I'm rooting for you, wherever you are!
I'm... I'm just flatter because I don't feel emotions going in brain in a rough situation. Now I don't know what to say to myself.also I keep thing should I kill myself or not because I really do.I hope you guys know what I am talking about.
Hope she doesn't knock your brains out! You did repairs in the house, that's a good thing right? Guess your mum doesn't make much sense.
Yes,that's is a good thing we still have to do more, like bathrooms are sparkling clean, carpet in the house,Paint walls,fix countertop,patch up holes in the wall ( I and My sister room) put new batteries in smoke alarms, yard work( by the way our ya
Yard is super big and we don't go in the backyard, light fixtures,door knob's, And we only have one day until house inspection to get all that done.so no sleep for me until it gets done(my mom said).
However that part my mom said that she bust my brains out don't make sense.that is true because I keep having
déjà vu.I know this don't make sense.but I hit my head so many many many times.Sometimes I stuttered and repeated the same thing good.so I am close to my deathbed. If I head my head one more time.And I am so half that I found MP on my tablet because
I Wouldn't have you guys, Begin grateful,caring,and supportive
That's a lot of work for you all. Sounds like your mum should've started this work sooner rather then relying on you guys to get it done. Doesn't seem fair when you have all your school work to do.
I'm very glad you're here Yondie, it sounds like you are going through hell with your mother and sister.
She did started the work earlyer but she keep rescheduled the house inspection twice and lied on top of that.anyway she keeps rescheduled blah blah blah but keep she taking long breaks when doing house repair.Oh,yeah,Binky can I tell you a story how
The holes got into the wall.
Shame she's not organized but I can imagine that's the least of your worries. My mum kicked a hole in the wall once or twice when she was in a blind rage, I'm imagining your mum does the same? Shocking.
Before we moved here this house was unsafe and it was a crack head house and a murders house.and ever since then I was super scared to go to sleep.the only time I go to sleep right between class in the mornings.
Hi Yondie bear !
Can u talk for a couple of mins
*Pot of hot water*
It was very busy thank you, Yondie. I feel like almost no time has passed since I woke up, but it's now gone 8pm...
Time pass real quick in USA.it's now 2:12 AM
Wow that's late. Do you have school tomorrow?
No,two weeks off because of spring break.hate that.
But I'm going to 9th grade.yay!!!! :-(
Oh right. Do you like being at school? I hated it because I got bullied. But maybe you like it a bit because you can get away from your mum? I actually dropped out of school. Hated it that much. Lol.
I like school only because my mom ask the same thing every morning. For example: are you guys are up.are in class.and I got bullied too.nowadays when kids get bullied they kill themselves.
I have all F's in each classes
Do you live in England Binky
So you know what to expect from your mum in the morning, she says the same things every day. I am from England but I live in Australia at the moment. I have never been to the USA but I would like to.
I am going to watch a film now
Do everybody live in Australia. Because I am the only person let live in USA.But I am not the only person.
I live in England Yondie... I've been to the USA once.. I went to Las Vegas two years ago .. I've never been to Austealia but would love to travel there one day
I'm... I'm shock.I don't know what to say now.
This can happen from stress, it must be horrible. I hope you can get some peace of mind soon and everything can settle down for you.
TY (thank you) binky
Hello, I've just woken up and saw this. That is lucky. Everything ok?
What is it Yondie?
Can I trust you two be my Best friend no matter what happened to me.
I am headed to Forster care and I don't know what to do
We will support you as best we can. It sounds like foster care is a good thing because you won't be mis treated any more
Yondie you must have lots of mixed feelings which may be very confusing and upsetting as you may be feeling anxious about your immediate future but please remember you are so brave and strong and you deserve to have a life free from pain and so much
sadness that has caused you lots of suffering mentally physically and emotionally... You will get all the support and help and be treated with so much care and kindness like every human being should be treated with! X
I hope you are ok Yondie... Xx
Hey Yondie. Of course I will be here come what may :-) I was also put into foster care, aged 14. I know it's a highly stressful and confusing time. I am not surprised you feel very alone right now. But, this is happening for a reason, so you can
begin to build a new life for yourself with the support of others. I'm not saying your new foster parent(s) will be perfect, because they won't. No one is. Neither will your situation improve at first, things take a long time. But you will be okay in
the end. I don't know how old you are, but you are clearly smart enough to understand what is going on, you question things and are a thoughtful, kind person. This will get you a long way in life.
What do you know so far? Will you be living with foster parents or in a home? Anyway, you don't need to do anything specific right now. Just be honest with social workers about your situation and feelings. I really hope you have someone you can trust
Looking forward to hearing your progress, please keep in touch on here do I know you are okay. Sending you a big big hug!
Well said Binky. I have absolutely no experience with foster care, but quite a bit with child abuse (which is why I have so much to say about your situation)
I' m 15 (twin sister is too).sitting here for couple of hours and they said,'I am going back home'. I told them about every thing that's what's going on my let live.And they act like they did not see these scares on my legs and arms but I got more
Scars more than my sister do.away,they said Those don't look like scars. I was so upset that I have to go home.Binky,Mandy,and Rorschach,bare with while I take this journey.
BTY way I don't like social worker because I go into my comfort zone and makes me uncomfortable.
And also I am very emotional personal
Those people are there to help you. You really need to speak up and tell them what is happening.
I told them every thing.they did not listen to me.I think my mom lied to them.I think that's the reason why I want home .
Is it morning over there.because its night time over here
Hi again Yondie. That is crazy that they did not listen to you. I am trying to think of what you can do to get help. Sounds like the people who are supposed to protect you, social workers etc were not doing their job. It makes me absolutely sick...
It is very possible that your mum lied to them. She wouldn't want you to be taken away because she wants to continue the cycle of abuse. This really breaks my heart.
Do you have any family members that can help? Or anyone that knows about your situation who might be able to help you get out of this cycle of abuse? You really deserve all the help in the world.
She been beaten on us when we were babies,toddlers. And she also said,'she( my mom) hates to beaten on us.'because she put all the anger on us, then abuse us. So basically my whole family been in abusive relationship.
I Just figure that out.
I am going to ask them too.
It's good that you have realised the extent of the abuse, because some people live in denial about it. You are doing the right thing by trying to get help. Please let us know how you get on. I am rooting for you.
I ask my whole family that did they get abuse when you were a kid/teenager
And the answer was Yes
I bet it must be lonely sometimes being home schooled. Hope you can find some friends soon. Also I get car sick sometimes, so if it's a long journey I take a travel sickness tablet.
Thank you Binky