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1 Max T
2d ·
So I've managed to half solve one problem with my film There's still stuff to sort and fix but I'm more calm now Probably because I'm drunk. I'm never managing a film project on my own again. I'm dead
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0 Max T
3d ·
Got a massive problem with my film project that right now I have no idea how to solve. Begging for something to go right for once. Really don't know what I'm gonna do.
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0 Max T
4d ·
I haven't been sober for more than four evenings in a row since the beginning of August. Probably means I'm an alcoholic right? I wish I could sleep better. My life is a ***ing mess.
Vanessa V
4d ·

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Vanessa V
4d ·

Alcoholism takes many forms. If you feel like you can't control yourself and can't function without it, it might be an addiction. It's doesn't have to be forever though and keep in mind that alcohol is terrible for your sleep. Don't give up.

Robert H
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Alicia B
3d ·

Vanessa is right, it can be that or just a phase. I hope it's the latter.

Cindy M
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0 Max T
4d ·
I haven't been sober for more than four evenings in a row since the beginning of August. Probably means I'm an alcoholic right? I wish I could sleep better. My life is a ***ing mess.
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2 Max T
5d ·
Just got up. It's 12pm. Not great. Got a friend coming round later though. Doing work yesterday was stressing me the *** out.
John T
5d ·

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John T
5d ·

It's the weekend, allow yourself to do something relaxing.

Kym S
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1 Max T
6d ·
I feel like what I got ain't real.
Cindy M
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2 Max T
12 Sep 2018 ·
My head's been all over the place today. But I got a few things done so that's something. Worried that my film project's gonna fall apart. Things outside of my control keep going wrong. Not managing.
Alicia B
12 Sep 2018 ·

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Alicia B
12 Sep 2018 ·

Ugh… I sort of know the struggle. Keeping fingers crossed for you.

Robert H
12 Sep 2018 ·

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0 Max T
10 Sep 2018 ·
Was meant to get stuff done today. Really don't think I'm gonna manage anything productive though.
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10 Sep 2018 ·

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10 Sep 2018 ·

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0 Max T
08 Sep 2018 ·
My eyes sting and my brain hurts. Today has been too up-and-down. Burnt myself out from all this film work. But I can't stop or it won't get done. I'm exhausted but I can't stop. Want to cry but can't
A T
08 Sep 2018 ·

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09 Sep 2018 · NEW

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09 Sep 2018 ·

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Manda P
09 Sep 2018 ·

Do you have a friend or family member you can talk to? If not, think about calling a helpline. Such low scores for such a long time is really not good.

Lydia R
09 Sep 2018 ·

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Max T
09 Sep 2018 ·

Talking really doesn't help like it used to, sadly. It never makes me feel any better anymore.

Manda P
09 Sep 2018 ·

What about a journal? Or do you have any hobbies you can distract yourself with? I know that can only help so often but it's better than nothing. Hope things look up soon.

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0 Max T
08 Sep 2018 ·
Didn't sleep well. Had terrible dreams. Feel absolutely crap.
Penelope P
08 Sep 2018 ·

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1 Max T
07 Sep 2018 ·
Drunk. But at least I'll likely sleep better tonight. Feeling lonely as usual.
Johnny gonzales J
07 Sep 2018 ·

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07 Sep 2018 ·

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Cindy M
08 Sep 2018 ·

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08 Sep 2018 ·

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Max T
08 Sep 2018 ·

Didn't sleep better. Might even have slept worse. Can't really tell anymore. All the nights blur into one.

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0 Max T
07 Sep 2018 ·
First night last night where I wasn't drunk going to sleep in about three weeks, I think. So naturally I didn't sleep well at all. Feel pretty dead right now. Why can't I sleep properly?
Robert H
07 Sep 2018 ·

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Alicia B
07 Sep 2018 ·

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Alicia B
07 Sep 2018 ·

I think mental illness or even plain stress affect sleep every time.

Cindy M
07 Sep 2018 ·

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0 Max T
05 Sep 2018 ·
Lost confidence in my film project. Feel all over the place. Zero positivity. Lonely. Can't manage all this *** on my own.
John T
05 Sep 2018 ·

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John T
05 Sep 2018 ·

Just a blip, Max. You'll bounce back. Give it time, and the effort will pay off by the end.

Occamy S
05 Sep 2018 ·

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Alicia B
05 Sep 2018 ·

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Alicia B
05 Sep 2018 ·

You'll do great, I'm sure. Big hugs. believe in you. Film projects are frustrating af though.

Cindy M
05 Sep 2018 ·

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0 Max T
04 Sep 2018 ·
Found out a friend passed away this morning. It was only last week I was performing in a play they'd written. They will be missed greatly.
Robert H
04 Sep 2018 ·

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04 Sep 2018 ·

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04 Sep 2018 ·

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Jeff M
04 Sep 2018 ·

Sorry for the loss of your friend. :(

Cindy M
04 Sep 2018 ·

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3 Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·
Calmed down significantly. Allowed myself to play a video game to take my mind off things. Then refocused on what little work I could get done after a couple of hours.
Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·

Still feel crap but at least I got something mildly productive done.

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03 Sep 2018 ·

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Cindy M
03 Sep 2018 ·

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Cindy M
03 Sep 2018 ·

Mildly productive is good!

Lydia R
04 Sep 2018 ·

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Anna D
04 Sep 2018 ·

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Anna D
04 Sep 2018 ·

It's a good idea to have a small pause from time to time :)

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0 Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·
I am not managing this stress at all.
Ida T
03 Sep 2018 ·

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03 Sep 2018 ·

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03 Sep 2018 ·

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Anna D
03 Sep 2018 ·

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Anna D
03 Sep 2018 ·

I hope it'll be better soon.

V R
03 Sep 2018 ·

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John T
03 Sep 2018 ·

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03 Sep 2018 ·

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0 Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·
I can't manage the work I have to do today as I'm already making mistakes. But allowing myself to postpone the work till tomorrow is going to make me feel even worse--
Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·

But if I continue to do the work, I'm just going to continue making mistakes because of the state I'm in. Either way I'm gonna have a terrible day. I'm so sick of being me.

Jimbob W
03 Sep 2018 ·

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Maite P
03 Sep 2018 ·

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Noel L
03 Sep 2018 ·

Hang in there Max. These are awful days when all the choices seem bad. Can you pick the least bad choice and commit to it?

Lydia R
03 Sep 2018 ·

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03 Sep 2018 ·

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0 Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·
Just sent a personal email to my therapist from the wrong email account. I'm a ***ing moron.
Maite P
03 Sep 2018 ·

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Noel L
03 Sep 2018 ·

Just an email and an easy mistake to make. Can you be gentle with yourself?

Lydia R
03 Sep 2018 ·

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Anna D
03 Sep 2018 ·

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Anna D
03 Sep 2018 ·

I don't think it's something bad... If the e-mail account has any importance, you can maybe write to your therapist to explain him what you did.

Cindy M
03 Sep 2018 ·

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0 Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·
I feel pathetic. Slammed a draw in the kitchen because someone used all my peanut butter and it set off my OCD. Ended up smashing a jam jar, and now I can't clean it up because of my fear of glass.
Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·

I hate how something like this can trigger me so badly. It's just, if I know what's there and available to eat, I don't have to stress and worry about it when I come to make food--

Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·

If I have to decide what to eat after realising there's not what I thought was available sometimes I just end up not eating at all because the stress is too much.

Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·

My family know I have panic attacks over things like this, and yet they still behave the way they do. Shame they'll never take those panic attacks seriously. Maybe they would if I was dead.

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03 Sep 2018 ·

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Maite P
03 Sep 2018 ·

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Noel L
03 Sep 2018 ·

Max are you getting professional support via your GP or local mental health service. OCD is really tough is not managed well.

Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·

I am getting professional support. Just not enough.

Lydia R
03 Sep 2018 ·

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03 Sep 2018 ·

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1 Max T
03 Sep 2018 ·
Have a bunch of stuff to get done today, and it's going to stress me the *** out as soon as I start. Woke up an hour late. Haven't eaten yet. Not managing very well.
Maite P
03 Sep 2018 ·

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