Sorry to see your low score Patty. Hope you feel better soon.
Tonight the world ceased existing. Anything I trusted and anything that kept me safe. There's no one. I don't think I can return from that, ever
Sorry Patty. Sounds pretty bad. Can you reach out to someone in your family or friends to share how you feel?
There's no one.
Pandas. You can reach out to pandas.
Thank you Pandas.
I've just learnt that people only want to talk to me when I'm happy and funny and entertaining. I have to be a performing monkey to earn love. It hurts like a *** to be ignored by people I thought to be my friends when I'm not well, when I need
someone else for a change. I've fought so much for others, given so much, but now that I need someone - nothing. The few friends I still have that stick with me I don't want to burden too much because I don't want to lose them as well. I'm so lonely
I could scream. And I still have to hide it because I don't want to be signed off work again. I need work to stay sane. It's my days off that are horrible and lonely. It makes me drink so I don't have to feel it. I feel so ***ing worthless. I'm so
angry at those who only used me when I was useful and entertaining. It just means I have no merit as a person of my own.
Thank you for sharing Patty. You have been real and honest. To me you have merit as a real person when you say what you really feel. You have been heard. Be well today.
That means a lot, thank you Noel!
I hear what you say & I understand how you feel because I have felt it too especially when working is better that socialising because you're ignored - that's happened so much in my life & it's so unfair but......
Your're worth so much more than you think or realise because the illness is a double-edged sword as it either pulls you down & holds you there or when you're up it makes you think it's a conspiracy & you shouldn't be happy. You're a lovely person
A wonderful human-being that like so many (including myself) has been inflicted with a disability that can't been seen from the outside but only from the inside so society seems to disregard it as nothing but unaware just like physical disabilities
its just as debilitating & ruins peoples lives forever but nobody offers you their seat or make-way for a wheelchair etc? I'm not trying to make little of others with physical disabilities - far from it - I just trying to say that physically most
Panda's suffering can't be seen from outside so others (or some) just don't equate to what's happening to a Panda on the inside, alone, scared, lonely, classed a freak, a headcase or whatever it's deemed but just as much as vulnerable
as other disabilities but without the understanding & help that society brings to those with physical disabilities. Please forgive my rambling & it is not my intention to cause offence in anyway to others but just to voice the effects of those living
with mental illness but it's so hard to explain 'in sound-bites' of one sentence. Take care Patty we all understand. Big hugs xx
Thank you so much, Stephen, it means a lot! Xx
no communication. I used to think I had lots of friends. They all ditched me when I 'wasn't fun anymore'.
I don't want to go begging people to hang out - and I don't want to because it seems they don't give a *** anyway. But I feel so alone. So betrayed. Nothing ever comes back. I feel so empty, angry and disappointed.
Sorry to see you so low xx
Great city choice! Going there on holiday next month.
Good to hear from you, Patty!
Not true. I'm glad to have you around. xx
Sounds pretty bad Patty. Can you reach out to someone?
Thinking of you, Patty. 💚
Thank you all, Pandas! Xxx
Oh, Patty! No you don't! You are a cherished Panda. We need you here. Things will get better soon. I promise. 💚
Thank you so much, Pandas. I was in a bad place but cried and slept and feel a bit better now. Xx
Sorry you feel so bad, Patty. I hope you feel better soon. 💚
The person that destroyed you is the bad person. Sending hugs xx
work any longer. They don't understand that with BPD I will always have mood swings, but that doesn't mean I can't work. Still, sometimes I just want to cry and have someone tell me it will be ok and just let me flood it out.
As long as you let yourself flood it out, it's ok. It will get better, I promise. extra hugs
little ***. She appeared so sweet, but she's been undermining me at every opportunity. I really gotta watch my back now. I trusted her. Why do I always trust people. I've been warned about her and I gave her the benefit of doubt. Big mistake.
Makes me really anxious. And it feels like because of her we can never have that awesome work relationship in the team we used to have.
Sounds just like my work! They are supposed to understand mental illness but don't xx
There's one in every bunch, isn't there? Probably an narcissist in the clinical sense of the word. Yuck. Don't give her the pleasure of seeing she got to you, and she'll loose interest.
Alicia, looking up the traits of a narcissist - she fits that pretty well. I kept wondering why she is like this, and if she's after my job which I know she isn't. She just has that grandiose sense of self and entitlement, and any praise I give
anyone else she takes as a criticism and insult to herself.
I'm with you in my heart! Stay strong!!!
Hope all is well for you Patty
Glad to see a 6, Patty!
Thank you Manda!