5.6 avg
  47 days
  391 hugs
  12 followers
5 Stephi C
10h ·
The fog is lifting. It's terrifying to think it was just yesterday I thought I was finished! My amazing doctor has arranged for someone to visit me at home tomorrow!
Helen B
10h ·

*Hugs*

Jeff M
9h ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
9h ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
9h ·

SO glad to hear, Stephi! I really hope the visit is helpful. xx

Rorschach T
2h ·

*Hugs*

Once logged in you can be part of the community
4 Stephi C
14h ·
Feeling more positive.
Rebecca S
14h ·

*Hugs*

Jeff M
13h ·

*Hugs*

stephen B
12h ·

:) good x x x

Cindy M
12h ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
9h ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
9h ·

<3

Rorschach T
2h ·

*Hugs*

Once logged in you can be part of the community
3 Stephi C
19h ·
Slept better but still a bit anxious. Hopefully I'll be able to see doctor today.
Cindy M
19h ·

*Hugs*

Cindy M
19h ·

Fingers crossed for you, Stephi. Will you be able to see your own doctor - continuity is great if you can get it. Hope they can help xx

Rorschach T
19h ·

*Hugs*

Stephi C
16h ·

Thanks Cindy! Yeah I saw my own doctor and she was so nice. Upped my medication temporarily and has urgently referred me to the perinatal mental health team. All positive steps forward! Xxx

Cindy M
16h ·

Great news! Look after yourself xx

Stephi C
16h ·

You too Cindy, lots and lots of love! Xxx

Binky B
15h ·

*Hugs*

Binky B
15h ·

Good luck Stephi, hoping for the best :-) you're going all the right things, hope you feel better soon x

Stephi C
14h ·

??Binky! Xx

Stephi C
11h ·

That was meant to be a heart! Xx

Manda P
9h ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
9h ·

This is great! I'm glad they upped your dosage. Maybe this will be all you need. xx

Once logged in you can be part of the community
2 Stephi C
1d ·
As the effects of the meds wore off I started to feel a little better. How the hell can my anxiety fight through 2 different sedatives and manage to keep me awake?! I could cope with weight gain when
Stephi C
1d ·

I thought they were making me better but being fat, depressed and exhausted is just too much!

Yondie Y
1d ·

*Hugs*

Yondie Y
1d ·

I know how you feel Stephi

stephen B
1d ·

can you make any other lifestyle changes to help Stephi ? x x

Natalie C
1d ·

*Hugs*

Stephi C
1d ·

I feel like I've done everything I can Stephen! I think that's why I feel so desperate xx

stephen B
1d ·

Hmmm I wish I could help Stephi .. swimming is great for anxiety even if its just floating in a pool x x

Stephi C
1d ·

I think if I can just get out of the cycle of anxiety-insomnia-anxiety I think things will get better.

Stephi C
1d ·

Ps. I love going to the little spa room at the local pool and floating in the jacuzzi! Also, you ARE helping! Xx

Manda P
1d ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
1d ·

I know it's amazing when the anxiety can keep you up through tons of meds. I also know how depressing it feels when they make you gain weight & they're not working. I eventually had to just try something else by the time I gained 50 lbs even...

stephen B
1d ·

I understand while I can sleep i wake at around 3am the morning anxiety starts and i cant get back of to sleep so the tiredness builds which increases anxiety and stress then my mood plummets ... I miss having a hot tub that was just so relaxing x

Manda P
1d ·

...though the med kept me mostly sedated. I was walking around like an overweight zombie & that with having an eating disorder just didn't work out. Have you tried different meds yet?

Patrick A
24h ·

*Hugs*

Stephi C
19h ·

I'm very limited to what I can take because I'm breastfeeding. I'm Ina similar situation Manda- ive put on 5lbs in 6 weeks BUT I was already a stone heavier than I like to be because I still had baby weight! I'm too embarrassed to see my friends

Stephi C
19h ·

Because I feel so fat. I slept last night which will hopefully break the cycle a bit but I still feel kinda crappy. X

stephen B
19h ·

:/ I know weight is an issue for many folk , even i have worried about mine now and again and loose weight just by thinking about it .. but dont be hard on yourself you have just had a baby as you said your not well .. its one step at a time and in

stephen B
19h ·

the end you will have to do things in stages first become more mentally stable then think about your weight and deal with it if its a problem .. your happiness comes first Stephi x x x

Stephi C
16h ·

I'm lucky that 30 years as a gymnast has left me looking reasonably athletic even with the extra weight but I just don't feel like myself this size! How I thought I was fat at 8stone is now beyond me!

Daniel K
13h · NEW

*Hugs*

Manda P
9h ·

Yeah, give yourself a break. You just had a baby! And you need to stay at a healthy weight to give good breast milk to your baby. I didn't know you were doing that. I was able to for the first three months ( which, luckily, they say is most...

Manda P
9h ·

...important) before I had to stop it to get on meds. I was just so f*cked up in the head because of my disorders & adding a new baby (plus, a first!) just wrecked me. Remember a lot of other people go through this & make it through. You will too. <3

Once logged in you can be part of the community
0 Stephi C
2d ·
Something is not right. I really don't feel ok.
Rachel C
2d ·

*Hugs*

Debbie H
2d · NEW

*Hugs*

Binky B
2d ·

*Hugs*

Rorschach T
2d ·

*Hugs*

Alena S
2d ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
1d ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
1d ·

Are you feeling any better, Stephi? I hope you check in soon. Worried about you! <3

Stephi C
1d ·

Hi Manda. I'm not great but I'm surviving! It's hard when I can't see a way out- I feel like I'm running out of options. Thank you so much for caring ??

Manda P
1d ·

Glad to see you're at least surviving. I know it seems hopeless, but you'll eventually find your way. There's alway a way. Hang on tight. xx

Stephi C
1d ·

I'm hanging on by my fingernails and fighting like a wolf to get out of this! Your support means so much! X

Manda P
1d ·

You can make it. If I did, you can because I'm the weakest of weaklings! I'll be thinking of you. xx

Once logged in you can be part of the community
1 Stephi C
3d ·
Complete breakdown. Anxiety and mood out of control. Made emergency appointment. Can't make sense of my thoughts. Don't know what difference seeing a doctor who doesn't know me will make
Rorschach T
3d ·

*Hugs*

Rorschach T
3d ·

Sorry to hear. Good on you for reaching out for help though. Try not to think about what they will do, just let them do their job and receive the help. Hope things get better

Yondie Y
3d ·

Sorry to hear that you are going through a rough time.the good thing is you make a emergency appointment to see the doctors.

stephen B
3d ·

So Sorry to hear this Stephi , hope you get the help you need .. thinking about you and wishing you well x x

Stephi C
3d ·

Thank you. I just want to feel ok again :(

Ali H
3d ·

*Hugs*

Josie B
3d ·

*Hugs*

T M
3d ·

*Hugs*

T M
3d ·

You made the right decision even when you were feeling like that, this is huge. I hope you're better now.

Manda P
3d ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
3d ·

Sorry, Stephi, but good for you on making an appointment. I know that's sometimes hard to do. Hope they fix you right up. <3

Anisha J
2d · NEW

*Hugs*

Rachel C
2d ·

*Hugs*

Binky B
2d ·

*Hugs*

Alena S
2d ·

*Hugs*

Once logged in you can be part of the community
5 Stephi C
3d ·
I don't know if this will work with night time anxiety but I've found that I can stop a panic attack by taking my attention to the tips of my fingers and tips of my toes! It instantly lifts pressure!
Asya O
3d ·

*Hugs*

Jeff M
3d ·

*Hugs*

Jeff M
3d ·

I read an article about how grounding yourself - focusing on gravity pressing you down to the floor or seat or bed and focusing on each touchpoint - and breathing deeply really helps with anxiety.

Stephi C
3d ·

That's great Jeff! I do find it relaxing to feel the weight of my body on the mattress and to really let go of my exhales!

Alena S
3d ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
3d ·

*Hugs*

Rorschach T
3d ·

This is Love 1's specialty. You are describing one of many techniques used to focus our mind in the 'here and now'. Some call it mindfulness. Well done for doing it. When we are truly in the present moment we aren't thinking of the future or past

Rorschach T
3d ·

which have emotions attached to them. Glad you found a way to achieve some relief :)

Once logged in you can be part of the community
5 Stephi C
4d ·
Still slightly anxious but better than yesterday. Made myself exercise through it. Heading to parents this afternoon.
stephen B
4d ·

Excellent Stephi x x

Noel L
4d ·

Hope your visit goes well Stephi.

Rorschach T
4d ·

*Hugs*

Nina S
4d ·

*Hugs*

Jeff M
4d ·

*Hugs*

Stephi C
4d ·

Thanks guys! Smoked salmon sandwiches, ice cream and catch up tv at my parents. Nice and cosy under a furry blanket for cuddles with Frank (my baby) nice afternoon!

Eeeeemma V
4d ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
3d ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
3d ·

Sounds lovely, Stephi! I'm glad you had a good day.

Alena S
3d ·

*Hugs*

Once logged in you can be part of the community
5 Stephi C
4d ·
Acupuncture lifted the pressure from my chest and the mental fogginess. PLEASE LET ME FEEL BETTER TOMORROW!
Squid C
4d ·

*Hugs*

Alena S
4d ·

*Hugs*

Jeff M
4d ·

*Hugs*

Natalie C
4d ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
4d ·

*Hugs*

Rorschach T
4d ·

*Hugs*

stephen B
3d ·

*Hugs*

Once logged in you can be part of the community
3 Stephi C
5d ·
I don't understand why I'm feeling so bad again. Another panic attack leading to insomnia. Acupuncture later. Feel like crap.
Ali H
5d ·

*Hugs*

Noël W
5d ·

*Hugs*

Alena S
5d ·

*Hugs*

Jeff M
5d ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
5d ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
5d ·

How do you feel acupuncture works for you?

Stephi C
5d ·

I've only had 1 session so far so it's hard to tell- I felt very relaxed and had 3 rally great days mentally but then this awful feeling hit. It's hard to know if it's related. She said it can bring up old emotions. Perhaps it's just my post

Stephi C
5d ·

Childbirth hormones returning and getting back to normal? Who knows. It can bugger off whatever it is. Xx

Manda P
5d ·

Sorry you are feeling that way. How old is your baby? I know it's SO hard in the beginning. It was tough for me even through the toddler stages because I was newly diagnosed & trying to figure out the right med cocktail. Hang in there. xx

Stephi C
4d ·

He's 12 weeks tomorrow! I was diagnosed 6 weeks ago so I think I caught it before things got too serious. I find it hard functioning at less than 100% so this is a real challenge! If you don't mind me asking, how long was it until you felt better?

Manda P
4d ·

I can't remember honestly. All that time was such a blur. Luckily, we have lots of videos & pictures of her that take me back. I know it's hard. It'll get better though & I think faster for you than it did me! xx

Once logged in you can be part of the community