I am so very sorry for your loss :( I've never lost a close relative but I can't imagine it being easy. Try your best with some self soothing or self care ... she will always be with you even if you can't see her
I'm so sorry, Anna. This is my biggest nightmare and I can't imagine what you're going through at the moment. Sending big hugs, love and strength for this difficult time.
a little. Still feeling like I just want to scream and cry and hurt myself =/
disappointed... again. I'm afraid that again he's having so much more important things to do than spending time with me. And I'm just so tired of being sad and lonely. Past week I've had so great time with my friends. When I'm at #home2 I don't have
almost anything to do and I don't have anyone to hang out with. If I'm not with BF I'm totally alone. And that su*s.
I told that to BF and that's ok with him. Everything is always ok with him. Feels like he doesn't want me to go there. Feeks like he doesn't miss it at all.
Had ordinary day, as normal as it can possibly be. Woke up beside BF at home1, went to psychotherapy (he gave me a lift), went to coffee and knitted an hour, until I took a bus home and knitted on the bus 45 min. Walked home from the bus station,
ate porridge, went to #friend2's place and picked up some berries, came home, made dinner. #friend1 came over, we watched tv and knitted together. After she left I watched Netflix and knitted some more. DRAMA-FREE DAY! Feels odd.
Peace in quiet and calm. Sometimes the absence of big things and big feelings can feel very weird.
I found some rowan berries (I had a bucket!). I don't like them, they are too sour, but BF eats them!
And if this feels like heaven on earth, that's ok. Just trying to be myself and feel whatever I'm feeling.
Enjoy ur time together💕👌
Enjoy your day Anna, snow is pretty
Seeing winter as a new beginning is unusual, but I think I get it! I've never thought about it this way, but winter always makes me feel like a kid again, and ready for something new and amazing. Thank you for this thought!
Alicia, I've always felt this way. I think most of people feel this way when spring comes and everything starts to grow etc. I feel that autumn is 'the death' of everything and winter cleans everything up and makes room for something new.
To the all christmas-haters: they are WINTER LIGHTS, cause I say so ;)
Maybe I want to take a break with him. But I know myself good enough to know that I don't do breaks. I do break ups.
This sounds so difficult. Don't be afraid of your decision - you know what you want and will be ok
I don't do anything lightly. My behaviour and thinking is so f***ing black and white. It's being together 'happily ever after' or not being together at all. Either I love you to the moon and back or you don't exist to me. Immature, maybe, but simple.
Aspie, thanks. I know I will be ok, either way. I'm just so tired of breaking up every single one of them. But I'm also tired of not being the first on their priority-list (I mean that I don't have to be the first all the time, but...).
we'll spend the whole weekend together. At the evening I knitted and watched ice hockey from tv and now we're going to sleep. Still, I feel little lonely and sad. I have the whole world right here in this very moment. What else could I possibly need?