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Hilda R · 6d 3
I'm almost going mad. Everything is distorted, I don't feel connected to world and completely lost. I'm ill & can't accept it. I'll try to stay away from mental health sites. Take care, Pandas *hugs*
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Manda P · 5d
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Manda P · 5d
Thinking of you, Hilda! xx
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Hilda R · 7d 4
Living through severe moodswings.
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Jeff M · 7d
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Hilda R · 08 Jan 2017 6
You can let it all fall down and feel defeated and hopeless and that you're done. Move through those feelings and meet me on the other side. As your bipolar sister, I'll be watching. (c) Carrie Fisher
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4Give 1 · 08 Jan 2017
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Ann S · 08 Jan 2017
Wow, that's a powerful quote. Thank you a lot for sharing!
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Ann S · 08 Jan 2017
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Manda P · 08 Jan 2017
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Manda P · 08 Jan 2017
She was amazing. You are too. <3
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Scott B NEW · 09 Jan 2017
My feeling everyday*
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Hilda R · 7d
Thank you, Manda :3
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Hilda R · 06 Jan 2017 6
Feeling better today. Active, laughing, productive.
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Tasha S · 06 Jan 2017
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Jeff M · 06 Jan 2017
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Jeff M · 06 Jan 2017
Great to see! :)
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Lauren I · 06 Jan 2017
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Manda P · 07 Jan 2017
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Manda P · 07 Jan 2017
So glad to see a six, Hilda!
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Hilda R · 08 Jan 2017
Thank you! *hugs warmly*
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Hilda R · 05 Jan 2017 5
Well, me being me. Woke up at 6am for work. Feeling so good! Slept just for 3 hours.
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Dante P · 05 Jan 2017
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Sarah M · 05 Jan 2017
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Hilda R · 04 Jan 2017 2
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Hilda R · 04 Jan 2017 0
Totally off. Broken beyond repair since childhood. It's never going to go away. Don't feed me with sweet lies. I've been doomed since birth.
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Jeff M · 04 Jan 2017
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anonymouse . · 04 Jan 2017
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Marie S · 04 Jan 2017
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Lucy M · 04 Jan 2017
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Lucy M · 04 Jan 2017
Hang in there, friend <3
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Manda P · 04 Jan 2017
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Hilda R · 03 Jan 2017 4
Stomach aches again (GERD), I'm on strict diet. Have done some medical checkups. Waiting to learn whether I have diabetes. Hemoglobin was ok for 15years of vegetarian diet, but now it's a bit low.
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Binky B · 03 Jan 2017
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Manda P · 04 Jan 2017
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Hilda R · 02 Jan 2017 4
Afraid, but holding on.
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Manda P · 02 Jan 2017
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Manda P · 02 Jan 2017
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Marie S · 02 Jan 2017
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Hilda R · 01 Jan 2017 3
Hurt and scared.
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Melody L · 01 Jan 2017
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Jeff M · 01 Jan 2017
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Melody L · 01 Jan 2017
Sending comforting hugs!
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Jeff M · 01 Jan 2017
:( Hope you're ok, hildabear! *Big hugs*
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Manda P · 01 Jan 2017
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Manda P · 01 Jan 2017
Thinking of you, sweet Hilda. xx
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4Give 1 · 01 Jan 2017
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Alma B · 01 Jan 2017
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Hilda R · 01 Jan 2017
thanks... I'm okay.
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Moosh Y · 02 Jan 2017
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Hilda R · 31 Dec 2016 6
STAR WARS: ROGUE ONE is simple the best movie of the year. It's even better than Star Trek Beyond and Star Wars: Episode VII - The Force Awakens (although I love them too). But Rogue One is stunning!
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Marie S · 31 Dec 2016
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Manda P · 01 Jan 2017
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Manda P · 01 Jan 2017
Haven't seen it yet. BF ditched me & daughter to see it with friends. =(
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Hilda R · 01 Jan 2017
Manda, it has a sad ending, but story is powerful. *hugs*
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Hilda R · 31 Dec 2016 5
Steady
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Hilda R · 30 Dec 2016 5
Pretty good morning. I hope you're having a good day, Pandafriends!
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Tasha S · 30 Dec 2016
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Hilda R · 29 Dec 2016 3
Finishing my work for this year.
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Tasha S · 29 Dec 2016
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Hilda R · 29 Dec 2016 1
So sad. So wanting to live, but just can't. I'm not good at living. I always try and try, but fail. And it hurts to see other people living while I'm on the other side - behind the unbreakable glass.
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Arran G · 29 Dec 2016
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H F · 29 Dec 2016
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H F · 29 Dec 2016
I'm sorry You are feeling like this at the moment Hilda, Strength and Hugs (You sound like a very sensitive person, I am too , am I right?)
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Myself T · 29 Dec 2016
Big hugs Hilda. Sounds like you feel similar to me. Wish I knew how to help you more... xxxxx
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Karrie B · 29 Dec 2016
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Jeff M · 29 Dec 2016
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Jeff M · 29 Dec 2016
I know what you mean, Hildabear... Life is hard. Personally, I think it's just something that happens. There is no good or bad at it. Most days are just meant to be endured. There are good moments with people we love or love us...live for those times
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Manda P · 29 Dec 2016
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Hilda R · 29 Dec 2016
Thanks every one of you for support. I keep on trying!
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Hilda R · 28 Dec 2016 4
I have pretty painful intercostal neuralgia for several hours already. Can't lay down (it usually helps) because of work. Also - mild OCD. But otherwise I'm well.
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Claire M · 28 Dec 2016
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Hilda R · 27 Dec 2016 4
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Manda P · 27 Dec 2016
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Hilda R · 26 Dec 2016 2
OCD doesn't let me to write certain words. Absurd. I'm still depressive and obsessive.
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Jeff M · 26 Dec 2016
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Hilda R · 24 Dec 2016 5
Merry Christmas, lovely Pandas... *hugs tightly every single one* Stay alive and things will get better, I am sure!
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John S · 24 Dec 2016
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Jeff M · 24 Dec 2016
Merry Christmas, Hildabear!
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Marie S · 24 Dec 2016
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Marie S · 24 Dec 2016
Merry Christmas to you too :D
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Manda P · 24 Dec 2016
Merry Christmas, Hilda! I hope you have a lovely time. You are so sweet! *big hugs* <3
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Hilda R · 24 Dec 2016 3
Need to get out of bed...
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Tasha S · 24 Dec 2016
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Tasha S · 24 Dec 2016
It took me a while too
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Hilda R · 23 Dec 2016 4
A bit better now.
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Hilda R · 22 Dec 2016 0
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Manda P · 22 Dec 2016
Thinking of you, Hilda. <3 xx
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Hilda R · 23 Dec 2016
Thanks all for the hugs, and thank you Manda for good thoughs! *hugs everyone*
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Hilda R · 21 Dec 2016 2
My 'attacks' are so-called bipolar psychotic episodes. Huh...
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Manda P · 22 Dec 2016
And they are the worst. =(
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Hilda R · 21 Dec 2016 1
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Hilda R · 20 Dec 2016 1
I don't know how any longer
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Cindy M · 20 Dec 2016
Thinking of you, Hilda - hope you're getting support from your wife and friends, family xx
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Hilda R · 20 Dec 2016 2
Painful loss of identity.
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Hilda R · 20 Dec 2016 4
Forcing myself to eat.
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Hilda R · 19 Dec 2016 4
At home. Under sweet embraces of my meds I still feel I'm depressed. It's bearable though.
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Jeff M · 19 Dec 2016
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Hilda R · 19 Dec 2016 5
Had a good sleep in train thanks to meds. I'm okay.
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Hilda R · 18 Dec 2016 5
A good day with family. Right now traveling back to wife by train. Anxious and afraid of loud people. Too much noise - I'm very sensitive and alert. Afraid of so many voices. Want to hide.
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Manda P · 18 Dec 2016
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Manda P · 18 Dec 2016
I understand that, Hilda. BF was just talking about going to a professional basketball game & I am afraid I'd have a panic attack there. Too many people & too loud. Hope you made it home safely.
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Hilda R · 19 Dec 2016
Manda, thanks! Sometimes it's better to avoid, sometimes you just have to fight it (when traveling, for example).
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Hilda R · 19 Dec 2016
thanks everyone for the hugs)
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