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5 Lydia R
19m ·
Tired, motivated, relieved, nervous, relaxed, anxious, lazy, a bit of everything. Hoping to strengthen friendship but still doubtful though trying to stay calm, and don't want to go back to Berlin.
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6 Lydia R
21h ·
Mood got better last night all of a sudden, and I spent today mostly outside in the sun and very lazy. Finally managed to talk about some things with friend and feel lighter. It'll be hard and weird
Lydia R
23m ·

For some time, but I hope opening up about stuff will also put it into perspective for me. Have to keep going.

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5 Lydia R
2d ·
Not in a positive state of mind.
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Lydia R
2d ·

Almost back to where I'd been last Sunday, just less desperate and without PMS. No progress, only excuses, stagnant.

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4 Lydia R
2d ·
Life sure has its good moments, but almost every day I still notice I'd rather not be alive.
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5 Lydia R
3d ·
Okay night, but feeling a bit blah. Still lonely, sad and resigned, but cat is cute and peonies are in bloom.
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Cats & flowers? It doesn't get better than that! Enjoy your day! ๐Ÿ’–

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4 Lydia R
4d ·
Low-key sad, lonely and disappointed in my decisions, character and myself in general. Ruminating.
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4d ·

Hope u can sleep well tonight and things look better in the morning dear Lydia <3

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Lieteke G
3d ·

We all make mistakes, that is life and that is ok. See it as a learning curve. Nobody is perfect and that is ok!! Please don't be too hard on yourself, try to find solutions in stead. ๐Ÿ’œ

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5 Lydia R
4d ·
Still tired all day, talking and thinking mostly nonsense. Bit melancholic and lonely, overthinking and withdrawing. I hope it's just because I'm tired. Haven't done much today.
Penelope P
4d ·

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Penelope P
4d ·

Some people, like myself, need to go back into our shells now and again. It's perfectly fine and great that you can recognise that time.

Lydia R
4d ·

I definitely need a lot of time for myself, too, but today felt a bit different. I couldn't explain why I felt like this and I do think it's mostly because of the tiredness. It does strange things to us. :)

Lydia R
4d ·

Actually, I think I didn't want to be alone, but no one was writing me and I also didn't contact anyone. Felt a bit paralysed and empty all day.

Manda P
4d ·

I am tired today too. I just got in bed & it's 1:30PM. Hoping I can take a nap & that your tiredness is the cause of your weird feelings. xx

Lydia R
4d ·

I'm on the couch and the cat just joined me. Enjoying that someone wants to spend time with me even though I know he just prefers the couch I'm lying on. ๐Ÿ˜‰

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Alicia B
4d ·

Naaah, your cat loves you to bits, cats are loving things :)

Lydia R
4d ·

Fact is, he REALLY loves that particular couch (or spot), he never sits on the other one. And I think he might accept me as an occasional food and cuddle provider. Love is not something I can imagine anyone to feel for me.

Natalie C
4d ·

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Manda P
3d ·

I love you, Lydia. ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ–คโค๏ธ๐Ÿงก๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’šโฃ๏ธ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’ xx ๐Ÿ˜Š

Alicia B
3d ·

I love you, too. <3

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6 Lydia R
4d ·
Much better night, slow day, still tired and need to move, but cat helps as usual. Though feeling a bit lonely and worrying over usual stuff.
Lulu S
4d ·

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Lieteke G
4d ·

At least you had some well deserved rest! A slow day is also nice every now and then, hope you don't feel too guilty about it!

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Manda P
4d ·

So glad you finally got the rest you needed! Take it easy today. ๐Ÿ’–

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4d ·

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5 Lydia R
5d ·
Tired, tired, tired. Still mad at everyone and everything. Some overthinking, but I blame my fatigue. Work was okay, though boring. Glad to be leaving town for a while, just wish I was already there.
Manda P
5d ·

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Manda P
5d ·

Where are you going? And do you have time for a nap right now? I can rarely take them even when I'm super tired. Hope you can! ๐Ÿ’–

Lydia R
5d ·

I'm on the bus to my parents, long weekend/public holiday. But I can't really fall asleep while sitting in moving vehicles, only when I'm completely exhausted which I'm apparently not, so I just try to keep going and ignore the boredom.

John T
5d ·

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John T
5d ·

Watch a film on the screen in the seat on front! (In Germany they have futuristic super buses)

Lydia R
5d ·

Haha I'm sure there are such buses elsewhere, too. And yes, I tried but can't really concentrate, so I'm just streaming some Big Bang Theory as background noise.

John T
5d ·

*says something with no humourous context*... *HUGE AMOUNTS OF SPONTANEOUS CANNED LAUGHTER!* ...enjoy! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

Lydia R
5d ·

Yeah, it's fine for now. Know all the episodes anyway and don't have to pay attention but also don't have to listen to the other people. Win win.

Tasha S
5d ·

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John T
5d ·

I enjoyed the first few episodes I saw but it got a bit the same formulaic blandness after that. It's a bit like flavourless, stale, chewing gum for the eyes to me now.

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Manda P
4d ·

Hope you made it safe & sound and that the train ride didn't get anymore awful than you said. ๐Ÿ’–

Love 1
4d ·

May the time away do you some good.

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3 Lydia R
5d ·
Apparently my neighbour is not Korean, but Black and doesn't speak German. Wonderful. And apparently water dripping down from my plants bothers him. Really? REALLY? Not being able to ***ing sleep
Lydia R
5d ·

for weeks bothers ME, you arsehole. Oh god, I'm so ***ing mad right now, you have no idea. I just want to get out of here and never come back, but of course that's not possible. I'll be gone for a few days though and hope for some decent sleep.

Lulu S
5d ·

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Lydia R
5d ·

Btw, not racist, I was just surprised that he's not Korean because the name on his doorbell is Kim.

Alicia B
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Alicia B
5d ·

Not being able to sleep is a torture. I hope he changes his ways soon. What a jerk. Try not to kill him!

Keeping Track A
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5d ·

hang on in there!!

Love 1
5d ·

Sounds like you had an exchange with him and it didn't go well. Wondering if you approached him again and engaged him in a conversation, perhaps you can get your nerds for consideration and rest met.

Manda P
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Manda P
5d ·

Maybe you should consider Love's advice. I think it sounds like a good idea. Hope you get the rest you need soon. ๐Ÿ’–

John T
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John T
5d ·

You are good at English to talk to him in that. Especially if you have an idea of what to say beforehand. You can do it Lydia!

Lydia R
5d ·

Talking to strangers in German gives me anxiety, talking to strangers in English is even worse. I'm just okay at writing, not talking. Especially not when I'm upset/nervous/anxious.

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Love 1
5d ·

A letter makes sense.

John T
5d ·

^^^^This^^^^

Cindy M
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Manda P
4d ·

Yes! A letter! That's how the smell of car piss in an apartment building got handled. Fixed the problem right up. Good luck!

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4 Lydia R
6d ·
Why can't you just let me sleep, you arsehole (aka. neighbour)?
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6 Lydia R
6d ·
Still very very tired, but went to therapy and sport, and had a friend reach out to me which made me feel helpful. Hoping for a calm night.
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5 Lydia R
6d ·
Would be a 6 if I weren't so tired. Uni was better than expected and I'm glad some people aren't as horrendous as my head likes to make me believe. Therapy, then sport and hopefully a restful night.
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Shelley H
6d ·

Sleep well Lydia. Sweet dreams my friend xxx

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Lieteke G
6d ·

Hope you have a lovely quiet evening!

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Lydia R
6d ·

So far it's really been quiet. I hope it continues like this and that I can sleep through the night at least once. Don't have high hopes, though. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas!

Manda P
6d ·

Fingers crossed you get the best night's sleep of your life tonight! ๐Ÿ’–

Lydia R
6d ·

Thanks Manda, but tonight is not that night. About an hour after falling asleep he's woken me up again. Why does he hate me so much.

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5 Lydia R
7d ·
Short night again. 4.45 am is NOT a great time to listen to music & smoke on your balcony. Tired and bit anxious. Back to uni after 3 weeks... I'm sure nothing will happen, but I still fear the worst.
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6 Lydia R
14 May 2018 ·
Nice walk in the sunshine.
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14 May 2018 ·

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5 Lydia R
14 May 2018 ·
Bit better. Talking apparently helps. Note to myself: remember this, dumbass. Going for a walk later and grocery shopping.
Love 1
14 May 2018 ·

Investing in a network of friends who can support us with empathy helps.

Love 1
14 May 2018 ·

Talking can be very therapeutic with the right friends around.

Harrison T
14 May 2018 ·

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John T
14 May 2018 ·

Buy wine and chocolate. You deserve it!

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14 May 2018 ·

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Lydia R
14 May 2018 ·

Thanks Love, this is really true, but only if you're not a paranoid idiot who destroys more friendships than I care to count right now. I have to work really hard not to destroy the few remaining ones as well.

Lydia R
14 May 2018 ·

Nothing to celebrate yet, John. So far I've just prepared the ground, so to speak. The actual talking still has to take place, but just being able to feel like I want to feel when talking to them is really good for me right now. Thanks for the hugs!

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14 May 2018 ·

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5 Lydia R
13 May 2018 ·
Good 2 hour talk with my mum on the phone, now back to overthinking.
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13 May 2018 ·

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14 May 2018 ·

Thanks Pandas!

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4 Lydia R
13 May 2018 ·
People suck. *** night. Tired. Full of hatred for my neighbour who put on his music on the balcony at 5 am and is now singing (very badly) exactly there. Just let me sleep, you arsehole.
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13 May 2018 ·

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13 May 2018 ·

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Alicia B
13 May 2018 ·

You have the right to call the police, don't you?

Lydia R
13 May 2018 ·

It's not so loud that I think I could call the police, but since I'm apparently very sensitive it still bothers me a lot. Planning on talking to him about this next week. If I don't chicken out.. Thanks for the hugs! :)

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13 May 2018 ·

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Alicia B
13 May 2018 ·

Maybe try being calm and friendly for starters, while remembering you've the right to your boundaries. People find it harder to say no when you're nice and sympathetic. That's been my experience anyway.

Alicia B
13 May 2018 ·

You can do it! And if you're too worried about what he thinks, use my fav mantra: ' not my circus, not my monkeys'. It has helped me SO much.

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14 May 2018 ·

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2 Lydia R
12 May 2018 ·
Here we go again. PMS-induced paranoia, overthinking and crying fit. Just let me die.
John T
12 May 2018 ·

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12 May 2018 ·

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John T
12 May 2018 ·

Aww Lydia, it'll be better in a few days. Keep going!

Hanna H
12 May 2018 ·

Aww, Im sorry. I will have mine in like 2 days :(

Lydia R
12 May 2018 ·

What for, the issues will still be there when the hormones are back to normal. Just a bit less intense. I'm so tired of this.

John T
12 May 2018 ·

Just think 'what would Miezer do?'!

D M
12 May 2018 ·

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Lydia R
12 May 2018 ·

Lick his ass? Sleep? Enjoy cuddling with my mum? Sleep some more?

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12 May 2018 ·

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Heheheheheheheh R
12 May 2018 ·

You'll get better. Someday or another, your life will take a turn for the better. Whether it be tomorrow or next year, stay hopeful

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12 May 2018 ·

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13 May 2018 ·

I was thinking Miezer would look after himself and treat himself to some relaxation, but you are also right!

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3 Lydia R
12 May 2018 ·
PMSing. The hopelessness is real though, just intensified.
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