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9 Susanne M
12 Jun 2016 ·
Spending father's day amongst my family, having a good time. Feeling light-hearted and contented =) See you lovely pandas later <3
Binky B
13 Jun 2016 ·

*Hugs*

Shelley H
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Shelley H
03 Jul 2016 ·

Praying for you my friend

Love 1
20 Jun 2016 ·

Yes. Please check in.

H F
16 Jun 2016 ·

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Esther B
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Jeff M
21 Jun 2016 ·

Hope all is well, Susanne. We miss you and are thinking about you and wishing you well. I just hope you decided to take a break from this site for a while. Check back in with us sometime, please! *Hugs*

Manda P
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Manda P
12 Jun 2016 ·

Hope you have a lovely day, Susanne.

Anna .
23 Aug 2016 ·

I hope everything's okay. I miss you...

DesBear D
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Reba C
01 Jul 2016 ·

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Cindy M
12 Jun 2016 ·

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paul M
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Natalie C
14 Jun 2016 ·

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Silke V
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Silke V
01 Jul 2016 ·

I'm worried about you ;s

Silke V
07 Sep 2016 ·

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caapi C
13 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
14 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
24 Jun 2016 ·

sure she is fine, i am sure you could find on facebook if you wanted.

Alexander T
01 Jul 2016 ·

don't have her email address. the last time u checked on facebook she was out having coffee

Alexander T
01 Jul 2016 ·

i dont generally use facebook but i had to go look to check. i wont personally give out her details not my place to, but if you find her post with her drawing on and click it you get surname on the google page with a photo.

Alexander T
04 Jul 2016 ·

rather than eu do ΓΌ and add Austria

Taryn H
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Taryn H
30 Jun 2016 ·

Hope you're okay Susanne. I miss you. x

Andrea G
16 Jun 2016 ·

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Andrea G
16 Jun 2016 ·

Hey just checked in and was hoping to catch up with you? I m a little concerned to see you're not here? Maybe that means all is well ! I hope so xx

Andrea G
24 Jun 2016 ·

Damn ! Still not here. Concerned now x

Andrea G
02 Jul 2016 ·

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Mandy O
20 Jun 2016 ·

Hoping you are ok Susanne.. Really miss you. <3

Mandy O
08 Jul 2016 ·

Glad to hear she is safe and well Claire. Xx

Claire M
13 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
15 Jun 2016 ·

I'm worried because I haven't heard anything from you in days D: I hope everything is fine, we miss you <3

Claire M
17 Jun 2016 ·

Seriously, where are you? :( I really really hope nothinh bad has happened my dear... I wish I would have you in any other social media, so I could check on you right now :S I miss you Susanne, come back soon <3

Claire M
21 Jun 2016 ·

Agree with Jeff, I really just wanna hear that you are ok :(

Claire M
28 Jun 2016 ·

Oh my dear where are you :'(

Claire M
01 Jul 2016 ·

I have tried, Alexander :S Did you have her emal or do I remember wrong?

Claire M
01 Jul 2016 ·

I don't even know her last name, Alexander... If you have her in your facebook friends and know that she is alright, then I'm relieved. <3

Claire M
02 Jul 2016 ·

I know that Alexander. Thanl you, I appreciate that. I'll try to find her.

Claire M
03 Jul 2016 ·

I cant find anyone in facebook with her photo and name? There is only 3 persons with that name anyway

Claire M
04 Jul 2016 ·

Thank you Alexander, I found her. Couldn't have done that without you, so thanks a lot. Now I know she is alright, it means a lot to me :)

Claire M
23 Aug 2016 ·

I'm with you Anna, miss you too Susanne :(

Courtney O
07 Sep 2016 ·

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Meggie B
13 Jun 2016 ·

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Lizzy V
04 Jul 2016 ·

I really hope you're okay...

Daria V
13 Jun 2016 ·

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Daria V
02 Jul 2016 ·

haven't heard from you in such a long time, really hope you are okay!

anonymouse .
18 Jun 2016 ·

I hope you're okay :(

Linda S
12 Jun 2016 ·

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3 Susanne M
11 Jun 2016 ·
Sorry pandas for not being here. I feel like I was away for ages. It was just a long, strange, exhausting day. I feel worn out, drained and anxious. I've been visited by energy vampires :-(
Susanne M
11 Jun 2016 ·

Some relatives I haven't seen for quite a while came over. At first sight I was happy about it. But they didn't really say anything helpful, quite the contrary, they made me sad, angry and anxious. At some point I pretended to be

Lucy A
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
11 Jun 2016 ·

interested and stopped reacting to things that made me feel bad. I was completely detached, the only thing on my mind: my soul was thirsty for being alone, silently screaming. I don't know if this is too hard, but tbh I hope they won't visit me again

David B
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Tasha S
12 Jun 2016 ·

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DesBear D
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Reba C
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Binky B
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Vicky B
12 Jun 2016 ·

Sumtimz its just easier bein on our own wen no1 else understands wat we are goin thru!pple may tink dy are helping but they dont understand!u are amazing and u deserve to have sum alone time for urself!

Vicky B
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Linda S
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Myself T
12 Jun 2016 ·

That sounds unbelievably hard. But you managed to try and do something to stop the vampires. They meant the best, I'm sure. Sending you much love and energising hugs.

Manda P
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Esther B
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Esther B
12 Jun 2016 ·

I'm sorry you've been so exhausted. Take your time to recover

Cindy M
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Cindy M
12 Jun 2016 ·

Look after yourself

Silke V
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Meggie B
13 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
13 Jun 2016 ·

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Natalie C
14 Jun 2016 ·

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Natalie C
14 Jun 2016 ·

Sometimes its best to be without those relatives you dont see often, as bad as it sounds they dont have a clue which no fault of anyone can make things worse! x

Natalie C
14 Jun 2016 ·

Sending you bigs hugs :)

Alexander T
14 Jun 2016 ·

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7 Susanne M
10 Jun 2016 ·
A lot better today, social worker came to visit me again today. Yesterday I called my mum, but she couldn't really cheer me up, so she asked my social worker to look after me. It was good =)
Susanne M
10 Jun 2016 ·

I'm so blessed with all the support I get from you pandas <3 my family <3 and friends <3 my therapist <3 and social worker <3 and I'm so grateful =)

Bella M
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Bella M
10 Jun 2016 ·

Really glad to hear that you have some great supports. <3

Aiden A
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Taryn H
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Linda S
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Meggie B
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Meggie B
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Natalie C
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Natalie C
10 Jun 2016 ·

Glad to hear your having a better day :)

H F
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Fiona C
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Fiona C
10 Jun 2016 ·

Happy you're having a better day too!

Silke V
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Vicky B
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Stephen P
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Wendy A
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Wendy A
11 Jun 2016 ·

Hang in girl, from experience I tell you...it will someday, get much better...not sure when or how long it'll take...but omgoodness...it'll surely get better...lots hugs for you!

Melissa H
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
11 Jun 2016 ·

Thank you all lovely awesome fellow pandas so much, I appreciate your support <3 *bigpandagrouphug* Thanks a lot, sweet Buffy, it's great =) Thank you, dear Natalie <3 Thank you too, lovely Fiona <3 Sweet Wendy bear, thank you very much, I guess

Susanne M
11 Jun 2016 ·

you're right, no, I know it. It's just a matter of time, it needs a little patience. Thanks again for your wise words, huge hugs to you <3

Manda P
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Manda P
12 Jun 2016 ·

Sounds like you have an amazing support team. You can tackle the world with that!

Claire M
13 Jun 2016 ·

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3 Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·
It's getting better, thanks to you lovely pandas <3 I couldn't stop crying and was close to doing something, I'd regret. But it gets easier, the hurt and the weight, that pulled me down slowly go away
Natalie C
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Natalie C
09 Jun 2016 ·

Sorry to hear youre having a really tough time :( sending you big hugs. Proud you didnt do something you may late regret. That sure takes courage and bravery x

Daria V
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Daria V
09 Jun 2016 ·

Glad you are feeling better again, and proud of you for not doing something you'd regret!!

DesBear D
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Reba C
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Andrea G
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Stephen P
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Vicky B
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Binky B
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Binky B
10 Jun 2016 ·

Strong Susanne bear, you are the shining beacon. I am glad you feel a little better xx

T S
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
10 Jun 2016 ·

My beloved pandas, thank you very much <3 Sending lots of cuddly hugs to you <3 Thanks a lot, sweet Natalie, today it's already so much better =) Your kind words are heartwarming <3 Thank you so much, dear Daria, thanks a lot for your sweet comment

Susanne M
10 Jun 2016 ·

it's much appreciated <3 Thank you lovely Binky bear, your kind comment makes me so happy =) Much love to everyone of you <3

Meggie B
10 Jun 2016 ·

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H F
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Fiona C
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Melissa H
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
11 Jun 2016 ·

Thank you very much, my dear panda pals <3 Big fluffy hugs to you, Meggie, H F, Fiona, Alexander and Melissa <3

Manda P
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
13 Jun 2016 ·

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0 Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·
I'm done with the world for now :,-( sorry lovely pandas, I will answer your comments later.
Ksenia S
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Anth W
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Don S
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Janine S
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Linda S
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Becky W
09 Jun 2016 · NEW

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Alexander T
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Taryn H
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Taryn H
09 Jun 2016 ·

*joins you in the dark*

Alexander T
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
09 Jun 2016 ·

you better not be done with the world for good.

Wendy A
09 Jun 2016 ·

Been there before...really su&ks! Feel for ya...and care...

Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

My lovelies, thank you very much, I can't even find the right words to express, what it means to me, that I can count on you <3 You all are my light in the darkness <3 *biggestpandagrouphug* Thanks a lot, my dear Taryn bear, it helped me so much

Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

to imagine you sitting beside me, not being alone, I'm deeply moved and grateful <3 Thank you, my sweet Alexander, it gets better, I guess I'm not finally done with the world yet ;-) Thank you very much, dear Wendy <3 I l'm sorry to hear you've

Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

been there too, I hope none of us will ever (have to) return to this dark place. Best wishes to you <3

Daria V
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Daria V
09 Jun 2016 ·

it seems you feel better now and that makes me happy. your comments always mean so much to me, so seeing you sad upsets me

Wendy A
09 Jun 2016 ·

Glad you are feeling little better...hugs!

DesBear D
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Stephen P
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Binky B
10 Jun 2016 ·

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T S
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
10 Jun 2016 ·

Thanks a lot, you sweet panda pals, Big fluffy hugs to you, lovely James, Daria, Wendy, desdmonia, Stephen, Binky and T S <3 Thanks a lot, dear Daria, indeed, things definitely improved =) Aww, your kind comment is so touching <3 Thank

Susanne M
10 Jun 2016 ·

you too, sweet Wendy <3

Meggie B
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Fiona C
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Melissa H
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Myself T
11 Jun 2016 ·

I'm so happy to see you are feeling better now. You are such a bright and wonderful person, you fill me with inspiration. I am glad you took no action. Massive hugs.

Melissa H
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
11 Jun 2016 ·

You pandas are really an incredible source of comfort and support <3 Thank you so much, dear Meggie, Alexander Fiona, Melissa and Myself T <3 You all mean the world to me <3 Thanks a lot, lovely Myself T, I'm deeply moved, you make my heart wanna

Susanne M
11 Jun 2016 ·

sing =) You're such a kind, caring and wonderful panda and I'm so grateful <3 My biggest hugs to you

Manda P
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
13 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
13 Jun 2016 ·

I am so sorry that you felt this way. And so so so happy that you are still here, still in this world. It can be awful place sometimes, but usually it's a very good place to be. Sorry that I wasn't here before :( I am so glad that you are okay, I

Claire M
13 Jun 2016 ·

don't know what I would do if you would be gone. Much love, hugs and support on your way, my strong and powerful dear friend. You can do this!!

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2 Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·
Medical aopraiser from court visited me here in general hospital regarding my care allowance. No good <- understatement. I'm so pissed off and so hurt. It was pure ridicule. No proper examination
Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

No validation for my struggles. I know I shouldn't take it to heart and I really wanted to stay in the green, but it hurts so much. It's like all I've been through is meaningless. Honestly the moment he left, I felt like jumping off a bridge.

Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

Inbetween l'm just crying. [sarcasm on] Yeah, filling out a 10 point questionnaire and using the stethoscope teils you so much about my mental illness and other problems and it teils you exactly, how much help I need. [sarcasm off] I'm so tired of it

Tasha S
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Jeff M
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Sam A
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Linda S
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Meggie B
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Don S
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Taryn H
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Taryn H
09 Jun 2016 ·

I'm so sorry, Susanne xx

Alexander T
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Wendy A
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

My dear fellow pandas, thank you so much for being here for me, it really helps to know you're here and to feel the love through all your hugs <3 And I send loads of them back to you. Never forget that I appreciate everyone of you so much <3

Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

Thanks a lot, sweet Taryn, for your kind comment <3

Daria V
09 Jun 2016 ·

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DesBear D
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Stephen P
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
10 Jun 2016 ·

Lovely Daria, desdmonia and Stephen <3 Thank you so much *pandacuddles*

Alexander T
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Melissa H
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
11 Jun 2016 ·

My beloved Alexander panda, thanks a lot, sending lots of hugs back to you <3 Dear Melissa, thank you too for your support <3 Huge hugs for you

Manda P
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
13 Jun 2016 ·

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10 Susanne M
08 Jun 2016 ·
Awesome! That's what it is =) Here's a 100% happy panda. Had a really productive therapy day. Physiotherapist allowed me to go on crutches on my own, social worker visited, we talked...
Susanne M
08 Jun 2016 ·

...while having a short walk outside. Being able to have a walk whenever I want and no longer needing a wheel chair makes me so happy =) And I'm pain free today. Plus I had 7 hours of good sleep without nightmares, 1x acid again, but I'll have a

Susanne M
08 Jun 2016 ·

higher done of my homeopathic gastric protection tonight and that should solve it. And I have tried the combination of 3 flashback coping mechanisms and it worked well. Plus I think I can do without anxiety meds, so no further chemicals in my system

Susanne M
08 Jun 2016 ·

I've never felt this happy =) Everything's looking good. Thanks lovely pandas for your support all the time <3

Jeff M
08 Jun 2016 ·

Seeing this makes me very happy! :) I'm so glad you're doing good!

Jeff M
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
08 Jun 2016 ·

well done this is very pleasing.

Jake G
08 Jun 2016 · CHIEFPANDA

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Pamela I
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Silke V
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Silke V
08 Jun 2016 ·

Happy to read this!!

R. S
08 Jun 2016 · NEW

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Vicky B
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Vicky B
08 Jun 2016 ·

So happy for you!!well done!being positive pays off!ur a rolemodel to so many! :)

Stephen P
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Gabi M
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
09 Jun 2016 ·

My heart is filled with joy and relief when I read this my dear friend <3 Long may this last :)

Alexander T
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Daria V
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Daria V
09 Jun 2016 ·

this is so great I am so happy for you!!!!

Taryn H
09 Jun 2016 ·

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nixiblu .
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Meggie B
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

Thank you all so much, you mean everything to me <3 Your support is priceless and your hugs are a blessing. And I'm so grateful for your positive vibes =) *bigpandagrouphug* <3 Thank you lovely Jeff, Alexander, Silke, Vicky, Claire and Daria for your

Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

heartwarming comments =) Just in this moment, where I feel so low, you pick me up with your love, that's the greatest gift ever <3 Thanks to all you sweet pandas for your hugs, they're much appreciated <3 I hope I can give back as much as I receive.

Alexander T
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Melissa H
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
11 Jun 2016 ·

Thank you two lovelies, Alexander and Melissa <3 *pandacuddles* having you in my heart

Manda P
12 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
13 Jun 2016 ·

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7 Susanne M
07 Jun 2016 ·
Had 7 hours of sleep without nightmares and only woke up once from acid regurgitation. My mood is lifted too and I'm going to enjoy this sunny day =)
Susanne M
07 Jun 2016 ·

I will see if acid regurgitation is due to new pain killers, if yes, I'll have a little more of my homeopathic gastric protection, so no further chemicals needed. All things look manageable today =)

paul M
07 Jun 2016 ·

*Hugs*

paul M
07 Jun 2016 ·

Ahh, acid. To me it comes exactly at midnight.

Lizzy V
07 Jun 2016 ·

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J R
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Tasha S
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Jeff M
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Jeff M
07 Jun 2016 ·

That's great to see! :)

Claire M
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
07 Jun 2016 ·

Yay :)

Amanda T
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Manda P
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Meggie B
07 Jun 2016 ·

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DesBear D
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Stephen P
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Daria V
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Dante P
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Beau A
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
08 Jun 2016 ·

All you lovely pandas here & in my heart, thank you so much <3 Sending huge fluffy hugs over to you =) Dear Paul, it's a nasty thing. Have you tried gastric protection or something similar, that neutralizes the acid in your stomach?

Susanne M
08 Jun 2016 ·

Thanks a lot, sweet Jeff =) Thank you too, my lovely Claire <3

Alexander T
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

Dear panda friend, thank you so much <3 Biggest hugs and much love to you.

Alexander T
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
11 Jun 2016 ·

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4 Susanne M
06 Jun 2016 ·
Feeling better, didn't self-harm, so I'm still clean for over a month (25th of April was last). Used healthy alternatives instead. Some flashbacks left me quite overwhelmed.
Susanne M
06 Jun 2016 ·

The moment when they occur is agony, but I'm coping. Had another talk with doc later, he came to my room to ask, if the new pain killer works without causing stomach cramps. Yes, it works so far, I hope this also works with my sleeping pill.

Susanne M
06 Jun 2016 ·

He also said, we should talk with my psychiatrist about additional meds, like for anxiety, that would make me calmer in general and especially after flashbacks and nightmares in addition to my SSRI and sleeping pill. What's your experience with

Susanne M
06 Jun 2016 ·

anxiety meds, pandas? Answers appreciated

Natalie C
06 Jun 2016 ·

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Stephen P
06 Jun 2016 ·

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Clara B
06 Jun 2016 ·

I'm afraid I've got no advice of experiences to share but just to say I hope you manage to work things out ok and I'm so happy for you, for managing to stay clean :) brilliant! Good luck with the flashbacks, thinking of you <3

Clara B
06 Jun 2016 ·

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Marie S
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Reba C
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Daria V
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Daria V
07 Jun 2016 ·

I am so proud of you! every day without self harm is a step towards Recovery. and a month is already so long!! that are amazing news

Jenna L
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Amy B
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
07 Jun 2016 ·

Aww, thank you so much lovely panda friends <3 I'm so grateful for your kind words and hugs *huggingback* <3 Thanks a lot, dear Clara, don't worry, I will talk to my psychiatrist and she'll answer all questions =) You make me smile and I

Susanne M
07 Jun 2016 ·

appreciate it so much <3 Thank you very much, sweet Daria, your comment really warms my heart <3 Thanks again you two lovelies <3

J R
07 Jun 2016 ·

Hey Susanne! Also no experience with meds but flashbacks cause me to say a particular word and once I say it out loud it seems to make me feel a bit better. I also find physically moving, even just across the room helps me move away from the flashbac

J R
07 Jun 2016 ·

Sometimes they are just too intense and I just have to hold on and wait for the feeling to pass. I hope you feel better soon!

J R
07 Jun 2016 ·

*Hugs*

Susanne M
07 Jun 2016 ·

Dear J R, thank you very much for your support <3 I use to count to 5, when I have a flashback, as long as I count I only focus on that and ignore everything else, that helps me through the 'agony' phase =) That's a great idea, I could make 5

Susanne M
07 Jun 2016 ·

big steps away from it. Maybe I can even combine it with the 'safe circle' practice, where you imagine a safe place, creating that circle the way you want it to be and put in memories of feeling safe. I could step in that circle with the 5thstep =)

Susanne M
07 Jun 2016 ·

I will try that out. Thanks again for helping and inspiring me <3 Huge hugs to you

Claire M
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Claire M
07 Jun 2016 ·

I am so proud of you <3 I don't know about the meds, but what I have heard is that they aren't really good, because they really won't remove the cause of anxiety, and that they might even make you more anxious. I wouldn't take them for my anxiety,

Claire M
07 Jun 2016 ·

because I believe in natural methods more. Of course there are situations when you need meds, but if I can avoid them and use something alternative, I will :D But I feel you know the methods for anxiety already, so if you feel they don't help enough,

Claire M
07 Jun 2016 ·

maybe you can try the meds out. I'm hoping all the best for you my dear, I hope you find good solution.

nixiblu .
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Manda P
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Meggie B
07 Jun 2016 ·

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DesBear D
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Beau A
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
08 Jun 2016 ·

Thank you very much, lovely Claire <3 Oh, that doesn't sound good indeed, but I talked to the doc today, that I'll try it without them. I don't want so much chemicals in my body. If I feel I can't do without those meds, I can still ask my

Susanne M
08 Jun 2016 ·

psychiatrist. Natural methods sound definitely better and you're right, I've already learned about them. I guess, I just need to practice ;-) Thank you so much again, my dear panda friend. By the way, today I tried the one flashback coping mechanism

Susanne M
08 Jun 2016 ·

and it worked well =) Big hugs to you, sweet Claire as well as to you, dear nixiblu, Amanda, Meggie, desdmonia and Beau <3 I'm so grateful for your support and you all sweet panda pals have my love <3

Rafa B
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Rafa B
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Jenna L
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

Lovely Rafa, Alexander and Jenna, thanks a lot for hugging me <3 *huggingback*

Alexander T
10 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
11 Jun 2016 ·

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2 Susanne M
06 Jun 2016 ·
Again nightmares and dreamt of a self-harm relapse. I feel the urge today, feeling pathetic. Talked to doc about pain killers, he gave me another one in the morning, but it caused a stomach cramp :-(
Amy B
06 Jun 2016 ·

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Amy B
06 Jun 2016 ·

Stay strong and fight the urge. You can do it!

Susanne M
06 Jun 2016 ·

I'm so fed up with all this, feel like crying. I just want to have recreative sleep. Is that too much asked? Called my best friend to get my self-harm toolkit from my flat and bring it, when she comes to visit me later.

Ksenia S
06 Jun 2016 ·

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Julia K
06 Jun 2016 · NEW

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06 Jun 2016 · NEW

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Jeff M
06 Jun 2016 ·

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Jeff M
06 Jun 2016 ·

Think how good you'll feel if you resist! I hope you'll be ok, susanne! We're all here for you!

Natalie C
06 Jun 2016 ·

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Natalie C
06 Jun 2016 ·

I know the frustration of medication changes & the side effects. Sending you hugs and strength to fight the urge to SH :(

Natalie C
06 Jun 2016 ·

Your not pathetic, its ok to feel those emotions. Im sorry your having a rough time, be kind to yourself <3 hopefully tomorrows a little better x

DINesh V
06 Jun 2016 · NEW

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Meggie B
06 Jun 2016 ·

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Esther B
06 Jun 2016 ·

Self harm toolkit? I'm sorry. Big hugs for you!

Susanne M
06 Jun 2016 ·

Thank you all so much for your awesome support, it's priceless and means so much to me <3 Sending lots of fluffy panda hugs to everyone of you <3 Thanks a lot, dear Amy, gladly you were right, no self-harm relapse, I used healthy alternatives instead

Susanne M
06 Jun 2016 ·

Thank you, lovely Jeff, I thought about that, a month of being clean is too much to sacrifice just to satisfy a spontaneous urge. And I really feel good about resisting =) Thx again <3 Thank you very much, sweet Natalie, I'm so grateful for your

Susanne M
06 Jun 2016 ·

comments and I'm sorry to hear you know that too. Thank you too, sweet Esther, don't worry, it's a toolkit of healthy alternatives, I'm clean =)

Stephen P
06 Jun 2016 ·

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Daria V
07 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
07 Jun 2016 ·

Sweet Stephen and Daria <3 Thanks a lot you two lovelies *pandacuddles*

Manda P
07 Jun 2016 ·

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DesBear D
07 Jun 2016 ·

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DesBear D
07 Jun 2016 ·

good job staying strong! <3

Beau A
08 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
08 Jun 2016 ·

Thank you very much, dear Amanda, desdmonia and Beau, I'm so grateful for your hugs and send lots of them back to you <3 Thank you sweet desdmonia for your lovely comment, it makes me smile =)

Alexander T
09 Jun 2016 ·

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Susanne M
09 Jun 2016 ·

My beloved Alexander panda <3 Thanks a lot for your continuous awesome support <3 *pandacuddles*

Alexander T
11 Jun 2016 ·

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Alexander T
11 Jun 2016 ·

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