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5 Eve D
01 Jun 2017 ·
I was feeling so devastated this morning, with house tasks acting as grey clouds loominng over my conscience :( instead of hurting myself, i put in some earphones and put on my JOJ album. It works
Eve D
01 Jun 2017 ·

Recording my mood has become difficult since this isn't a 100% private platform. In tense moments, liam might look through my entries and think that im exposing his bad side, which is just a self preservation thing, i understand

Stephen C
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Eve D
01 Jun 2017 ·

The only thing stopping me is my paranoia that liam will turn on me or that im oversharing. I dont think that my worries are rational in this case, but they affect me deeply

Silke V
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Kris B
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Kris B
01 Jun 2017 ·

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. :LilQueen: .
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Lolabel L
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Jeff M
01 Jun 2017 ·

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Jeff M
01 Jun 2017 ·

You can always log out and be sure your browser doesn't remember your pw...or only access via the app on your phone, so he won't find this.

Stephen C
01 Jun 2017 ·

Please take extra special care Eve. I know was you mean about privacy so don't put yourself in a vulnerable situation. I log out and keep myself hidden because I get so ashamed of my BPD that's why my profile is unavailable but do what makes you safe

Stephen C
01 Jun 2017 ·

You haven't got to be seen on this site if you feel uncomfortable because you can always alter your privacy but that said it stool allows you to interact with other Pandas for help and understanding. Big huge hugs

Stephen C
01 Jun 2017 ·

Unfortunately I can't use any application because my mobile is Windows not iOS or Android and Windows isn't supported. But if it's just the network platform that's your issue and not MP then follow Jeff's advice. Take care Panda. Big Hugs

Stephen C
01 Jun 2017 ·

My main issues are anxiety with lots of paranoir when I am not flying 'hot straight and normal'

Kris B
01 Jun 2017 ·

I had extreme paranoia not too long ago. I advise going to your GP and making sure you get the exact treatment you need. GPs aren't paranoia experts BUT they tend to CARE. Paranoia impacts your life if you aren't aware of it sometimes.

Kris B
01 Jun 2017 ·

I wish you good health. Stephen C is also a good panda :)

Kris B
01 Jun 2017 ·

But I overcame my intense paranoia with treatment. Now I battle depression sometimes, which is not as bad. Look for the good sides :)

Eve D
02 Jun 2017 ·

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Eve D
02 Jun 2017 ·

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1 Eve D
18 May 2017 ·
Scared for my safety in my own house
Stephen C
18 May 2017 ·

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Sean W
18 May 2017 ·

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. :LilQueen: .
18 May 2017 ·

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Kyla W
18 May 2017 ·

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Kyla W
18 May 2017 ·

I'm so sorry you don't feel at home in your own house:( are you living with many people?

Lada S
18 May 2017 ·

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Natalia W
18 May 2017 ·

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Stephen C
19 May 2017 ·

That's an awful feeling - I have felt like this 'as a man' with my first wife - badly abused! Please take extra special care of yourself. Big Hugs

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3 Eve D
18 May 2017 ·
I am either very paranoid, or Liam is being very distant. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells with him and he has a constant tone of annoyance with me and everything I say is wrong
Eve D
18 May 2017 ·

I'm also trying to get back to recording my mood on a daily basis

Margot L
18 May 2017 ·

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Stephen C
18 May 2017 ·

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Sean W
18 May 2017 ·

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Stephen C
18 May 2017 ·

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Lada S
18 May 2017 ·

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Stephen C
18 May 2017 ·

Please take care big big hugs

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3 Eve D
29 Apr 2017 ·
Liam has been out for 8 hours getting a tattoo and said he would get supper on his way back, but changed his mind last minute to making fried rice. I know we dont have enough ingredients, im upset
Eve D
29 Apr 2017 ·

I'm also just really hungry and lonely, which is amplifying my bad mood

Ali H
29 Apr 2017 ·

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Anonmous A
30 Apr 2017 ·

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Rachel C
30 Apr 2017 ·

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Steph B
30 Apr 2017 ·

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7 Eve D
22 Apr 2017 ·
Today is Liam's bday, it is fun so far. We are messing around with the beginner's tattoo kit that I got him, spirits are high :)
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3 Eve D
22 Apr 2017 ·
I left my new stim toys too close to my rat's playing area and he destroyed them. I was devastated and started crying loudly. I spent so much money on them and they were my birthday gift to myself
Rachel C
22 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Eve D
21 Apr 2017 ·
End of the day and a bit of stomach discomfort, which is to be expected. I am really looking forward to my results tomorrow, and to see Liam tomorrow night. My heart aches, i miss him so much
Eve D
21 Apr 2017 ·

I haven't seen him since Monday morning and I didnt get to say a proper goodbye :(

Kathryn D
21 Apr 2017 ·

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Natalia W
21 Apr 2017 ·

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6 Eve D
20 Apr 2017 ·
After breakfast and my morning antibiotics, I have almost no discomfort. Watching RPDR with my mum's cat on my lap and actually enjoying relaxing
Manda P
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Noel L
20 Apr 2017 ·

Sounds good Eve.

Natalia W
20 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Eve D
20 Apr 2017 ·
Went to the hospital early this morning after repeatedly throwing up bile and extreme stomach pain. Found out that I have some sort of ovarian infection. Was released this evening and (...)
Eve D
20 Apr 2017 ·

(..) i'm going back friday morning for a more definitive diagnosis. That being said, I'm exhausted and still in a bit of pain. Antibiotics are helping

T M
20 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
20 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Eve D
19 Apr 2017 ·
Bought Liam his birthday present for this Saturday, that feels good. My back doesnt feel good though :(
Yondie Y
19 Apr 2017 ·

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Natalia W
19 Apr 2017 ·

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4 Eve D
18 Apr 2017 ·
Watched my dad blow up after finding out that he lost hundreds in a family related conflict. I am feeding off the vibes and holding on to them
Nina S
18 Apr 2017 ·

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Noel L
18 Apr 2017 ·

Take care Eve, sounds a difficult time for you. Best wishes, Noel

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4 Eve D
18 Apr 2017 ·
Woke up at 5 AM with cold sweats and bad stomach pain. I feel so sickly
Jeff M
18 Apr 2017 ·

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6 Eve D
18 Apr 2017 ·
Painkillers and 16hr heat compress on my lower back, plus a good amount of food.. pretty good
Patricia S
18 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Eve D
17 Apr 2017 ·
Fever and back pain still going... my dad offered to let me recover at his place up north for a few days, he should be here to pick me up soon. Just packing my bag exhausted me
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17 Apr 2017 · CHIEFPANDA

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Yondie Y
17 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
17 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Eve D
16 Apr 2017 ·
Liam is acting extremely hyper today, it's making me feel really annoyed and anxious... My fever has gone down quite a bit
Ali H
16 Apr 2017 ·

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16 Apr 2017 ·

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4 Eve D
15 Apr 2017 ·
My fever has me unable to do much other than sit down or lie down, I really want it to end. My stomach hurts and I feel lightheaded. I was able to eat oatmeal and chicken noodle soup, small quantaties
Yondie Y
15 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
15 Apr 2017 ·

Poor thing

Robyn C
15 Apr 2017 ·

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Christy Y
15 Apr 2017 ·

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15 Apr 2017 ·

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4 Eve D
14 Apr 2017 ·
Fever and pinched nerve in my lower back, probably from falling on the concrete yesterday while crossing the road. I've been in a lot of pain today and last night. Can't stomach much food, Liam is ...
Eve D
14 Apr 2017 ·

... making me tomato soup to see if I can eat that, I'm starving

Ali H
14 Apr 2017 ·

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Natalia W
14 Apr 2017 ·

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Luna G
14 Apr 2017 ·

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5 Eve D
11 Apr 2017 ·
Ugh, my cold is making me feel crappy. I dont wanna do anything
Eeeeemma V
11 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
11 Apr 2017 ·

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6 Eve D
11 Apr 2017 ·
I have a cold :( someone is coming to visit my apartment today for potentially renting it in july, so i have a bunch of housework.... im still riding off my great day I had yesterday
Jeff M
11 Apr 2017 ·

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7 Eve D
10 Apr 2017 ·
Its sunny and 21 degrees outside!!! Im having a picnic with Liam in the park for the first time this afternoon, I am SO excited! Buying new strain. Im ready for a great day
Eve D
10 Apr 2017 ·

I also bought eye drops for my ocular strain. Putting the eye drops in is extremely distressing, Liam needs to hold me down (nicely) while he helps do it for me. Once done, I feel so much better. After a few hours, the strain creeps back up

Doodles B
10 Apr 2017 ·

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10 Apr 2017 ·

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10 Apr 2017 ·

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Yondie Y
10 Apr 2017 ·

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