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5 Lydia R
8h ·
Good mood is over. Tired, resigned, tired, disappointed about having been stood-up by a friend, tired, unmotivated, and have I mentioned tired? Ready for bed at 8 pm. What a life. Goodnight Pandas!
Rosie L
8h ·

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Rosie L
8h ·

Go and get yourself a well deserved rest my love xx

Jeff M
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John T
8h ·

Goodnight, sleep well

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6 Lydia R
13h ·
Work was good today, even though I haven't really worked at all. Maybe because of the. Just a lot of talking, eating and laughing. Had an uneventful, but good time. This morning I thought how I'm
Lydia R
13h ·

gradually beginning to feel more like myself again (and after this slow start today I had a lot of energy). There's still a long way to go though. Just listened to an audio message from Wednesday and instantly felt my inner walls and jealousy come up

Lydia R
13h ·

I hate how certain things make me feel, but it's not as intense as last week and I need to find a way to deal with this without pushing people away. I can be so selfish and don't like this part of myself at all. But work was good so a 6 it is.

John T
12h ·

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11h ·

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Lydia R
10h ·

Thanks John and Jeff! I knew why I've delayed listening to the audio message for so long, felt like *** for some time afterwards. Lately, these bloody things never fail to throw me off balance and I've developed a great dislike for them because I

Lydia R
10h ·

know what they cause in me. But how am I supposed to make this work when I seem to have turned my friend into a trigger of sorts? Brain, don't be so damn complicated. Sorry, babbling. Needed some kind of outlet.

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9h ·

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5 Lydia R
20h ·
Do you ever ever ever feel refreshed after waking up? Still think that's only a myth. Kinda (bearably) restless, been all week. How I'm looking forward to the weekend only to wake up at 6.30am again.
Toine S
20h · NEW

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Toine S
20h · NEW

Have you tried not using your phone/pc/... a couple of hours before you sleep? Def improved my sleep!

Mark W
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Kristin L
19h ·

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Kristin L
19h ·

Never

Tasha S
17h ·

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John T
15h ·

Toine's suggestion is good. Also if your phone has night mode, set it to turn on at 6pm.

John T
15h ·

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paul M
13h ·

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paul M
13h ·

Empty stomach helps me.

Lydia R
10h ·

Thanks for the hugs and comments, Pandas! Toine, I have tried it and it does work, I'm just rubbish at sticking to things that help me. PC/phone/tv all distract me from my thoughts and what should I do when they're turned off? Just imagining this

Lydia R
10h ·

gives me a chill. Being alone with my head&thoughts, the horror. But yes, some things certainly have to change. :/ John, a few weeks ago I got my mum's old phone & it has a night mode, looking forward to using it! Just set it up last week, Im slow.

Lydia R
10h ·

Paul, an empty stomach helps you to fall asleep or to wake up feeling refreshed? Sometimes going hungry to bed actually helped me, too, but lately I can't fall asleep on an empty stomach. Drives me crazy.

Toine S
10h · NEW

Hey Lydia. I know why the thought of 'being alone with your own thoughts' can sound horrible. But we can't forever distract our brain with stuff. (I mean, we can, but it stresses us out, too!) What I do, is whenever I know I'll be alone, I have a...

Toine S
10h · NEW

certain list of topics to dwell on ready. (what's going on with person x, my family, that one cool linkin park song, i want a new beanie, specifically a bordeaux one, a catchy tune to whistle to) or I just go wild with fantasy...It took me

Toine S
10h · NEW

some practice to enjoy being alone again but I think it's really important. Sorry for spamming, have a nice day Lydia. :)

John T
10h ·

I agree entirely with what Toine is saying (apart from maybe Linkin Park having a cool song), I'm 31 now but I'm a lot better at being on my own than I was 5 or 10 years ago, and hobbies develop over time, they fill that time.

John T
9h ·

(that's meant as a tongue in cheek joke - I actively hate on Linkin Park {much} :-P )

John T
9h ·

Oops

John T
9h ·

I meant don't

John T
9h ·

Oh no. That's gone so ridiculously wrong! It's ok to be a Linkin Park fan people... Just putting that out there (!)

Toine S
9h · NEW

Man, I really hope that, in the eeeeeeeeeeeeeend, you change your mind ;D

John T
9h ·

Haha, I'm trying to do cooking at the same time as remedy this 'catastrophy'! Nearly burnt my oven gloves! (-:

Toine S
9h · NEW

What's on the menu today?

John T
9h ·

Oven chips with spilt salt, peas, sweetcorn and cheese. Very carby but I had my protein for the day earlier. :-D

John T
9h ·

All the salt is making me go Craaaaaaawling back to the kitchen for water. (Awful song! :-P Worse joke!)

Toine S
8h · NEW

Sounds delicious! Making a really simple carbonara for myself (life as a lazy college student..) I hate that particular song too though haha!

John T
8h ·

'Nu Mental' was all around my teenage years. I was more into ska/punk bands at the time. Now I like any music with individuality, charm, has genuine stories and themes close to my heart. I like a lot of alternative Icelandic music and...

John T
8h ·

...music that's recorded in people's bedrooms. Stuff that is down to earth, honest, and real. I also like stuff that sounds like it's from another planet, exciting melodies and weird people. Stuff like that.

Toine S
6h · NEW

I like music of all kinds really! It depends on the mood. They don't need to have a deeper meaning for me, as long as they make me happy. What'd you recommend for ska/punk bands?

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5 Lydia R
1d ·
Uni was boring, but bearable, and I'm not as tired as yesterday. Mood's okay. Just feel like my social life equals nil at the moment mostly because I'm too tired to function and pushing everyone away.
Zoe D
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1d ·

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John T
1d ·

Maybe after a month or two, your 'tiredness' maybe dealt with by the Anti-Depressant. Wait and see... They always give me extra energy.

John T
1d ·

And at Uni, social life opportunities will be common so there's no need to rush and think you're missing out.

Lydia R
1d ·

Right now I'm not sure if my tiredness is an aftereffect of the cold, a sideeffect of the ADs, just my usual tiredness or a combination of all three. Whatever it is, after 3/4 pm I'm ready to crawl back into bed.

Lydia R
1d ·

I've been at uni for ages and it was quite good in the beginning and then everything fell apart and now I have to persuade myself every time to go there because I know I'm alone, not good at talking to people and sometimes don't even want to get to

Lydia R
1d ·

know them. They're either all so young or too different from me or already have a ton of friends and I'm really not making an effort because why bother... At least on Tuesday I've a fellow student to share classes and time with. Helps.

Tasha S
1d ·

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John T
1d ·

You're focussing on the positives. I believe you'll get through this bad patch and things will get better for you. If you put a tenth of the care you put into MoodPanda into yourself you'll be fine. You help people, it could be a future career for ya

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Lydia R
10h ·

Not sure if I'm focussing on the positives, but it's nice that you read it like this. I'm a rather pessimistic person. And I don't see how I'm helping anyone on here. All I'm doing is whining, rambling and some more whining. I enjoy helping people,

Lydia R
10h ·

that's true, but no idea how to turn this into a career. I don't know how to turn anything into a career. Having any talent would be helpful, but yeah. First, finish uni, then, worry about the future some more. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas!

John T
10h ·

Hey MoodPanda is exactly for whining. I wouldn't post stuff like I do here on my twitter for example. I think you are using this appropiatly and seem so supportive of me and everyone else here maybe do a health course in future. But yeah, finish...

John T
10h ·

...what you're doing first. Sometimes when people say things about my attributes I cannot see them. But I don't know really. I just think you seem nice and the world needs more people like that.

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5 Lydia R
2d ·
Slow start into the day and I'm still a bit tired, but feeling a bit better after therapy. Uni today, then hopefully not feeling as dejected as in then last few days.
John T
2d ·

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John T
2d ·

Keep at it. Uni will make you resilient and strong, because it is non-stop.

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Lydia R
10h ·

Thanks John, I dearly hate this place, but I've become a bit better at going there regularly. :) Thanks for the hugs!

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5 Lydia R
2d ·
Work and yoga improved mood, but I've been tired all bloody day and feel like falling asleep any moment. Fatigue intensifies worrying and moodiness. Don't wanna do, say or think anything.
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John T
2d ·

No more caffeine today and an early night. Hope you get a good sleep and feel refreshed for tomorrow. Just give yourself the best chance, everyday, one day at a time.

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Lydia R
10h ·

John, the only caffeine I consume is my tea in the morning. Maybe that's the reason I'm so tired, not enough caffeine. ;) Yoga was extremly exhausting this week, but it's good to exercise again. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas!

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4 Lydia R
3d ·
Started into the day with my usual irrational thoughts and sadness. It's her birthday today and I'd planned to have made some progress long before that. Of course that's not what happened and now I'm
Aspie T
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Lydia R
3d ·

and now I'm lost in my own negative mind and dearly hope it doesn't carry over into my birthday message. Feel like *** and there's Radiohead's 'Creep' playing on the radio. Perfect song for me. I don't belong here.

Kristin L
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Lydia R
10h ·

Thanks Pandas!

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5 Lydia R
3d ·
Last monday I had an emotional breakdown of the sort that made me join MP six months ago. It's not been as bad as it was back then, I haven't been crying the whole night, but it was just as intense,
Lydia R
3d ·

and I realise I'm left with the same questions as six months ago and still don't have any answers. Why does this hurt so much? What's the reason for breaking down like this after such a minor thing? What topics does it touch that make me lose it?

Lydia R
3d ·

What can I do to prevent this from happening the next time? I think I've made some tiny progress in even formulating those questions, since all I did back then was to cry and hurt. It still hurt immensely, and I've been crying, but by now I know

Lydia R
3d ·

things will look a tiny bit better after calming down and that it's probably not the end of the world. Not becoming totally discouraged when facing my demons and biggest wish at the same time is something I'm battling every day, and at the moment I'm

Lydia R
3d ·

lacking the time and energy to address my problems properly, but I don't want to give up. No matter how much I think I want to give up. It is worth fighting for.

Esther B
3d ·

Well, your last sentence is very positive. You have the will to fight and I admire that! Think you will learn to recognize your triggers for a breakdown or a bad mood in time? Small steps but you will get there! co

Esther B
3d ·

co was supposed to be xoxo

Jeff M
3d ·

Sometimes just knowing what you are experiencing and that it will end is a huge help. It's like experiencing a panic attack - you think you may be dying, but once you recognize what it is, it still can be quite bad, but you know it will end.

Jeff M
3d ·

Not sure what the answers to your questions are, but it sounds like having those questions is a good first step!

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At the end of the day you come first. You need to take care of your self and take time for your self. I think you're doing amazing *Hugs*

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6 Lydia R
3d ·
Another okay day. Alternating between 4 and 6. From feeling good and energised to being worried and restless; constantly changing or all at the same time. Long day and pretty tired.
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Rosie L
3d ·

I hear you!

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Lydia R
10h ·

Thanks for the hugs!

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5 Lydia R
4d ·
Okay day. Felt remarkable positive today (even sang and danced along to my fav song), but also restless. Could be a side effect of the ADs, could just be me. So far my mood's gotten better after
Lydia R
4d ·

starting with the ADs, but I know they don't work so fast. Happy coincidence. When did you normally start to experience side effects when taking meds? I don't want them, but I'm kind of waiting for them to hit me.

Zoe D
4d ·

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John T
4d ·

I think only around 1 in 10 people get side effects from them, but I'm interested in what your favourite song is...

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4d ·

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Lydia R
4d ·

I actually have a lot of favourite songs, but 'Love Will Tear Us Apart' from Joy Division is among the very top and was playing on the radio this morning. :) What's (one of) yours?

John T
4d ·

I recommend the film: Control. It's an Ian Curtis (joy division singer) bio pic. It's really well made. I like to play Love Will Tear Us Apart on the guitar and bass.

John T
4d ·

At the moment I'm listening to a recent re-release and remaster of an album from my childhood. Radiator by Super Furry Animals. That and their first album: Fuzzy Logic would both probably make it to my top ten favourites.

Lydia R
4d ·

I know! I've seen it in the cinema and own the DVD, but also have to say that it's not an easy film to stomach. Many of my fav films are awfully sad and I can only watch them once bc I know what they cause in me and it's too painful.

Esther B
4d ·

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Esther B
4d ·

Joy Division!

Lydia R
4d ·

I'm not sure if I know them or not, but I've probably heard some of their songs on the radio without realising it. Any song recs to start with?

John T
4d ·

Sometimes sad situations can be made funny. One of my favourite films is Dr Strangelove, which takes nuclear war and the end of the world and turns it into one of the most darkly funny things you will ever see.

Lydia R
4d ·

Yeah, Joy Division! :D 'Let's dance to joy division And celebrate the irony Everything is going wrong But we're so happy' Could be our hymn, really.

John T
4d ·

It's an old Krubrick film from the 60s but holds up really well. It's in black and white like Control is.

Lydia R
4d ·

Scratch the love and I'm thinking about a very different film. haha sorry You're right though, I'm just a sucker for right-in-the-guts-feeling-films. A single man is one of them. Not sure I could watch it a second time even though it's brilliant.

Lydia R
4d ·

I'm more affected when it's single fates than the whole of humanity. Couldn't care less about the world, but damn why did his husband have to die in the car accident, or why is this love destined to fail? Guess I can empathise more with individuals.

John T
4d ·

With Super Furry Animals, it's hard to single out songs, it can be simple pop like 'She's Got Spies' and 'God! Show me magic!' or something darker like 'Down a different river' 'Download' 'Hometown unicorn' or 'mario man'.

Lydia R
4d ·

I'll definitely write it down and see where I can find it. Sounds interesting. Thanks! :)

Lydia R
4d ·

Just checked my radio station's playlist and they do play SFA. Told ya.

John T
4d ·

I'd recommend a film called Submarine directed by Richard Ayoade. It's not sad but it's a well made film about young love and it's quite artful in the way it's filmed

Lydia R
4d ·

Definitely sounds like something I could like. I really have to watch more films again so thanks for the recs (and keep them coming if you have more)! :D

John T
4d ·

I don't want to keep making people's notifications add up but... Amelie, The Double (2014), Spirited Away, What we do in the shadows, Catterick (tv series).

John T
4d ·

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Lydia R
4d ·

It's just yours, mine, Zoe's and Esther's, and I'm sure they don't mind, but I understand you. And thanks again, there are some new ones for me among them. :)

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Lydia R
10h ·

Thanks for the hugs, Pandas!

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