Slept late, bought shorts and wore them, got train ticket for tomorrow, went to a park with book, pizza & iced latte.
The disgusting part: in the park there was a man literally with his d*ck out. I really hope that he wasn't there watching me reading on the bench, but to be honest he probably was. I saw him going past and standing bit furher his back to me, but when
I got up to leave he had turned around and well.. I looked away and started to hurry and when I looked again he had disappeared. I moved on to another bench, of course feeling disgusted but still not anxious about it or anything, just thought that
'There will always be sick people in this world'. BUT then after a while when I left that bench again to walk around in the park, I heard some noise from the bushes. My first thought of course was that it's him again, but I tried to convince myself
that of course it's not, it's just an animal. 'Just look there and you'll see no one there' I actually believed that and that's why I was shocked to see another man in the bush without pants. WTF?!
I'm not sure if he was the same or different one, but either way WHO does that??? It left me feeling very suspicious about my surroundings and it took me a good while to be able to relax again. For god's sake, how sick is that...
That is so ghastly, Claire - sorry you had to go through that, but you dealt with it really well.
Wow, that is really f*ckin creepy! I would've gotten the hell outta there!!
I guess a good reminder to keep your guard up and be aware (though not look too closely) of your surroundings! Glad you had a good, relaxing day anyway!
Ag no man!! That's horrible. We had men doing that all the time when I was still horseriding. Perverts!!!
You go get your rest Claire and have a nice holiday
Yeah, you need to rest and recharge. Sometimes you work harder on vacation...especially with lots of walking and stress to see everything. Take a day for you to relax!
Rest up, Claire. Any vacation is stressful & you've been on the mega holiday!! xx
Thank you my dear friends <3
Thank you xxxx
decent clothes today! Improvement! :D Tomorrow I'll start acting normally again I promise, I'm just too tired and lazy to do anything today
(Oh and still missing Paris)
Thanks pandas x
This night will be my last in hostels for the trip, airbnb in Madrid & Barcelona. I'm kinda ready to go home now, but trying to enjoy these last days the best I can. Feeling bit bad about the fact that I don't go out and party like these other people
but that is just not very me. I'm sure I'd go if I was with a friend but I don't feel like I'm missing anything. So why do I even feel bad? For not being like everyone else? Phew
Also thinking if I should hang out in the common area today and try to make friends since I will be alone after this night but I'm just not feeling like it that much.
I wish I could go to a castle! I think it's normal to feel the way you are feeling. You've experienced SO MUCH that you have to be exhausted! <3
Yeah, don't feel bad for doing something that's not you! My advice is to do something that is you when you feel guilty fo rnot going partying. (Like find new local tour guides to flirt with!) :)
You must be right Manda :) I didn't actually go in, but I've been to other ones in Europe!
I might love you Jeff for that comment, made me laugh haha! (Just panda love to make that clear)
Thanks pandas <3
Good to see peace and happiness. :) So glad you're trying new things that challenge you! What an awesome experience!
Thanks Jeff <3 Thanks oandas!
to see all the good again. And sometimes too many things happen at the same time and it causes you do crash down. But the only way is up and I am so happy that I know it now, and that I do it now.
When I walked out there, I realized that this tour guide thing was EXACTLY what I hoped to do on my trip. Something weird, stupid, spontaneous and something that clearly doesn't make much sense. Something that will give me good memories, and lessons.
It's been lovely seeing the growth in my attitude, confidence and way of living and doing. #selflove #proudofmyself #letsdoallthecrazy***
Aw, Claire! I'm so happy for you. You're right, this is something you'll always remember & is the kind of thing you do on your travels! <3
Yay.....a 10.... C' est tres Bon
So much love back to you Manda <3
Merci beaucoup Richard!!
Yay! I thought the exact same thing about your tour guide story. That's the kind of adventure that you'll remember and laugh at and feel silly and brave! I'm so happy you reconnected with this brilliant experience!
So happy for you! xx
<3 Jeff and Alice <3
Thanks Des and Alena xx
...her friends) I feel super crazy and stalker. I told my friends and they told me that I need to sedn him a friend request. I think that it's absolutely crazy, because then he'll know I stalked him, and I'm not sure how that feels like
but then again, what can I lose anymore? Should I? What do you say? XD
Do it! You have nothing to lose haha! :') xx
Thanks Alice, I did it! I cannot believe myself, I am absolutely crazy XD
Hi Claire, I would say step away gently, otherwise it sounds like it could cause you a lot of pain and anxiety and it looks like you don't need that right now. Best wishes with your decision, Noel
Thank you for your point of view Noel!
I just want to second Noel & say be careful. Don't want you to get your hopes up high only to be hurt. Who knows though. Maybe he'll be glad you found him!
Thanks Mandapanda. I'm not really hoping for anything, maybe in my dreams, but in reality I know to be cautious.
I'd wanna talk with someone but face to face or in phone, and I really can't. I don't feel like writing at all :(
You shouldn't feel crazy or pathetic about anything, Dear Claire. I don't see anything wrong with it at all. I've probably done similar things multiple times when I was younger. Calm down & go have some fun! <3
Your kindness just makes me cry even more! Oh god XD Thank you so much Manda <3 I don't really know what I wanna do right now but at least I should eat. Hopefully I'll be more calm tomorrow
Yes, everyone feels better after they eat. =)
Thank yo pandas xx