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5 Alena S
27 Apr 2017 ·
Same there.
Tasha S
27 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
27 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
27 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
27 Apr 2017 ·

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Love 1
28 Apr 2017 ·

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nixiblu .
18 Jan 2018 ·

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5 Alena S
26 Apr 2017 ·
Doing okay, just not social or talkative - unable to put feelings into words... all the best wishes to every panda.
Ray E
26 Apr 2017 ·

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Josie B
26 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
26 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
26 Apr 2017 ·

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27 Apr 2017 ·

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18 Jan 2018 ·

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4 Alena S
25 Apr 2017 ·
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Kris B
25 Apr 2017 ·

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Ali H
25 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
25 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
25 Apr 2017 ·

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Love 1
26 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Alena S
23 Apr 2017 ·
Meh and blah, not feeling balanced though.
Cindy M
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Love 1
23 Apr 2017 ·

looks like you're on an upswing, recovering from a 2, but still flat. Wishing you the patience to push past this, and the equanimity to accept until it does pass. Hugs!

Manda P
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thanks, Love, for your support and wishes. And thanks for the hugs pandas!

nixiblu .
18 Jan 2018 ·

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3 Alena S
21 Apr 2017 ·
Saturday still on the low after Thursday-Friday's high. Sadness went, exhaustion stayed.
Cindy M
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
23 Apr 2017 ·

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2 Alena S
21 Apr 2017 ·
I don't even know. This mood is so temporary, I will get better in the next couple of hours, I'm sure of it. It's just... I'm tragically sad right now.
Jeff M
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·

Don't be tragically sad.I just hope your mood improve to 6 or 7

Kathryn D
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Kathryn D
21 Apr 2017 ·

Good for you for trusting that this wave of sadness will pass! Sorry you're having to wait it out in the meantime though. Sometimes I wish I could hibernate until my depression was gone for good. But then I realize I'm not a bear. :)

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6 Alena S
21 Apr 2017 ·
Okayish, I guess?
Angelina T
21 Apr 2017 ·

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21 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
21 Apr 2017 ·

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21 Apr 2017 ·

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7 Alena S
20 Apr 2017 ·
*Chillaxed vibe to all the pandas* stretching, swaying and breathing...)) Luv u guys))
Jeff M
20 Apr 2017 ·

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20 Apr 2017 ·

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6 Alena S
20 Apr 2017 ·
Drinking wine, but not too much, just trying to convince myself it's okay to relax. Maybe I'll have solo dance party again, but not anything edgier than this. *Listening to music and singing out loud*
Alena S
20 Apr 2017 ·

Maybe it would be easier to just have a nap as I wanted, but not for me with my ideas of productivity.

Ali H
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
20 Apr 2017 ·

Dance party sounds much better than nap. Always time to nap later!

Manda P
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
20 Apr 2017 ·

Dance! Maybe I will get up & do that right now if only I couldn't feel guilty for kicking cat off my lap. =p

Alena S
20 Apr 2017 ·

Thank you guys, and cats are sacred, but they're okay with me dancing as long as I'm not tripping myself.

Manda P
20 Apr 2017 ·

My cats probably think I'm weird when I dance. Actually, they probably hide because I turn my music up REALLY loud!!

Alena S
21 Apr 2017 ·

Manda, mine always look at me as if I'm doing really weird stuff. But then they just came to dance along. If they had a mood, of course.

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6 Alena S
20 Apr 2017 ·
Quiet joy and peace inside my mind. It would be more awesome if I weren't so sleepy - 8 hours of sleep at night, not tired even, just yawning and wanting to have a nap. Or two. Plans, what plans?))
Love 1
20 Apr 2017 ·

Quiet joy andpeace inside my mind. IIove how you worded that and am glad you found that place of refuge.

Alena S
20 Apr 2017 ·

Love, I'm so sending some of that vibe to you in your times of turbulence and learning and to other pandas who may need it. I love this community.

Jeff M
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Love 1
20 Apr 2017 ·

Thank you. Receiving your positive vibe :)

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7 Alena S
19 Apr 2017 ·
Maybe three hours is a bit too long to update one's playlist but I need to have the variety of songs suited to my current moods and season's associations. #musicforever Now cooking awaits, yay :)
nixiblu .
19 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
19 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
19 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
19 Apr 2017 ·

I haven't listened to music in forever besides the car. It obviously sounds so much better on the home sound systems. Maybe it would lift my mood.

Alena S
19 Apr 2017 ·

You should totally try that, Manda!

Manda P
19 Apr 2017 ·

I think I will blast some music while I clean on Friday. Cheer me up & make cleaning less sucky. =)

Yondie Y
20 Apr 2017 ·

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6 Alena S
19 Apr 2017 ·
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Natalia W
19 Apr 2017 ·

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Tasha S
19 Apr 2017 ·

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19 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Alena S
18 Apr 2017 ·
Okay - better than yesterday. Rested well, dreams - weird (leaning towards absurd and funny), sadness lingers, but peace flows in a greater stream.
Yondie Y
18 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
18 Apr 2017 ·

Why where your dreams wired Alena.

Tasha S
18 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
18 Apr 2017 ·

Yondie, I remember two: 1) bathing bunnies with Anna Kendrick and orphans to raise money for an inclusion of formal logic in the middle school program 2) underwater rollercoasters with a lot of Buddhist monk-mermaids and tickets made of celery candy(?)

Manda P
18 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
19 Apr 2017 ·

Wow that was a wired dreams you got there. I have very uncomfortable emotional wired dreams

Mandy O
19 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
19 Apr 2017 ·

Yondie I'm prone and used to nightmares so I like all the dreams that are not traumatic, and craziness of some is nearly perfect, it gives me giggles half a day after.

Yondie Y
19 Apr 2017 ·

I have traumatic dreams/nightmares and I can't get over it.one of my nightmares had vision that I was in a coma because my blood pressure is super low.I am going to tell you how are my nightmares are

Alena S
19 Apr 2017 ·

Sometimes it really helps to share, so yes, do tell.

Yondie Y
19 Apr 2017 ·

Sometimes I have panic attacks where my mom PEPs through my room and I jump out of bed even when I sleep,because I though she going to beat me like she did last time.also going to tell you that.Anyway, now I can't sleep anymore until my mom sleeps th

Yondie Y
19 Apr 2017 ·

Then I can't sleep

Alena S
19 Apr 2017 ·

Ouch, Yondie, your situation sucks so much, I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I hope the support of pandas here helps make you feel better if you can't feel safer for obvious reasons. *Big hugs*

Yondie Y
19 Apr 2017 ·

By the way I am going to tell why my mom beat me in my sleep. But not right now b/c I have a online class session going on

Alena S
21 Apr 2017 ·

Keep holding on, Yondie, and - if it helps - keep telling your story

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4 Alena S
17 Apr 2017 ·
Sadness and exhaustion intensify. All the house chores (which I've neglected for last 2-3 days) are done though. *Goes to a quiet corner for tea, calm breathing, good vibes - literally and mentally*
paul M
17 Apr 2017 ·

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Han M
17 Apr 2017 ·

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Kathryn D
17 Apr 2017 ·

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Maggie L
17 Apr 2017 ·

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Kathryn D
17 Apr 2017 ·

Way to get caught up on your chores! Hope you enjoyed your relaxation time.

Manda P
17 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
17 Apr 2017 ·

Well done on the chores! I always feel much better when I get those done.

Jeff M
17 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
17 Apr 2017 ·

Thanks, Kathryn and Manda. Accomplishment feels good, the house looks neater. Relaxation is in process still (and also feels awesome).

Love 1
17 Apr 2017 ·

I'm wondering if the exhaustion triggered the sadness. As you relax, hoping that calms nervous sys such that you can rest and recover.

Alena S
18 Apr 2017 ·

Love, it seemed to me, sadness was there first (maybe just mood waves). But exhaustion sure didn't help it. And thanks.

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4 Alena S
17 Apr 2017 ·
Yep, still down a bit, still manageable. Kind wishes and tight hugs to all pandas!
Yondie Y
17 Apr 2017 ·

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Ali H
17 Apr 2017 ·

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Love 1
17 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
17 Apr 2017 ·

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17 Apr 2017 ·

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4 Alena S
16 Apr 2017 ·
Downswing, but today is quite good. I'm peaceful and calm, don't have much energy, so I postponed all the planned chores and cuddle with cats and books. Anxiety lurks inside, but whatever.
Doodles B
16 Apr 2017 ·

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Mike K
16 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
16 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
16 Apr 2017 ·

Cats & books are the solution to all. Maybe the only solution to anxiety besides medicine. It's my worst problem.

Alena S
16 Apr 2017 ·

I wholeheartedly agree, Manda. Anxiety hasn't disappeared completely but lessened enough to just relax.

Manda P
16 Apr 2017 ·

I'm glad to hear that. xx

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5 Alena S
15 Apr 2017 ·
Meh mood, doing okay. Self-care full mode on when I'll finish some chores.
Yondie Y
15 Apr 2017 ·

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Natalia W
15 Apr 2017 ·

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Julia C
15 Apr 2017 ·

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Noel L
15 Apr 2017 ·

Take care Alena. Have a good day.

Jeff M
15 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
15 Apr 2017 ·

Thanks, Noel. And big hugs back to you all lovely pandas :3

Tasha S
15 Apr 2017 ·

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4 Alena S
14 Apr 2017 ·
That time when you were slightly hypomanic (like 8? 8-9?) but balancing it, got an insight, drank 1 cider, danced 1,5 hours, and then your abusive ex drunk-called and you're so done... Aaargh.
Manda P
14 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
14 Apr 2017 ·

Ugh, I'm so angry. I was sleeping ffs. I'm not used to having to turn off the phone for the night anymore (I was when we were breaking up). I wouldn't even answer if I was fully awake. *Breathing heavily* This day was good before it.

Natalia W
14 Apr 2017 ·

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Mandy O
15 Apr 2017 ·

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15 Apr 2017 ·

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6 Alena S
14 Apr 2017 ·
A bit tired already, mild headache (probably 'cause of yesterday sudden freaking SNOWSTORM), slept not so well. I'll see one of my BFFs today and we'll spend at least 6 hours catching up, can't wait.
Yondie Y
14 Apr 2017 ·

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Tasha S
14 Apr 2017 ·

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14 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Alena S
13 Apr 2017 ·
A migraine sucks my joy and energy, but somehow instead of making me feel sad and weak as usual, everything irritates the crap out of me. It's quite rare, so I accept & welcome my anger, it will pass.
Alena S
13 Apr 2017 ·

Yesterday I went to a free therapy session offered by a local clinic, and it went really okay. It felt good to hear I'm doing great with my bulimia's recovery, cyclothymia management, and general life stuff even if I hadn't found a new job yet.

Alena S
13 Apr 2017 ·

It felt even better to hear the confirmation that this diagnosis is valid - I was on treatment for subclinical depression before I noticed mood swings, and at first if was self-diagnosis, then my psychiatrist grumpily kind of agreed.

Alena S
13 Apr 2017 ·

Yesterday was the second time a doctor said: 'yes, you did great with this self-discovery and changing your treatment'. Also she thinks moodpandas are all awesome (she didn't know about this app before). And I got my meds refill receipt.

Manda P
13 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
13 Apr 2017 ·

That's great. Alena! Sounds like you're making real progress!

Alena S
13 Apr 2017 ·

Thanks, Manda! I wasn't seeing this progress myself, but when I summed it up talking about my last three months I agreed with the therapist on the really positive big picture.

Yondie Y
13 Apr 2017 ·

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Tasha S
13 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
13 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
13 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
13 Apr 2017 ·

That's so good...reinforcement of progress is so important! You should definitely feel good that you've gotten control of a difficult situation. Hope the migraine is better!

Alena S
13 Apr 2017 ·

Thanks, Jeff! Yes, I can look at screens (a bit darkened, but still!) and listen to music (instrumental at least) - I mostly suffer from bright and loud stuff. Pain's going away cause I've got right prescription meds for migraines: ergot + caffeine.

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