cleaned the house, hoovered and done the washing. Feeling productive.
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27 Dec 2017 ·

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27 Dec 2017 ·

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27 Dec 2017 ·

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28 Dec 2017 ·

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Love 1
28 Dec 2017 ·

Getting things done. I like that feeling.

Christina S
03 Jan 2018 ·

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5 Christina S
26 Dec 2017 ·
Mood has dipped tonight feeling down. Think it's a reaction to being too busy and too stressed lately.
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26 Dec 2017 ·

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Christina S
27 Dec 2017 ·

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5 Christina S
25 Dec 2017 ·
Merry Christmas pandas xx I woke up feeling really panicky but hopefully I can cope with it and have a good say.
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25 Dec 2017 ·

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Rosie L
25 Dec 2017 ·

Get well soon Cristina. Me too xx

Love 1
25 Dec 2017 ·

Deep breaths. :)

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25 Dec 2017 ·

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25 Dec 2017 · CHIEFPANDA

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Manda P
25 Dec 2017 ·

Merry Christmas, Christina.πŸ˜†! Hope you are able to enjoy your day. β€οΈπŸ’šβ€οΈ

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25 Dec 2017 ·

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Christina S
25 Dec 2017 ·

I did thanks Manda 😊 I hope you all had good Christmases. Thanks for the hugs xx

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26 Dec 2017 ·

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7 Christina S
24 Dec 2017 ·
Looking forward to first Christmas with bf. Mood been up and down this week but just going get to enjoy eating her moment as they come this Christmas and not be too hard on myself if I'm not 'ok'
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24 Dec 2017 ·

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Natalie C
24 Dec 2017 ·

Big hugs, hope you have a nice Christmas Christina x

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24 Dec 2017 ·

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Esther B
24 Dec 2017 ·

enjoy it!

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25 Dec 2017 ·

Thanks pandas xx

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26 Dec 2017 ·

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2 Christina S
21 Dec 2017 ·
Feeling depressed it's been too stressful. I spoke to the do called friend. Basically my mental health is a problem to her. I won't be spending time with her. It's really knocked my confidence I keep
Christina S
21 Dec 2017 ·

Checking my behaviour around everyone to make sure I'm not annoying them. My anxiety has been really bad.

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Pippa B
21 Dec 2017 · NEW

I find It very hard with having ASD to not annoy myself let alone others xx

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John T
21 Dec 2017 ·

They don't sound like a good person. Or a person worth talking to. Find better people!

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21 Dec 2017 ·

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21 Dec 2017 ·

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Manda P
21 Dec 2017 ·

Yeah, forget about them. You'll find people who like YOU. ALL of you! Sorry to hear your anxiety has been high. Mine has been so high too. It really sucks, huh?

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21 Dec 2017 ·

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Christina S
24 Dec 2017 ·

It does Manda. You are right pandas they aren't worth my time. I have friends who really care about me I'm going to focus on them. Thank you everyone xx

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1 Christina S
17 Dec 2017 ·
Tired of it all. Maybe what everyone has said about me over the years is true. Stupid, useless, disgusting, failure, drama queen, idiot.
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17 Dec 2017 · NEW

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Geoffroy I
17 Dec 2017 · NEW

What happened sweetie? Y'know, nobody is useless!

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17 Dec 2017 ·

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nixiblu .
17 Dec 2017 ·

What matters is how you feel about yourself. ( although I wish I could practice what I say)

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18 Dec 2017 ·

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Natalie C
18 Dec 2017 ·

Dont worry about others and their opinions, focus on you & taking good care of yourself. Lots of hugs and love xx

Love 1
18 Dec 2017 ·

intense feelings. better to attend to them without the words. just feel.

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18 Dec 2017 ·

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Christina S
21 Dec 2017 ·

Thank you everyone for your replies xxx

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2 Christina S
17 Dec 2017 ·
Apparently I need my character flaws pointing out so I can get stronger! I'm only stronger are counselling and cbt, attacking me isn't going to help. Feel sick and panicky. I'm really upset and hurt.
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17 Dec 2017 ·

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Richard E
17 Dec 2017 ·

Cbt is useful....it challenges your thinking. It is hard...,,I found is quite useful

Noel L
17 Dec 2017 ·

Sorry you are struggling Christina. Be strong and keep going. Hard may also be useful even if it is painful

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17 Dec 2017 ·

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Christina S
17 Dec 2017 ·

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3 Christina S
16 Dec 2017 ·
Just had a so called friend tell me I'm clingy and a petulant child. Just because of my illness and sometimes I can't cope and need some space when I'm out. Thanks for that it's not my fault I'm ill.
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17 Dec 2017 ·

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6 Christina S
10 Dec 2017 ·
Enjoyed the snow, it's very heavy here. β˜ƒοΈβ„οΈDid lots of walking. Got very anxious this morning over something silly and had a panic attack whilst out so a mixed day.
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10 Dec 2017 ·

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5 Christina S
09 Dec 2017 ·
Emotionally very up and down today. My mood seems to change in a second. But getting through been quite productive still.
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09 Dec 2017 ·

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Natalie C
10 Dec 2017 ·

Big hugs Christina xx

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Christina S
10 Dec 2017 ·

Thanks Natalie xx thanks everyone for the hugs

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7 Christina S
08 Dec 2017 ·
Had a lovely meal out last night with bf, candlelit table for 2 πŸ˜ƒ I managed to get over the bad panic attack as the day went on. I slept in this morning planning a rest day.
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08 Dec 2017 ·

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paul M
08 Dec 2017 ·

Sounds lovely.

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Christina S
09 Dec 2017 ·

It was Paul. Thanks pandas xx

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