I'm so sorry...
Been a while since we heard from you. Thinking of you and wishing you strength and happiness 💛
Are there any other pills your doctor could prescribe you? You could maybe ask him about it, also about the effects on your fertility (if it is frequent, if it concerns everybody or only some group etc.).
I don't know how it is in your country, but in Europe, the info flyer you get with your medicaments usually contains even information about effects that concern 0.01% and less of users. Usually you have to have some other problem to be affected.
Now I still feel ***al but also ungrateful and spoiled
That mom is really not doing her job, which is to love and support always. Unfortunately many of them don't.
I see how it's difficult for you to be without her. Do you have some friends aunt, cousins ... you could ask to help you instead of her? In some places, there are also some associations of single moms helping one another.
You could check it. Or some charity could help you maybe. I know it wouldn't be a good feeling asking people you don't know for help, but it seems to me the best for you is to see you mom as rare as possible.
And every time she tells you such an ugly thing, please tell yourself that it's her stupidity and not the truth.
She has been abusing me since I was a small child. I need her in my life because she helps support me as a single mom. It's an awful cycle
Wondering if she also has mental illness. Either way, that's no way to treat another human being...
If you are making progress, try to concentrate on it now. When it's over, at least a bit, it'll be better.
I don't say you'll meet the love of your life the day after you finish your treatment, but I you'll have more force to do whatever, even looking for a man.
Keep your head high. Hang in there :)