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4 Alicia B
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Still in a bad phase. Went to a concert today, really wanted to impress someone. That's not good. Talked to I. about visiting Moscow, the mere thought made me cry. I feel like so much more of a real
Alicia B
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person when I'm there. All the associations and memories make me real. Last time it was hard going back to Europe. I can't stay in Russia, though, I've lost the ability to shrug off the mentality that's being cultivated there. Anyway, I've got a life

Alicia B
14h ·

here, and I've got nothing left in Moscow except my mom. Yeah. And she can't come live here atm. I'm so sad right now. So guilty.

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5 Alicia B
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Went a little more depressive yesterday, painted, felt better. It's good to be able to realize that you're sad because of your condition, and not blame the outside world.
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Ivanova
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yeah, it's wonderful when you finally understand the nature of your issues, because that empowers you to do something about it

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6 Alicia B
6d ·
Art has moved from movies to series' and documentaries. I'm hooked on the newer ones big time. Amy, A Woman Scorned (Amanda Knox), Holy Hell, Lady Valor, Van Gogh Painted with Words, War Photographer.
Alicia B
6d ·

Those are all amazing. As for movies, I've watched We Need To Talk About Kevin, and that's art. Beautifully horrid.

Alicia B
6d ·

The codependent in me is afraid to piss someone on here off, but god, how I hate all the Marvel movies. I hate that there are so many, and people watch them instead of, I dunno, I, Tonya, for example. That's another fantastic one. No success story,

Alicia B
6d ·

no character winning against all odds. It's about life, and how *** it can be. It's made as a documentary, by the way. I tell you, something's up with that genre, it's in its golden age or something.

Alicia B
6d ·

Phew. Done ranting. I used to be a ranty kind of person. I miss that sometimes. I miss wanting to convince, to find those who think alike. I've given up on that when Ivan died. We used to rant together. RIP, dear friend.

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I'm also no fan of the Marvel films, but I do watch them when an actor I like is in them. Hasn't happened very often yet, thank god. I do like intelligent, beautiful and absurd stories though, but sometimes I also need to numb my mind.

Alicia B
6d ·

It's the anniversary of his ***e today. 7 years. I miss him.

Lydia R
6d ·

So very sorry for your loss and I'm sure the pain will never stop.

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Yeah, Lydia, I numb myself, too, sometimes :)

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5 Alicia B
7d ·
One of those dreams where someone tells you something you've always wanted to hear, and it's just a dream but it makes you feel stuff for them. Thank you, subconscious!
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Love 1
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When we get that kind of inner affirmation, it does feel good. Waiting for someone to validate us can take a lifetime. we are usually disappointed when we rely on having core needs met from the outside. The person in the dream was just a symbol...

Love 1
7d ·

standing in for the love that comes from within.:)

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Ivanova
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I have such situations sometimes, too... I understand how it feels

Alicia B
7d ·

I'm sure you're right, Love, you're almost always right. Do I need validation about the fact that my ex is a weird closed- off robot person? Maybe. I know no-one can really give it to me. Will try to rely on myself more for that.

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6 Alicia B
15 May 2018 ·
Tired, a bit ill, hypochondria. Will do an early night tonight.
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Get well soon!

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7 Alicia B
14 May 2018 ·
One more unsuccessful attempt to paint a feeling that's been coming up from time to time and causing pain. Maybe I'll succeed when I finally work through it. And painting is fun whatever the result.
Lydia R
14 May 2018 ·

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14 May 2018 ·

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Lieteke G
14 May 2018 ·

I like your attitude! You don't have to paint perfect, it should be fun!

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8 Alicia B
13 May 2018 ·
Finally home with nothing much to do. Listened to podcasts about yoga therapy and D'n'D therapy. Painted a weird something that made me feel better ( concerning the current flashback). Life is good.
Tasha S
13 May 2018 ·

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13 May 2018 ·

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13 May 2018 ·

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John T
13 May 2018 ·

If you want some comedy podcasts, I recommend Beef and Dairy Network Podcast (not really about cows), and Athletico Mince (not really about football).

John T
13 May 2018 ·

Start Beef and Dairy Network Podcast at episode 1. Start Athletico Mince around episode 35 - 45 until the recent ones (it took a while for them to hit their stride).

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13 May 2018 ·

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Alicia B
13 May 2018 ·

Thank you, John! 😚

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7 Alicia B
13 May 2018 ·
Finally home with nothing much to do. Listened to podcasts about yoga therapy and D'n'D therapy. Painted a weird something that made me feel better ( concerning the current flashback). Life is good.
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13 May 2018 ·

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7 Alicia B
13 May 2018 ·
I was right about my friend being borderline. He's just got the test results. My first diagnosis haha 😁 I made it when we were just chatting online, not hanging out together yet. Hope meds help
Alicia B
13 May 2018 ·

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Alicia B
13 May 2018 ·

improve his life and relationships. I'm aware it's a complex problem, though.

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7 Alicia B
10 May 2018 ·
Had one busy day and one to rest, now driving to I's mom's birthday party. Tired, just wish to get enough sleep and some alone time. Mood very good these days, though.
Alicia B
10 May 2018 ·

Played guitar yesterday, really wanted to paint but had no time. Looking forward to the weekend.

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10 May 2018 ·

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5 Alicia B
08 May 2018 ·
Feels like something's shifted in mom's worldview. I do believe people can change a little. I've also changed. We had such a great time, I'm even a little sad now.
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08 May 2018 ·

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5 Alicia B
08 May 2018 ·
Still worried and anxious about my nephew. Had a great time with mom, though. Hope it lasts. Came home to old craziness. I. is my ray of sunshine.
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08 May 2018 ·

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5 Alicia B
06 May 2018 ·
My nephew's started painting in the wrong room and got yelled at. I felt so bad for his rare inspiration being cut down. On the other hand, he told me openly ( and with a familiar smirk I've come to
Alicia B
06 May 2018 ·

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Alicia B
06 May 2018 ·

hate) that it's just more fun to piss people off than anything else. A narcissist in the making. Thank god I don't have kids.

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06 May 2018 ·

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10 Alicia B
05 May 2018 ·
I'm doing good, ignoring my family members' irritation and fatigue, having a blast. Woke up in the greatest of moods tbh. And we're barbequing today, German style: there's a thingy for preheating the
Alicia B
05 May 2018 ·

coals ( of which there are 2 types), and a separate huge thingy for grilling. Nothing like we used to do in Russia, with just plain wood we'd just cut and chopped ourselves and some damp newspapers 😁 it had its charms, though. I love chopping wood!

Alicia B
05 May 2018 ·

We've done a bunch of shopping for mom's birthday today, too. My feet hurt, which makes sitting down to eat even better. I'm so happy these days, it's a great time for hypomania to strike 😊

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05 May 2018 ·

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Lydia R
05 May 2018 ·

I'm glad you're happy and I would love some typical German barbecue right now! Enjoy it. :)

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Manda P
05 May 2018 ·

So great to see such happiness. May it continue!

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6 Alicia B
04 May 2018 ·
Just got back and on the road again. Going to see my sister, and mom will be there. They say when we stay with our family we go back into a kind of childlike state. If the family is toxic, our
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04 May 2018 ·

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Alicia B
04 May 2018 ·

boundaries get soft again, and the inner critic flares up. Hope I do good this time.

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04 May 2018 ·

I bet you will!

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04 May 2018 ·

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07 May 2018 ·

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7 Alicia B
03 May 2018 ·
I used to think one day I'd change something about my life and everything would be wonderful. Now I think it'll be what I make it. Guess I've grown up :)
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03 May 2018 ·

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03 May 2018 ·

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Anna N
03 May 2018 ·

But you also have the power to make your life good! 🤗

Lieteke G
03 May 2018 ·

You are growing up! 😀 it is you who makes your life good. Your attitude and zest towards it. Sometimes you might need help to get there and that is fine as well. We should take life too seriously, try to do as many fun things as you can

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03 May 2018 ·

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Alicia B
03 May 2018 ·

Wise words, Lieteke, thank you

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04 May 2018 ·

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10 Alicia B
02 May 2018 ·
Just got back home after a very very long day. This wedding was very different from my first one. No conflict, no stress, just a little bit of nerves while the official was giving her speech.
Alicia B
02 May 2018 ·

Or whatever she's called. The rest was amazing, as close to perfect as I can imagine. No family, just us on an island in Denmark. I've fallen in love with the country, too. It's got the feel of a grandma's attic, the perfect movie version. We stayed

Alicia B
02 May 2018 ·

in an early XVIIIth century house filled up to the roof with antique furniture, books, toys, silverware and drawings. This stuff is everywhere in Denmark, in homes, in official places, in Red Cross shops. Old, gorgeous stuff - and farms, and the wind

Alicia B
02 May 2018 ·

and rain, and the sea, and fish, and ships and sailors everywhere. Aeroskobing is a magical place.

Love 1
02 May 2018 ·

sounds beautiful! I'm happy for you!

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02 May 2018 ·

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Lydia R
02 May 2018 ·

Congratulations! 💖 this sounds brilliant, so happy for you!

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02 May 2018 ·

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Cindy M
02 May 2018 ·

Congratulations to you both!

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02 May 2018 ·

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Jeff M
02 May 2018 ·

Aw, sounds like a movie! How wonderful... congratulations!

Alicia B
03 May 2018 ·

Thank you all 💜 it really was like a movie, Jeff

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04 May 2018 ·

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Manda P
04 May 2018 ·

Sounds incredible! Congratulations!

Alicia B
04 May 2018 ·

Thank you, dear 🤗

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7 Alicia B
30 Apr 2018 ·
Tomorrow is a big day, and there's a long drive home included. I feel great here, somehow Denmark stirrs up many associations from childhood. Feeling peaceful and happy.
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30 Apr 2018 ·

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9 Alicia B
29 Apr 2018 ·
I'm in Denmark! It's lovely though it's cold and grey. Something about this place makes me feel all tingly :)
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John T
29 Apr 2018 ·

Hygge!

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01 May 2018 ·

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7 Alicia B
27 Apr 2018 ·
If you want to heal, you need to process your emotions. ALL of your emotions. You don't get to pick the ones you feel comfortable processing. That's Richard Grannon. Not an accurate quote.
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27 Apr 2018 ·

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Lieteke G
27 Apr 2018 ·

Nice one!

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