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6 Curtis M
19 Aug 2017 ·
Research question for a film I'm writing: does anyone have any experience with visual delusions? Seeing and talking to people who aren't there in particular
Noel L
20 Aug 2017 ·

Dont think i can help Curtis. I hope others can help your film

Sara P
20 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
20 Aug 2017 ·

nope...sorry :/

Sara P
04 Nov 2017 ·

Goodbye, Curtis...

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6 Curtis M
15 Aug 2017 ·
I'm writing a short film script about a day in the life of someone suffering from depression. Any1 have any visual metaphors to share? Abstract ways of describing how symptoms feel?
Curtis M
15 Aug 2017 ·

I want the film to be visual so there's no dialogue. The idea is to use visual metaphors to make the audience empathize with symptoms...

Curtis M
15 Aug 2017 ·

...for example, ideas I've had include: Trying to get out of bed but being physically chained to it, everyone around him is overly and annoyingly happy. Etc, any other ideas would be greatly appreciated!

Binky B
15 Aug 2017 ·

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Binky B
15 Aug 2017 ·

What about feeling like a fraud (not sure how you'd show that... Like not fitting in?), or wanting to die - perhaps gladly going to sleep in a coffin, or perhaps that could signify the 'death' of one's ambitions.

Sara P
15 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
15 Aug 2017 ·

Yessss, my depression feels like I'm laying in the coffin watching ppl living while I lay down dead yet conscious of everything.

Sara P
15 Aug 2017 ·

Also, feeling l

Sara P
15 Aug 2017 ·

Ups... Anyway, also feeling like I am thorn apart between life and death... Existing in the middle like two forces or men pulling me each on their side while I suffer.

Sara P
15 Aug 2017 ·

Aaaalso, depression for me feels like I'm not able to see my future and seeung ppl around me having lives while I live in the neverending nightmare of waking up in the same empty day.

Sara P
15 Aug 2017 ·

Don't wanna be annoying but... Sometimes it feels like being followed by someone who holds me from speaking, interacting or walking, forcing me pay all attention to him while he just keeps silently staring at me.

Love 1
15 Aug 2017 ·

Our moods are filters. So what if you have a scene and then two orbits representing the eyes panning the scene filtered in blue.

Curtis M
15 Aug 2017 ·

Wow thanks guys! Great ideas. The coffin idea is interesting, maybe a glass coffin invisible to others.

Curtis M
15 Aug 2017 ·

Love 1 I like the use of colour when presenting depression. There's a great film 'A Single Man' and the colours are very desaturated, but becomes more vivid in scenes that gives the character a reason to live

Curtis M
15 Aug 2017 ·

What do you guys think of the character being underwater? But the rest of the world is normal, so would use VFX to put a water filter over the world

Love 1
15 Aug 2017 ·

That's interesting too. one more thought. Rumination, or excessive thinking, is characteristic of depression. I would have the din of thought, the cacophony playing and contrast with, say, the sound of a bird singing. But protagonist can't hear b/c

Love 1
15 Aug 2017 ·

din of thinking is too loud.

Tasha S
15 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
15 Aug 2017 ·

I like it! Break a leg! <3

Margot L
16 Aug 2017 ·

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Alicia B
17 Aug 2017 ·

I see it as watching one's life on TV. Things happening, people talking, but in the end you are still alone in your room in front of a box.

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6 Curtis M
14 Aug 2017 ·
Hey Pandas, updated to my real name. I was quite ashamed of my mental illness when I joined MP so wanted to be more anonymous. Not the case anymore, nice to meet you all! - Curtis
Love 1
14 Aug 2017 ·

Hello, Curtis M formerly Nathan

Éva H
14 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
14 Aug 2017 ·

My fluffy looooove!

Binky B
14 Aug 2017 ·

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Binky B
14 Aug 2017 ·

Hey Curtis. That's very different from Nathan! Thanks for coming out so to speak

Margot L
14 Aug 2017 ·

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15 Aug 2017 ·

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Alicia B
15 Aug 2017 ·

Hello, Curtis. Lovely name :)

Nicola C
26 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Curtis M
10 Aug 2017 ·
Enough.
Éva H
10 Aug 2017 ·

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Éva H
10 Aug 2017 ·

..of what?

Binky B
10 Aug 2017 ·

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Margot L
11 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
12 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
12 Aug 2017 ·

Stay strong, please... ❤️

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14 Aug 2017 ·

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0 Curtis M
10 Aug 2017 ·
There's no use saying goodbye.
Kat P
10 Aug 2017 · NEW

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
10 Aug 2017 ·

Pls stay safe... Pls pls

Sara P
10 Aug 2017 ·

I am thinking bout you...

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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14 Aug 2017 ·

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0 Curtis M
10 Aug 2017 ·
If God has burdened you with so much pain, and it's a sin to take your own life away... I want no part in this game, God is a cruel, sadistic and disgusting name.
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10 Aug 2017 · NEW

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0 Curtis M
10 Aug 2017 ·
I don't long for life, I long for home. If I die, I'll no longer be alone.
Lex M
10 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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0 Curtis M
10 Aug 2017 ·
I detest this body that is a coward to pain. If I die, I might end up home again...
Lex M
10 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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0 Curtis M
10 Aug 2017 ·
Emotion is a curse on the primitive soul. Emotion is an illusion, cursing us all.
Sara P
10 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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14 Aug 2017 ·

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4 Curtis M
10 Aug 2017 ·
Enough of this dreaming that I'll live a normal life. I'm finally accepting the facts, I'm an alien on an unknown planet with no way of getting home. Gotta make the best out of the situation.
Chris R
10 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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Chris R
10 Aug 2017 ·

I have found some comfort in the realisation that I have to manage my situation rather than cure it. Not sure if that helps you, but I'm sending *Hugs* and solidarity anyway. You're not alone!

Sara P
10 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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2 Curtis M
10 Aug 2017 ·
I've been stupid and naive. Always chasing something I can't have. A lone traveler is who I am and a lone traveler is who I will be.
Margot L
10 Aug 2017 ·

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1 Curtis M
10 Aug 2017 ·
I want my tech support... :(
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10 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
10 Aug 2017 ·

I am still here for you...

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14 Aug 2017 ·

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2 Curtis M
09 Aug 2017 ·
Intense loneliness and emptiness.
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09 Aug 2017 ·

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10 Aug 2017 · NEW

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05 Oct 2017 · NEW

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5 Curtis M
08 Aug 2017 ·
Any smokers? Been feeling severely empty for the last 2 weeks, feeling a bit better now and cigarettes are now giving me nicotine rushes? I don't normally get them because I'm a regular smoker
Binky B
08 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
08 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
08 Aug 2017 ·

Maybe your body just got too sensitive... You made a break so maybe that's why...idk

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08 Aug 2017 ·

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09 Aug 2017 ·

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6 Curtis M
04 Aug 2017 ·
OY PANDAS! Im drunk.... AGAIN!
Binky B
04 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
04 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
04 Aug 2017 ·

Stay strong, honey!

Margot L
05 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
05 Aug 2017 ·

Thinking of you, my fluff...

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14 Aug 2017 ·

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5 Curtis M
04 Aug 2017 ·
I have never felt nothingness this intensely before...
Binky B
04 Aug 2017 ·

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04 Aug 2017 ·

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05 Aug 2017 ·

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14 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
04 Aug 2017 ·

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Sara P
04 Aug 2017 ·

I will help you with that... Just stay safe and we will fight it together.

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04 Aug 2017 · NEW

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04 Aug 2017 ·

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5 Curtis M
31 Jul 2017 ·
Detox day didn't start very well, had 2 beers in the morning. No plans to have any more, still feeling drained and anxious about the job I messed up on. Overeating a bit as well...
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31 Jul 2017 ·

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31 Jul 2017 ·

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Sara P
31 Jul 2017 ·

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Sara P
31 Jul 2017 ·

Stay strong! We can make it together!

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03 Aug 2017 ·

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07 Aug 2017 ·

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6 Curtis M
31 Jul 2017 ·
Hi all, sorry for worrying you. I'm safe, I took some painkillers and went into a deep sleep. I was feeling bad about the recent hiccups with work and money. Just spoken to Sara, made me feel better
Ali H
31 Jul 2017 ·

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Ali H
31 Jul 2017 ·

Glad you're ok Nathan

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31 Jul 2017 · NEW

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Sara P
31 Jul 2017 ·

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Sara P
31 Jul 2017 ·

Stay strong, love!

Jeff M
31 Jul 2017 ·

Glad you're ok! I'm glad you got a good night's sleep at least. We are all here to support you! Please talk to someone professionally before you do this again!

Jeff M
31 Jul 2017 ·

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Sara P
31 Jul 2017 ·

I agree...

Binky B
31 Jul 2017 ·

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Binky B
31 Jul 2017 ·

Yeah I agree with Jeff too.

Alicia B
31 Jul 2017 ·

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Alicia B
31 Jul 2017 ·

Yep, be careful, Panda, and try to self care a little. You deserve it, and you need it. Big hugs

Katie Rose S
31 Jul 2017 ·

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Katie Rose S
31 Jul 2017 ·

Agree with Jeff & Alicia. You need to do some stuff for you, take time to do what helps you relax. Everyone here at MP is thinking of you & sending lots of love! xxx

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1 Curtis M
30 Jul 2017 ·
14...
Jake G
30 Jul 2017 · CHIEFPANDA

Please stop immediately, Nathan. STOP. And call for emergency medical help if you need help.

Binky B
30 Jul 2017 ·

Which type of painkillers have you taken? You need to tell somebody what is going on, a friend or family member. Even if you feel fine, an overdose could still kill you. I'm not joking. So tell someone. Call an ambulance, anything.

Sara P
30 Jul 2017 ·

Pls stop... I love you... Im here if you need anything... Pls stay saf

Sara P
30 Jul 2017 ·

Call me pls... Call er... Oh... So sorry... I wish i could help more

Sara P
30 Jul 2017 ·

I swear to God if you die i won't live...

Curtis M
31 Jul 2017 ·

I'm safe everyone, thank you for all your support. Gonna have a detox day

Sara P
31 Jul 2017 ·

<3

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1 Curtis M
30 Jul 2017 ·
12... still feeling... need more...
Sara P
30 Jul 2017 ·

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Sara P
30 Jul 2017 ·

no you do not! take water, vomit, eat food and remember I love you

Binky B
30 Jul 2017 ·

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Binky B
30 Jul 2017 ·

Please STOP now. Mixing painkillers and alcohol is dangerous.

Sara P
30 Jul 2017 ·

You're purest, most beautiful person i KNOW...TAKE CARE of yourself pls

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