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8 Alicia B
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Creating new affirmations. Enjoying time off ' school'. Working on inner problems used to be painful, now I see it as finding direction and meaning. French meds are a bit too strong, though.
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Excusing weird behavior, or just being empathic? Is it toxic or is it mental illness? Isn't it usually both? It's not always black and white. Should I make it black and white for my sake? Ugh.
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Is it either or? Are there other possibilities?

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Probably, Love, but I don't know what they are yet.

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10 Alicia B
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Great day, evening with wine a metal. Feeling tired but somehow refreshed, like I've been home for a while. Thinking about my childhood and trying to figure out what was what.
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5 Alicia B
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As we were driving up to the town where we have the dance class, the landscape reminded me painfully of the outskirts of Moscow. It was dark, and all cities would look like that in the dark, probably,
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but I've lived the first 29 years of my life in Moscow, so there's a memory and an association behind every trashcan, and every streetlight, and every ugly enormous building. At first I only felt hurt by the flashback, but when I looked closer

Alicia B
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I saw a whole cluster of ambivalent feelings. Our experience is what makes us us, and I am what I have felt and seen in that city. I want to go there; I'm scared of going there. I guess it's time to buy a plane ticket and face it all.

John T
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This is interesting because I moved from

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a city in England, to countryside/seaside in Wales 12 years ago and only just moved back a year ago. I worried about all the memories and past experiences here but it turns out it was just worry. Although I'm not exactly suited to the city lifestyle

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Last 2 times I've visited Moscow were hard. Hopefully the next one will be better.

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7 Alicia B
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Yesterday: a nap turned into a good day's sleep. Bought a bus pass all by myself, filled in the form and everything. In German. Proud :)
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Lydia R
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Gut gemacht! :D I hope the person you talked to didn't have much of an accent. Bavarian is not so easy to understand. Or rather Franconian as they like to point out. ;)

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Wow, Charlie Q is a big fan of this accomplishment! :)

John T
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German to me is: 'Aah bay tsay day ay eff gay, har ee yot kay el em en oh pay, koo air ess tay oo vay dooble-vay, iks ypslon tset. Wie gehts? Es geht mir gut. Allez suzaman, 'Es geht mir gut...' *class out of control, teacher having breakdown, etc*

Lydia R
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LOL John! That made me actually laugh out loud. Thanks for that. :'D And it took me far too long to recognise the alphabet. You remember about as much as I remember from my French classes.

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😁😎🐱🦌🍓🌶️🗺️🌍🏖️🏝️🏔️🇩🇪

John T
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I take it du ist Deutsch, Lydia?

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Lydia R
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I am, and (probably) because I am I'm fighting the enormous urge to correct the 'ist' to 'bist' since I'm a nitpicking nuisance. And I lost. Sorry. :')

John T
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Du hast nitpicking persönlichkeit? Nein. Du BIST keine sieben kanninchen in der krankenhaus.

John T
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This reminds me of a conversation I had a few years ago with an exchange student called Anne (pronounced Annuh) Münstermann.

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Lydia R
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Where did the hospital come from and why are there seven rabbits in it? Is it a vet hospital? I'd really like to know what you talked about with Anne. lol

John T
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I can't remember much of it. We were in a small pub in rural Wales, and I was saying 'Prost!' a lot...

John T
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I have a selective, sometimes photographic memory so I remember her being incredibly pretty, apart from she had small eyes. Her hair was long and jet black but looked like silk. She was very beautiful and friendliest of all the German's there...

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She said most people supported Dortmund or Bayern but I think she mentioned Dusseldorf as her team. We shared a love of Strawberry and Lime Kopparberg Cider, and she was a student teacher, the kids called her Monster Man. She hated that.

John T
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I was telling her mein lieblingsfach was Geschichte und I remember she hated naturwissenschaften but was impressed I could say it. Mein lieblingsfarbe was rot und ich habe zwei katze.

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By the way, Lydia. I was surprised you were German because your English is ***ing excellent (if you excuse my French). You do better English than a native!

Alicia B
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LOL you guys, thank you for having this conversation here, I've laughed so hard reading it :) German is complicated, but hey, Russian is worse (6 cases, and the rest of it is a mess), so I can do it! Yes I can! Love you guys.

John T
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My Grandad loved Russian literature, particularly Turgenev. I'm sure he would've loved to learn Russian because he was far more intelligent than me or my Dad. I like reading about early Soviet history, but apart from that, I don't know much about it.

Lydia R
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John, your story was a very descriptive with lots of unique details and indeed very entertaining to read. Love your humour! I also meant to thank you for saying very nice things about my English skills. I, of course, see it completely differently.

Lydia R
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I know it's not bad, but my grammar is all over the place, my sentence structure is a mess and I'm lacking vocabulary (but I'm a bit too lazy (and dumb) to work on it). And on that note I'd like to point out that I greatly enjoy reading Alicia's

Lydia R
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posts. You possess a command of English and a way to express yourself I'd love to call my own.

John T
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It's better than mine and I've lived in either all English or 50% English 50% Welsh. All my life. Languages, you either can do well or can't. I tried to learn Welsh but found it too confusing. As for German... well you know about that!

John T
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Don't get me wrong. I'm not proud to be English. I hate nationalism of large nations and especially the current UK government. Also throughout history English people have been rather evil. Also there's more languages spoken by people all over.

Alicia B
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Wow, I like your Granddad! I love Russian literature, too (obviously). Have you read Vassily Grossman's Stalingrad? It's 2 books, actually, I don't remember the name of the first one. I'm not a fan of war stories, but there's much more to this one.

Alicia B
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Thank you, Lydia, you are very kind. I love writing, and when I do it in Russian the writing loves me back :) It's much harder in a foreign language, though.

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It's true that the English have been evil, but hey, who hasn't? Look at Russians and Germans. People who have the power are just that way, I suppose. All we can do is be kind to each other no matter how hard they try to condition us. No pasaran!

John T
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I haven't read that one. You may correct me, but in early Soviet times there seemed to be genuine hope of a better future for all. UK in colonial times was just selfish oppression of other countries, and in Nazi Germany nobody had hope only the evil

John T
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I agree that kindness is key. We are all humans, no matter what our differences or upbringings

Alicia B
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Promises of a better life were made, both in Russia and Germany, that's how it works :(

John T
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I guess... It just puzzles that people could thought the promises in Germany were acceptable. There were wrong from day one.

Lydia R
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I completely understand your point of view, John, but if you engage yourself in this topic a bit more thoroughly you can actually see how it worked. It's truly frightening to see the intelligence behind it all. People were desperate for some change,

Lydia R
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and when the Nazis took over they made excellent use of that. Of course there were also people who saw through it, and thank god for that, but the masses did believe in what they were told because they needed something to change and put them out of

Lydia R
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misery. Little did they know it would get even worse. I'm not proud to be German, I'm still hugely affected by our history and I'm deeply horrified how history seems to be repeating itself at the moment. The human part in me also can't understand how

Lydia R
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it could come to all this in the first place, my logical side sees how it all worked out. Though it's not any less frightening.

John T
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Yeah. It's terrifying really, especially with groups like EDL and AfD trying to promote the same ideas. There are just more confused people willing to believe them than I'd like to acknowledge. It makes me so sad, division and hatred.

John T
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That people refuse to believe people offering solidarity or a fair deal, opposed to people who offer the opposite. I despair for human kind. I don't like what is happening in the USA at moment, probably the most hypocritical country on the planet.

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9 Alicia B
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Yesterday: German, guitar, quiet night. All is well.
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6 Alicia B
13 Nov 2017 ·
Mom guilt tripping me into coming 'home' for New Year's. I'm scared of going to Moscow, it always makes me feel torn. Guilt, regret, inspiration, love and loneliness are what I feel there. GRILL ha
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Jeff M
13 Nov 2017 ·

My mother's the master of the guilt trip. It comes from love and concern, but I wish there was a better way of showing it.

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Alicia B
13 Nov 2017 ·

I wish so, too, Jeff. Guilt tripping on holidays is such a classic move, it's not even funny.

Love 1
14 Nov 2017 ·

I like how you said that tho, Jeff. They love us. They want connection, but guilt tripping undermines this. Still, their hearts are pining. That's kinda special.

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6 Alicia B
12 Nov 2017 ·
Today was I's turn to go all depressed (she forgot to take her ADs). Two days in a row like this are hard. It snowed, though, and I went for an extra long walk, it was fantastic.
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12 Nov 2017 ·

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Lydia R
12 Nov 2017 ·

It snowed? Really? You seem to be much higher than I am. It almost never snows here. One thing (of many) I hate about Berlin. Hope you like snow. :)

Alicia B
12 Nov 2017 ·

I am in Nurnberg. There wasn't a lot of snow, it's not like Russia (where I'm from), but it was nice to see it :) I do like snow, it makes me feel hopeful for some reason.

Lydia R
12 Nov 2017 ·

I just checked Google (thank God for Google, really!) and there's a difference of about 300 metres in altitude. lol Berlin is so low. But now that you've already had snow I'm full of hope we'll get some here too before Christmas. Should put up my

Lydia R
12 Nov 2017 ·

snow flake window decoration and summon the snow fairies. Yeah, I do love snow. The first snow always turns me into a giddy toddler who can't stop smiling. And then it calms me. Snow is great!

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13 Nov 2017 ·

Lydia, you've drawn such a lovely picture for me, I can almost see the decorations on your window and your big smile. <3

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6 Alicia B
12 Nov 2017 ·
Yesterday A went into a deep crisis. There is definitely something wrong, overreaction doesn't begin to cover it. Went to a local market and bought a wooden pendant that looks like a planet.
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9 Alicia B
10 Nov 2017 ·
UPD for day before yesterday. German lesson, then Russian trivia night. 6th place out of 24, not that bad. I like my life here. Or I should say I have some sort of a life here :)
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11 Nov 2017 ·

I'm happy for you, dear Alicia. You're learning and growing every day xx

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