I'm sure you will be good looking after the kitten. I've forgotten did you collect it already or is next week sometime?
Next week. Friday. The disaster scenario is: mental health goes bad, I get psychosis or really manic or both, and I start not cleaning up after her or something... I suppose it's an incentive to stay well, but health doesn't always work like that.
If that would be the case, is there someone you could contact to help you with the cat? Or is that not possible when you're psychotic, or manic?
Those worries are valid and normal, but I'm sure the cat will be well in your flat. :)
Yeah, I've got my support workers, and family would step in and feed the cat. Thanks, I'm hoping to stay well, and looking forward so much to having some cat company.
How about a litter robot and some automatic feeders? Then you can be sure the cat is fine for a week if something happens. I am living alone with 2 cats and this gives me peace of mind just in case I have an accident on the way to work or something.
Good idea, Tuxi, sounds expensive though.. it's something I hadn't thought of, I'll look into it, hopefully it'll be cheaper than I expect.
I hope you feel better. Pets are always lovely, and make you feel less alone. I hope that's the case with your kitten. Xx
The kitten can only be good for you
Yes you should. Sorry it's lije this right now, hope your mood will improve soon. Old memories overwhelming you?
I can't really express myself... Disappointment in myself, how I feel like a disappointment to my family. Stuff like that. I've had a cry and I'm over the worst of it.
Good to read you feel a bit better. Sometimes we can feel disappointed in ourselves, but remember we all make mistakes. As long as wel,
As long as we learn from it, it is ok. As is crying. It is a self defence meganism if you feel the need to do it, just let the tears come
I feel like the light is shining straight through me, I'm not really here, I can barely put one foot in front of the other. I feel like a statue, something lacking life. Something's wrong.
That sounds horrible! Can you get help for that?
Whether or not you decide to post like this again, know that we'll be there for you if you do.
I'm sorry you feel so down. I know we feel like we're hindering our family, but know that they love you no matter what. I hope this mood passes for you soon. Lots of love. Xx
MoodPanda has either posted things multiple times or simply not posted anything even more than usual recently.
Oh no, what happened to the tree? This is really sad..
Multiple. Glad you deleted it, would have ruined your score. :)
I suppose at a 1000 years is a good innings... The reasons the tree was planted was a piece of living history, gone.
I'm finding old things from courses I've attempted and failed, years worth of pointless essays and coursework...
My brain can only cope until a certain point when it comes to education. I feel like a failure, but really it's stuff that would've been simple if my brain wasn't so broken.
Very sad about the tree!! Question yourself: did you ever need the all the stuff mentioned in the books. Probably not. Do you use some of the information you learned from these books. You probably do. So all in all you did not fail. Life is not about
Life is not about Diplomas, it is about being interested in stuff, about broadening your horizon, about ding new stuff. I don't think you are a failure at all!
Honestly, education is just one huge mess. It just focuses on grades and memorization, and not actual learning. *** the failing. Whatever you took from the classes is what matters.
I can memorise things, and can get grades without trying, but doing it everyday in a room full of others. Nope.
There are also online studies, would that help?
It's not a big priority at the moment, but it's something I'm considering for the future, Lieteke.
Hahaha, 'walk on an amazing walk' ...I'm dumb.
Great pics! How long does it take to get to this place? And can you pick a kitten or will you get one randomly?
There's only one left in the litter, but I've been told it's saved for me, it has to be next week because I need, food, toys, litter tray etc.
It was 5 minutes on the bus then a 3 hour 30 minute round walk back to the bus stop.
Can't wait for pics. 😀 How old is it?
Not sure. I want to find out her birthday when I go. I'd guess between 9 - 12 weeks.
Can't get link to work.
Oh... It DID need lower case. Noted.
Huh lower case, that's silly of us, We'll look to improve that
Lovely photos x
(I forgot to write I'd taken my tablets yesterday... but I remember taking them...)
Loved all the photos. Especially that gnarled tree. Thanks for sharing, John.
I found the subject matter difficult to write about, I feel like it's rushed, and it's not particularly good, but apart from that, I came up with something. And something is sometimes enough.
Oh wow! I will reread this in a bit, but just...thank you!
I wanted it to translate well, so it's all quite simple language, so it lacks subtlety and hidden meaning, so it's not my personal favourite.
As far as I'm aware it's the first poem about MoodPanda, so it's gonna be pretty special to me, even if you're not totally happy with it! :-)
I've just changed a line I was unhappy with. Thanks Jake, although It was another panda's idea that I should write it!
I love it!! Thank you
That is great!
Told you it was good!! I love it! Thank you for sharing. I know that can be hard.
Manda, the one we were talking about was day before's poem, but thank you none the less. I like the first one better than this because it linked two phrases I wanted in there at the start.
(The song lyrics and the last line, a quote I had made up.)
You should share the other one!
3/4 days ago 😋
Facts about me #0000001. Random thing I like: Maps. Random thing I dislike: Not being good enough at something.
Oh a cat! You must be very happy 😁
Yeah, definitely, I rated a nine earlier :-)
What a gorgeous kitty. :)
My avatar is my old cat whom I miss dearly, nixiblu. I don't know what my kitten will look like.
Yay kitty! I think Pancake is an awesome name for a cat.
I've been playing music all day in celebration until a loud song came on and my neighbour in the flat above stamped his feet hard in complaint. After a bit of a panic, I am being sheepish and very quiet now.
(The ceilings/floors are so thin! He's on the phone at the moment, 'Hi sweetheart, yeah I'm setting off in a minute...' I can hear every word... I'm a bit wary about making much noise in future, a complaint could see me thrown out of this flat.)
Woo-hoo!!!! You get to get a cat! That's awesome!
Yaaaay!! 😃 I'm so happy for you, that's really awesome news! Congrats! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
Very good😆 congrats
My school is closed 😋
I'm a bit bored 😐
Enjoy your day off Taisia!
Do some drawing or writing, or something creative. Express yourself! It's the best thing to do when you're bored, the hardest bit is just getting started.
Had some food and took my tablets. Not quite worth another full post...
Is your new avatar heralding good news on the pet front?
Nope, it's a little memorial of an old cat.
I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the poem, John! It's so beautiful. Thank you for sharing & sorry I missed it. That's what I get for playing hooky on MP!
Thanks John but I'm going back tomorrow 😥
I was learning Chinese 🐼🇹🇷
Download ChineseSkill or HelloChinese
They are awesome 😎. Really!
Psst... That looks more like the Turkish flag than the Chinese one.( 🇨🇳)
Oh I meant this one 🇹🇷
My IPod shows this one🇹🇷
Keep going though! 👍
Did you download it
Since I've been back on Facebook I'm back in touch with a few old friends. It's exciting and really sickening to be back on there because of my massive breakdown I had, which was very public and embarrassing!
I can imagine that it's scary.... the internet is scary. Just try to be wary and hopefully you'll be fine. Reconnecting with old friends is great though! :)
Specifically, one of them is my old best friend from ages 6 - 11. So that is nice.
Glad you had a good day, John. Especially connecting with such an old friend. That's wonderful.
Ahhh chiptune ❤️ I didn't know you did music otherwise I would have asked you to do my intro for the YouTube series I'm making
I use multi chip emulation, rather than real hardware and trackers, it's just easier that way, less authentic though...
Blip blip. I give it 8-bits. hehe.
Thanks for the hugs! Good review, Love 1!
best wishes, hope you manage to get some sleep
Oh no, can't even imagine what this must feel like. I hope you have it quiet dark in your flat and that it'll be over soon!
They are short lived and while it feels like hell when you have it, it's the fact they're back which is upsetting. (They come in clusters so I'm likely to get more tomorrow or the day after and off and on for a while after that. Thanks for all...
the hugs, they're much appreciated!!)
Can't you get any medication for it? Hope it will go soon, it really feels like hell. I know what you are going through. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Love taht you are still happy about Sheffield United
Sadly there's no medication that I know of.
for those that aren't aware, cluster headaches are like migraines times ten, localized to one side of the head. pain meds don't work. I know of people who use solutions that aren't legally available, I don't know this site's policy re:discussing that
Is it like a migraine? Pain behind one eye, can't bear light, noises and even thinking is very painfull? Afterwards, when it finally goes down, you feel exhausted, have to throw up, have stomach problems and you can finally pee again?
If so, I went to my gp and got medication for it. Works wonders
Like Emma R says it's worse than a migraine. It feels like someone has reached into your skull and twisted your brain like they were rinsing out a cloth. I've only ever had a very vague diagnosis of them, but I've only been to the Dr once for them.
I've had them since I was an adolescent. Sometimes they can go away for years but they come back eventually. I suspect the illegal treatment would trigger paranoia and delusions in me if it's what I'm thinking...
Sometimes how people describe cluster headaches are worse than what I experience but there are a lot of similarities in what I feel. Certainly the most painful things I've experienced, but sometimes I get less painful ones whilst having an episode.
That's what I mean with not being able to think. Go to the doctors. They might give you something for it. I now use medication and within 1 hour the pain goes away. Feel absolutely drained and exhausted afterwards, but at least I can think again
Usually good advice. These headaches don't last an hour so the medication wouldn't have time to work.
I was at the Sheffield United football stadium yesterday for a business coaching session!
Hope you're feeling better x
That recipe looks really good, John - I shall try it
Damn, that sounds good, I'm hungry now :)
The recipe looks amazing, will definitely try and do it at some point!
Ooh the noodles sound nice! I love making noodles!
I only got my wok a momth ago. I have to clean some spots of rust off it, then re season it to help it rust less.
Method: cook rice noodles, pour cold water to stop cooking. Put 5 spice, curry powder, ginger, chilli powder, soy sauce, vinegar based chilli sauce on noodles. Stir fry veg, beanspouts, and noodles adding them in that order. Serve straight away.
That sounds really tasty! And I have none of the ingredients. lol Wonder if I can make something similar in a normal pan as well.
Yeah, just make sure the pan and oil is hot.
She got ten out of ten when I tested her, and she drew a brilliant labeled picture of the solar system! I'm looking forward to walking with support worker tomorrow, will take pics if I remember my camera.
Please take pics and send us the link! You make lovely pictures (sorry am too old to understand instagram)
I'm glad you got to spend time with her like that. And, yes, pictures please! Put the on IG!
The pictures have come out very bad. There's not really ones worth sharing. I didn't take much because I kept my zoom lens on most of the time, especially when following a greater spotted woodpecker who was high up and impossible to take pictures of.
Also my lens steamed up when I first took it out, which ruin some pictures of a little hedgerow birdy.
Sorry it didn't work out. next time, please tell us when they are published!
https://flic.kr/s/aHsksQRrQK <----- I have salvaged a few photos, had to edit them a lot, so some might look a bit 'off' or unnatural.
I liked the ones you posted on IG. Just moments ago spotted a woodpecker in our backyard.
It is really beautiful out there, isn't it, nice pictures
Yay, keeping my fingers crossed for you!
Hope it will all work out! How is the pain, gone already?
Thanks Lydia. Sadly not, Lieteke, it's 4:40am and it's keeping me awake. I got some sleep, but I generally need a lot of sleep to feel ok the next day. I'll try my best though in the morning.
Fingers crossed for you xx