I think we'd like you to keep existing. Sorry today is hard. You can do it, we are here for you.
It's hard to make yourself do anything when you feel this low, but I wish you all the relaxing feelings and good vibes in the world.
And even when you're dead people don't care. I hate this so much.
That's a tough feeling...suffering, but not taken seriously. Try to find a doctor to listen. That's their job. Make sure they understand you need help. Or, at least, find someone to talk to...
That is really tough OP, my partner feels the same way about doctors helping. But it's important to keep trying
Meds not working anymore or other factors affecting their effect?
Well done! It takes me a lot of willpower to do the dishes even on a good day 😁 apparently, when I was 6, I liked doing them. I wonder if I can get in touch with the little me.
Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! Besides washing my hair I did absolutely nothing. I took a 3-hour-nap in the afternoon and started feeling energy come back to me.
You washed your hair? What about the rest of them? Are they still dirty?
You mean the rest of my body? I took a well needed shower on Sunday after cleaning my balcony in the sun and dropping sweat everywhere. ;)
The rest of your hairs!
You only mentioned one...
(I was being a silly ****)
Instead I'm lying here, overthinking, triggered by such a laughably minor thing, and trying to keep mood from getting lower.
Thanks Pandas! :)
Thanks for the hugs!
Want to clean my balcony today and maybe even take a walk to take some pictures of the still blossoming magnolia trees. Already feeling overwhelmed by just two tasks, but we'll see how fast I am.
I like it when the magnolia petals fall and it's raining petals!
They are my favourite trees and the last two years I always managed to miss them in bloom, and this year almost too.
Hope your tasks feel like fun :)
Hope you'll have a good day
Thanks Alicia and Kristina! Task was maybe the wrong word because I want to do it, but in the end it is a task, right? Even though taking a walk shouldn't be a task especially with this kind of weather! So far I've had breakfast and prepared lunch.
Thanks for the hugs Pandas!
What a nice feeling, even though you're not focused.
I can relate!!! The time before my period is hell emotionally
Thanks Pandas! Nice not to want to die all the time. :)
I can't relate, but can only empathize and admire the strength of women to endure such fluctuations so regularly. I dont get enougg sleep and im grumpy. add hormonal changes, I'd be a mess.
Can I ask whats wrong?
The guy living below my flat likes to turn up the volume of his music. Also raises my blood pressure to critical heights. I can't calm down or ignore it. I'd love to destroy something. Possibly his radio.
Ive forgotten which way the time difference is again. You could complain if it's 22:25, that's too late to play loud music.
Yeah, it's way past nighttime peace, but you know. Social anxiety. I just want to curl up and die. I can't believe I'm the only one hearing it, but maybe I'm the only one bothered by it. Don't think complaining would help much though. People suck.
If I got complaints about music at that time, I'd get kicked out!
Don't know how this works here but I doubt something will change. Don't even think I've got any right to complain. This used to be a rather quiet place. Now I can't even open my windows anymore. because he's smoking weed all the time.
Did you tell him its bad for your health or did you say anytgibg at all?
I haven't talked to him yet, Kristina. He's only moved in a few weeks ago, then I was gone for two weeks so this week is the first time I actually experiece it. If I had talked to him yesterday I'd probably have ripped off his head, but now I'm
feeling more rational again and will see how he behaves in the next days and then try and talk to him. If he won't change I'll have to call the police at some point. Which I'd rather not do. Thanks for your support and hugs, Pandas! <3
Don't know how long I can keep living here since the new very loud neighbour's moved in. So annoying, makes me mad. Feel like a breakdown is coming, everything has turned into a trigger.
Do any uni friends have a spare room? A few nights away would be good respite. If you explain how you are feeling to them, be assertive and ask them to help. It's what friends are for!
Can't ask anyone, don't know a lot of people and absolutely don't want to be a nuisance. Just have to endure it and hope I'll shut down at some point.
Having someone to stay isn't annoying. It's called being sociable. Also if a friend needs help with something it's more than that. It's getting to show people you are a good friend. No harm in looking for alternative accommodation, though.
Sometimes you can get a better flat for the same price in a slightly less reputable area. Worth it, especially if it's quieter.
Lydia, I totally understand. I've rented most of my adult life & moved 5 times in the last 8 years. In 2 places I had nightmare neighbours & it drags you down to the point of despair. You need to be somewhere safe & peaceful for your own sanity.
Your home is meant to be your sanctuary. Luckily my neighbours joined are just odd not noisy or horrible & the ones not joined are quiet & lovely. I hope you can find somewhere else where you can be content.
Can you not ask them to quieten down?
I agree with John's idea. Sometimes even one night away is a good break if you're not having a good time in your place for whatever reason.
Thanks for your support and hugs, Pandas! Yesterdays's been hell for me, but writing with you has helped. John, I really don't want to move, so I'll try talking to him first. At one point I'll have to move but preferably not because of one arsehole.
I also really like this part of Berlin and it's so close to uni. And I've only recently started feeling good here and now this... Thanks for your opinion, Penelope, it's the same for me. Home needs to be a sanctuary, and I can put up with most of
what my neighbours do, but I've been so extremely irritable yesterday that everything was simply too much. Moving will be hell because you never know what kind of neighbours you'll get next. :/
Faith, I haven't talked to him yet. He's only moved in a few weeks ago and I was gone for two weeks so I'm only experiencing his behaviour now. Yesterday I couldn't talk to anyone, but I'll try in the next days if it stays the same with the noise.
KT, I just stayed a week at my parents and then a week in Glasgow, so that should have been enough time away. Just that I wasn't a neurotic mess back then. :') But still, I wouldn't know who to ask...
well keeping writing here when it gets too much for you! wishing you the best of luck! tricky housemates are not fun!!
All the best with the conversation
is the person I feel like staying away from the most. I probably don't see is as equals. I'm always there if someone needs an ear to listen or some comfort but I can't imagine this in return from someone „close“ to me. All I can do is hide away.
*is = us as equals
I feel the same..
Thanks Kristina, and all Pandas! <3
Lonely, isolated, and feeling like a stranger in my own life again. Back to overthinking. Just not really interested in life at all right now, everything's just kind of pointless. Don't feel like I belong or fit in anywhere.
There is always a place where you belong to, and if you are a rare person, this place may be very hard to find. Keep searching.
I usually feel the same. Good things is sometimes mood switches to the bright side.. so we should wait
Luke, I'm only a very ordinary person, but just accepting myself is too hard most of the time. I'm not sure if I've got enough time left to accomplish this. Kristina, yes, some days are really worth all this. :) Thanks for the hugs!
That's pretty rough. I'm glad to see you :)
Thanks Cindy! I was (and still am) overreacting (pms woohoo), but I was looking for a bit of empathy (***ty Berlin public transport, tired, lonely) and only got indifference back. Still hurts a bit even though it's something so minor.
I don't think it's minor - I would be hurt by that too.
Well, I'm not even a priority in my own life so I shouldn't be hurt when it's the same for other people. Hormones are affecting me too much.