Recording my mood has become difficult since this isn't a 100% private platform. In tense moments, liam might look through my entries and think that im exposing his bad side, which is just a self preservation thing, i understand
The only thing stopping me is my paranoia that liam will turn on me or that im oversharing. I dont think that my worries are rational in this case, but they affect me deeply
You can always log out and be sure your browser doesn't remember your pw...or only access via the app on your phone, so he won't find this.
Please take extra special care Eve. I know was you mean about privacy so don't put yourself in a vulnerable situation. I log out and keep myself hidden because I get so ashamed of my BPD that's why my profile is unavailable but do what makes you safe
You haven't got to be seen on this site if you feel uncomfortable because you can always alter your privacy but that said it stool allows you to interact with other Pandas for help and understanding. Big huge hugs
Unfortunately I can't use any application because my mobile is Windows not iOS or Android and Windows isn't supported. But if it's just the network platform that's your issue and not MP then follow Jeff's advice. Take care Panda. Big Hugs
My main issues are anxiety with lots of paranoir when I am not flying 'hot straight and normal'
I had extreme paranoia not too long ago. I advise going to your GP and making sure you get the exact treatment you need. GPs aren't paranoia experts BUT they tend to CARE. Paranoia impacts your life if you aren't aware of it sometimes.
I wish you good health. Stephen C is also a good panda :)
But I overcame my intense paranoia with treatment. Now I battle depression sometimes, which is not as bad. Look for the good sides :)
I'm so sorry you don't feel at home in your own house:( are you living with many people?
That's an awful feeling - I have felt like this 'as a man' with my first wife - badly abused! Please take extra special care of yourself. Big Hugs
I'm also trying to get back to recording my mood on a daily basis
Please take care big big hugs
I'm also just really hungry and lonely, which is amplifying my bad mood
I haven't seen him since Monday morning and I didnt get to say a proper goodbye :(
Sounds good Eve.
(..) i'm going back friday morning for a more definitive diagnosis. That being said, I'm exhausted and still in a bit of pain. Antibiotics are helping
Take care Eve, sounds a difficult time for you. Best wishes, Noel
... making me tomato soup to see if I can eat that, I'm starving
I also bought eye drops for my ocular strain. Putting the eye drops in is extremely distressing, Liam needs to hold me down (nicely) while he helps do it for me. Once done, I feel so much better. After a few hours, the strain creeps back up