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4 paul M
7d ·
First time here this year. So, happy New Year, everyone. Me? Still in debt, but health and employment are still mostly with me, so, no worries. Loneliness bites, though. Hugs to you all.
Lydia R
7d ·

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Penelope P
7d ·

Great to have you back Paul!

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7d ·

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7d ·

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7d ·

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Albertine M
7d ·

Lovely to see you Paulbear! Was thinking of you. Doing any writing and/or dancing? :)

John T
6d ·

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6d ·

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Manda P
6d ·

Yay! Hi, paul! So glad you stopped in. Glad to see things are okay. I hope you stick around!

Esther B
6d ·

Nice to see you around. Wishing you all the best x

paul M
5d ·

Aww, you are so nice, guys. Puts a smile on my old face :)

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6 paul M
17 Dec 2018 ·
Had two days of good sleep and feeling great. Can concentrate, mind works, very good. House repairs too costly, though.
Luke G
17 Dec 2018 ·

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17 Dec 2018 ·

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17 Dec 2018 ·

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Manda P
17 Dec 2018 ·

So glad to see green, paul! Hope this continues & you find a solution to the financial trouble.

Albertine M
17 Dec 2018 ·

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Albertine M
17 Dec 2018 ·

Woo green! Go Paul!

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5 paul M
11 Dec 2018 ·
Funny, I found that I instantly calm down and can concentrate and work much better, if I tie a scarf or something similar over my mouth. Or just rise a turtleneck, so that it covers my mouth.
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11 Dec 2018 ·

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11 Dec 2018 ·

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11 Dec 2018 ·

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5 paul M
06 Dec 2018 ·
One day out of days. Still have work, it's good, I need it to pay off loans.
nixiblu .
06 Dec 2018 ·

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06 Dec 2018 ·

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06 Dec 2018 ·

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06 Dec 2018 ·

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06 Dec 2018 ·

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07 Dec 2018 ·

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09 Dec 2018 ·

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5 paul M
27 Nov 2018 ·
Happy birthday to me :)
Kym S
27 Nov 2018 ·

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nixiblu .
27 Nov 2018 ·

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nixiblu .
27 Nov 2018 ·

Happy birthday

Xavier M
27 Nov 2018 ·

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Jeff M
27 Nov 2018 ·

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Jeff M
27 Nov 2018 ·

Happy birthday, Paul! Hope you indulge and treat yourself!

John T
27 Nov 2018 ·

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John T
27 Nov 2018 ·

Happy birthday!

Albertine M
27 Nov 2018 ·

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Albertine M
27 Nov 2018 ·

Happy birthday Paul! Good to see a post xx

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27 Nov 2018 ·

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Manda P
28 Nov 2018 ·

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Manda P
28 Nov 2018 ·

Happy Birthday, paul! Glad to see you were at least out of the red for the day. Hope you were able to celebrate! 🎉

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3 paul M
08 Nov 2018 ·
No Reason Given
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08 Nov 2018 ·

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08 Nov 2018 ·

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08 Nov 2018 ·

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10 Nov 2018 ·

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4 paul M
06 Nov 2018 ·
***, I'm developing a habit to hum and speak aloud by myself. At home it breaks silence, but at work I need to start control myself. Too early to become a crazy old man.
Tasha S
06 Nov 2018 ·

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Jeff M
06 Nov 2018 ·

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Jeff M
06 Nov 2018 ·

Ha, I know what you mean! I see these little 'loner' habits sometimes and wonder what other people think of me. Other times I wish I didn't care and could just embrace being crazy old coot!

Kym S
06 Nov 2018 ·

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paul M
06 Nov 2018 ·

I want to wait for some 15 - 20 years, I still need employment and not being crazy old coot looks great in my resume.

Jeff M
06 Nov 2018 ·

Sounds to me like you're applying at the wrong places then! :)

Albertine M
06 Nov 2018 ·

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07 Nov 2018 ·

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07 Nov 2018 ·

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3 paul M
05 Nov 2018 ·
Read my old diaries. I'm going in circles, for years. I'm getting older, that's all, no other changes.
Me J
05 Nov 2018 · NEW

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05 Nov 2018 ·

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05 Nov 2018 ·

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me M
05 Nov 2018 ·

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Jeff M
05 Nov 2018 ·

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Jeff M
05 Nov 2018 ·

Yeah, I feel the same. I can go back 20 years and see the same things...makes me wonder if those 20 years have been worth it at all. :(

paul M
05 Nov 2018 ·

I certainly was not that stiff those 20 years ago and my knees ached lot less :)

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05 Nov 2018 ·

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4 paul M
02 Nov 2018 ·
Days pass quickly, I still have a job, a home and enough health. So, mostly quite good.
Jimbob W
02 Nov 2018 ·

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02 Nov 2018 ·

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Jeff M
02 Nov 2018 ·

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02 Nov 2018 ·

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02 Nov 2018 ·

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4 paul M
26 Oct 2018 ·
Sad. I feel being used, and I don't know how to stop it. In constructive way, I mean.
Maite P
26 Oct 2018 ·

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26 Oct 2018 ·

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26 Oct 2018 ·

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Albertine M
26 Oct 2018 ·

I'm really sorry to hear that, Paul - hope you can find a way soon.

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26 Oct 2018 ·

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27 Oct 2018 ·

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27 Oct 2018 ·

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Manda P
27 Oct 2018 ·

Hope you can get this sorted soon, paul.

Aalfre M
13 Dec 2018 ·

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5 paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·
Yea, so I wrote a little story. To be honest, I started it without knowing where it will go. Turned out, that it was about the village drunk...
paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

...who turned out to be Saint George who killed a dragon 1000 years ago with a holy sword. George was supposed to return sword to angel who brought it to him, but, since the sword granted an immortality to its bearer...

paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

...George decided to keep it for himself and over next 1000 years slowly degraded. Finally angel found him and demanded sword back, but George knew about that beforehand and made a bet with some unknowing people, betting everything he owned...

paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

...basically, his shack and a sword for a certain task, which George thought, was impossible. In this way he thought that he has secured a sword, because now it was bond by a name of the saintly warrior. But people did the task and....

paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

...and George disintegrated, and angel was left without a sword. Story was told from a point of view of those people, a couple who had no idea, what was going on and had to deal with an angry angel and a demon (hired to help to find George).

paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

Something like that :)

Jeff M
18 Oct 2018 ·

I like it!

John T
18 Oct 2018 ·

Sounds good, Paul!

John T
18 Oct 2018 ·

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paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

Thanks :)

Manda P
18 Oct 2018 ·

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4 paul M
17 Oct 2018 ·
Still alive. Wrote a little story - this is an exhausting work, but it is better than to endure mental pain, I can lose myself for a few hours.
Albertine M
17 Oct 2018 ·

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Albertine M
17 Oct 2018 ·

Glad you're still alive and also that you still have the ability to lose yourself in something

paul M
17 Oct 2018 ·

Yes, that 'flow' thing, it sometimes still happens to me.

nixiblu .
17 Oct 2018 ·

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Manda P
17 Oct 2018 ·

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Manda P
17 Oct 2018 ·

Nice to hear from you, paul. What is your story about?

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18 Oct 2018 ·

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4 paul M
08 Oct 2018 ·
Good - slept well for 3 days in a row, 7-8 hours of solid sleep. Bad - I'm still tired of myself and my way of thinking. Really want this life to end.
me M
08 Oct 2018 ·

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08 Oct 2018 ·

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08 Oct 2018 ·

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08 Oct 2018 ·

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09 Oct 2018 ·

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4 paul M
01 Oct 2018 ·
It ebbs and flows, but I keep losing my interest in life. What do I live for? I see no joy. Your joy is stupid, they said and now I can feel something only through other people.
paul M
01 Oct 2018 ·

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paul M
01 Oct 2018 ·

Feelings of other's are more true to me, their needs more real and urgent than my own.

paul M
01 Oct 2018 ·

But I - what right do I have to feel anything?

paul M
01 Oct 2018 ·

I'm always wrong anyway.

Jeff M
01 Oct 2018 ·

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01 Oct 2018 ·

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4 paul M
25 Sep 2018 ·
Facebook wisdom says that I'm afraid to stand up for myself, because parents disciplined me publicly from the young age. Doesn't every parent do that?
Manda P
25 Sep 2018 ·

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Manda P
25 Sep 2018 ·

Yeah, but your experience could have been more extreme. Just a scolding or physical action?

paul M
26 Sep 2018 ·

Scolding, I think. Physical action required privacy :)

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27 Sep 2018 ·

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6 paul M
21 Sep 2018 ·
Feeling OK-ish, why not to put it to 6. Slept great, 7 full hours, no waking up and trying to fall asleep several times, and for last few days my dreams are sort of pleasant.
tEnT S
21 Sep 2018 ·

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21 Sep 2018 ·

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21 Sep 2018 ·

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21 Sep 2018 ·

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Albertine M
21 Sep 2018 ·

Woo!

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21 Sep 2018 ·

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22 Sep 2018 ·

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23 Sep 2018 ·

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24 Sep 2018 ·

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5 paul M
20 Sep 2018 ·
Yesterday was good and productive. I wonder...D uses a lot of perfume. Is she depressed? She seems to be so cheerful most of the time.
Albertine M
20 Sep 2018 ·

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5 paul M
19 Sep 2018 ·
Finally some breakthrough in work. Too little and too late. Still, good.
Lydia R
19 Sep 2018 ·

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19 Sep 2018 ·

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19 Sep 2018 ·

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19 Sep 2018 ·

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20 Sep 2018 ·

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20 Sep 2018 ·

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Manda P
20 Sep 2018 ·

A FIVE!!!!!!!!!! Way to go, paul! That's awesome! Hope this continues!!

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4 paul M
18 Sep 2018 ·
St.John's Wort helps somewhat. At least, I had full 7 hours of sleep. Don't even remember, when was last time I could sleep for so long.
John T
18 Sep 2018 ·

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John T
18 Sep 2018 ·

Good! But be careful if you're taking other medications. St John's Wort is a very interactive* drug. *Wrong word.

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18 Sep 2018 ·

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18 Sep 2018 ·

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4 paul M
16 Sep 2018 ·
Stupid hypertension.
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16 Sep 2018 ·

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16 Sep 2018 ·

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Noel L
16 Sep 2018 ·

Is it well controlled Paul?

Jen B
16 Sep 2018 ·

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16 Sep 2018 ·

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Anna D
16 Sep 2018 ·

I hope you feel better now.

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16 Sep 2018 ·

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16 Sep 2018 ·

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16 Sep 2018 ·

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17 Sep 2018 ·

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paul M
17 Sep 2018 ·

It is well controlled if I take medicine. But I'm out of it and it looks that I won't get my pills for next two weeks.

Esther B
17 Sep 2018 ·

Why can't you get your pills? Sounds awful.

Manda P
17 Sep 2018 ·

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