..recently. I should message her but sometimes I just feel like she deserves better than a deeply depressed girl, who has no future perspectives. I canmt go out to the streets either, only if I have to buy food or have something important to do.
I don't know for how much time can I continue this.
Is there anything your country offers to help you? Maybe some kind of therapy, or another stay in an institution that helps you gain control of your life again? Maybe stay with your parents or a friend for some time, just to get another perspective
on life and a change of scene? Are you taking meds? I know it's hard, and I don't know how to help you, but I'm sure there is a way that will work for you, you just need to find it.
Are you suffering from GAD or is the anxiety a more recent thing?
Hey. Communicating with people can be tough, but they can help. Give this relationship a chance.
Send her a message! And try not to think for her. You might think she deserves better, but you don't know that. She might see all your good sides, in stead of your depression. Try to take one small step at the time.
Yes, I'm seeing a therapist since last summer. I'm taking meds, but they doesn't really seem to help me, only my sleep is better. I will see a psychiatrist in the beginning of next month, maybe she will change them. I have Bpd and bipolar but without
..too intense manic episodes. And to be honest in the last year I felt only depressed. I don't want to move back to my parents because we always have arguments about trivial things and usually I get more depressed when I'm with them.
Well, I could go to another institution, they offer 3 months stay. But I don't have money to pay my rent for that much time. It was
..really hard to find a cheap room in this part of the city so I wouldn't like to search for another one...
(I know these “complications” seems tough only to me because of my emotional state but I don't know what to do about it)
I don't know where you live, but would it be possible to rent it our for these 3 months, as a sublease?
I don't know what is sublease (I mean English is not my first language and I didn't hear this word before). There is an owner of this flat and I'm living here with two other people. We are paying monthly rent.
It's when you're away for some time, say 3 months, and give your room to someone else who pays the rent & lives there in the time when you're away. It's so common here & actually a great idea for you too! Maybe talk to the owner & your flatmates.
And your problems don't just seem tough because of your illness, they are tough! And even more so when you're ill, so stop thinking it's nothing. Subletting might really be a great option for you!
..and I don't want to bump into them. I'm always grumpy in the morning and can't talk to people.
You don't have to be polite first thing in the morning. If your flatmates you're not a morning person I'm sure they won't mind. Just go out there, say 'good morning' and that's it. I understand why this stresses you, though, it's been the same for me
when I shared a flat with others, too. Maybe if you can start to accept that it doesn't matter what other people think of you things like this might become easier.
Yes, it's true. I told them but sometimes I feel like they are pissed off anyways. Especially, if I have a 'bad mood' day and I remain like that untill the evening.
...and go outside of my flat.
Just what I have to do, too. Hope you'll go out and enjoy the time with your friend!
...she was the one who didn't answer me if I can come back to work after one month of hospital but still I felt anxious and was hiding away like I did something wrong...
And here come some self h*rm thoughts... 😔😔😔
About certain things. Today will be another unproductive day
When I'm playing The Sims it's often like that: playing for 3 days straight, forgetting about everything, then needing to take a break for a few months before going back to binging for multiple days. Somehow I cant just play it for only 1-2 hours/day
A little escapism is good sometimes, I think. We don't all have to be present all the time. Sports and arts are here just for that, too :)
Yes, I'm doing the same all the time!
I've just started to play the guitar too. It makes me calm and I forget about what a big mess I am.😌
Me too, I love the guitar for that (I don't play anything else at the moment)
I bought a guitar but never really learned how to play it. 😂 I moved onto the piano instead.
even think about reading job advertisments. I know this all sound ridiculous. I haven't eaten much lately either. But here's one good thing. I bought a hamster few days ago and I was able to make her to go in my hand. She is a really cute furball 😊
sweet. i can imagine the little furball cupped in your hand.
A pet can help you feel better so much. <3 Love that you got yourself a little one to take care of!
Sorry to hear that Eva and I hope things get better for you soon
...to be able to pay rent and living. It makes me really depressed. I don't have the energy for a new workplace and new people. I don't even have the energy to work again. I spent Chirstmas and New Years Eve at my parents' house. I had lots of ...
...s*idal thoughts during these days. The majority of my friends have moved out from my hometown, so I didn't really meet anyone. I didn't really want to meet anyone to be honest. Had an argument with my family yesterday. Back to my apartment in my..
...current city. I'm going to see my psychologist after 6 weeks out of the therapy. I will have many things and experience to tell her.
Hi Eva, Sorry to hear about your issues. I know the feeling of being out a supportive environment like that. Its like being thrown from the frying pan into the fire. I was just wondering i know you said that you dont like meeting new people, 1/2
But i was just wondering if there might be a support service in your area that you might be able to access. We have many here in australia that provide support to people with mental health issues. They help with housing and employment.
I'm happy you're getting help and ways to improve. I know it's hard...but I hope you stick with the therapy and plans. Hoping you will deal with the job and family and everything ok in the new year!
I totally know how you feel. It's exhausting trying to ward off those types of ruminations. It makes interacting with life so extremely hard.
I guess we can all relate in a way. I think the first step to healing is the hardest. Lots of work and lots of pain. I hope it gets better for you soon as you start to find things that work for you and make you more energized.