possibility, made peace with it and felt better. It must of helped because I was alert enough to actually study today.
That's good to hear :) hopefully a bit of studying will help you focus too? Hope you have a calm and happier day xx
Thanks Julia. Yes, studying definitely makes me feel prodctive.
Glad you made that decision. I know it'll help you focus on your studies. Good luck!
What is BJJ? Sorry about your challenges with your mom. I definitely know the feeling!
Thanks Kathryn (BJJ is Brazilian Jiu Jitsu)
Sorry I can't give you Mom advice, Rorschach. My situation was very different from yours & it was hard for me to figure out. Do the best thing for YOU.
Thanks Manda. I have had a shocking run with her. She's told me she wished she never had me a number of times and tried to tell me the whole family was 'sick of my ***' when I was ***al a few years back. Ironically, her failure to protect me is
the very reason for my '***'.
Yeah, that is way more harsh than the temporary spat with my Mom. I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. You already have so much on your plate. Thinking of you! *big hugs*
Thank you so much Manda. I appreciate it
I'm glad BJJ helps! What your mom is doing is awful and no reflection on you but I know it's hard to not feel the pain anyway.
Thanks for the hugs everyone
My wife called the b*tch back and said we were busy so I came home again
Sorry about this. I wouldn't wanna talk to my mum again if she acted this way.
Thanks Binky. We went through a rough patch a few years back, didn't speak for 18 months. Don't know what to do now. I can easily go to war on this but wife doesn't want me to.
(Because of what it will do to me)
Yeah, your wife is smart. Maybe just have a break from your mum again? You've got enough on your plate already.
I ended up breaking a couple of windows that night too (she was drunk and I was sober). For some reason, she didn't tell them about the broken windows. Probably thought that information would incriminate her. It was interesting to find this out.
How sad Rorschach - big hugs
Sorry to read this, sending you hugs X
I'm so sorry to hear of this, Rorschach. Remember it's not your fault.
Thanks Manda (Sorry, I only just saw your comment)
And Mandy O. (Sorry, I don't know how I missed these comments)
even get there.
(I'll lost my scholarship if I drop a subject, have to pay it back if I fail one. What to do)
Be smart ! From who you are inside out.
Don't drop the subject. Keep doing it. Don't give up. Work hard and make it happen. I believe in you.
When you put in that way, the scholarship sounds more like a torture chamber than a privilege. There is no perfect solution here, but whatever you choose, I'll back you 100%.
Thanks Binky, I appreciate that. It does feel like a torture chamber. I need the money but sometimes I feel pressured to perform.
Aw, man. You are in a tough situation. I wish there was something I could do to help. You've fought this long so maybe you've still got the strength in you to keep going even if it doesn't feel like it. Thinking of you!
Thanks Manda, you are very kind. Thanks all.
Intense physical exercise, no worries. Everything else, no go. Seriously impaired here. I keep having these episodes/breakdowns that seriously kick my ass for weeks afterwards.
What is BJJ? Blowjob jokes? Kidding, just trying to cheer you up :) Hang on in there, you will find your balance eventually.
Brazilian Jiu Jitsu Asya. (You aren't the first to think 'blowjobs' lol. It's like an ink blot test, you see what you want ha ha)
Feel better soon x
Hope you feel better soon x
Normally I ignore all the crappy emotions and just turn up to uni anyway. I just push through. I CAN'T push through this and I'm really really trying. My wife just went to get T to help.me finish essay (even though it's a tiny 1st year one)
Don't think too much of 'I have to' but more in a way of 'I want to' make a realistic schedule and try to keep up with it. Include some relax time but try to not take naps too often. Especially in the afternoon. It will only make you feel worse
I don't think we are on the same.page here Lima. I DO want to do this course, I'm 40 years old and i love studying Psychology. I am.suffering extreme fatigue as well, the naps aren't by choice.
I suffered a trauma in the past week which has severely affected my ability to think. There is no schedule to counteract that.
I completely understand and agree with the unwanted naps... It happens to me a lot... It's very easy to tell ourselves 'don't nap too often' and we know we shouldn't but when suffering we have no choice..hope things get a little better soon x
Thanks Mandy..Sometimes I fall asleep sitting up :/
Im sorry. I didn't know about that. Back in the day I had the same problem because I was in high medication. I hope everything will get better. Good that you are so inspired by your studies. I have some diplomas in the department as well.
I do that too.sometimes fall asleep sitting up but on my desk.
Thanks Lima & Yondie