I know how you feel. I feel that way when I get into a rut. Like something drastic has to happen to force change or that I'm spiraling downward. I hope you find a non-catastrophic way out!
Screw those jeeks. You deserve better! Is not wrong to suffer from depression
I appreciate your courage in sharing your vulnerability here. May you find the support you're needing.
I'm guessing you were seeking empathy and understanding. There are people who do have the compassion, presence, and experience to encourage you, direct you to your most authentic self, to help you heal.
May be a therapist, an empathic friend, a stranger, an author with helpful suggestions outlined in a book...
The one you confided in may not have understood the preciousness of the gift you have them when you trusted in them for comfort, consolation, healing. You might want to consider being more explicit with your request for support...
The gift you gave them, I meant
If you're not trusting they can render that support, know there are many many people who can. Depression sucks when you're mired in it. It can also be the door to peace despite it's seemingly dark form.
That is, depression can be so oppressive and heavy to the soul that it compels us to seek. We all have our own path to walk and I cannot tell you where or what to seek or promise you will find what it is you seek. You have to trust yourself for that.
'Trust thyself,' Ralph Waldo Emerson wrote, 'every heart vibrates to that iron string.'
We live in a superficial and materialistic culture that neither respects, understands, nor encourages the exploration of the inner world. Depression was my entryway to that beautiful inner world. I'm grateful that I trusted my sad and weary heart.
Yhank you PeaceNLove1 you have given me another view on the situation i hadnt considered. I will be seeking trust with someone. All of this is new to me & it is difficult to know which path to take.
Glad to hear that!
Thanks everyone! Definitely needed.