I remember black skies-
The lightning all around me-
I remember each flash-
As time began to blur-
Like a startling sign-
That fate had finally found me-
And your voice was all I heard..............................................................
Ror, I hear the sadness in your heart my friend. I send you huge hugs of comfort. I wish there were something more I could do for you.
Thanks Shelley. It's over now, a new day has come
new day, new moments, new possibilities
Thanks Love 1. (It helps that today isn't my birthday). I never say 'I hate my birthday' on the day because most people completely miss the point and start wishing me 'happy birthday' which is what I am trying to avoid.
(So many times I've said to people 'I hate my birthday' and they respond with 'oh well, lets celebrate it, make a big deal out of it'. To me this is the equivalent of telling someone who is scared of heights 'lets go rock climbing' ffs)
Very interesting. In that case, happy un-birthday :-)
Thanks Binky, very clever. Happy Unbirthday to you too :p
Thanks. I have a tendency to feel anxious and scared on my birthday. It can be a lot of pressure I put on myself to have a good time. It usually ends up backfiring. The spoilt child in me wants to get the moon on a stick, e.g a long list of gifts.
Which I know is foolish to expect, even to want. I just wish everything was in order. Another year is a reminder of how many things I still haven't done. Yeah, I definitely put too much pressure on all at once, at my perceived failures. How is it 4u?
Also it doesn't help that most of my friends don't get along w/ each other...So I'm playing mediator. Silly really. I needn't put such responsibilities on myself. Hugs :-)
Thanks Binky. It's weird because my little sister is the same as me. She says it started in her mid 20's (as it did for me), neither of us understand why we feel this way. We are just sad and depressed on our Birthday and don't know why. We don't
like people knowing our birthday and absolutely hate people singing 'happy birthday' to us.
Sorry to hear you don't have a great time on your birthdays. It seems like you have a lot of insight as to why you feel the way you do on the day. Thanks for the hugs :-) *Hugs* back.
Enjoyed reading this exchange. Maybe it's the sincerity, the honesty, the authenticity, the vulnerability I appreciate most.
Thanks Love 1
No worries R, glad I'm not the only one :-) actually my birthday this year was not too bad, we had a flat tire which meant I wasn't the main attraction, but my travel buddies still got me a cake and we played games&we were in the middle of nowhere
Oh, not being the main attraction was a good thing :-) lol. Sounds like you have a serious dislike for your birthday. I hope people take it seriously.
Thanks Binky, and no, people rarely take it seriously.
I hope you're ok R
Thanks Claire. Just moving house atm, very very limited internet right now :(
Sorry to see a 2 Rorschach t
Thank Ali, I just hate this day :(
Feel better soon x
Thx Claire x
This is the demo I uploaded on a local musicians web site.
Liked the demo rorschach
Thanks Ali :)
Wow, man, you're awesome! I LOVE it :)
Very appropriate. This is exactly what happens inside one's head when the mind is 'red-lining'. Well done for the sound-bite explaining one's mind chemistry using sound. Well done
Is that you? That's flippin' AWESOME!
Thanks Asya, Stephen, Jeff and Binky. Yes, that's me (i was a few kg heavier back then lol)
Well awesome, man!!
I downloaded and play it just before I reach breaking point - it bloody well helps express what's going on in my mind! Big thankyou
What did you download Stephen? I didn't get what you meant
Just that clip
We'll I added to my favourites really rather than download
Oh, no worries. Thanks man :)
Hope you are ok re:breaking point :/
Yes - I can play it through a 200w RMS channel amplifier if things get bad enough! I can have it just loud enough to rattle my fillings! LOL!! ;-D
ha ha ok, no worries. As long as you are coping ok
(These lyrics, this song, cut me to pieces, uncontrollable tears, no idea why)
lol. You & me. Music & tears today. Soul brothers half a world away!
Ha ha, so true
Choking on the smoke from the fire you've started,
Choking on the ash from the bridges you've burned
Thanks Asya :)
is that a song lyric? :) btw, how's the move going? hope you & your family are ok?
There's always something isn't there??(!!) Good luck and best wishes with the report
Thanks mate, I am gonna need it
As this is your thread and not someone else's I can say that if your lab work is as good as your advice to others - luck needs you not you need luck! The result will be like a walk in the Summer Sunshine
Hope it goes well! Fingers crossed for you, my panda friend.
well said, Stephen!
please contact me at email@example.com'. So now I have until TOMORROW, to hear back, from a person that NEVER emails me back!! (What gives, normally you can submit over and over until the due date!).
I THOUGHT I WOULD BE DONE WITH THIS S&*T TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh no my poor friend! I know exactly what you mean. This happens to me more often than not. Why is the world riddled with incompetent idiots?? One really needs this like 'a hole in the head'! Please take care
Oh dammmn! Can you find a phone number to this person anywhere?
Thanks Claire, is Sunday (Sunday Bloody Sundayyyyyyy) here. It's ok, she emailed me back. What a stupid system, 'Turnitin' usually lets you submit over and over. They obviously changed it for late submissions ugh
Oh sorry, I missed your comment. Thanks Stephen (I hate it when people do this to me ugh, sorry man)
No worries at all! I am just concerned for your wellbeing
Thanks Stephen :)
Oh, sunday, of course, silly me. Good that she emailed you tho!
Yea, thanks for the thought though Claire
'that person is attacking you', 'they are being disrespectful'. It's so hard because I have grown to listen to these thoughts as I thought they were protecting me. When I listen to them and react it often results in conflict.
(This friend stayed 'with me' when most people would disengage / block / delete. She proved that she wasn't a threat, meant no harm or disrespect and I learned from it. I realised that my reaction causes great discomfort for the other person) :(
I have lived my whole life like that - fear of disrespect, when they are only distracted or in a bad mood that has nothing to do with you! Mine is caused by shaming and neglect from my parents, mostly my father.
Finally started therapy to neutralize the overwhelming fear and anger when I feel that way.
Thanks for sharing Melissa. :)
(Hope you are all well, sorry I haven't replied to anything on here today. Busy writing lab report)
Poor you. I understand what you are saying. Please take care my friend. Big hugs
Thanks Stephen, it's all in the past now. I'm ok about it, just sharing my thoughts. Doesn't really affect me anymore :)
Sounds like it's a good thing that this person is no longer a friend.
So true Busty!
I feel with you, Rorschach. Had a similar realization recently, and it still hurts like a mofo.
Thanks Patty, I'm ok though (really), I've had enough time to reflect on what really happened. I even recognize the mistakes I made along the way and have learned from them.
Thanks for the hugs everyone (sorry if it seemed like I was upset when I wrote this, I'm totally ok, believe me, you would know if I wasn't lol)
I was in your position a long time ago. I thought the person was a good friend till one day she said horrible stuff because of her reputation at stake. :/ Got over it after a month because I am better without her and plus she likely regretted do
.... regretted it. Sorry about that typo. ><
Thanks for sharing that Chrissie :)