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4 Lydia R
14h ·
Mistakes and regrets
Nick N
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Penelope P
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Lydia R
14h ·

Not a bad 4, just acknowledging my melancholia.

Yondie Y
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Yondie Y
14h ·

About what mistakes and regrets ?

Kara L
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Michelle W
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Love 1
10h ·

we all make them. we're all doing the best we can.

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5 Lydia R
19h ·
Still mild, but continuing problems with my ears. Left one hurt yesterday. Took a nap in the sun, but got nothing of importance done. Feeling guilty, but keep procrastinating.
John T
18h ·

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Hannah T
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John T
18h ·

Were your teeth ok?

Lydia R
17h ·

I think so. I didn't see a dentist, because the pain stopped after I'd started using a decongestant spray. So it seemed to be nose-related. Now it could be an ear ventilation problem, and one way to deal with it is using a decongestant spray. :/

Esther B
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5 Lydia R
1d ·
Woke up at 4.30 am, tired, mood okay, still feel a bit weird after yesterday's talk with friend about my behaviour. It was positive, but I still feel like a failure. Went shopping and walked in sun.
John T
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Love 1
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Tasha S
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Mark W
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Metron A
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Metron A
20h ·

Those conversations are hard. I'm glad you feel it went well, don't dwell!

Lydia R
19h ·

They are hard, especially when it's actually pointless stuff to get annoyed at. I'm just really lucky that she is extremely understanding and able to talk about difficult things calmly and rationally. I still doubt everyone but I try to believe her.

Lydia R
19h ·

Thanks for the hugs dear Pandas!

Natalie C
18h ·

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5 Lydia R
2d ·
Great trip to Ikea, enjoyed spending time, talking and laughing with friends. Also feel better now after writing down some thoughts about friend and my reaction. Not sure if I should tell her or not.
Lex M
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Kris B
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Lydia R
19h ·

Thanks Pandas!

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4 Lydia R
2d ·
Still feeling down. Going to Ikea with friends today. Probably a good distraction, but I'd rather stay in bed all day. Friend asked if we want to watch a film tonight. It's the only time when I have
Lydia R
2d ·

her all to myself for some time, but I'm not sure if I want to tonight. I know I'm acting childish, but I'm bothered by how deeply affected I am by one person I barely know. It's not her fault, I know it's all the circumstances and my unresolved

Lydia R
2d ·

issues, but I really need to find a way to make this friendship healthier for me, so I'm not tempted to act rash and end it just because I'm hurting once again. So, I guess I need to tackle the issues? Blimey.

Penelope P
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John T
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John T
2d ·

Ikea? Rather you than me!

Lydia R
2d ·

Well, I enjoy going to Ikea and it was really nice to talk with the girls. :) Sometimes there are too many people though... but I survived it and bought some (hopefully) useful stuff.

John T
2d ·

😁

Metron A
2d ·

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Metron A
2d ·

Did you have any lingonberry soda? That's my favorite part of IKEA.

Lydia R
2d ·

Now that you mention it... No! We've spent so much time there and I completely forgot it. Damn it. lol

Lydia R
2d ·

Thanks for the hugs Pandas!

DesBear D
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Lydia R
19h ·

And again, thanks for the hugs! <3

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4 Lydia R
3d ·
No Reason Given
Margot L
3d ·

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Nick N
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John T
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Odie W
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John T
3d ·

Write a long number down. Like '7142857142857142'. Then write 'this is how many times I'll let myself feel below average for something out of my control, but no more.'

John T
3d ·

Then put it away in a drawer and forget about it.

John T
3d ·

Extra facts: if you are familiar with the number 7 as a denominator of a fraction the number is extra fun!

Tasha S
3d ·

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Lydia R
2d ·

Thanks John, this is really a long number, so a lot of time to feel sorry for myself, great. I'm absolutely *** when it comes to maths though. :) Thanks for the hugs Pandas!

Metron A
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Lydia R
19h ·

Thanks Pandas!

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5 Lydia R
3d ·
Most of today's been good, even though I'm feeling like crap right now, that's why I'm willing to log a 5. Work was okay, booked my flight to Glasgow, was relatively good organised throughout the day,
Lydia R
3d ·

but 1 word from 1 person managed to reduce me to tears after coming home. Don't know why insecurity is so dominating again, why I'm feeling so irrelevant. Can't bring myself to act normal. Just want to pity myself while feeling guilty for doing so.

John T
3d ·

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Nick N
3d ·

Is your trip to Glasgow work or pleasure? Whichever I'm insanely jealous. One of my favourite cities in the world...

Cindy M
3d ·

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Tasha S
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DesBear D
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Lydia R
2d ·

Hopefully pleasure, Nick. Just a vacation and we'll see how I like Glasgow. First time there. So far my heart still beats very strongly for Edinburgh. :) Thanks for the hugs!

Nick N
2d ·

Hope you enjoy Glasgow. It is very different to Edinburgh.

Lydia R
2d ·

So I've heard, but I'm really curious and looking forward to the trip! Just need to finish a million term papers before. Yay.

John T
2d ·

Go to the chippy and get a deep fried mars bar and enjoy it on my behalf.

John T
2d ·

And drink some irn bru. Except I've got some in the fridge at the moment so enjoy for yourself.

Kara L
2d ·

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Lydia R
19h ·

I've wanted to try a deep fried mars bar the first time I went to Edinburgh, but never did it. Thanks for reminding me! And I'm sorry, but Irn Bru is absolutely not my cup of tea. lol Reminds me too much of energy drinks. My brother loved it though!

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6 Lydia R
3d ·
No headache after waking up (narrowing down culprits to my pillow), good therapy session, sun is shining, and I'm feeling quite calm and content. Preparing to go to work soon.
Yondie Y
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Nick N
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Tasha S
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Lydia R
2d ·

Thanks Pandas!

Kara L
2d ·

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Yondie Y
14h ·

No problem Lydia. Is that why we are here for to give support to other people.

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6 Lydia R
4d ·
On some days I catch myself starting to enjoy life again. This really gives me hope and encourages me not to attach so much importance on the still dominating bad and neutral days.
Lydia R
4d ·

Despite being tired, having a headache and not having been as productive as hoped I think this thought is worth writing down to remind myself that not everything is always bad.

Esther B
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Keeping Track o A
4d ·

What a great thought and so true Lydia! important to notice the good days, or even just good moments when they happen! 😊

Mark W
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Michelle W
4d ·

That's great!!

John T
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Metron A
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Lydia R
2d ·

Thanks Pandas. :)

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6 Lydia R
4d ·
So far so good. Feel rested, but have a headache after first night in this bed. Managed to change today's shift to next Monday and have time to go to last yoga class and do some uni stuff. Grateful.
Lydia R
4d ·

Not quite concentrated and motivated yet, but the sun is shining and I already had some basic bathroom-selfcare-time.

Tasha S
4d ·

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John T
4d ·

More than me... I smell like an old goat. I'll have a shower later, I don't like going more than a day without one. Hope Berlin weather stays nice!

Love 1
4d ·

Im hearing gratitude, self care, productivity but also time for yoga and the relief it brings.

Lydia R
4d ·

Definitely, Love! Actually I wouldn't have the time, but I took it anyway and it may be selfish, but right now I don't care. Not really productive yet (or at least not the things I should have done). Thanks Tasha and John! Sun is still shining. :)

DesBear D
4d ·

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Lydia R
2d ·

Thanks for the hugs!

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5 Lydia R
5d ·
Mood improved, but looking at my to-do-list for the next 2,5 weeks completely overwhelms me. But I guess it's manageable so no need to complain. Really tired now.
Zoe D
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Lieteke G
5d ·

Try to take it 1 day or even 1/2 day at the time. To look at the whole schedule most be overwhelming. Don't look to far ahead

Natalie C
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Metron A
4d ·

Great advice, Lieteke. I find that figuring out what the next step or action that you can take on each thing is really helpful. Like instead of 'get a loan to save my house' (really scary) write 'call the bank to make an appointment'

Metron A
4d ·

(still scary, but way less stressful). One step at a time! You got this.

Tasha S
4d ·

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John T
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Lieteke G
4d ·

Good thinking Metron A. How are you by the way?

DesBear D
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Kara L
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Lydia R
2d ·

Good advice Lieteke and Metron! I'm less bothered by it all now, but I'm also already behind schedule. Need the weekend to catch up. Thanks for the hugs!

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4 Lydia R
5d ·
Don't wanna go back to Berlin, don't wanna go to uni, don't wanna go to work, don't wanna do anything, don't wanna be alone.
Tasha S
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Nick N
5d ·

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Nick N
5d ·

Sorry to hear you're finding things tough just now Lydia. But Pandas are here for you.

Lydia R
5d ·

Thanks Nick. Just my laziness, demotivation and not being organised enough biting me in the arse and me not being able to handle it well.

Jeff M
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Esther B
5d ·

XXXXX

Éva H
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Lydia R
2d ·

Thanks! <3

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5 Lydia R
5d ·
Can feel myself slipping back into old patterns of thoughts & behaviour. Annoyed with & disappointed in myself for wasting so much time despite knowing what's at stake. Still bad at handling stress.
Michelle W
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Lydia R
2d ·

Thanks for the hugs!

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5 Lydia R
6d ·
Night-time melancholia
Beth M
6d ·

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Metron A
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Lydia R
5d ·

Thanks Pandas!

Tasha S
5d ·

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5d ·

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Lydia R
2d ·

Thanks Tasha and Des!

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5 Lydia R
6d ·
Tired (thank God I love that cat), unmotivated, moody. Just let me sleep for 3 years, please.
Lieteke G
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Lydia R
5d ·

Thanks!

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5 Lydia R
7d ·
Nothing much happened today. Talk with dad about uni not as bad as expected. Always busy with some task & always tired, so not much time spent on internet. Still a bit unwilling to chat. No idea why.
John T
7d ·

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John T
7d ·

It sounds like you might need extra time to yourself, or yourself and cat.

John T
7d ·

Talk to Miezer :)

Lydia R
7d ·

He's sleeping. In a cupboard on table cloths I'm not fitting into. :') But yes, a bit more time to myself and to rest would be nice. Still loads to do though and I can rest at the end of March. More quality cat time would have been great.

Nick N
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Lydia R
5d ·

Thanks for all the hugs dear Pandas! ❤

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5 Lydia R
7d ·
Tired, feeling foolish, but also still a bit grumpy/hurt. Been very close to seeing everything as pointless again last night. Still not completely used to the inevitable ups and downs.
Lydia R
7d ·

I'm jealous of a hobby she likes to invest time in (which is completely normal and good), how low can I get... think there are other factors involved I haven't dealt with yet, but still. I'm a lowlife.

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Cindy M
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You're definitely not a lowlife, dear Lydia! Familiar with a lot of those feelings, if you can begin to query them in a kind way, you're on the right path. I know too how hard it is to be kind to one's self xx

Tasha S
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3 Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·
Sucks when all of your self-esteem mostly depends on the attention of one person. 12 hours without a reaction to a message feel like the end is near. Hate my brain for this twisted logic and the pain.
Alicia B
17 Feb 2018 ·

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Alicia B
17 Feb 2018 ·

Let your self-esteem hear this, too: you are amazing. You are smart, and interesting, and kind, and exciting, and you bring joy and support to pandas. Just so you know.

Margot L
17 Feb 2018 ·

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Michelle W
17 Feb 2018 ·

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Tasha S
17 Feb 2018 ·

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Esther B
17 Feb 2018 ·

What Alicia says 😙

DesBear D
17 Feb 2018 ·

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John T
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Kara L
6d ·

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Kara L
6d ·

I get what you mean. I know it's hard to stop hating on yourself but you're a wonderful person and honestly it's their loss. Xx

Jessica P
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4 Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·
Suddenly feel like crying. Hard to control my insecure and jealous side. I know I shouldn't and can't compare people, but I keep doing it and only end up hurting myself in the process.
John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

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John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

Any insecurity and jealousy can get better. Not over night but it'll get better. Also you probably think you're doing more harm than you are, jealousy is totally normal

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

Full stop. (MoodPanda/GBoard cut me off their) I might be wrong, but even though this side of you upsets you, it'll change, because it's an issue to you and either you'll do something consciously or something without realising. Don't beat yourself up

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

Full stop, again.

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

I know, or at least I'm beginning to understand this, but as you said it'll take some time not to have it pop up randomly. Immediately afterwards I'm feeling guilty and unworthy of anyone's attention and affection.

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

Thanks John. :) Seems like I need to hear/read this a lot. I need reminders all the time. And yes, I want to change something, and I think I'm slowly going in the right direction, but it's a very long way.

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

*Pays Lydia R lots of attention and even weirds her out because of my unnerving glare* I'm quite happy to give you attention, seriously, you are worthy, and that too might take a long time to realise/learn/accept.

Nick N
17 Feb 2018 ·

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Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

Thanks again! And I know that you're doing this. I also feel really insensitive when saying things like that, it's hard to break through the black and white thinking. But you're not weirding me out. lol

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

Well, yeah, I'm looking at my phone really. Luckily my phone isn't clever enough to get weirded out... maybe in a few years with AI advances... I know, it's like waves at a sea wall with somethings, but remember, the sea will always win eventually.

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

*some things. *There not their. *Not so terrible use of the word 'you' *many other compositional errors *etc.

Carrie T
17 Feb 2018 · NEW

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Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

I like that eventually the sea will always win. Would like to go to the sea now. Would like to take a holiday near the sea. Sometimes the internet should just take a break, too.

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

What's the German seaside like? I guess there's not much choice. Hamburg is close to the sea isn't it? I don't know if it's close enough to use as a base. Start a blog, 'Lydia photographs the German coast'.

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

Also I remember visiting a castle in North Wales which was by the sea when it was built, but is now 400? metres inland (maybe further). Harlech castle. Look it up, sometimes the sea retreats...

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

We have the North Sea and the Baltic Sea. Hamburg is close to the North Sea, but it's still a bit by car to get there. Last time I've been there was in August 2015. It was great, but since I've never been to a British seaside I can't really compare.

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

I used to visit the Baltic Sea a lot as a child, but haven't been there for over 10 years now, even though it's only 4 hours by train from Berlin. Should really take a trip there some time. I don't think my photos are worthy for a blog though. :D

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

Harlech castle looks great! man, now I want to go back to the UK, too. Thanks for making me want to travel.

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

North and Baltic Sea pretty much look the same, sand shores, endless sea and horizons, always a bit colder than in the rest of the country. Only difference between the two is the tides in the North Sea.

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

The is a lot of seaside in the British isles. Being made up of two main islands and hundreds of smaller ones too. It's generally too varied to be explained in a short message. It's different everywhere, except some bits are similar in some ways.

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

I've only been overseas twice and been to the coast in south west England, south west Wales, north west Wales, north east England, south east England, west Scotland, north east Northern Ireland. I feel quite lucky to have done all that.

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

I've been to the coast in Belgium and Portugal too.

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

Nearby to Harlech are Caernarfon castle and Conwy castle. They are cool in different ways.

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

I love the seaside, no matter where it is. I've always felt drawn to the sea ever since being a little child. It can be quite scary, but if I ever end up needing a break from society, I could imagine living in a little cottage by the sea.

Nick N
17 Feb 2018 ·

Do it Lydia. But be prepared to never be happy living anywhere but near the sea afterwards. I grew up in land moved to an island when i was 39 and lived near the sea until i was 53. Now inland again and miss the sea so much.

Cindy M
17 Feb 2018 ·

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Cindy M
17 Feb 2018 ·

Ah lucky you, Nick - that must have been amazing. It's still an unfulfilled dream of mine, and likely to remain unfulfilled as I'm already 50..

Nick N
17 Feb 2018 ·

You're never too old. But it's not always easy finding places. We were lucky and island community with an empty house and a nearly empty school so they were actively looking for a family. We suited them and them us. Four years of pure heaven.

Tasha S
17 Feb 2018 ·

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Michelle W
17 Feb 2018 ·

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Esther B
17 Feb 2018 ·

Take care! Comparison can be a real pain.

DesBear D
17 Feb 2018 ·

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Kara L
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6 Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·
Lazy day spent with reading and cuddling cat. Bit tired most of today, but thoroughly enjoyed quality time with cat.
John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

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John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

What are you reading? Anything good?

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

No, just catching up on Fanfics. :)

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

I want to re read a translation of an Italian book called 'You're an animal, Viscovitz!' I really stayed with me when I read it years ago. I lost my copy.

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

well, that sounds interesting. And I don't know it. Can't you find it on Amazon?

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

I haven't looked yet, I'm not that quick, give me a chance!

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

:D Sorry. Found it on the German Amazon!

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

Ok I've bought it now, it's coming tomorrow. I wonder if I'll like it as much this time around... Or whether it was just nostalgia...

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

That's what I'm trying to find out with a lot of my fav fanfics from a few years ago. I hope you'll still like it though! :)

John T
17 Feb 2018 ·

I think I first read it in 2004. So if it resonanted with my 15/16 year old self, I'm not sure if it'll be any good at all!

Lydia R
17 Feb 2018 ·

It has 4,5 stars on Amazon, can't be soo bad!

Cindy M
17 Feb 2018 ·

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Tasha S
17 Feb 2018 ·

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17 Feb 2018 ·

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