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3 Éva H
8h ·
Yesterday was quiet okay, it was good to talk with my friend. I couldn't sleep throught the night, I woke up because of a bad dream. Hard to start the morning. One of my flat mates has a guest around
Éva H
8h ·

..and I don't want to bump into them. I'm always grumpy in the morning and can't talk to people.

Lydia R
6h ·

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Lydia R
6h ·

You don't have to be polite first thing in the morning. If your flatmates you're not a morning person I'm sure they won't mind. Just go out there, say 'good morning' and that's it. I understand why this stresses you, though, it's been the same for me

Lydia R
6h ·

when I shared a flat with others, too. Maybe if you can start to accept that it doesn't matter what other people think of you things like this might become easier.

Éva H
4h ·

Yes, it's true. I told them but sometimes I feel like they are pissed off anyways. Especially, if I have a 'bad mood' day and I remain like that untill the evening.

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2 Éva H
1d ·
I will go to an exhibition with a good friend. I'm not sure if it's a good idea, maybe I bump into some people I don't really want to see. But I really want to meet my friend and I have to get up ...
Éva H
1d ·

...and go outside of my flat.

Jeff M
24h ·

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Lydia R
24h ·

Just what I have to do, too. Hope you'll go out and enjoy the time with your friend!

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2 Éva H
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Hard morning... hardly able to move.
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2 Éva H
2d ·
And of course my mood dropped. I went to buy some stuff in a drugstore and I saw my ex boss there. She was waiting in the line in front of the cashier. I acted like I didn't notice her. So weird that
Éva H
2d ·

...she was the one who didn't answer me if I can come back to work after one month of hospital but still I felt anxious and was hiding away like I did something wrong...

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Éva H
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And here come some self h*rm thoughts... 😔😔😔

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4 Éva H
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This morning seems to be a little easier. Maybe because the sun is shining. I was playing Sims yesterday the whole afternoon and evening. I hope that I want to get addicted but it made me not to think
Éva H
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About certain things. Today will be another unproductive day

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Lydia R
2d ·

When I'm playing The Sims it's often like that: playing for 3 days straight, forgetting about everything, then needing to take a break for a few months before going back to binging for multiple days. Somehow I cant just play it for only 1-2 hours/day

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Alicia B
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A little escapism is good sometimes, I think. We don't all have to be present all the time. Sports and arts are here just for that, too :)

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Éva H
2d ·

Yes, I'm doing the same all the time!

Éva H
2d ·

I've just started to play the guitar too. It makes me calm and I forget about what a big mess I am.😌

Cindy M
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Alicia B
1d ·

Me too, I love the guitar for that (I don't play anything else at the moment)

Janine S
1d ·

I bought a guitar but never really learned how to play it. 😂 I moved onto the piano instead.

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4 Éva H
3d ·
Feelibg a bit better. I cleaned my room's floor. I was planning to do it sonce two weeks. Called a gynecologist, I have some weird symptoms. I'm still not able to look for new job. I'm getting nervous
Éva H
3d ·

even think about reading job advertisments. I know this all sound ridiculous. I haven't eaten much lately either. But here's one good thing. I bought a hamster few days ago and I was able to make her to go in my hand. She is a really cute furball 😊

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Love 1
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sweet. i can imagine the little furball cupped in your hand.

Lydia R
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Lydia R
2d ·

A pet can help you feel better so much. <3 Love that you got yourself a little one to take care of!

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2 Éva H
6d ·
I oversept and was still tired during the day. I don't have appetite recently. I am really out of energy. I'm unemployed and should looking for a new job. I'm getting tired of everything...
Noel L
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Sorry to hear that Eva and I hope things get better for you soon

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2 Éva H
10 Jan 2018 ·
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5 Éva H
01 Jan 2018 ·
I'm back to Moodpanda. My 5 weeks at the mental hospital is over. I miss being there, being safe and having organised days with a timetable. I lat one of my jobs and I have t find a new one in order..
Éva H
01 Jan 2018 ·

...to be able to pay rent and living. It makes me really depressed. I don't have the energy for a new workplace and new people. I don't even have the energy to work again. I spent Chirstmas and New Years Eve at my parents' house. I had lots of ...

Mark W
01 Jan 2018 ·

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Éva H
01 Jan 2018 ·

...s*idal thoughts during these days. The majority of my friends have moved out from my hometown, so I didn't really meet anyone. I didn't really want to meet anyone to be honest. Had an argument with my family yesterday. Back to my apartment in my..

Éva H
01 Jan 2018 ·

...current city. I'm going to see my psychologist after 6 weeks out of the therapy. I will have many things and experience to tell her.

Wendy J
01 Jan 2018 ·

Hi Eva, Sorry to hear about your issues. I know the feeling of being out a supportive environment like that. Its like being thrown from the frying pan into the fire. I was just wondering i know you said that you dont like meeting new people, 1/2

Wendy J
01 Jan 2018 ·

But i was just wondering if there might be a support service in your area that you might be able to access. We have many here in australia that provide support to people with mental health issues. They help with housing and employment.

Hector G
01 Jan 2018 · NEW

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02 Jan 2018 ·

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Jeff M
02 Jan 2018 ·

I'm happy you're getting help and ways to improve. I know it's hard...but I hope you stick with the therapy and plans. Hoping you will deal with the job and family and everything ok in the new year!

Elyssa L
05 Jan 2018 ·

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Elyssa L
05 Jan 2018 ·

I totally know how you feel. It's exhausting trying to ward off those types of ruminations. It makes interacting with life so extremely hard.

Alicia B
6d ·

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Alicia B
6d ·

I guess we can all relate in a way. I think the first step to healing is the hardest. Lots of work and lots of pain. I hope it gets better for you soon as you start to find things that work for you and make you more energized.

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5 Éva H
15 Dec 2017 ·
#mentalhealthhospital 2nd week. We figured out some things about my problems, of course unfortunately, they can't be solved this easy. But realising some stuff is made me feel good. I have some kind..
Éva H
15 Dec 2017 ·

..of a feeling like I'm safe here. Wierd to feel that my emotion are acceptable and I have the right to be sad or feel bad. Also weird to always observed as a person by other people (I mean mental health professionals). I still have really tough...

Éva H
15 Dec 2017 ·

..times. I self harmed this week. I felt really stupid doing it in a hospital... I think I have even more ***al thougts now. I'm afraid what will it be like when the therapies are over and I have to leave, have to go back to my life “outside”.

Éva H
15 Dec 2017 ·

And of course I'm thinking about you a lot, Pandas 💖🐼

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15 Dec 2017 ·

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16 Dec 2017 ·

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Cindy M
16 Dec 2017 ·

Glad you feel safe there. Good to see a post from you - you're in my thoughts xx

Love 1
26 Dec 2017 ·

Seems youre learning and growing from this experience. Heres what Im hearing: 1. Your need for emotional safety is being met. Thats important to you. I sense you didnt get a lot of this- the validation, the acceptance.

Love 1
26 Dec 2017 ·

2. Sounds like youre feeling more integrated. You are allowing in & accepting emotions Im guessing were exiled or ostracized- the so-called bad ones that 'good girls' suppress.

Love 1
26 Dec 2017 ·

3. When you say you feel weird to be observed as a person, guessing you werent feeling seen on the outside. 4. Finally, Im hearing some concerns about what may happen when you return to the outside. People arent as empathetic, skillful or caring.

Olivia A
27 Dec 2017 ·

Big hugs* I hope you are proud of yourself for wanting and getting help

Olivia A
27 Dec 2017 ·

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Éva H
01 Jan 2018 ·

Thank you all!

Elyssa L
05 Jan 2018 ·

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