Alcoholism takes many forms. If you feel like you can't control yourself and can't function without it, it might be an addiction. It's doesn't have to be forever though and keep in mind that alcohol is terrible for your sleep. Don't give up.
Vanessa is right, it can be that or just a phase. I hope it's the latter.
It's the weekend, allow yourself to do something relaxing.
Ugh… I sort of know the struggle. Keeping fingers crossed for you.
Do you have a friend or family member you can talk to? If not, think about calling a helpline. Such low scores for such a long time is really not good.
Talking really doesn't help like it used to, sadly. It never makes me feel any better anymore.
What about a journal? Or do you have any hobbies you can distract yourself with? I know that can only help so often but it's better than nothing. Hope things look up soon.
Didn't sleep better. Might even have slept worse. Can't really tell anymore. All the nights blur into one.
I think mental illness or even plain stress affect sleep every time.
Just a blip, Max. You'll bounce back. Give it time, and the effort will pay off by the end.
You'll do great, I'm sure. Big hugs. believe in you. Film projects are frustrating af though.
Sorry for the loss of your friend. :(
Still feel crap but at least I got something mildly productive done.
Mildly productive is good!
It's a good idea to have a small pause from time to time :)
I hope it'll be better soon.
But if I continue to do the work, I'm just going to continue making mistakes because of the state I'm in. Either way I'm gonna have a terrible day. I'm so sick of being me.
Hang in there Max. These are awful days when all the choices seem bad. Can you pick the least bad choice and commit to it?
Just an email and an easy mistake to make. Can you be gentle with yourself?
I don't think it's something bad... If the e-mail account has any importance, you can maybe write to your therapist to explain him what you did.
I hate how something like this can trigger me so badly. It's just, if I know what's there and available to eat, I don't have to stress and worry about it when I come to make food--
If I have to decide what to eat after realising there's not what I thought was available sometimes I just end up not eating at all because the stress is too much.
My family know I have panic attacks over things like this, and yet they still behave the way they do. Shame they'll never take those panic attacks seriously. Maybe they would if I was dead.
Max are you getting professional support via your GP or local mental health service. OCD is really tough is not managed well.
I am getting professional support. Just not enough.