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5 Eve D
01 Jun 2017 ·
I was feeling so devastated this morning, with house tasks acting as grey clouds loominng over my conscience :( instead of hurting myself, i put in some earphones and put on my JOJ album. It works
Eve D
01 Jun 2017 ·

Recording my mood has become difficult since this isn't a 100% private platform. In tense moments, liam might look through my entries and think that im exposing his bad side, which is just a self preservation thing, i understand

Stephen C
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Eve D
01 Jun 2017 ·

The only thing stopping me is my paranoia that liam will turn on me or that im oversharing. I dont think that my worries are rational in this case, but they affect me deeply

Silke V
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Kris B
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Kris B
01 Jun 2017 ·

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. :LilLionQueen: .
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Lolabel L
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Jeff M
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Jeff M
01 Jun 2017 ·

You can always log out and be sure your browser doesn't remember your pw...or only access via the app on your phone, so he won't find this.

Stephen C
01 Jun 2017 ·

Please take extra special care Eve. I know was you mean about privacy so don't put yourself in a vulnerable situation. I log out and keep myself hidden because I get so ashamed of my BPD that's why my profile is unavailable but do what makes you safe

Stephen C
01 Jun 2017 ·

You haven't got to be seen on this site if you feel uncomfortable because you can always alter your privacy but that said it stool allows you to interact with other Pandas for help and understanding. Big huge hugs

Stephen C
01 Jun 2017 ·

Unfortunately I can't use any application because my mobile is Windows not iOS or Android and Windows isn't supported. But if it's just the network platform that's your issue and not MP then follow Jeff's advice. Take care Panda. Big Hugs

Stephen C
01 Jun 2017 ·

My main issues are anxiety with lots of paranoir when I am not flying 'hot straight and normal'

Kris B
01 Jun 2017 ·

I had extreme paranoia not too long ago. I advise going to your GP and making sure you get the exact treatment you need. GPs aren't paranoia experts BUT they tend to CARE. Paranoia impacts your life if you aren't aware of it sometimes.

Kris B
01 Jun 2017 ·

I wish you good health. Stephen C is also a good panda :)

Kris B
01 Jun 2017 ·

But I overcame my intense paranoia with treatment. Now I battle depression sometimes, which is not as bad. Look for the good sides :)

Eve D
02 Jun 2017 ·

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Eve D
02 Jun 2017 ·

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1 Eve D
18 May 2017 ·
Scared for my safety in my own house
Stephen C
18 May 2017 ·

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Sean W
18 May 2017 ·

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. :LilLionQueen: .
18 May 2017 ·

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Kyla W
18 May 2017 ·

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Kyla W
18 May 2017 ·

I'm so sorry you don't feel at home in your own house:( are you living with many people?

Lada S
18 May 2017 ·

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Natalia W
18 May 2017 ·

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Stephen C
19 May 2017 ·

That's an awful feeling - I have felt like this 'as a man' with my first wife - badly abused! Please take extra special care of yourself. Big Hugs

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3 Eve D
18 May 2017 ·
I am either very paranoid, or Liam is being very distant. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells with him and he has a constant tone of annoyance with me and everything I say is wrong
Eve D
18 May 2017 ·

I'm also trying to get back to recording my mood on a daily basis

Margot L
18 May 2017 ·

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Stephen C
18 May 2017 ·

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Sean W
18 May 2017 ·

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Stephen C
18 May 2017 ·

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Lada S
18 May 2017 ·

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Stephen C
18 May 2017 ·

Please take care big big hugs

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3 Eve D
29 Apr 2017 ·
Liam has been out for 8 hours getting a tattoo and said he would get supper on his way back, but changed his mind last minute to making fried rice. I know we dont have enough ingredients, im upset
Eve D
29 Apr 2017 ·

I'm also just really hungry and lonely, which is amplifying my bad mood

Ali H
29 Apr 2017 ·

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Anonmous A
30 Apr 2017 ·

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Rachel C
30 Apr 2017 ·

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Busty B
30 Apr 2017 ·

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7 Eve D
22 Apr 2017 ·
Today is Liam's bday, it is fun so far. We are messing around with the beginner's tattoo kit that I got him, spirits are high :)
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3 Eve D
22 Apr 2017 ·
I left my new stim toys too close to my rat's playing area and he destroyed them. I was devastated and started crying loudly. I spent so much money on them and they were my birthday gift to myself
Rachel C
22 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Eve D
21 Apr 2017 ·
End of the day and a bit of stomach discomfort, which is to be expected. I am really looking forward to my results tomorrow, and to see Liam tomorrow night. My heart aches, i miss him so much
Eve D
21 Apr 2017 ·

I haven't seen him since Monday morning and I didnt get to say a proper goodbye :(

Kathryn D
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Natalia W
21 Apr 2017 ·

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6 Eve D
20 Apr 2017 ·
After breakfast and my morning antibiotics, I have almost no discomfort. Watching RPDR with my mum's cat on my lap and actually enjoying relaxing
Manda P
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Noel L
20 Apr 2017 ·

Sounds good Eve.

Natalia W
20 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Eve D
20 Apr 2017 ·
Went to the hospital early this morning after repeatedly throwing up bile and extreme stomach pain. Found out that I have some sort of ovarian infection. Was released this evening and (...)
Eve D
20 Apr 2017 ·

(..) i'm going back friday morning for a more definitive diagnosis. That being said, I'm exhausted and still in a bit of pain. Antibiotics are helping

T M
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
20 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Eve D
19 Apr 2017 ·
Bought Liam his birthday present for this Saturday, that feels good. My back doesnt feel good though :(
Yondie Y
19 Apr 2017 ·

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Natalia W
19 Apr 2017 ·

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