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5 Max T
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Got quite a few jobs to get done before Wednesday. Feeling OK. Definitely because I've got weed again. It's amazing how a small amount before sleep improves my mood tenfold in the morning.
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5 Max T
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Had a great show on Saturday. But also previously I had received news that my friend who's been struggling with cancer wont make it to the end of the year. Still haven't got over that yet. Baked now.
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0 Max T
5d ·
Nope, not gonna be able to sleep. Alcohol it is. *** my pathetic existence.
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1 Max T
5d ·
Will I ever feel tired enough to sleep at the end of the day without the use of alcohol or weed? I don't know. Doesn't seem like I ever will right now.
Max T
5d ·

Maybe the UK will one day legalise it so I wouldn't feel so bad about needing it to manage my mental health but that's not now. Just hate that people shun a medicine that actually ***ing works for me.

Max T
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Yet they're ready to accept me taking antidepressants that *** me over in the long term, and cause more harm than good.

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2 Max T
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Friend came round today to help with prop making. Then we went for a nice walk up a mountain. Then came home and was emotionally assaulted by mother. She's so good at turning my days to ***.
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0 Max T
6d ·
Been lying awake in bed for hours now. My eyes won't stay shut. I just want to sleep. Mind won't shut down.
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3 Max T
6d ·
Had way too much energy today and it was very frustrating. Managed to be productive thought and started work for a prop I'm making for a show I'm in next week. Drunk now so my mood is up a bit.
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1 Max T
7d ·
Playing video games to distract myself. Feel a small bit better.
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0 Max T
7d ·
Slept in too late. Can't get out of my head. Want everything to stop.
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1 Max T
13 Aug 2019 ·
When my brain is dulled I can think clearly. Why is that?
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13 Aug 2019 ·

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13 Aug 2019 ·

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0 Max T
13 Aug 2019 ·
I don't want to be me. That's not true. I don't want to struggle like I do. Managing how I feel is too difficult. If it doesn't get any better, one day, one year, I'll go. And it'll be by my hand.
T A
13 Aug 2019 ·

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3 Max T
12 Aug 2019 ·
Did a work out and wrote some music. Got too much energy in me though and it's got nowhere to go. Wondering if I'll sleep tonight.
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1 Max T
12 Aug 2019 ·
Still in major need of a cry but feel a bit better after a sleep. Going to try and get some semblance of work done today. Failing that maybe I'll be able to tidy my room or work out.
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12 Aug 2019 ·

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0 Max T
12 Aug 2019 ·
I don't feel safe enough to cry
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0 Max T
11 Aug 2019 ·
so close to cutting myself
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12 Aug 2019 ·

I hope you can find another way (safer) to deal with your pain. Pandas are here for you.

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0 Max T
11 Aug 2019 ·
I ***ing hate myself
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11 Aug 2019 ·

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0 Max T
11 Aug 2019 ·
Haven't eaten since breakfast. Can't leave my room to make anything.
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0 Max T
11 Aug 2019 ·
Haven't felt this way in a long time. Just want everything to go away now.
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11 Aug 2019 ·

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0 Max T
10 Aug 2019 ·
Falling apart slowly. Things have got bad. Can't focus on a positive or see any silver lining. Still haven't found a way to be consistently happy. My film's ***ing up. Zero money. Don't like this...
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10 Aug 2019 ·

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0 Max T
07 Aug 2019 ·
Miscalculated my finances again. Can't afford to do anything now. Gonna have to deal with not spending any money for about two months. Unless they want to let me start work again. That won't happen.
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07 Aug 2019 ·

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