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0 Max T
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Mum tried to have a shouting match with me last night. I remained calm and didn't raise my voice so she ended up walking away.
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John T
2d ·

Yeah been there, Max. Well done for not shouting back. It's easily done. Once you move out things can improve. Have a think about it.

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5 Max T
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Yesterday was a ride. Had a terrible morning to late afternoon and felt like killing myself at times. Then went to the climbing wall and got a few compliments on my climbing--
Max T
4d ·

--and thanks to those compliments giving me a massive confidence boost, I was able to achieve a one-arm pull-up for the first time ever. I was over-the-moon. Climbing always cheers me up, it's a real shame I can only manage to go once a week.

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5 Max T
7d ·
Randomly feel OK today.
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2 Max T
15 Jul 2019 ·
Struggling to do anything.
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15 Jul 2019 ·

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1 Max T
12 Jul 2019 ·
Things aren't great. I haven't got the willpower that I started with.
K T
12 Jul 2019 ·

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K T
12 Jul 2019 ·

Willpower is a hard one. I struggle with mine everyday. There will always be ups and downs, try to remember that the one thing that is constant, is change. You will not always feel like this.

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12 Jul 2019 · NEW

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12 Jul 2019 ·

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1 Max T
08 Jul 2019 ·
Forgetting to update regularly again. Things aren't good. I'm a bit of a mess. Still haven't managed to tell anyone how bad it's gotten. Kinda sick of burdening people.
John T
08 Jul 2019 ·

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08 Jul 2019 ·

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08 Jul 2019 ·

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08 Jul 2019 ·

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5 Max T
01 Jul 2019 ·
Still feeling very strange but I'm alive, so that's good.
Gy G
01 Jul 2019 ·

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01 Jul 2019 ·

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3 Max T
30 Jun 2019 ·
Wrapped all actors on the film today. Feel strange. Still not feeling good overall. But got some good work done today.
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01 Jul 2019 ·

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01 Jul 2019 ·

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5 Max T
27 Jun 2019 ·
Reminding myself how nice it is that I get to shoot a film with my Dad.
Gy G
27 Jun 2019 ·

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27 Jun 2019 ·

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Albertine M
28 Jun 2019 ·

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Albertine M
28 Jun 2019 ·

That's so lovely, Max

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0 Max T
26 Jun 2019 ·
Looking back at old photos and videos. I never know how good I've got it when I've got it. Feeling horribly nostalgic right now.
Jeff M
26 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
26 Jun 2019 ·

We live in the past (through memories) and future (through anticipation or anxiety). That's a good reminder to appreciate the present more.

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26 Jun 2019 ·

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28 Jun 2019 ·

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0 Max T
25 Jun 2019 ·
Feeling very hollow of late. Not sure who I am.
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25 Jun 2019 ·

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25 Jun 2019 ·

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25 Jun 2019 ·

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3 Max T
23 Jun 2019 ·
Filming was great today. Very productive day. Looking forward to more editing next week
John T
24 Jun 2019 ·

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0 Max T
21 Jun 2019 ·
I haven't told anyone I'm not ok.
Bipolar Bear .
21 Jun 2019 ·

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John T
21 Jun 2019 ·

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John T
21 Jun 2019 ·

There is genuine help out there. It takes bravery and a bit of luck to find what you need but I'd recommend trying to get it.

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21 Jun 2019 ·

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21 Jun 2019 ·

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21 Jun 2019 ·

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Ian D
21 Jun 2019 ·

We were all there at some point, make that step, even a helpline maybe if you don't feel comfortable telling people close to you.

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0 Max T
19 Jun 2019 ·
Keep running away
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19 Jun 2019 ·

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19 Jun 2019 ·

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0 Max T
16 Jun 2019 ·
Over the last few months I've noticed I've been disociating less and less. I'm spending a lot of time with friends lately and I think that's the reason why. --
Max T
16 Jun 2019 ·

-- But still when I'm home, like now, my mood is rock bottom and I just crave an escape from it all. I hate coming back to all this, I shouldn't have to. But changing the situation taking way longer than I thought it would. --

Max T
16 Jun 2019 ·

-- I'm avoiding some big problems in my life. Main one being explaining the trauma from my childhood to my family.

Jenny D
16 Jun 2019 ·

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Max T
16 Jun 2019 ·

-- Which naturally I'm terrified of doing because it's been almost 20 years since all that bull*** happened. I'm worried someone will think I'm making it up. I used to lie a lot as a child, literally about anything. --

Max T
16 Jun 2019 ·

-- I lied because I was terrified of the truth.

Max T
16 Jun 2019 ·

Sorry this has turned into a ramble of nothingness

K T
16 Jun 2019 ·

Do you have to explain the trauma of your childhood to your family? When I tried to do that, my family barely understood. They continue to be oppressively controlling. I realised what I really had to do, was come to a place of acceptance and

K T
16 Jun 2019 ·

understanding myself and to gain some physical distance from them which has helped me become more independent - financially and more important emotionally. I have more privacy and space and I can protect my decisions/my lifestyle from their

K T
16 Jun 2019 ·

continual influx of unwanted opinions and advice, and/or criticism. I also feel more comfortable exploring romantic relationships away from their inspection and pressure. I have space to breathe in short.

K T
16 Jun 2019 ·

Take home point - I thought I needed them to understand the effect my childhood had had on me, when really what I needed was to understand and accept it myself and learn how to change MY behaviour and habits so as not to perpetuate the codepency.

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16 Jun 2019 ·

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0 Max T
12 Jun 2019 ·
The pressure of post-production is really getting to me. I do not feel good at all. Really anxious, really stressed, really scared, worried, I don't want to give up but I don't know how to carry on.
Jeff M
12 Jun 2019 ·

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13 Jun 2019 ·

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2 Max T
10 Jun 2019 ·
Was pretty miserable this morning. Still not feeling so great now. Went to the beach with some friends for a while though, so that was nice
Gy G
10 Jun 2019 ·

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10 Jun 2019 ·

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11 Jun 2019 ·

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11 Jun 2019 ·

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3 Max T
09 Jun 2019 ·
I did a 10k obstacle course today in lots of mud. Completed the course in an hour. Didn't train specifically for it so I'm quite pleased. Still not feeling great. Still stressed. Still worried. Sad.
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10 Jun 2019 ·

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10 Jun 2019 ·

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John T
10 Jun 2019 ·

Well done. Great time

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0 Max T
05 Jun 2019 ·
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06 Jun 2019 ·

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06 Jun 2019 ·

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3 Max T
04 Jun 2019 ·
Had a cry in the bath. Haven't cried in months, so I was well overdue.
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04 Jun 2019 ·

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05 Jun 2019 ·

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