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3 paul M
08 Nov 2018 ·
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08 Nov 2018 ·

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4 paul M
06 Nov 2018 ·
***, I'm developing a habit to hum and speak aloud by myself. At home it breaks silence, but at work I need to start control myself. Too early to become a crazy old man.
Tasha S
06 Nov 2018 ·

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Jeff M
06 Nov 2018 ·

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Jeff M
06 Nov 2018 ·

Ha, I know what you mean! I see these little 'loner' habits sometimes and wonder what other people think of me. Other times I wish I didn't care and could just embrace being crazy old coot!

Kym S
06 Nov 2018 ·

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paul M
06 Nov 2018 ·

I want to wait for some 15 - 20 years, I still need employment and not being crazy old coot looks great in my resume.

Jeff M
06 Nov 2018 ·

Sounds to me like you're applying at the wrong places then! :)

Cindy M
06 Nov 2018 ·

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07 Nov 2018 ·

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07 Nov 2018 ·

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3 paul M
05 Nov 2018 ·
Read my old diaries. I'm going in circles, for years. I'm getting older, that's all, no other changes.
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05 Nov 2018 · NEW

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05 Nov 2018 ·

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05 Nov 2018 ·

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Jeff M
05 Nov 2018 ·

Yeah, I feel the same. I can go back 20 years and see the same things...makes me wonder if those 20 years have been worth it at all. :(

paul M
05 Nov 2018 ·

I certainly was not that stiff those 20 years ago and my knees ached lot less :)

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05 Nov 2018 ·

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4 paul M
02 Nov 2018 ·
Days pass quickly, I still have a job, a home and enough health. So, mostly quite good.
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02 Nov 2018 ·

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4 paul M
26 Oct 2018 ·
Sad. I feel being used, and I don't know how to stop it. In constructive way, I mean.
Maite P
26 Oct 2018 ·

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26 Oct 2018 · NEW

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26 Oct 2018 ·

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Cindy M
26 Oct 2018 ·

I'm really sorry to hear that, Paul - hope you can find a way soon.

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26 Oct 2018 ·

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27 Oct 2018 ·

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27 Oct 2018 ·

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Manda P
27 Oct 2018 ·

Hope you can get this sorted soon, paul.

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5 paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·
Yea, so I wrote a little story. To be honest, I started it without knowing where it will go. Turned out, that it was about the village drunk...
paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

...who turned out to be Saint George who killed a dragon 1000 years ago with a holy sword. George was supposed to return sword to angel who brought it to him, but, since the sword granted an immortality to its bearer...

paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

...George decided to keep it for himself and over next 1000 years slowly degraded. Finally angel found him and demanded sword back, but George knew about that beforehand and made a bet with some unknowing people, betting everything he owned...

paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

...basically, his shack and a sword for a certain task, which George thought, was impossible. In this way he thought that he has secured a sword, because now it was bond by a name of the saintly warrior. But people did the task and....

paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

...and George disintegrated, and angel was left without a sword. Story was told from a point of view of those people, a couple who had no idea, what was going on and had to deal with an angry angel and a demon (hired to help to find George).

paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

Something like that :)

Jeff M
18 Oct 2018 ·

I like it!

John T
18 Oct 2018 ·

Sounds good, Paul!

John T
18 Oct 2018 ·

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paul M
18 Oct 2018 ·

Thanks :)

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18 Oct 2018 ·

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4 paul M
17 Oct 2018 ·
Still alive. Wrote a little story - this is an exhausting work, but it is better than to endure mental pain, I can lose myself for a few hours.
Cindy M
17 Oct 2018 ·

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Cindy M
17 Oct 2018 ·

Glad you're still alive and also that you still have the ability to lose yourself in something

paul M
17 Oct 2018 ·

Yes, that 'flow' thing, it sometimes still happens to me.

nixiblu .
17 Oct 2018 ·

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17 Oct 2018 ·

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Manda P
17 Oct 2018 ·

Nice to hear from you, paul. What is your story about?

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18 Oct 2018 ·

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4 paul M
08 Oct 2018 ·
Good - slept well for 3 days in a row, 7-8 hours of solid sleep. Bad - I'm still tired of myself and my way of thinking. Really want this life to end.
me M
08 Oct 2018 ·

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4 paul M
01 Oct 2018 ·
It ebbs and flows, but I keep losing my interest in life. What do I live for? I see no joy. Your joy is stupid, they said and now I can feel something only through other people.
paul M
01 Oct 2018 ·

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paul M
01 Oct 2018 ·

Feelings of other's are more true to me, their needs more real and urgent than my own.

paul M
01 Oct 2018 ·

But I - what right do I have to feel anything?

paul M
01 Oct 2018 ·

I'm always wrong anyway.

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01 Oct 2018 ·

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4 paul M
25 Sep 2018 ·
Facebook wisdom says that I'm afraid to stand up for myself, because parents disciplined me publicly from the young age. Doesn't every parent do that?
Manda P
25 Sep 2018 ·

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Manda P
25 Sep 2018 ·

Yeah, but your experience could have been more extreme. Just a scolding or physical action?

paul M
26 Sep 2018 ·

Scolding, I think. Physical action required privacy :)

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27 Sep 2018 ·

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6 paul M
21 Sep 2018 ·
Feeling OK-ish, why not to put it to 6. Slept great, 7 full hours, no waking up and trying to fall asleep several times, and for last few days my dreams are sort of pleasant.
tEnT S
21 Sep 2018 ·

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21 Sep 2018 ·

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Cindy M
21 Sep 2018 ·

Woo!

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5 paul M
20 Sep 2018 ·
Yesterday was good and productive. I wonder...D uses a lot of perfume. Is she depressed? She seems to be so cheerful most of the time.
Cindy M
20 Sep 2018 ·

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5 paul M
19 Sep 2018 ·
Finally some breakthrough in work. Too little and too late. Still, good.
Lydia R
19 Sep 2018 ·

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Manda P
20 Sep 2018 ·

A FIVE!!!!!!!!!! Way to go, paul! That's awesome! Hope this continues!!

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4 paul M
18 Sep 2018 ·
St.John's Wort helps somewhat. At least, I had full 7 hours of sleep. Don't even remember, when was last time I could sleep for so long.
John T
18 Sep 2018 ·

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John T
18 Sep 2018 ·

Good! But be careful if you're taking other medications. St John's Wort is a very interactive* drug. *Wrong word.

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18 Sep 2018 ·

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4 paul M
16 Sep 2018 ·
Stupid hypertension.
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16 Sep 2018 ·

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Noel L
16 Sep 2018 ·

Is it well controlled Paul?

Jen B
16 Sep 2018 ·

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16 Sep 2018 ·

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Anna D
16 Sep 2018 ·

I hope you feel better now.

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16 Sep 2018 ·

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paul M
17 Sep 2018 ·

It is well controlled if I take medicine. But I'm out of it and it looks that I won't get my pills for next two weeks.

Esther B
17 Sep 2018 ·

Why can't you get your pills? Sounds awful.

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17 Sep 2018 ·

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4 paul M
15 Sep 2018 ·
Massage, relaxed. It will last for few hours, then back to usual tension.
Jen B
15 Sep 2018 ·

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16 Sep 2018 ·

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Manda P
16 Sep 2018 ·

Glad you got a break, paul, no matter how small.

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3 paul M
14 Sep 2018 ·
Didn't sleep that well last night, only like 2 hours of sleep. But this, I hope, will be 'the first day of the rest of my life'. Hopefully, in 20 months I'll be in a better financial position.
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14 Sep 2018 ·

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14 Sep 2018 ·

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Jeff M
14 Sep 2018 ·

Good to see a light at the end of the tunnel! Good for you for making positive changes!

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14 Sep 2018 ·

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16 Sep 2018 ·

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4 paul M
13 Sep 2018 ·
I feel bored and angry. Don't event want to go to dance. But I have to. I have almost nothing else left.
John T
13 Sep 2018 ·

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John T
13 Sep 2018 ·

Sometimes we all need a push out the door, and if you can push yourself out, you're probably doing better than you think. Keep going.

Jeff M
13 Sep 2018 ·

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paul M
14 Sep 2018 ·

Yes, I still can do it, in most cases.

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4 paul M
12 Sep 2018 ·
too much work all of a sudden.
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12 Sep 2018 ·

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3 paul M
11 Sep 2018 ·
Loneliness bites
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11 Sep 2018 ·

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11 Sep 2018 ·

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Cindy M
11 Sep 2018 ·

Wish it weren't biting you xx

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