You were my first time feeling like I was really in a relationship.
You were my first time not constantly wondering if I am good enough because with your behaviour you non stop re-assured me i was worth it for you.
You were my first time having
still butterflies after three months.
You were my first date.
You were my storm, I was your calm.
You were the first boy I was with that was the opposite of me. I could smell your skin and see all those pimples across your shoulders.
I used to play with your finger because they are so crooked?
I wanted to spend my life with you.
I wanted to marry you although I do actually not like the thought of marriage.
I wanted you for ever. You and your love. Nothing more. Not money not
Nothing but the pure you.
But then we lost each other.
I still see the two of us being together at the age of eighty although we're not even together right now.
i see us re-taking our pictures in ten years from now
Every night I lay in bed
the memories of your hand on my body linger on me and I crave to get that back. I need it to sleep.
i thought i was over you when I stopped crying and stopped of thinking getting back together asap.
i thought i was over you when I accepted that right
now isn't our time.
i was wrong.
i love you.
i need you.
i hope you will come back when it's time.
i hope. i hope. i hope.
ich lilaliebe dich, Regenbogen.
Nothing that would make anyone cry ever...
The ups and downs. Sometimes I wonder why I still come here because I've come so far thanks to this app and you pandas and then I remember that you were a part of the journey that brought me that far and also I may not be super active maybe once in
A while I can be part of someone else's journey to happiness and self love. Plus I still do have downs a lot but it's okay it happens. I try to focus on the good things and simply be happy. Love where there's love to be had. Brighten up other
People's days. Be open minded for what's ahead. Step by step building a future I want to live in. Live. Sleep. Eat. Try to be healthy. And just be me. Thank you mood panda for accompanying me throughout my way to this point.