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7 Lydia R
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Still riding that high. Actually wanted to elaborate on how the exam was more difficult than expected and that I hope to pass, but when I came back from yoga my lecturer had already mailed me that I
Lydia R
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I passed the exam. Only 1,5 hours after handing it in. So relieved and in such a good mood that I barely recognise myself. Met a very affectionate black cat on my way back home. Purrrfect end of the day.

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7 Lydia R
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Riding a wave of awesomeness. Saw a long-tailed tit. Awesome! Saw my crush. Awesome! Sun is (was) shining. Awesome! I'm walking a lot. Awesome! Full of adrenaline. Awesome!
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Yes, enjoy the awesomeness Lydia.

Penelope P
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Very pleased to see. And long tailed tits are my favourite birds, I love them with all my heart.

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5 Lydia R
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Same as always. If only I'd have started studying earlier! Studied 8 hours and my head feels empty. I just hope it's enough to pass tomorrow's exam. 😬
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Albertine M
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Thinking good thoughts Lydiabear! Everything crossed

Penelope P
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Good luck for tomorrow, dear Lydia.

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Good luck with your exam!

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If you have information to memorize and recite, try writing it down over and over and over again with your hand on paper. I took a condensed art history course and got all A+ on famous piece titles thanks to this method

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5 Lydia R
2d ·
Just got up at 12.30pm! I don't know when I managed to sleep for so long the last time. Felt good, and I wanted to stay in bed all day, but I lost a lot of time for studying & still not in the mood.
Lydia R
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It wasn't an uniterrupted sleep though. But I was tired when my alarm went off and just stayed in bed and eventually fell asleep again. Quite an indulgence on my part, and probably motivated by a lot of procrastination.

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You listened to your body when it asked for rest. Indulgent or not, it's intelligent and will probably make you feel better than if you'd got up worked yourself into exhaustion.

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Sometimes you need the rest. It's okay to give yourself permission every so often.

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5 Lydia R
3d ·
Better after talking to my mum on the phone. Going shopping now. It's just procrastination but I need to get out of my flat for a while.
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3 Lydia R
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Tired, angry, hurt, sad, embracing SI.
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4 Lydia R
4d ·
Can't stop thinking how nice it would be to just drop dead. Don't quite know how to leave this headspace to focus on what's „important“ right now. Studying and passing the exam next week.
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Is there anything fun you could focus on instead? Just to break the pattern. I know it sounds annoying, but it helps me sometimes.

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Lydia R
4d ·

Nothing seems to hold my interest at the moment, especially not fun things. It's almost annoying how persistent and relentless the darkness is this time. Thanks Pandas.

Jen B
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It's so hard when you're feeling this way and you have to deal with things like exams which are stressful by themselves. Remember to try to go easy on yourself ❤️

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4 Lydia R
5d ·
Somewhat promising start, got up, got dressed, went grocery shopping, and about to start studying, but now I can feel anger, bitterness, fatigue and exasperation creeping their way back up again.
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5 Lydia R
5d ·
Feeling slightly better after therapy, there even has been a slight smile on my face. Feels nice to have left some of my worries with my therapist. Hopefully I can maintain this mindset for a while.
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4 Lydia R
6d ·
Headache. Since yesterday, this night, this morning. Should get up and eat something so I can take a painkiller.
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Lydia R
5d ·

Getting up seems to have done the trick. Maybe it's my neck, everything is too tightly wound. Headache's not yet gone, but being upright is better than lying down. Though now I have to face the day and onslaught of my thoughts bc sleep is no option.

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❤️❤️❤️

John T
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Lydia, the days will get longer, warmer, and drier. There'll be time to enjoy. To be in new places. See new things. Feel new joys. Laugh at new jokes. Everyday is a step closer to this.

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Well said, John. How beautiful.

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3 Lydia R
6d ·
Emotionally really not right.
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Albertine M
6d ·

Thinking of you dear Lydia - big hugs xx

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Just a rough patch, it'll pass. Thinking of you.

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*big hugs* Hope you feel better soon, Lydia. xx

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5 Lydia R
7d ·
Finally received the result of the exam last week and it's a far better grade than I'd have ever expected. Relieved and happy but also disappointed and angry at myself about lost opportunity yesterday
Lydia R
7d ·

Bag of very mixed feelings indeed. Need to prepare for last exam next Tuesday and I hope this good news brings back my motivation and perseverance. Mood is still okay/good, flat is also better though not yet finished, but I'm lacking energy and can

Lydia R
7d ·

still feel the lingering remnants of my old friend depression. The hopelessness and pointlessness of my thoughts of the past few days. The utter meaninglessness of everything and all the guilt of my past mistakes. I'm much better now, but it's still

Lydia R
7d ·

interesting and a bit alarming to see how completely everything inside my head changes under the veil of depression. It's scary as hell, especially since the biggest trigger were simply hormones.

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Manda P
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Well done on your exams! That's awesome! I'm sure you'll do great on the last one too.

Lydia R
6d ·

Thank you Manda. I shouldn't be proud about finally passing an easy exam after three tries (and years), but I'm incredibly relieved and happy that one of my biggest uni-related anxieties is finally out of the way. And it's a 1,7 instead of the 4,0

Lydia R
6d ·

(barely passed) or a bit better I was aiming for. I just wanted it to be done. One more next week, but sadly I skipped the second one on Monday and don't know what to do with that. Well, for now I have to focus on next Tuesday which is pretty hard in

Lydia R
6d ·

my current state. Thanks for the hugs, pandas!

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5 Lydia R
11 Mar 2019 ·
Mood has improved throughout the day. Tidied up flat a bit, washed hair, and went grocery shopping. Still escaping too much into fantasy worlds, but the oppressing darkness seems to be gone again.
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3 Lydia R
11 Mar 2019 ·
Feeling a bit hollow inside and highly uncomfortable in my own skin and flat. Anxious about skipping exam. Resigned about life in general. I can't give myself what I want, but then what's the point.
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11 Mar 2019 ·

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4 Lydia R
10 Mar 2019 ·
I can feel the hormonal veil lifting, things are becoming clearer & less grim again. Still unhappy about all the lost time & highly unmotivated to even start studying for tomorrow. What's the point?
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10 Mar 2019 ·

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John T
10 Mar 2019 ·

The point is you get your degree and become a dectective. Like you know who... (Not Voldamort)

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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Lydia R
10 Mar 2019 ·

I can hardly become a detective with an English major. Maybe I could, but I'd be the worst there ever was.

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10 Mar 2019 ·

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John T
10 Mar 2019 ·

***, I've just thought of it... You will write the greatest detective character ever!

John T
10 Mar 2019 ·

Destiny awaits...

Lydia R
10 Mar 2019 ·

Not a writer, John.

John T
10 Mar 2019 ·

You write far better English than most English people.

nixiblu .
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Lydia R
10 Mar 2019 ·

Which still doesn't mean that I can create engaging fictional stories with interesting characters and intriguing plots.

John T
10 Mar 2019 ·

Well, regardless of what you are thinking now, I hope you feel better soon.

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4 Lydia R
09 Mar 2019 ·
Just down, sad, empty, unmotivated. Can't see the point of anything.
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09 Mar 2019 ·

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Jimbob W
09 Mar 2019 ·

Sometimes it's good just to focus on a really small positive on days like this. Then the day has some meaning. Anyway, that what I try and do, and fail most the time haha

Lydia R
09 Mar 2019 ·

That's true. Completely failing right now, too. I know that at least 50% of this is because of hormones, but still not knowing how to deal with this monthly reoccurrences doesn't make this any better. And he rest is just me being unable to function.

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3 Lydia R
08 Mar 2019 ·
This emotion thing? Can't deal with it. This life thing? Can't handle it, either. Met with friend and had a somewhat good time until she let the bomb drop that she'll move away again after coming back
Lydia R
08 Mar 2019 ·

to Berlin only a few months ago. I'd hoped for a chance to rebuild our friendship, but have made only miniscule progress so far and soon she'll be gone again. Completely threw me and I'm an emotional mess. Sod it all, just want to go to bed and cry.

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08 Mar 2019 ·

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Jen B
08 Mar 2019 ·

I'm having the same kind of day. Feel better soon, Lydia. I'm sorry your friend is leaving again so quickly ❤️

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Manda P
08 Mar 2019 ·

Oh, no. So sorry to see this, Lydia. I know how much effort you must've put into the friendship. Don't let it discourage you from future attempts at friendship.

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3 Lydia R
08 Mar 2019 ·
highly irritable, annoyed by everything, stressed, stressed, stressed. Thanks, pms.
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4 Lydia R
08 Mar 2019 ·
Brand new bank holiday in Berlin (only!) today. Slept in, and feel a bit more rested, but didn't want to get up and start studying. Stressed. Friend wants to meet today, but I'm so behind schedule
Lydia R
08 Mar 2019 ·

that I consider cancelling. But I haven't seen her since mid December and it's hard to get a hold of her. 'Having' to spend 2-3 hours doing something else instead of studying is stressing me. Especially since I still haven't started. Argh.

Lydia R
08 Mar 2019 ·

At the moment my emotional and physical capacities are almost completely limited to somewhat keeping up my everyday life/household/work and studying. Interpersonal relationships are suffering, but everything is stressing me.

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08 Mar 2019 ·

I get it. Take a deep breath.

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5 Lydia R
07 Mar 2019 ·
Overwhelmed with everything in the morning (4), called in sick at work, tidied flat a bit, went to Pilates, grocery shopping. Headache, tired, procrastinated too much, but managed to renew internet
Lydia R
08 Mar 2019 ·

contract with good conditions and got my sick note extended for over a week (6). Very easy going GP and grateful for her. Sadly I didn't use the extra time for studying, and went to bed early.

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