I passed the exam. Only 1,5 hours after handing it in. So relieved and in such a good mood that I barely recognise myself. Met a very affectionate black cat on my way back home. Purrrfect end of the day.
Yes, enjoy the awesomeness Lydia.
Very pleased to see. And long tailed tits are my favourite birds, I love them with all my heart.
Thinking good thoughts Lydiabear! Everything crossed
Good luck for tomorrow, dear Lydia.
Good luck with your exam!
If you have information to memorize and recite, try writing it down over and over and over again with your hand on paper. I took a condensed art history course and got all A+ on famous piece titles thanks to this method
It wasn't an uniterrupted sleep though. But I was tired when my alarm went off and just stayed in bed and eventually fell asleep again. Quite an indulgence on my part, and probably motivated by a lot of procrastination.
You listened to your body when it asked for rest. Indulgent or not, it's intelligent and will probably make you feel better than if you'd got up worked yourself into exhaustion.
Sometimes you need the rest. It's okay to give yourself permission every so often.
Is there anything fun you could focus on instead? Just to break the pattern. I know it sounds annoying, but it helps me sometimes.
Nothing seems to hold my interest at the moment, especially not fun things. It's almost annoying how persistent and relentless the darkness is this time. Thanks Pandas.
It's so hard when you're feeling this way and you have to deal with things like exams which are stressful by themselves. Remember to try to go easy on yourself ❤️
Getting up seems to have done the trick. Maybe it's my neck, everything is too tightly wound. Headache's not yet gone, but being upright is better than lying down. Though now I have to face the day and onslaught of my thoughts bc sleep is no option.
Lydia, the days will get longer, warmer, and drier. There'll be time to enjoy. To be in new places. See new things. Feel new joys. Laugh at new jokes. Everyday is a step closer to this.
Well said, John. How beautiful.
Thinking of you dear Lydia - big hugs xx
Just a rough patch, it'll pass. Thinking of you.
*big hugs* Hope you feel better soon, Lydia. xx
Bag of very mixed feelings indeed. Need to prepare for last exam next Tuesday and I hope this good news brings back my motivation and perseverance. Mood is still okay/good, flat is also better though not yet finished, but I'm lacking energy and can
still feel the lingering remnants of my old friend depression. The hopelessness and pointlessness of my thoughts of the past few days. The utter meaninglessness of everything and all the guilt of my past mistakes. I'm much better now, but it's still
interesting and a bit alarming to see how completely everything inside my head changes under the veil of depression. It's scary as hell, especially since the biggest trigger were simply hormones.
Well done on your exams! That's awesome! I'm sure you'll do great on the last one too.
Thank you Manda. I shouldn't be proud about finally passing an easy exam after three tries (and years), but I'm incredibly relieved and happy that one of my biggest uni-related anxieties is finally out of the way. And it's a 1,7 instead of the 4,0
(barely passed) or a bit better I was aiming for. I just wanted it to be done. One more next week, but sadly I skipped the second one on Monday and don't know what to do with that. Well, for now I have to focus on next Tuesday which is pretty hard in
my current state. Thanks for the hugs, pandas!
The point is you get your degree and become a dectective. Like you know who... (Not Voldamort)
I can hardly become a detective with an English major. Maybe I could, but I'd be the worst there ever was.
***, I've just thought of it... You will write the greatest detective character ever!
Not a writer, John.
You write far better English than most English people.
Which still doesn't mean that I can create engaging fictional stories with interesting characters and intriguing plots.
Well, regardless of what you are thinking now, I hope you feel better soon.
Sometimes it's good just to focus on a really small positive on days like this. Then the day has some meaning. Anyway, that what I try and do, and fail most the time haha
That's true. Completely failing right now, too. I know that at least 50% of this is because of hormones, but still not knowing how to deal with this monthly reoccurrences doesn't make this any better. And he rest is just me being unable to function.
to Berlin only a few months ago. I'd hoped for a chance to rebuild our friendship, but have made only miniscule progress so far and soon she'll be gone again. Completely threw me and I'm an emotional mess. Sod it all, just want to go to bed and cry.
I'm having the same kind of day. Feel better soon, Lydia. I'm sorry your friend is leaving again so quickly ❤️
Oh, no. So sorry to see this, Lydia. I know how much effort you must've put into the friendship. Don't let it discourage you from future attempts at friendship.
that I consider cancelling. But I haven't seen her since mid December and it's hard to get a hold of her. 'Having' to spend 2-3 hours doing something else instead of studying is stressing me. Especially since I still haven't started. Argh.
At the moment my emotional and physical capacities are almost completely limited to somewhat keeping up my everyday life/household/work and studying. Interpersonal relationships are suffering, but everything is stressing me.
I get it. Take a deep breath.
contract with good conditions and got my sick note extended for over a week (6). Very easy going GP and grateful for her. Sadly I didn't use the extra time for studying, and went to bed early.