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Chuck H · 2h 1
Would have initially been a 0, but having my dog sat next to me made it a 1.
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Chuck H · 2h 1
Feel like the only place I have in this world is six feet under in some cemetery. I don't belong in this society.
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Chuck H · 16h 0
A mind that's home to depressing thoughts, as well as a mind that has always struggled to go to sleep, is a destructive combination.
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Sasha M · 16h
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Jucimara M · 16h
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Binky B · 15h
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Kurt N NEW · 15h
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Georgia T · 15h
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Georgia T · 15h
You're not alone. Me too.
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Shelley H · 14h
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Karen V · 7h
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Claire M · 4h
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Tasha S · 2h
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Chuck H · 16h 0
This world is crushing me.
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Sasha M · 16h
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4Give 1 · 15h
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Shelley H · 14h
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Shelley H · 13h
Breath deeply Chuck. Inhale then exhale a few times.
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Claire M · 4h
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Tasha S · 2h
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Chuck H · 17h 0
It's a cruel world and I hope I won't be a part of it for much longer.
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Jeff M · 17h
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Binky B · 17h
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Sasha M · 16h
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Claire M · 4h
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Tasha S · 2h
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Chuck H · 18h 1
Hate society. It's too judgemental. Wish things were simpler. It's hard when you don't conform to society's expectations.
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Erik L NEW · 18h
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A W NEW · 18h
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Karen V · 18h
Totally relate to this. I feel like people are quick to judge if they're privileged to be 'normal'. I try to avoid the sources of judgment as much as possible
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Karen V · 18h
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Binky B · 17h
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Sasha M · 16h
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Claire M · 4h
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Chuck H · 1d 3
Feeling insecure.
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Luana M NEW · 24h
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anonymouse . · 24h
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Luana M NEW · 24h
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Jeff M · 23h
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Marie S · 22h
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Karen V · 22h
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Emerald M NEW · 22h
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Tasha S · 21h
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Chuck H · 2d 1
Tryna forget about the past 6 months. Feel ashamed and disgusted.
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Emerald M NEW · 2d
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Karen V · 2d
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A V · 1d
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Chuck H · 2d 1
Created my own bubble to carry me around for so long and it has been getting smaller as it suffocates me, now it has burst; slight relief to be out of it, yet it means I've crashed hard into reality.
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Emerald M NEW · 2d
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Karen V · 2d
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A V · 1d
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Chuck H · 4d 0
I could just about cope with the depression, anxiety and self harm. But in no way can I cope with these other issues I have which can never be fixed. My life is done. I give up.
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Karen V · 4d
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Alma B · 4d
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Maddie H NEW · 3d
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Emerald M NEW · 3d
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Mary Y NEW · 3d
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Tasha S · 3d
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Jake G CHIEFPANDA · 3d
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Sasha M · 16h
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Chuck H · 4d 0
I've never felt so ***. This time, I know for a fact i'm never going to get better. 100% sure that my life is only going to keep deteriorating. I'm going to keep falling until I fall into my grave.
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Karen V · 4d
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Alma B · 4d
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Maddie H NEW · 3d
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Emerald M NEW · 3d
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Tasha S · 3d
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Jake G CHIEFPANDA · 3d
I don't know anything about your personal history but have you spoken to doctors about this? There are ways to get better believe me, it's a tragedy to not at least try, because things CAN change
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Chuck H · 2d
I've seen many doctors and counsellors and everything for almost 5 years. I've tried a lot of things to help myself, but nothing really works and I've got to the stage where I'd rather not get better anymore.
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Jake G CHIEFPANDA · 2d
You might not appreciate this but I'm very happy to see you're still here.i don't know you but you've got a big group of people here on MP hoping you can find energy to keep fighting this long battle you've been fighting. You're worth the effort
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Chuck H · 1d
Thanks
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Sasha M · 16h
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Chuck H · 4d 0
Sometimes I consider getting a firearms certificate just so I can buy a shotgun, 1 shell and finish it. Best way to do it, but not sure if my arms are long enough to hold it as I aim at my temple.
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Erik L NEW · 4d
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Karen V · 4d
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Alma B · 4d
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Tasha S · 3d
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Jake G CHIEFPANDA · 3d
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Sasha M · 16h
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Chuck H · 4d 0
Extremely irritated. I can't live as me, not in this body with this mind. It's torture.
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Karen V · 4d
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Erik L NEW · 4d
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Alma B · 4d
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Emerald M NEW · 3d
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Tasha S · 3d
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Sasha M · 16h
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Chuck H · 4d 0
My life is so ***ed up. A lot of thinking and decision changes. Hopefully I can cope with this till I end it.
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Alexandra W NEW · 4d
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caapi C · 4d
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4Give 1 · 4d
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Erik L NEW · 4d
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Tasha S · 3d
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Sasha M · 16h
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Chuck H · 4d 0
Came to the realisation that there's absolutely nothing I want from life, ever. As i've learnt with other realisations, they're torturous and can never be un-realised. I can 't/don't want to do this.
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Dora M · 4d
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Marie S · 4d
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Han M · 4d
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Sasha M · 16h
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Chuck H · 4d 0
At least it means I don't have to be careful now in when I do successfully attempt ***e, cause i'd manage to do it uninterrupted.
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Marie S · 4d
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Han M · 4d
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Chuck H · 4d 0
It's good to know that my parents or dog don't give a *** about me. My parents haven't even seen me since they got home. If I was successful, I'd still be lying dead on the floor.
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Marie S · 4d
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Han M · 4d
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Chuck H · 4d 0
Being here is torture. Desperate for it all to end.
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Marie S · 4d
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Han M · 4d
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Chuck H · 4d 0
I guess hanging ain't for me. I'll have to wait until we get another batch of 100 paracetamols, and hope that works. Feel trapped and weak. I need it all to end. Wish killing yourself wasn't so hard.
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Nick H · 4d
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Tasha S · 4d
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Sandra C · 4d
It's the worst feeling ... hope you have supportive people around. Feelings and situations change. Hoping they change for the better very soon.
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Dora M · 4d
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Chuck H · 4d 0
Since there wasn't enough pills for a fatal overdose, I tried hanging myself again. Like before, a minute in I find I can't deal with the pain and discomfort. I try, but i'm to weak to do it myself.
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Tasha S · 4d
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Chuck H · 4d 0
Never felt this ***al before. Eyelids have swollen from where i've been crying so much. If there were enough pills I would've taken them, just dealt with the pain of my organs shutting down after.
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Stephen K · 4d
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Stephen K · 4d
Sorry to hear that you are feeling that abysmally. I hope that you are feeling better soon.
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Chuck H · 4d
Thanks, but this feeling is never going to go away.
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Tasha S · 4d
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Chuck H · 5d 0
My life has no purpose. Wish I knew where to get a gun from.
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Binky B · 5d
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Jess H · 5d
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Karen V · 5d
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Tasha S · 4d
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Chuck H · 5d 0
All I want is to die. Even if I had the chance to be happy, I still wouldn't take it. I don't want to be better, I just want the strength to finally kill myself.
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Zoe D · 5d
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Binky B · 5d
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Karen V · 5d
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Tasha S · 4d
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Chuck H · 5d 0
No-one gives a *** about me. Not even my dog. He'd much rather be downstairs with my mum than up here comforting me. I suppose I can't blame him.
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Silke V · 5d
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Binky B · 5d
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Tasha S · 4d
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Chuck H · 5d 0
Hate living in a house with people who don't understand. My mum is always bringing me down. I get that I ain't exactly the kid she wanted, but it's not like I even wanted to be here.
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Karen V · 5d
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Jucimara M · 5d
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Tasha S · 4d
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Chuck H · 5d 0
First time i've self harmed in *** knows when. Gutted I didn't cut deep enough, hasn't been productive in relieving my emotions like it did when I first started. Can't express how much I want to die.
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Han M · 5d
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Han M · 5d
Please, don't harm yourself. Stay alive. Things will get better. Ask for help, it's ok to need help.
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Jucimara M · 5d
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Chuck H · 6d 5
Finished game. Need to find a new one now, the easiest way for me to escape reality.
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caapi C · 6d
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Meggie B · 6d
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Karen V · 6d
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Tasha S · 6d
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Chuck H · 6d 2
Mum woke me up when I was half asleep to help her with something she didn't need help with. Pissed off. Sleeping for me is already on the verge of extinction. She knows I can't go back once i'm awake.
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Tasha S · 6d
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Chuck H · 7d 5
Feeling neutral, which is the best i've felt for a while.
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Zoe D · 7d
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Tasha S · 6d
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Chuck H · 10 Jan 2017 4
Probably gonna be another night i'll find hard to get to sleep.
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Pontus W · 10 Jan 2017
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Clara B · 11 Jan 2017
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