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0 Yondie Y
01 Mar 2018 ·
Can anybody, somebody kill me please
Metron A
01 Mar 2018 ·

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Metron A
01 Mar 2018 ·

Sorry you are in such pain. We are here if you have no one to talk to.

Lex M
01 Mar 2018 ·

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Alicia B
01 Mar 2018 ·

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Ha Ru N
01 Mar 2018 ·

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Tasha S
01 Mar 2018 ·

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Tasha S
01 Mar 2018 ·

:(

Michelle W
01 Mar 2018 ·

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Mandy O
04 Mar 2018 ·

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Mandy O
04 Mar 2018 ·

Hope you are ok Yondie xx

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4 Yondie Y
27 Feb 2018 ·
Tired,lonely,***al,depressed,stress,sleepy, that's all I can think of that's on my mind right now
Jimmy R
27 Feb 2018 · NEW

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Linas G
27 Feb 2018 · NEW

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Michelle W
27 Feb 2018 ·

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Mandy O
04 Mar 2018 ·

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3 Yondie Y
26 Feb 2018 ·
I'm lonely all by myself.Don't have friends to talk to everyday like a high schooler would.But for sure i'm lonely and depressed
Michelle W
26 Feb 2018 ·

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Michelle W
26 Feb 2018 ·

You can talk to me

Melissa M
26 Feb 2018 ·

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Edward C
26 Feb 2018 ·

Hi Yondie, I know you said you don't want to talk to anyone outside Mood Panda, but you have to. If you wish to get help and overcome what you're going through, you need to reach out to a helpline. It's a difficult first step, but you must...

Edward C
26 Feb 2018 ·

... We pandas will support you here, offering an [understanding] ear and emotional support. But it's only through the people around you/community that you can get the real assistance to get through this.. {big warm embracing hug}.

Yondie Y
26 Feb 2018 ·

Okay Michelle but where am I going to talk to you.Hi Edward,yes i know i said that and to be honest i rather keep everything to myself and stick with the Mood Panda(pandas).Is it that bad that i need to reach out to the helpline. Yeah its a...

Yondie Y
26 Feb 2018 ·

difficult step and i thank y'all from your support ,understanding what i been thru,emotional support as well.Its bad enough i don't have friends and family who don't want to see me.My question for you Edward do i really need assistance and helpline..

Yondie Y
26 Feb 2018 ·

to get through this?

Keeping Track o A
26 Feb 2018 ·

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Keeping Track o A
26 Feb 2018 ·

Oh dear. Sounds like you are having a tough time. It's great that you have joined Moodpanda! That was a positive step you made to help yourself. Perhaps you can think of one very small change you can make that would help you feel more positive and

Keeping Track o A
26 Feb 2018 ·

track your mood in relation to creating your new habit, posting here to get Panda support? That's what I have done since I joined about two weeks ago and I have improved a lot. I have been doing a meditation each morning. I have noticed such an

Keeping Track o A
26 Feb 2018 ·

improvement in my mood and it was easier than

Keeping Track o A
26 Feb 2018 ·

I tthought! Here is the meditation in case you would like to try it

Keeping Track o A
26 Feb 2018 ·

whoops sorry for all the messages! kept pressing enter by accident and i dint think you can delte messages! 😜 Here is meditation: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ZO72PmS_YEw

Tasha S
26 Feb 2018 ·

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Alicia B
26 Feb 2018 ·

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Edward C
26 Feb 2018 ·

I would like to think that you have the strength and courage to get through this by yourself, but sometimes we need a helping hand, even if it's just to get started on the right track. No-one should have to suffer or go through difficult times alone.

Mandy O
04 Mar 2018 ·

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2 Yondie Y
25 Feb 2018 ·
I had an emotional break down from my mom beating the crap out of me and going thru my stuff.I cried until I cant breathe no more.Then I choke myself with the vacuum cleaner cord and almost died
Nick N
25 Feb 2018 ·

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Michelle W
25 Feb 2018 ·

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Alicia B
26 Feb 2018 ·

That sounds terrible... Hang on in there, depending on moms is not forever. One day you'll be able to leave and have a different life. She, however, will live with her miserable self forever.

Mandy O
04 Mar 2018 ·

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Mandy O
04 Mar 2018 ·

Well said Alicia - hope you're ok Yondie - I've not been on here much but when I do come on I always check on your MoodPanda to see how you are doing xx

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3 Yondie Y
24 Feb 2018 ·
Had a conversion with my boyfriend today or yesterday but I can't remember. It didn't go well as I plan.My boyfriend was sexual and I suppose he was horny.I was kinda upset bout something.
Lena S
24 Feb 2018 ·

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Nick N
24 Feb 2018 ·

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Michelle W
24 Feb 2018 ·

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Jessie M
25 Feb 2018 ·

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Love 1
25 Feb 2018 ·

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0 Yondie Y
23 Feb 2018 ·
i don't want to talk to any because all im thinking right now is ***e,dead deaths ,die, etc...
Alicia B
23 Feb 2018 ·

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John T
23 Feb 2018 ·

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Noel L
23 Feb 2018 ·

Do you have help and support you can talk to Yondie? Sounds like you are in a bad place.

Yondie Y
23 Feb 2018 ·

No, I do not have help and support that i can talk to. Yes,I know it sound like a bad place

Nick N
23 Feb 2018 ·

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Noel L
23 Feb 2018 ·

Would you consider ringing a Helpline that could listen to what you feel and perhaps they could sipport you?

Nick N
23 Feb 2018 ·

Hi Yondie. I can only really echo what Noel said. If you feel you could call a helpline you may just find it helpful. I've felt like i wanted to cease to exist for years and years. I'm finally getting help and slowly it's making a difference.

Yondie Y
24 Feb 2018 ·

Yeah, Noel that would do but I just want to keep things to myself personally.Hi Nick I don't feel like talking bout anyone bout this but to us pandas ,I-I-I just really don't feel like its good idea for me personally. And thanks for the hugs pandas.

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2 Yondie Y
22 Feb 2018 ·
Not feeling great after the cuts I made on my arm
Nick N
22 Feb 2018 ·

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Raquel M
22 Feb 2018 · NEW

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Tasha S
22 Feb 2018 ·

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Mandy O
04 Mar 2018 ·

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0 Yondie Y
21 Feb 2018 ·
so tired and crying because i want to die
Tasha S
21 Feb 2018 ·

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Lex M
21 Feb 2018 ·

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Lydia R
21 Feb 2018 ·

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Mandy O
04 Mar 2018 ·

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0 Yondie Y
20 Feb 2018 ·
Sadness today . i actually want to commit ***e
Michail S
20 Feb 2018 ·

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Kris B
20 Feb 2018 ·

I recommend against ***e. When I was ***al, I read the '10 min ***e guide' by cracked, which is actually a joke (it gives reasons against it). I also use good health apps. ***e is not a solution, I am 100% posiyive about that

Yondie Y
21 Feb 2018 ·

Kris B ***e is and only my option

Yondie Y
21 Feb 2018 ·

that im currently thinking of..

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0 Yondie Y
19 Feb 2018 ·
hey guys ,its been while and a long time to see you pandas
Nick N
19 Feb 2018 ·

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Love 1
19 Feb 2018 ·

welcome back! Sorry to see a 0. Hoping your heart is filled with peace.

Tasha S
19 Feb 2018 ·

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Yondie Y
20 Feb 2018 ·

Thanks Nick N,Love 1 and Tash S for the love and support. So far Love 1 there's no peace in my heart today or tomrroww or the next day. It's fulled with sadness at the moment and self harm too.

Mandy O
04 Mar 2018 ·

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2 Yondie Y
29 Sep 2017 ·
So upset, I just wish I disappeared from everything. 😡😤😣😠
Elle S
29 Sep 2017 ·

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Lex M
29 Sep 2017 ·

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JET °
29 Sep 2017 ·

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Jennifer C
29 Sep 2017 ·

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Alicia B
30 Sep 2017 ·

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2 Yondie Y
21 Sep 2017 ·
Hey I'm back
Lily V
21 Sep 2017 ·

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Lex M
21 Sep 2017 ·

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Noel L
21 Sep 2017 ·

Low score Yondie. How are you?

Brooke A
21 Sep 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
21 Sep 2017 ·

I'm doing bad cause I almost committed ***e (few days ago I should say)

Yondie Y
21 Sep 2017 ·

***e

Love 1
21 Sep 2017 ·

The pain can be overwhelming. Yourr alive to fight another day. When we are low, it helps to call on others for support.

Alicia B
21 Sep 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
21 Sep 2017 ·

Yes love, we all need support.two months back I was cry my eyes out day by day,night by night, and mornings too,I have been ***al .then when back to school came around the corner that things got worse until then I was so close to commit ***e

Yondie Y
21 Sep 2017 ·

Very close to commit ***e. The struggles I been thru and chaos.... So yeah been a rough patch thru these months wits out you guys

Brooke A
21 Sep 2017 ·

Well I am glad you're back. I am sorry to hear you were so close to doing that, but I am glad you are here. I myself have been close, so I understand.

Love 1
21 Sep 2017 ·

my hope is that you can transform that suffering to joy and the chaos to peace.

Mandy O
21 Sep 2017 ·

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1 Yondie Y
03 May 2017 ·
Hey guys,it's been about 10 days and glad to here from you guys. The reason u have not heard from me b/c my household got more violent and my health is getting more bad ??
Tasha S
03 May 2017 ·

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Sandra V
03 May 2017 ·

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Binky B
03 May 2017 ·

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Binky B
03 May 2017 ·

Sorry about the violence, sounds very tough for you at the moment. What's wrong with your health? Hope it improves soon.

Love 1
03 May 2017 ·

I'm sorry to hear that. I trust you have the resilience and strength to pull through.

Natalia W
04 May 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
04 May 2017 ·

Yes,it is very tough Binky.All the violence my mom doing to me its... Making me unhappy. Even tho I am having flashbacks when I get emotional.you know!!!My health is going to be bad when I get older. Because I was hit in my head too many times,hit in

Yondie Y
07 May 2017 ·

...

Binky B
07 May 2017 ·

This is really not easy for you at all. I am praying for the time to come when you can move out, and get away from this situation which you don't deserve. You deserve a better life!

Metron A
16 May 2017 ·

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Love 1
16 May 2017 ·

How are you? Hope you're ok?

Yondie Y
21 Sep 2017 ·

Heylove,I'm doing not so good. And no I'm not doing OK because I almost committed ***e.

Love 1
21 Sep 2017 ·

that bad, huh? borrow from my strength if you care to, Ill need it back from you someday when im suffering.

Yondie Y
21 Sep 2017 ·

Yes you sure do need ur strength. Thanks love 1 for checking on me

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1 Yondie Y
23 Apr 2017 ·
I feel so...so cold from inside and outside. I wish I had someone to commutate or commutative, and commutation. I know I dont commutate or talk to people.because I am not that type of a person that
Yondie Y
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Noah H
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
23 Apr 2017 ·

Talk that much. And have a fear of commutations

Alena S
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Stephi C
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Daniel K
24 Apr 2017 · NEW

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Aaron T
27 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Yondie Y
23 Apr 2017 ·
I had very very emotional Meltdown today and depressed at the same time.I wish that I can bust my head into a wall until it bleed out.
Aaron T
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Daniel K
24 Apr 2017 · NEW

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0 Yondie Y
22 Apr 2017 ·
Please don't tell me I am having other panicked attack again.What should I do guys.
Natalie C
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Angelina T
22 Apr 2017 ·

Try taking a bath/shower, color, draw, go for a walk, read, watch tv, journal, listen to music, play with an animal, exercise, play a sport, ride a bike, drive, count to ten, deep breath, take a nap :)

Angelina T
22 Apr 2017 ·

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T M
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Tasha S
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Love 1
22 Apr 2017 ·

Angelina advice is good. Basically, reorient your attention. Exercise, especially, helps. Allows us to transform that excited, restless energy we call anxiety into movement. Let it move you.

Luna G
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Margot L
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Denis G
22 Apr 2017 · NEW

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Denis G
22 Apr 2017 · NEW

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Robyn W
23 Apr 2017 · NEW

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Binky B
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
23 Apr 2017 ·

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1 Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·
I think everything depends on my mood,thoughts feelings, and dreams.I should keep a dream journal.I don't know if I should keep a dream journal.it depend how my dreams get wired and more uncomfortable
Jeff M
21 Apr 2017 ·

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21 Apr 2017 ·

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Margot L
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Natalie C
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·

I did have a dream journal in middle school. But my counselors and assistant principal had took it and kept it.every time I write in it I always felt..felt...felt what's that word!!! Oh,insecure, and comfort zone. I always write down my secret, fears

Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·

Emotional problems,emotional breakdowns etc.like stuff like that.so I keep my dream journal like a diary. I always want a dream journal/diary until my dreams/ nightmares became severe .that's why I can't sleep at night. I only sleep in the mornings.

Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·

And I can't fix it

Jo H
21 Apr 2017 · NEW

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Love 1
21 Apr 2017 ·

journaling is therapeutic and helpful. I enjoy recording my dreams. I have too many though.

Yondie Y
22 Apr 2017 ·

Just crying my eyes out for only 8 reason

Yondie Y
22 Apr 2017 ·

1

Yondie Y
22 Apr 2017 ·

1. I have no one to talk to bout my feelings and thoughts at all.

Yondie Y
22 Apr 2017 ·

2.I have too too much pressure on me

Yondie Y
22 Apr 2017 ·

3. I am literally pulling out my nappy hair and this rash on my face is getting worse

Yondie Y
22 Apr 2017 ·

4. school is going to be out in two months in nine weeks.and I dont wont school to be out for the summer B/c I really dont have nothing to do on summer vacation other than sleep all day

Yondie Y
22 Apr 2017 ·

5.stressing on the state wide testing in next month

Yondie Y
22 Apr 2017 ·

7.stressing and depression on school work.And my mom was prond of my twin sister bringing her grade.and I feel like I am left out on everything

Yondie Y
22 Apr 2017 ·

8. don't have no friends to hang out,go somewhere, horse play,make videos, or make jokes,ride bikes.because my mom did not like them or push them away.the other friend I have went to foster care, and never see her again.

Luna G
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Binky B
23 Apr 2017 ·

It really sounds like you need some support in your life, is there anyone at school you can talk to about your problems?

Yondie Y
24 Apr 2017 ·

Going off online. Binky I will answer you question when I get internet connection

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1 Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·
Shaking!!!!heart is beating too fast I think I am going to faint.too worried,scared
Chloe C
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·

I dont have room for this feeling because my feelings is bottled up inside.but I nearly fainted.thanks for keeping me calm

Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·

I want to more open to you guys in past, present,and future. And I can't b/c I can't control my emotions.sometimes I get very very very very emotional,and little to uncomfortable.I will try to be more open and be more honest with my emotions. I will

Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·

Try.thank you Rorschach and Chloe for making me more calm.BTW my heart is beating a little fast

Binky B
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
21 Apr 2017 ·

Anxiety is a powerful thing. Sometimes just recognizing it's an anxiety attack, that it's just your brain messing with you, can help reassure you that you're ok. And deep breaths do help...

Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·

sometimes I don't recongnize my own emotions until someone tell me.I didn't not know I was having severe anxiety attack.it is sad because I don't recongnize my own emotions.I only go throught phases of them.the deep breaths only help a little bit.

Alena S
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Luna G
22 Apr 2017 ·

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1 Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·
I am Tired of washing dishes.I am bout to have a bf(b*tch Fit)I wish my boyfriend was here so I can hug him.#cry going through a lot in my household
Alena S
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
21 Apr 2017 ·

Hon, best wishes and kind dreams for you tonight

Angelina T
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Angelina T
21 Apr 2017 ·

Hope things will turn out better for you!

Kathryn D
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Binky B
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Binky B
21 Apr 2017 ·

Hey Yondie hope you are okay x

Yondie Y
21 Apr 2017 ·

just a little bit.going to have wired dreams tonight. very very #emotional and # uncomfortable tomrrow

Luna G
22 Apr 2017 ·

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3 Yondie Y
20 Apr 2017 ·
I am so so drowsy late .I've slept everywhere the bed ,floor, the chair ,desk,and now the couch.I just can't deal with this anymore.
Tasha S
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Alena S
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Natalia W
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Luna G
22 Apr 2017 ·

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