Good that mood is OK :) I find we all procrastinate when we have to do something that has no pleasure for us in it. I try to trick myself into enjoying chores now. Sometimes it works.
Everyone needs a good stay in bed every now & then. Glad the mood has stayed ok!
Good and very helpful chat with friend this morning, put some things into perspective. Trying best not to forget it when I'm feeling bad again. Wondering if these honest talks are part of why I'm feeling better and/or if my meds are suddenly working.
Whatever it is, gives you some respite and, I hope, clarity to continue walking the path to self-knowledge and to peace.
So great to see all this green, My Sweet Lydia! I really hope it sticks! 💖
Thanks Love and Manda and every Panda for the hugs! ❤
Thanks Tasha and Jen!
Mmmmmm mental illness... 🍫🍫🍫🍫🍫🧙🏻♂️
I missed this! So glad you have a diagnoses & meds now. Life is finally returning! Do be prepared for those episodes that break through the meds. It's hard & disappointing sometimes. We'll be here for ya! 💖
Yeah, John, tasty, isn't it? 😆
No, Manda, I think you've misunderstood this post. It was just a dream, take a closer look at 'chocolate'. 😉 But I've had a few appts at the psychology department of a hospital (for a study, but a thorough diagnostic was included) and am awaiting
their results now. I also have an appt at the end of July at the psychology department of my uni, where they'll most likely also do some kind of diagnostic and see if they have a free CBT spot for me. My meds are still the same since starting them.
Thanks for the hugs, Pandas!
Oh, I see. Sorry for getting confused. Glad you're doing all that though. I really hope it's a help!
Weather definitely affects my mood and energy levels. Then again, it can be comforting to take advantage of those days as a rest day, like you did, and get back at it tomorrow! The sun will come out, as they say!
I would love a day of rain right now! X
The rain was awesome and much needed (look at all the brown grass here...), the first in weeks I think, but why did it have to sap my energy like that.. Feeling much better by now, though! Thanks for the comments and hugs, dear Pandas!
Happy you're doing so well 😚😚😚
Thanks Alicia! I'm also enjoying it. 😃 Thanks for the hugs!
Well done! Great to have a nice evening after all the work. Hugsies to you
I wear earplugs every night as I'm sensitive to noise. Hope they help you
Thanks Pandas, and hugs to all of you! Love, they did help and I was awfully productive, but my ears hurt a lot after wearing them for 5 hours as they're not used to them. Tried sleeping with them but it's still weird.
hehe. I now have the opposite experience where it feels weird to sleep without them.Guess the body habituates
having to endure this and spending the day in a state of despair, anger and hopelessness, but I don't know where to go. Had weird dreams about my reaction yesterday and I'm still upset, even though the only one who made a mistake was me. Sucks.
Everyone makes mistakes. You aren't alone. I make them everyday.
I know. I just don't have any control about my intense negative reactions. Not just towards myself, but especially towards everyone else. I made a mistake but I'm mad at my friend? Not good.
I've been struggling with controlling my negative reactions lately too... Maybe I have been forever... But I know every new situation is another chance to be better and I try to remember that. It's not always easy. ❤️
You're right, Jen, and I'm doing much better at the moment, but the hard thing is to remember this when I'll feel bad again. Keeping my fingers crossed for both of us! 😊 Thanks for the hugs, Pandas!
It's amazing how aware you are of your feelings and reactions. That has to change things for the better.
I agree Alicia. I think using MoodPanda regularly keeps self awareness on the mind. It's good.
I don't know if this is good or not. I just try to give names to what I'm feeling because otherwise I find it hard to describe my emotions. It's possible I've become more aware of them over the years, but I still can't handle them very well. What's
the point of self-awareness then? Yes, I know I'm feeling like *** and maybe also the reason for it, but I can't change and just continue to feel like ***.
thanks for the hugs!
It's better than not knowing what's happening and being on a different planet with entirely irrational thoughts and beliefs, and not realising. I know that all too well, and I don't think ignorance is bliss in this particular case.
CBT will help make sense of the processes behind how these thoughts and feelings operate. You've already got a base with the awareness. Most of the help out there is proven to help, or it they wouldn't offer it. Sending a little hope, hopefully!
You're right. But since I'm apparently one of the few lucky ones when it comes to mental health I don't think it's much of an achievement. Lately I feel like I don't actually belong here, again. So also feel bad for ranting when others have it worse.
We'll see how that goes/if I can start at all. Not so sure about it anymore. Just doubting everything again.
I guess what I'm trying to get at that you can change things when you have understanding and reasons for your mood. I think that will come and you're on the right path. Don't feel bad, you haven't done anything wrong.
Well all the pandas want you to get better, and without pressure or judgement, we'll try and get you closer to where you want to be. Recovery is not meant to be easy and it's easy to feel overwhelmed, just look after yourself best you can.
I think you are the most genuinely good, and brutally honest person I know. That is true strength. Now that's something to be aware of...
Not sure if brutally honest is how I would describe myself. Also not sure if it's a compliment. :D Being honest is good, but I don't really think of me that way. Interesting view you've got there.
Well if you are telling lies, I'm believing them! 😁 [I hope you feel better soon :)]
Ohhhhh yes 😕
Oh yeah xx
Well done, Lydia! Sounds like a very productive day! xx
At least the first half was! The rest I've just spent waiting until it was time to go to bed. Thanks Manda! And all Pandas for your hugs! :)
Thanks Jen and Cindy! :)
Don't feel bad about liking someone you barely know. We've probably all been there. :) It's totally normal. Don't worry.
You're right, Antonia. It's actually a good thing to be able to like other people. My problem is that I'm getting too emotionally attached way too fast and it always takes a while for me to let go again. Probably because of my chronic loneliness.
Thanks for the hugs!
I understand what you mean. But maybe you don't have to let go... I don't know how it is for you but for me it's really nice just daydreaming about the person and as long as it makes me happy and not sad I think being in love is a great thing.. (1/2)
... even if the person I live doesn't love me back. But it might be different for you. Either way I hope that you end up happy and I wish you all the best :) (2/2)
Oh, no! Still the neighbor?! Glad you were able to find some motivation. 💖
Yes, still the neighbour. At the end of last month I'd hoped he would move out, but no. Sadly he's still there. It's gotten better, but he still manages to piss me off. Thanks for the hugs!
Thanks Alicia! <3
Where are we, in ***ing kindergarden? I admit I didn't have to use so much water, but his loud music annoys me so much I got carried away and instantly got a reply. You reap what you sow. Anxiety is sky high though. I want out of here. So bad.
What a jerk. It's really awful, having a neighbour like that. I do hope the situation will shift somehow.
Thanks Alicia, I hope so too. Right now I'm too scared to leave my flat, thankfully I don't have to today. But tomorrow. I don't want to feel imprisoned in my own flat. Also scared he'll somehow manage to present me a bill for his 'ruined' laptop.
Don't let him bully you. Don't pay anything. Do rise above him and go wherever you want to prove a point to him and yourself.
It's so upsetting to have an issue with a neighbor. What would he do if it rained
I don't know, probably drown! :D Thanks for all your words and hugs, Pandas! They helped and I've finally calmed down.
Thanks Pandas! :)
You remind me I've got to keep saving for my computer. I've not done as well as hoped these last two months. Any tips to keep unnecessary spending down would be appreciated!
Bit late, sorry John. But I don't think I've got any useful tips. I'm probably just stingy. The past years with constantly very little money have turned me into a money saving machine. What you probably could is write down all your expenses. That's
what I do. And I mean everything. Everything you spend for food, but also your monthly fixed costs (rent, electricity, internet, phone, etc.), and everything you buy for yourself and Clem. Just everything. It gives you a good overview and could help
you figure out potential for savings. I also have a certain amount of money each month I transfer to another account for savings. I have to say I can be really consequent though, and that minimises my pleasure in life. But maybe this helps.
Thanks for the hugs! :)