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Looking forward to it a little bit, so I hope I'll feel okay when I'm there.
*Hugs*
there anymore now! Wish my boyfriend was home from work already. I don't know what to do 😢 She made me cry on the phone. She made me feel even more guilty
How awful for you, Silke - she obviously has no idea how to cope with this. She shouldn't be making you feel guilty (as you say, you feel that already, as I have too when I've been in your situation). Extra hugs xx
That is a nuisance, but remember an emergency might have occurred.
Did you have to go to the doctor or could you just take a day off? Hope this will help you to feel better!
I don't think I can just stay home. So I'm now waiting at the doctor's..
Hope they're understanding and supporting and that you'll be home again soon.
Yes when I was here in february he said he can't write me home for a long time, but every now and then when it's too much, I can come here, we'll talk and when he nodes I need it, he can write me home for 1 or 2 days, so I hope he writes me home toda
*today an tomorrow. But it's waiting,waiting, waiting here. Hoping to relax a little bit this afternoon.
Ah, that's good, but hope it won't take too long!
doctor will think. I just feel empty and full at the same time. My arms and legs hurt, I'm so so tired
If your doctor is worth their salt they'll see that you're unwell. My luck could be that my GP is also a psychologist & might understand my struggle better than other GPs. Might be worth looking for another one if yours doesn't understand you.
I still have the same worries every time I consider getting a sick leave. I understand this so well...
*sick note not leave
I did an internship in the past, at the place where I work now. That was during my depression time, so she knows about it. I just feel bad calling in sick. This would be the second time for mentally not feeling well at my job. I never told her that
time I was sick, that it's bc of her and the fact there's not enough work and that I don't like it there anymore. Two months ago I was also sick, like throwing up. So this would be the third time this year I'd call in sick for two or three days...
So difficult. But to be honest, seeing myself like this, I'm scared for a depression again.
I also always feel bad for calling in sick, but for me it's easier to take a day off (even without a sick note) and I've made use of it because no one will gain anything when I go to work in that state. No matter what you'll do tomorrow I just hope
You'll feel better sooon!
Thank you Lydia
Thanks for the hugs
tomorrow and go to the doctor. But I don't really dare. Scared of what the doctor will say and my boss will have to call of al my clients. On the other hand, I need rest or the will come a moment that I'm crying at work when clients are with me
That does sound really difficult. If you think the doctor could help you, you should take care of yourself!
It would help me to have some rest and be home. But if I want that, I have to go to the doctor
I think my allergies might be bothering me too... Hope you're not too uncomfortable today!
feel bad about.
Ugh, what a pain. Probably better to buy a new one...
Yes Jeff, after calling so many stores for how much it'd cost me the last guy said, about 120 or 130€ and he said considering the new price it's a lot.. So i looked it up, 150 is the cheapest i can find it online, and if i have to spend that much off
money, I also think it's best to just buy a new one. So stopped interrupting my boyfriend at work and said, i'll let it be, we'll see what we do with it tonight. I find a lot of money, but i already accepted it a bit. There are so many things that
me unhappy at the moment, that i have to let this one go. My boyfriend would say, It is what it is ;)
I always hated the 'it is what it is' saying, but I guess it's a good way of saying we can only deal with what is real, not what we want. Good luck with it. hard to spend the money, I know!
I hate that saying most of the time too Jeff, but most of the time it's just true. It is what it is and you can't change it..
the 6 of us. Guess I'm the one overreacting again. But I don't see it the same way as him. It's or our bro and sis also or our parents only. What does it matter that he lives with his parents? He's old enough to cook himself some food..
Take care of yourself, Silke...Hope you feel better soon. *Big hugs*
Thanks for all the hugs
Great! Congratulations! How did it feel?
Up so far I didn't think much of driving there car, too scared that I'd have an accident with it. But today I was like 'okay let's try'
Glad it all went well. Feel better in my 16year old car, cause I'm used to that one. But off course the kodiaq drives better, it's a difference.. but only normal. Happy I can keep there old car that I'm used to. Hopefully a few more years.
Xxxx
Cause it does angel
Does it Faith? I don't thinks so anymore 🙁
You've just had bad experiences
Then I'm having bad experiences for several years?
Yes, unfortunately
I'm so sorry
Good to see some green again, Silke!
Yes John indeed, but it's going up and down fast lately I guess.
and friend, while we need time just for us too. If we would live just with the two of us, I'd not not see my parents as much either. We see my parents more bc we live here well that's what they wanted. I wish they understood that there son is working
a lot, but I don't think they see it that way, I think they see me as the intruder. I'm gonna try to let it go and be there problem not easy. I was the one who told him to ask his parents too when we meet up with his grandparents, but I guess they
don't know it was my idea. We're both trying to do good for everyone, not easy.
I also need a lot time for myself or rest, is it that strange that I rather be on my own than seeing the person who doesn't want me to be with his brother. Ugh family, never good for everyone