Please stop punishing yourself Silke - this really isn't your fault no matter what you believe. It's the illness making you feel guilty & responsible but others won't understand unless they are suffers too. Stop feeling so responsible for everything
This feeling is normal Silke. & from what you have said in previous threads over the last few days I really think your feelings for your BF are lot stronger than you may realise. If he loves you he will fight for you I know because I have been there
Once 'the initial shock of splitting up' has settled - from what you have said about him - I get the feeling he maybe back stronger than ever because if he truly loves you he ain't gonna give up this easy because he will fight to keep you
I still think he knows he made a mistake and he will do everything in his power to rectify that even if means giving you time and space to look at the bigger picture in the hope you may feel different later & change your mind. Take care big Pandy hug
We have lots of hugs for you here (I know it's not the same). I'm sorry you're going through a rough time
Please don't be too hard on yourself - its obvious you are suffering bad depression and that's hard enough itself and depression can really you feel responsible for everything
Some relationships we outgrown. they're meant to teach us about ourself and life. That knowledge and those memories weren't a waste. Besides, living a lie would've been more of regret than being true to yourself.
Took my off of it for a bit. I feel really bad for him. I should be selfish and take good Care of myself to prevent depression and all of that, but he's such a good guy. Why did I hurt him so much? Why did my feelings dissapear???
We can't help how we feel and sometimes the things we do are the opposite of our intent. All we can do is show how much we love them when we feel like it. If they love us, they will understand and accept our flaws like we try to do for them.
Oh my dear, I understand you feel this way but it's not your fault. You clearly care for him a lot still. Maybe your feelings are just bit confused and need some time to know what they want?
Oh poor you. Big Hugs
Please take extra special care
Big big hugs <3
Sometimes I have to do that too...and after a time, it's nice to go back to people!
I hope you feel better soon. Personally I don't think your the bad one so you shouldn't blame yourself. Take care & I wish you well in whatever you choose
I'm doing it more bc pandas and people wouldn't like me anymore if I didn't Jeff
I really hope things work out for you but why arnt you allowed to text your BF?
I don't know. Bc I said that I don't really love him anymore. And were in this strange situation..
Oh poor you Silke. Did you explain to him how you felt the way he hurt you? Is he going to fight to keep you??
He said he is going to fight for me. He wanted me for over 6 years, then he gave up and I suddenly realized maybe he's the one after all.. so eventually he let me in. Saying this, I mean I really think he'll fight for me. Maybe I have to give it anot
Only you know that deep down but he needs to prove to you he really loves & cares about you & that he made a mistake. He needs to earn your trust again. He needs to show he loves you with is heart & soul but to do that he will need another chance
I think you understand me wrong Stephen, I'm the one who's having doubts..
I'm 'the bad one' in the story
He needs to do all the running and make all the effort and do all the ground work. He needs to worship your every step. He needs to prove beyond all doubt that he was wrong
Oh poor you. I don't know what to say. Take care
Don't be to hard on yourself x
Take care Silke. I know how much you must be hurting & how confused you probably are. I send big Pandy cuddles
Tricky situation... i hope you find the solution soon x
I hope you sort things out. Take time to reflect & look at the bigger picture. Every situation needs to be judged by merit. I know what your BF done was wrong but people do make mistakes
Like I told you - I 'stepped outside the box' with serious results whilst 'not myself' but I begged forgiveness & rebuilt my relationship never to repeat this again as I learnt (the hard way) both the warning signs & what I really had & was risking
Please take extra special care of yourself as you're very vunerable & open to emotional attack at moment. I send you big Pandy Hugs to help you
I stopped because I spent too much time on there. It is good to be made aware of the reasons we are doing our not doing something. It can help you make more clear decisions. If you don't want to be on FB then it is OK.
I've taken 2 month long breaks from there because BF swore if I got off there I wouldn't want to get back on. I did & I will. I don't have any 'real life' friends so FB & MP is really how I socialize.
I live for more than a year without it. Bc I posted too much and too negative. And I find that people aren't real on there. But maybe I've been distacing myself from people. And now I'm doubting.
You can decide how much you wanna post.. it's always an option to deactivate it