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Alma B · 6d 2
Haven't had flashbacks in a very long time. Watched Elle.
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Han M · 6d
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Claire M · 5d
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Alma B · 09 Jan 2017 3
Lonely and feeling lost.
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Adam B NEW · 09 Jan 2017
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Karen V · 09 Jan 2017
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Adam B NEW · 09 Jan 2017
I'm deeply grateful for this video... it's helped me through some tough times (and it turns out he has lots of other amazing work!): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Ss1HuA1hIk
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Adam B NEW · 09 Jan 2017
Let me know if you find some inspiration in it :)
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Jeff M · 09 Jan 2017
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Leia L · 09 Jan 2017
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Claire M · 09 Jan 2017
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Alma B · 03 Jan 2017 7
Back in NY. Mediated on the plane and it worked really well - I am surprised. K stood me up for tonight. Feel a bit sad but not devastated.
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Hilda R · 03 Jan 2017
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Jeff M · 03 Jan 2017
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anonymouse . · 04 Jan 2017
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Marie S · 04 Jan 2017
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Claire M · 04 Jan 2017
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Melody L · 04 Jan 2017
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Alma B · 01 Jan 2017 6
Too invested in my romantic interest in K. I told him that I am very anxious about it. I know I can't expect him to deal with it. Made a list of what I don't like about him. The list HAS to save me.
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Alma B · 01 Jan 2017
It's so helpful to write this here. Gives me strength. Thank you Pandas.
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Hilda R · 01 Jan 2017
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Melody L · 01 Jan 2017
Haa, pretty much in the same situation and also made why-it-wouldnt-work/doomed-ahead list to break or transform those neural connections in my brain...it's all a choice...
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Jake G CHIEFPANDA · 01 Jan 2017
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Michelle M · 01 Jan 2017
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Alma B · 01 Jan 2017
Yes Melody exactly! Haha great let's do it together. Take back control.
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Claire M · 02 Jan 2017
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Alma B · 26 Dec 2016 0
Major breakdown. Witnessed a happy family Christmas of others who invited me because of pity with me. Was torture. A family, something I will never have. I'll just try to be nice to myself today.
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nixiblu . · 26 Dec 2016
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Tasha S · 26 Dec 2016
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Sam A · 26 Dec 2016
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Leia L · 26 Dec 2016
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Nick H · 26 Dec 2016
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Jasmine H · 26 Dec 2016
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Nikki G · 26 Dec 2016
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anonymouse . · 26 Dec 2016
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Jeff M · 26 Dec 2016
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Claire M · 26 Dec 2016
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Claire M · 26 Dec 2016
Big big hugs hun x
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Binky B · 26 Dec 2016
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Binky B · 26 Dec 2016
Oh Alma, that sounds really difficult - when a kind gesture reminds you of everything you feel has been lacking in your life. I've felt this way before, around friends and boyfriends houses. It's not nice. But you can do the best with what you have x
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Binky B · 26 Dec 2016
It's all anyone can do. And also remember, looks can be deceiving, families dysfunctional, hidden behind a polished exterior there are cracks and secrets!
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Alma B · 27 Dec 2016
Thank you Binky and Claire thank you so much all Pandas. It means a lot to me. I still feel vulnerable and cry a lot and I really appreciate all this.
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Alma B · 27 Dec 2016
It's true that there are cracks everywhere Binky. I just wish I had a bf or a gf or parents who can show love or a sister who is my friend - somehow it all got a bit too much for me. I would also like to have children but I am so pessimistic now
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Sandra C · 28 Dec 2016
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Sandra C · 28 Dec 2016
Sorry to hear about your Xmas. It can be a really hard time. When I was a young adult I used to start dreading Xmas in November :) we've had some great ones since then ... but this year's been a tough year for our family. I opted out ...
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Sandra C · 28 Dec 2016
I spent this Xmas on my own. I cried all afternoon. Binky's right about the cracks. I feel positive now about a new year. I'm sure will too. Your plan to be nice to yourself sounds like just what you need. You deserve it.
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Alma B · 31 Dec 2016
Sandra Thanks so much for your message I just read it now! I am sorry you had an unhappy Christmas. ..
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Alma B · 31 Dec 2016
It's great that you feel positive about the new year.
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Sandra C · 02 Jan 2017
Thanks :)
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Jasmine H · 09 Jan 2017
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Alma B · 24 Dec 2016 4
Alone at Christmas. Mum went to visit sister. It's ok. Not perfect. Focus on self-care, my achievements. Anxious, sad about K.
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Tasha S · 24 Dec 2016
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Jake G CHIEFPANDA · 24 Dec 2016
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Alma B · 24 Dec 2016
Need to tell myself that the fact that I am alone at Christmas does not mean that I am less lovable than others
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Hilda R · 24 Dec 2016
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Tasha S · 24 Dec 2016
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H F · 24 Dec 2016
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H F · 24 Dec 2016
Yes that is true Alma, Hugs
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Jeff M · 24 Dec 2016
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Binky B · 25 Dec 2016
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Claire M · 25 Dec 2016
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Claire M · 25 Dec 2016
It's good that you know that, and I really hope you managed to make yourself believe it too! Xx
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Alma B · 23 Dec 2016 8
K replied - somehow he is still talking to me even though he knows that I am interested in him. Good to be at home. Feels safe.
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Tasha S · 23 Dec 2016
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Claire M · 25 Dec 2016
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Alma B · 22 Dec 2016 8
At home with my mum! Sick but happy to be with her.
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Calin L NEW · 22 Dec 2016
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Binky B · 22 Dec 2016
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Kristina H NEW · 22 Dec 2016
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Han M · 22 Dec 2016
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Alma B · 05 Dec 2016 1
My happiness is low. I am very sad. Feel Extremely alone, lonely And needy. I try to hide it. But that all is part of life. Normal. Happens.
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Matilde M · 05 Dec 2016
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Louise L NEW · 05 Dec 2016
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Claire M · 05 Dec 2016
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Laura H · 05 Dec 2016
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Jeff M · 05 Dec 2016
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R H · 05 Dec 2016
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Tasha S · 05 Dec 2016
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Alma B · 30 Nov 2016 1
Very anxious today, erratic bundle of low confidence - talking to my friend who complains about how it annoys him when women are not confident now I feel much worse.
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Ciara S NEW · 30 Nov 2016
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Erika A · 30 Nov 2016
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Binky B · 30 Nov 2016
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H F · 30 Nov 2016
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Astrid E · 30 Nov 2016
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Astrid E · 30 Nov 2016
Keep working on it x
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Emillie W · 30 Nov 2016
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Tasha S · 30 Nov 2016
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Jeff M · 30 Nov 2016
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Cindy M · 30 Nov 2016
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Han M · 01 Dec 2016
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Alma B · 01 Dec 2016
Thank you pandas for all the hugs
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Alma B · 28 Nov 2016 7
Scared but things will be fine
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Alma B · 28 Nov 2016
At least I try to say that to myself. Need to take small steps and focus on what is good in my life and be grateful
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Alma B · 28 Nov 2016
I need to trust. Whatever happens will be ok. I will survive.
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H F · 28 Nov 2016
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Dante P · 28 Nov 2016
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Amanda T · 28 Nov 2016
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Tasha S · 28 Nov 2016
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Jeff M · 28 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 26 Nov 2016 3
Scared anxious feeling too invested
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Tasha S · 27 Nov 2016
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Claire M · 27 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 24 Nov 2016 7
Date with K went well and I have to leave the US in three weeks and I feel too emotial to deal with it. Breathe.
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Amanda T · 24 Nov 2016
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Tasha S · 24 Nov 2016
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Leia L · 24 Nov 2016
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Claire M · 24 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 21 Nov 2016 3
Need focus and diligence. More than ever. I can do it.
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Leia L · 21 Nov 2016
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Leia L · 21 Nov 2016
Yes you can xxx
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Jess H · 22 Nov 2016
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Camila K · 22 Nov 2016
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Alexis B NEW · 22 Nov 2016
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Claire M · 22 Nov 2016
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Claire M · 22 Nov 2016
Yees you can x
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Alma B · 21 Nov 2016 3
Need focus and diligence. More than ever. I can do it.
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Camila K · 22 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 19 Nov 2016 4
Feel somehow burnt out. Need to find energy. Lots of energy. Only want to sleep. Wonder what activities give energy.
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Alma B · 19 Nov 2016
Probably should focus on small tasks only
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caapi C · 19 Nov 2016
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Cheese B · 19 Nov 2016
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Khaviya B · 19 Nov 2016
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R H · 19 Nov 2016
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Han M · 19 Nov 2016
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Valerie V · 20 Nov 2016
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Valerie V · 20 Nov 2016
A walk in nature helps me :)
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Claire M · 20 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 20 Nov 2016
Thanks for the hugs!
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Alma B · 20 Nov 2016
Thanks Valerie it's a great idea. There is not much nature where I live..
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Alma B · 19 Nov 2016 5
No Reason Given
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Marie S · 19 Nov 2016
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4Give 1 · 19 Nov 2016
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Han M · 19 Nov 2016
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Claire M · 20 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 16 Nov 2016 2
Feeling completely down. Could just cry. Don't know why.
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Eva P · 16 Nov 2016
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anonymouse . · 16 Nov 2016
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anonymouse . · 16 Nov 2016
sometimes all u need is a good cry <3
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Alma B · 16 Nov 2016
Thank you! Anonymouse. For reminding me
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Alma B · 16 Nov 2016
Eating chocolate in bed.
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Tasha S · 16 Nov 2016
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Claire M · 16 Nov 2016
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Claire M · 16 Nov 2016
Just crying for no reason is something wel all need every now and then. And if you have chocolate, even better!! :D
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Alma B · 15 Nov 2016 8
K thinks I am 'attractive' can't believe this - have been having a crush on him - nothing will happen but it makes me so much more hopeful about life --
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Hilda R · 15 Nov 2016
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Matthias A · 15 Nov 2016
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Tasha S · 15 Nov 2016
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Claire M · 15 Nov 2016
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Claire M · 15 Nov 2016
Aww happy for you :) Why it couldn't lead to anything?
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Alma B · 15 Nov 2016
I'm leaving the country in a month :(
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Alma B · 15 Nov 2016
I think he would lose interest when I am gone. I still want to try to make something happen I just don't know how :)
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Alma B · 15 Nov 2016 3
Exhausted, challenging week ahead, unsettled life style, confused, anxious about future
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Hilda R · 15 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 09 Nov 2016 1
I don't know why people don't seem to like me :(
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Maddie S · 09 Nov 2016
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Binky B · 09 Nov 2016
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Claire M · 09 Nov 2016
Maybe you just haven't met the right people yet x
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Melody L · 09 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 08 Nov 2016 3
Awake 1 am need to decide about the job need to email them. very tired -----
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Alma B · 08 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 08 Nov 2016
Now I hugged myself by accident hahaha
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Alma B · 08 Nov 2016
Too tired :(
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Tasha S · 08 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 07 Nov 2016 10
After dancing 5 tandas with a very good dancer I feel as if in heaven. Didn't know anyone. Got offered a job as a receptionist. Had nearly forgotten how powerful the Tango feeling is
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Tasha S · 07 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 06 Nov 2016 2
Anxious. Need to go to an event to give one it the musicians money he is a friend of my ex. I will feel completely out of place.
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4Give 1 · 07 Nov 2016
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Tasha S · 07 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 03 Nov 2016 3
Job offer in Sydney. Impossible to decide - Argh. move back to Europe, back to Australia? change career paths now? Argh. Main worry: being alone. Wish I could stay in New York.. :(
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Tasha S · 03 Nov 2016
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C L · 03 Nov 2016
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karma N · 03 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 03 Nov 2016
I'm from Luxembourg but I lived in Canberra for the last 5 years before moving to NY! Where do you live Clint?
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Valerie V · 03 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 04 Nov 2016
I know of Bendigo Clint :)
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Claire M · 08 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 02 Nov 2016 3
Empty inside - nothing has meaning - as if I see life's true colours, it's objective nature. It's a bit scary.
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Amruta M NEW · 02 Nov 2016
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Jumanji K · 02 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 31 Oct 2016 3
Usual struggle feeling ugly and avoiding people on that basis. Guess i should look into counselling?
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Richard E · 31 Oct 2016
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Alma B · 01 Nov 2016
Thank you Clint you are always so kind. I also think now that I am average and it's an improvement I used to hide in restrooms in high school - it's much better now. But it's still a problem
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Alma B · 01 Nov 2016
Thanks Clint- thank you.
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DiamondWolf ?? · 01 Nov 2016
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DiamondWolf ?? · 01 Nov 2016
You aren't ugly, I can already tell you are a kind and thoughtful person on the inside, and if people don't see that, that's their problem and they are missing out on a good friend.
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Tasha S · 01 Nov 2016
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Alma B · 01 Nov 2016
Diamond Wolf thank you. I cried a bit after reading your comment.
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Alma B · 31 Oct 2016 1
Met up with A. He said 'it's good to see you', I should be grateful that he likes me as a person at least. But it f** hurts so much when he is nice. My feelings are so strong and I hate it so much
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Rimo M · 31 Oct 2016
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Alma B · 29 Oct 2016 10
Can't sleep but feel I finally have a female friend again who I feel I can be myself with.
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Han M · 29 Oct 2016
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Alma B · 27 Oct 2016 3
Had been fighting very hard against my anxieties, instability and insecurities for the last months. A talked to me, I felt my heart ache and just stopped fighting completely. Given up & calm.
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Tasha S · 27 Oct 2016
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