Accepting this, he has softened tremendously and I reminded him why I fell in love with him. Not because he had a job (he didn't) or was responsible (he wasn't then) but because he is spiritual and intelligent, creative and determined. I know we need
money for us and our son and to move back out of my crazy moms house (she has had another severe panic attack resulting in hospitalization tonight but let her loose because it was not a heart attack after all, also due to stress of her mom dying and
an alcohol problem in combination with a histamine disorder and multiple personalities) but I know what to do now. My husband has shouldered the responsibility of our family by himself for too long. We will apply for subsidized child-care for low
income families so we can BOTH work full-time and get our own place again, pack money into savings and follow our creative endeavors (my writing, his indie game designing) and open up to our inner truths and selves again. Nothing is worth losing your
soul. I am glad my husband remembers he has one and it is once again a new chapter in our lives that we have no other option but to follow.
How beautiful it is to hear your perspective. Wishing you light and love x
So, so wonderful! That was beautifully put. Wishing your family happiness & success!
Yet he keeps dissing my cousin, doesn't like me talking to him and is now acting pissy and I just can't fathom why. It's really obnoxious. He even asked if I was obsessed with my cousin now because we've been chatting online the passed few days.
And he just left and slammed the door. WTH?????
It's so weird and I'm just done with his jealousy, you know?
What do they think is going to happen?
Very strange! Yeah I think it's very rare nowadays for people to get with their cousins. I guess his insecurity is so strong, it wouldn't have much logic to it!
like. Yesterday we had 'so much money' now he says we don't have enough for a pack of cigarettes and expects to get them in 5 days. WTF So tired of his bad communication, insecurity issues and belittling comments.
Sounds kinda like my BF. Things have gotten a bit better than they used to, but it's still bad. I mostly just accept it & act like it's normal. I find my happiness elsewhere. Hope things improve for you soon. <3
Hi Courtney. So good to see you back on here. Sorry I don't have any advice about your husband at the moment. x
I try to find happiness elsewhere but he doesn't like it when I do. Thanks Manda and Binky c.c
Mine TELLS me where to find my happiness. I'm not cool with that.
Yeah mine does too. He'll be like 'You're fine, it'll be better when you - or when we-' and I'm like, you really don't get it, do you?
What did she do? Hope you are okay x
Sorry to read this, Courtney. Are you ok? xx
I'm not okay.
What's wrong? *big hugs*
*hugs back Manda* <3
Hope you see positive results!
I've got one of those too. =( xx
No!!! I need you to exist! <3 xx
Thanks Manda. :) Sorry I haven't been around. I think the whole sky is falling down this April.
Missed you, Courtney! Hope you get well soon. <3
Hey Courtney x
Thanks Manda. :D I missed you too. I've been so busy. Staying in bed today. Thankfully my son is with his aunt and grandma. :)
Holler Binky ;)
Hey, hope everything's good with you and your little one :-)
English is full of things like that... The, a, is, be, if... I think they're quite hard to explain, especially to a 2 month old baby lol. I'm sure he enjoys the sound of it but most of all his mama's voice and attention :-)
Lol Binky :D You're probably right.
So glad to see so much green!
Yeah I should have gotten back on zoloft a long time ago :D
I'm so glad you finally did. What a turn around you've done!!
It helps so much, even on 50 mg. I'm lucky cause it gives me no side effects. Everyone in my neighborhood noticed a difference. I have two female friends now too. :D
I'm happy this dip didn't last a long time. Usually I'd wait years before getting help O.O
I'm proud of you for taking the step! That's the hardest part. And glad you've made friends too. They are so important, especially in times of stress.
Yes, I think I need more friends though. People are so busy with their lives and I am too, but at this point in life, I wish I could have a friend every day. lol
I understand that. I have ZERO friends & I know that's unhealthy, but it feels safe to me.
It is safe. I think finding friends is hard. One has to assess what type of person they are, and if they are untrustworthy in certain ways, then, well, some may call that a deal-breaker. But then we have no friends. Everyone is messed in some way. I
mean who am I to throw stones in my glass house, you know? But if a potential friend isn't good with money or keeping their promises, then don't give them money or ask them to keep any promises. If a person is loud and just talks about everything all
the time, probably don't tell them anything too deeply personal, like the kind of thing you don't want getting out. I mean, everyone has their misgivings. We control what situations we put ourselves in and who we trust in particular ways. It doesn't
make anyone a bad person for having faults. I think the key to making new friends as an adult is walking a balance between caution and hospitality, so they always know you are in control of the way things work around you. That's what I try to do. My
friends definitely weren't hand-picked, but they'll do for now. :)
You're right about all of that, but my only problem is I have no way to make friends. We live out in the woods with distant neighbors & daughters not involved much in school. The local library has book clubs & adult coloring which I've...
...considered, but I'd be SO nervous!
Oh you should do it. Coloring sounds relaxing. I've thought of joining a book club too, or a writers group. It seems nervous at first but I bet you, as soon as you get there, they will be very welcoming.
I might just join a coloring group or book club. It'll take A LOT of guts, but maybe I can do it.
I wish I was drunk & high!
Lol yeah we didn't expect it but she offered me and my husband to smoke :p
I don't like to smoke with anyone other than BF because I get too paranoid. At that last party I went to though, I had so many margaritas & Klonopin that I went out with 'the guys' & smoked right before we left. I must've been wasted! No way to get..
...it where I live. =( Best medicine around too.
Yeah I get so in my head, then I don't know if what I'm thinking is out loud or not! So I usually try not to socialize if I'm high, at least until I know the person I'm talking to is open-minded.
Yeah for sure. That sounds like a fun night, haha. ^_^
Maybe a lasting friend this time?
*fingers crossed* for you, Courtney. You need a good friend now more than ever with everything going on!
You are the best, Courtney!
Oh Manda <3 I wish we could meet in person. We'd be besties lol
I wish we could too, Courtney! I could use a real life best friend! <3
Maybe you can add me on fb. If you email me, I'll send you my name so you can look me up. My email is firstname.lastname@example.org
Thanks, Courtney! I'll email you next time I'm at my desk. I hate using my phone for email for some reason. I've been binging on TV since my surgery & have only been at my desk once. It hurts to sit like that. But I'll be in touch!
Hang on, Courtney. It'll get better soon. <3
Thanks. Out of nowhere, my Mom said she had zoloft she doesn't need anymore. I went over and took the first dose today. 50mg but if it doesn't work by next week. I'll double the dose because technically they are 100mgs so I'm cutting them in half.
The it's way more likely the psychiatrist will prescribe me zoloft since I'll already have been on it. :)
That's great! Hope it starts kicking in soon!