looks like you're on an upswing, recovering from a 2, but still flat. Wishing you the patience to push past this, and the equanimity to accept until it does pass. Hugs!
Thanks, Love, for your support and wishes. And thanks for the hugs pandas!
Don't be tragically sad.I just hope your mood improve to 6 or 7
Good for you for trusting that this wave of sadness will pass! Sorry you're having to wait it out in the meantime though. Sometimes I wish I could hibernate until my depression was gone for good. But then I realize I'm not a bear. :)
Maybe it would be easier to just have a nap as I wanted, but not for me with my ideas of productivity.
Dance party sounds much better than nap. Always time to nap later!
Dance! Maybe I will get up & do that right now if only I couldn't feel guilty for kicking cat off my lap. =p
Thank you guys, and cats are sacred, but they're okay with me dancing as long as I'm not tripping myself.
My cats probably think I'm weird when I dance. Actually, they probably hide because I turn my music up REALLY loud!!
Manda, mine always look at me as if I'm doing really weird stuff. But then they just came to dance along. If they had a mood, of course.
Quiet joy andpeace inside my mind. IIove how you worded that and am glad you found that place of refuge.
Love, I'm so sending some of that vibe to you in your times of turbulence and learning and to other pandas who may need it. I love this community.
Thank you. Receiving your positive vibe :)
I haven't listened to music in forever besides the car. It obviously sounds so much better on the home sound systems. Maybe it would lift my mood.
You should totally try that, Manda!
I think I will blast some music while I clean on Friday. Cheer me up & make cleaning less sucky. =)
Why where your dreams wired Alena.
Yondie, I remember two: 1) bathing bunnies with Anna Kendrick and orphans to raise money for an inclusion of formal logic in the middle school program 2) underwater rollercoasters with a lot of Buddhist monk-mermaids and tickets made of celery candy(?)
Wow that was a wired dreams you got there. I have very uncomfortable emotional wired dreams
Yondie I'm prone and used to nightmares so I like all the dreams that are not traumatic, and craziness of some is nearly perfect, it gives me giggles half a day after.
I have traumatic dreams/nightmares and I can't get over it.one of my nightmares had vision that I was in a coma because my blood pressure is super low.I am going to tell you how are my nightmares are
Sometimes it really helps to share, so yes, do tell.
Sometimes I have panic attacks where my mom PEPs through my room and I jump out of bed even when I sleep,because I though she going to beat me like she did last time.also going to tell you that.Anyway, now I can't sleep anymore until my mom sleeps th
Then I can't sleep
Ouch, Yondie, your situation sucks so much, I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I hope the support of pandas here helps make you feel better if you can't feel safer for obvious reasons. *Big hugs*
By the way I am going to tell why my mom beat me in my sleep. But not right now b/c I have a online class session going on
Keep holding on, Yondie, and - if it helps - keep telling your story
Way to get caught up on your chores! Hope you enjoyed your relaxation time.
Well done on the chores! I always feel much better when I get those done.
Thanks, Kathryn and Manda. Accomplishment feels good, the house looks neater. Relaxation is in process still (and also feels awesome).
I'm wondering if the exhaustion triggered the sadness. As you relax, hoping that calms nervous sys such that you can rest and recover.
Love, it seemed to me, sadness was there first (maybe just mood waves). But exhaustion sure didn't help it. And thanks.
Cats & books are the solution to all. Maybe the only solution to anxiety besides medicine. It's my worst problem.
I wholeheartedly agree, Manda. Anxiety hasn't disappeared completely but lessened enough to just relax.
I'm glad to hear that. xx
Take care Alena. Have a good day.
Thanks, Noel. And big hugs back to you all lovely pandas :3
Ugh, I'm so angry. I was sleeping ffs. I'm not used to having to turn off the phone for the night anymore (I was when we were breaking up). I wouldn't even answer if I was fully awake. *Breathing heavily* This day was good before it.
Yesterday I went to a free therapy session offered by a local clinic, and it went really okay. It felt good to hear I'm doing great with my bulimia's recovery, cyclothymia management, and general life stuff even if I hadn't found a new job yet.
It felt even better to hear the confirmation that this diagnosis is valid - I was on treatment for subclinical depression before I noticed mood swings, and at first if was self-diagnosis, then my psychiatrist grumpily kind of agreed.
Yesterday was the second time a doctor said: 'yes, you did great with this self-discovery and changing your treatment'. Also she thinks moodpandas are all awesome (she didn't know about this app before). And I got my meds refill receipt.
That's great. Alena! Sounds like you're making real progress!
Thanks, Manda! I wasn't seeing this progress myself, but when I summed it up talking about my last three months I agreed with the therapist on the really positive big picture.
That's so good...reinforcement of progress is so important! You should definitely feel good that you've gotten control of a difficult situation. Hope the migraine is better!
Thanks, Jeff! Yes, I can look at screens (a bit darkened, but still!) and listen to music (instrumental at least) - I mostly suffer from bright and loud stuff. Pain's going away cause I've got right prescription meds for migraines: ergot + caffeine.